Traición

Part two

If I thought that I was unhappy before, then I was strongly mistaking. It was the loneliness that he left in my heart which hurt the most. Everything around me lost its taste, its colors, its meaning.

I was alone again. I never realized that I was so bitter until now. If only, if only I could have the clock go back in time, if I only I could have told him at that exact moment that everything he heard was just a lie, that I loved him, God, that I loved him more than I could ever imagine ever loving anyone.

I wiped away at the tears slowly running down my cheeks and took a large gulp of the deliciously biting whiskey. It burned a path of fire down my throat and I winced, my breath shuddering from the exhaustion of my sadness. I was sitting on my bedroom floor, legs outstretched in front of me, steadily gazing at the large antique mirror where my reflection seemed broken, dull, out of this time. Tons of magazines were sprawled around me, my picture gracing each and every single one of those covers.

I placed my glass next to my thigh and took one of those gossip lie infested articles, inspecting it with a humorless smile. "The slutty millionaire" it cried in a bold title, underneath it an even bolder recent picture of me, almost naked in a tiny bikini, draped all over a man's arm. I inspected the photo more closely and then my smile widened. I remembered him; he had told me he was an aspiring actor. I reached for my glass again, taking another big gulp.

I needed to provoke him, to make him see that I didn't miss him, that I moved on without him. I silently tipped those photographers to be able to find me in many, oh so many compromising situations. But did he return my calls, even once? No, he didn't. The only message he left was to leave him alone, and that message was delivered through a text. I hated him; I hated him so much; I suddenly swore, throwing my glass on the mirror in front of me, unable to withstand the sight of me anymore. My glazing eyes went over many of the magazine headlines "The unleashed heiress", "The girl player", "Who will she score tonight", "A series of lovers, disappointing affairs".

I rested my tired head on the bed behind me. He didn't care and why would he? It finally dawned on my senses that he never loved me. I never meant anything to him more than an unreachable woman finally giving him a chance to share her bed with him. As fun as it had been for him, it all ended when he discovered her intentions: no harm, no regrets.

I closed my eyes, gripping my nightgown closer to my shivering body. I was almost asleep when the ringing of the phone startled me. My gaze immediately went to my diamond studded wrist watch, checking the hour. It was almost midnight. Who would call at such an hour? I let the answering machine take the call as my heart pounded in my breast. Could it be him? Could it be him? My head kept on repeating as I wiped the remaining of my tears away from my cheeks. The voice that sounded startled me into getting up and staring at the phone.

"Hey, it's me. I called you now because I expected to catch you before you go to one of your outings." His deep baritone voice held a little bit of sarcasm. I gripped my nightgown tighter, rooted in place, staring at the phone as if it would at any time jump and attack me. "I was wondering…" a long pause stretched, and I wondered if he had cut the connection, until his voice sounded again, and this time, to my utter shock, I could distinguish a little drawl in it. He was drinking. "Do you still like me?"

I stared at the phone dumbfounded as he cut the connection. Never in all my years have I expected him to call me after he had, a few months ago, plainly stated that he wasn't interested, going to the extreme of causing financial damages on my company because I had merely suggested the idea.

I laughed out loud, for the first time guessing his reasons. With trembling hands, I reached for the article that made my heart ache beyond all the name lashings the yellow press was feeding me. I stared at the picture of the man who had claimed my heart walking hand in hand with a stunning brunette, both of them trying to avoid the paparazzi. A bitter smile curved my lips upward. The brunette was none other than his billionaire half-brother's ex lover. The irony of it all was that the article was today's edition.

The very next day, I walked inside the huge office of my former tormentor. I dressed smart as usual, my hair tied in a high ponytail. I was ready for anything he might say or do. I knew that this visit was standing between war and peace.

As soon as I got in, he stood from his chair, his hard golden eyes staring me down. I didn't back away, my own eyes as hard as his.

"What have you done?" he finally asked, his voice breaking with emotion. I was stunned. I did not expect that question. I was clearly taken by surprise. It was the first time Sesshumaru Taisho showed any emotion in my presence and it was deep resentment. I looked him over. He was still as handsome as ever, however, my heart did not beat for him and my breath did not hitch at hearing his voice. In fact, he left me cold, quite cold.

"What do you mean?" I answered with my own question. He couldn't know what I have done, could he? His eyes glazed over and he slammed his hand forcefully on the desk in front of him. I jumped and backed away, cautious of his extreme anger.

"You think that I still don't know?" he shouted at me before taking a magazine from his desk and throwing it at me. It fell right in front of me and I could see the same cover photo I was gazing at yesterday. I smiled slightly, still playing the innocent part.

"Oh my, isn't she that woman you used to go out with occasionally? Rin I think?"

His eyes stabbed me to the soul before he sat down again, his body tense, his arms stiff, his face settled on an ugly grimace that resembled a smile, that of a wolf.

"How perceptive kagome Higurashi." He mocked, still not inviting me to take a seat. "But would you surprise me even more by guessing who is that man holding her hand darling?"

The last word rolled off his tongue like a honey coated trap. I shrugged, still eyeing the picture.

"How would I know? Apparently he's quite intimate with her if my eyes are not betraying me."

Sesshumaru smiled at my answer, but his smile held no humor.

"Of course, how would you know him?" he answered, looking at me intently. "You have never met him before have you?"

I gulped, staring at him. He knew. Oh God he knew. What would he do now? The silence stretched between us. His eyes never left mine and I could feel the room suddenly become small, really small. Should I risk lying or should I risk the truth. It was a double edged sword.

"You really don't recognize him Kagome?"

I bit my bottom lip before leaning down and taking the magazine between my hands. I smiled, gazing at the picture. Sesshumaru knew, but I would not give him the pleasure of seeing me fidgeting in front of him. What was his business anyway with me? He was not my father, my brother, my husband or even my friend. He was nothing to me. With that conviction, my eyes snapped fearlessly to his.

"I remember him now." I answered, smiling cruelly. I could see the same cruelty reflected in his eyes.

"Really?" he asked me, leaning back on his chair. "Where would you know him from?"

I shrugged again, feigning an indifference I didn't feel at all.

"He was the architect who planned my villa. And we happened to click in bed too." I laughed, gazing at Sesshumaru's angry eyes. "Of course I remember him, he was absolutely delicious." I whispered sinfully, licking my red lips sensually.

Sesshumaru rose from his seat, circled his desk and like a predator enraged he came to stand a few hairs away from me. I had to tip my head back to maintain the eye contact.

"Delicious huh?" he whispered, his lips thin, his pupils dilated.

"Absolutely." I whispered back, never backing down. "He was a tiger in my bed."

I suddenly cried out when he gripped my forearm tightly, bringing me into contact with his hard body. I felt nothing, nothing at all.

"You did it for me didn't you?" he asked, searching my eyes. "You used my brother against me and then you discarded him huh? Broke his naïve little heart? Was he my substitute?" he shook me again, his eyes never leaving mine. "Did you compare him to me when you were in bed with him? Did he measure up to your standards?"

I refused to answer, my eyes squinting to avoid the sudden tears.

"Let me go." I ordered but he just laughed.

"Do you really want me to let you go?" he whispered near my ear, his breath caressing my hair. "All of this just for me. I am flattered little cat, really flattered."

I pushed away from him, hating the way he laughed. It was for him, but only at the beginning. Then, I learnt to love Inuyasha, to love him as I have never loved anyone before.

"You flatter yourself." I answered back. "I saw him and I wanted him, that's it. You have nothing to do with it." I answered venomously. "The world does not rotate around you Sesshumaru Taisho. I just came here to understand what you meant by your question yesterday. Obviously you were too intoxicated to even remember what you said. I am leaving; it was not nice at all, meeting you again."

Proud of my speech and wanting to get the hell out of there I turned around just in time to watch the door automatically close, the lock clicking in place. Stupefied, I turned back to Sesshumaru, seeing the small device in his right hand.

"I didn't tell you to leave now did I?" he asked suddenly serious. "Because of your stupidity, Inuyasha is now getting back at me."

I nodded, my eyes wide with anger.

"I see, so that's what is driving you crazy. The idea of him, touching your precious Rin. Now let me tell you something. I want you to leave me out of this. You two are brothers fighting over the same toy. Good luck, I'll be cheering you on from a distance. Now open the damn door or I will scream!" I panted, angry beyond belief. No one forced me to do something I didn't want to do. No one!

He shrugged, obviously not feeling threatened by the idea of me screaming.

"Go ahead, my office is sound proof."

My jaw dropped for a moment before I pulled my cell phone out of my purse, dropping the magazine.

"I am dialing my lawyer's number!" I said out of my head, all thumbs. "This is illegal! You're keeping me here against my will!" I threatened.

With a few steps he snatched the phone from my hand. I screamed this time.

"What is your problem?" I exclaimed, tears in my eyes. "What do you want from me? Am I not punished enough? Leave me alone!"

He quietly listened to me before nodding knowingly.

"Your eyes used to glow when they would land on me." He said, leaning across his desk, his head cocked to the side. "They would gleam like two precious sapphires. It used to flatter me."

This shut me up and I stared at him, not knowing what to say.

"Today, the only emotion I saw, the only time your eyes sparkled was when you saw this damn photograph of my damn brother cuddling with my damn woman!" he yelled, abandoning his relaxed stance, coming to stand in front of me. His hands gripped my forearms and he shook me roughly. I gazed back at him, tears leaking down my flushed cheeks. I was weak, oh how weak I was when Inuyasha was involved!

"Do you think I am blind?" he asked me. "It is obvious that you are in love with my brother. I know you."

I took a shuddering breath, my eyes avoiding his. I didn't want him to see the pathetic truth reflected in mine. He gripped my chin, forcing me to gaze back at him.

"Say it!" he commanded. I tried to look away but his grip on my chin became painful. "Say it! Tell me the truth! If you have the guts tell me what you feel for him! For once in your life be truthful and…"

I didn't let him continue. I couldn't take it anymore.

"Yes!" I gasped, tears running down my cheeks. I must have looked like hell, very unlike the prime picture I had for myself but I didn't care. "Yes I love him. I love him! I love him!" I repeated, sinking on my knees in front of him, my head bent forward. "And it pains me so much that he's with her!" I continued, my tears choking me. "And he doesn't care. It is like I just ceased to exist the moment he knew that I used to want you." My words were by now barely comprehensible even for me. "What do you want from me Sesshumaru? I cry myself to sleep every night!" I hid my face between my hands, trying to regain my composure. "I tried to apologize but he wouldn't hear it. I tried to get him jealous but he doesn't even remember my existence! He wants her now."

I gripped the magazine and threw it at his legs. He didn't bulge, looking down at me with an unreadable expression.

"Look at them!" I choked, trying to wipe away the tears. "I hate them. I hate them…"

It took me a long time to get a grip on myself and we stayed like that. He was standing like a damn mysterious statue and I was kneeling and sobbing at his feet. His voice suddenly interrupted my pathetic hiccups.

"It pains me too." He whispered. "Seeing them together, Inuyasha knew of my feelings for her. He knew that even though we were apart that I still loved her deeply. And he's using her to get back at me. He hates us both."

He helped me get up, wiping my tears with his own hands.

"You and I, we're both fighters." He whispered to me. "We won't let them get away with this torture now would we?"

I opened my mouth to retaliate but no words got out. He waited until I could speak.

"What could we possibly do?" I whispered huskily. "Everything we might do would make the situation even worse."

He shook his head negatively, a strange light passing though his usually cold eyes.

"We should fight fire with fire. Now, do you still like me?"

I shook my head negatively. He nodded, gripping my face between his hands.

"Good but do they have to know that?"

His words shocked me. I stepped away from him, my mouth slightly open.

"I don't understand. Do you want them to think that I still like you?"

He nodded, smiling slightly.

"Yes, but this time, I will like you back."

"You are wrong Sesshumaru. They don't care about us. They wouldn't even bother to gossip about us."

He smiled again.

"Oh my naive little cat. What do you know about men? I know that you dated a lot of them but the only semi relationship you had was with Inuyasha. He was the only man for you. So listen to a more experienced person. He's angry. He's very angry to the point that he is willing to fight dirty and go out with Rin. Angry is good because now, he would be calmer. It is time to make him taste what jealousy is really like."

I shook my head negatively, refusing his words.

"No. if I have learnt something, it is that playing with love is dangerous. I don't want to hurt him, and I don't want to hurt myself anymore. I can't take another blow." My hand went to my heart, gripping it through the material of my shirt. "I just can't."

"You can and you will." He answered firmly. "If you really love him, you would try to get him back. Let him think that by letting you go, he gave you the opportunity to be with me. Let him lose his head thinking this over and watch what will happen next."

We got out of the night club holding hands, walking fast. Flashes of cameras were almost blinding us and I had to grip Sesshumaru's hand tighter in order to get to the car safely.

"Kagome! Kagome! Look over here! Kagome!" they shouted, following me closely. The story of my dating the billionaire Sesshumaru Taisho had gone viral. A picture of us together or a statement about our relationship was all they needed to start their infernal gossip.

"Sesshumaru! Mr Taisho! What is the nature of your relationship with Higurashi? Are you two dating? Is there a wedding in the air?"

Questions were thrown at us from all the sides as his bodyguards did their best to get us through. As we reached his limousine, he stopped and faced the crowd of paparazzi, arrogant as ever. He slipped his arm around me and pulled me flush towards him.

"Please, kagome and I would appreciate your discretion. We would like to explore our relationship without the hindering of the media."

His words seemed to start a world war three. The car was surrounded as we got in and the bodyguards were left behind trying to control the mayhem he caused by his statement as his driver accelerated. In the silence of the car as we got away I looked at his handsome profile. He turned his head and gazed at me, laughing slightly.

"I think that by tomorrow everyone will know for sure about us."

I sighed, resting my head on the window, looking at the flashing of trees we're passing.

"I feel that this is a mistake." I whispered. "The dancing together, the laughing together, the sitting together, all this togetherness. I don't know. It feels so wrong."

I closed my eyes, reliving this night. As soon as we had got inside the night club, Sesshumaru gave me his undivided attention. He danced with me slowly, sensually. He caressed my face as if we were the best lovers. He laughed at my words and in his eyes I could see the same pain reflected in mine. We were both in love with different people.

He dropped me in front of my newest apartment, reminding me before I left that tomorrow we had a charity drink to attend together. I slipped out of my fabulous dress as soon as I got inside and dropped my heels, sitting on the nearest sofa and rubbing my abused toes.

I was startled by the ringing of the phone. It must have been Sesshumaru, giving me more instructions on how to deal with our situation. Sighing loudly, I picked up the receiver. My ears were still ringing from the loud music inside the VIP lounge.

"Yes Sesshumaru? Have you forgotten something?" I whispered into the phone, too exhausted to even stand. He had really sucked away all of my energy and I was left tired.

"So you finally achieved your goal." A husky voice answered. My heart slammed twice in my chest before I answered.

"I…Inuyasha?" I whispered, his voice shaking me all over. He laughed a deep ugly laugh that I didn't use to hear from him.

"Oh, you still remember my name?" he asked mockingly, his tone rough with anger. "I thought that now that you have reached my brother, you wouldn't even remember me."

I shook my head negatively, my eyes brimming with tears.

My voice shook, my words half swallowed by my anguish.

"Of course I wouldn't forget you I tried to contact you for so long, I wanted to…"

"To apologize?" he interrupted me cruelly. "Really darling? Do you really think that I would want your apology? I want something else from you."

Afraid to know the answer, I remained silent, my eyes wide, and my mouth wobbling with suppressed tears.

"Are you still with me?" he asked rudely. "I know that you're not usually the brightest person in the room, but I think you would understand my words. I want something really bad from you."

"What do you want?" I whispered, already knowing the answer.

He laughed, his words before hanging the phone ringing in my head over and over again.

"I want to take you to hell."

We moved into the crowded area, chatting with people we knew and people we didn't know. It was a surprise for everyone, my relationship with Sesshumaru. He was the guest of honor, all arrogance and coldness. I didn't tell him about the phone call I received from Inuyasha last night for I feared that Sesshumaru could hurt him. I was aware that the young billionaire standing next to me was hating his bastard half brother more with each passing second for Rin was also invited to this ball and she had brought Inuyasha as her date. My eyes glided again to the object of my affections. Had last night really happened? Did he really talk to me? His whole attention was centered on Rin who was looking amazing, chatting with her elite friends.

He didn't even acknowledge my presence. Did he see me? Didn't he call me yesterday? I felt a hard nudge on my side and I turned to see Sesshumaru staring at me intently.

"Stop staring before you attract attention to yourself. You should be focusing on me not on him. Do you want to feed his ego more than it is already fed?" he whispered hotly in my ear before kissing the spot right under my ear. My eyes immediately snapped to the other couple and for the first time I caught Inuyasha's look at us. It was a look of anger, of disgust and on top of it all it was a look of betrayal.

The look only lasted a second and I thought that maybe I imagined the whole thing for the next moment he was already focused on Rin, beautiful young Rin, wearing a magnificent blue gown with golden laces. Oh God, I suddenly felt sick in my form fitting black gown. I looked like a scarlet woman with my long black hair, piercing icy eyes while she looked like a young harmless dove.

Feeling suddenly like I was suffocating I excused myself from Sesshumaru's side and headed directly towards the balcony. I opened the doors, and went beyond the balcony to the dimly lit garden. The music was left behind me as well as the chaos, the laughter, the acting. I used to like it, to like this ambiance of jealousy, I used to like the games we played, and I used to like the game of hearts but now…

I sighed and I sat down on the nearest bench, totally exhausted. The air was slightly chilling and I hugged myself closely. My dress was a gift from Sesshumaru, chosen to entice. All black, with a plunging neckline and a low back. My lipstick was red, a contrast with the darkness of my hair. I knew that I was beautiful as usual but for once it gave me no satisfaction. For once I didn't see myself as the most beautiful woman in the room. Rin was more beautiful, more innocent in the blueness of her gown.

I sighed again. If I told the truth, if I said that the only man I had ever shared intimacies with was Inuyasha and only Inuyasha they would laugh at me and call me a liar. I was the slutty millionaire; I was the play girl who scored in bed as many times as she changed dresses.

"It is not your habit to over think." A deep voice came from behind me, startling me from my solitude. In the darkness I saw a silhouette that I recognized beyond any other one. He sat right next to me and the first thing I smelled was his cologne. How it smelled delicious to my senses. I stared at him. Oh how I had missed him, missed his eyes, his smile, and his face, his everything.

"Staring at me like that, one would think that I mean something to you. But we both know that this isn't the case now is it? You are quite the deceptive girl aren't you Kagome?"

I opened my mouth to retaliate but I couldn't speak. What would I say? What can I say to defend myself? All what he said was true. I did use him. I did pretend that I wanted him when I wanted his brother. But all that was in the past. Now, now all I felt for him was love. But I knew him, I knew my tiger. He would never believe me. He would never hear me out.

"Even if I answered your question you would not believe would you?" I answered, sighing heavily. Sesshumaru was wrong if he thought that this game we were playing would benefit us. We only dug ourselves more in the mud.

"Of course I wouldn't believe you." Inuyasha replied, smiling hypocritically. "You're quite an accomplished slut. I have no chance in defending myself against your deceit." He turned around, facing me fully. "But what's rendering me really curious is why you would still act and look at me like you are doing right now, as if you still love me. Tell me why?"

I shook my head negatively, staring at the distance. He would never forgive me. I knew that now.

"What a change you've been through Kagome, can't you even lie anymore with that pretty mouth of yours? Or am I not worthy of your lies anymore?"

His words were out of anger and I knew it. I moved to stand, almost getting away before he gripped my wrist forcefully, pulling me towards him. I cried out as I landed unto his lap in a heap, my eyes wide open. His hand gripped my face, forcing me to meet his stare. Never was he forceful with me, never had he hurt me before. Did I lose him totally and completely? Do I mean nothing to him anymore?

"Let me go!" I exclaimed, trying to get up, but he pulled me again, controlling my movement, pinning me against his frame. I could feel him breathing against my skin. Temptation took over me and I struggled to get away before I did something to humiliate myself. He struggled against me, bringing my face close to his. Up close, I could see the brown ring surrounding his golden eyes, I could feel a few strands of his silken hair fall on my shoulder, I could feel his breath tickle my nose, and I could see his black eyelashes and his brows knit together in anger.

"What's wrong?" he whispered harshly in the distance. "What? We cannot play anymore? Is Sesshumaru possessive over you? Won't he share you with his little brother?"

His words shocked me and my hand immediately slapped him hard across his face. This seemed to make his anger explode as he gripped my face and kissed me hard on my lips, almost bruising me. I didn't want his kiss to be a punishment in anger, I didn't want him to hate me, I didn't want him to kiss me with hatred. So I struggled, refusing his kiss, pressing my lips together. He finally pulled away from me, his eyes wide open, his breath labored.

"You prefer Sesshumaru's kisses don't you? Why don't you pretend that I am him? You always did that before." He murmured harshly against my ear. "You vixen! You're dressed like a whore. What are you? Sesshumaru's whore right now? Does he amuse himself in watching men lose their minds in your body? Did he satiate his desire in you like I did?"

I trembled at his words, bile closing my throat. How dare he? I was Kagome Higurashi! How dare he humiliate me? Like as if he cared! He didn't. He just hated the idea of me being with his brother. At that moment I lost my mind.

"Why would it bother you?" I answered in my most arrogant voice, forcing my body to relax in his lap. "Doesn't Rin care for your needs enough tiger?"

His eyes darkened at the nickname I used to call him by in bed and he shook me, bruising my arms.

"Don't mention her, she's nothing like you slut."

My voice trembled with frustration, with hurt and beyond all with wounded pride.

"Why? If she was woman enough for you, I wouldn't be sitting on your lap right now would I?"

His lips thinned and pressed together as we gazed at each other in challenge.

"I hate you." He finally whispered and his words wounded me more than he would ever imagine. "I saw your face on all those magazines. I wonder why Sesshumaru still wants you after you got dirty with all these men. You're disgusting, repulsive. You are an abomination amongst other women and I just cannot stand the thought of me being the first one who taught you the art of seducing men you whore."

When he finished speaking, we were both breathing very hard, and I trembled in his arms. I felt him tremble too but I wasn't sure if it was just my imagination.

"Then why did you follow me?" I whispered back, my face inches away from his.

"I wanted to prove to myself that you mean nothing to me anymore."

"And what did you discover?" I asked looking at him intently. A few seconds of silence passed before he pushed me away from him, making me fall on the grass beneath us. He then got up and stared down at me, a smirk gracing his lips. He wiped his mouth with the back of his hand, clearly disgusted.

"I proved myself right. You mean nothing to me. You're just a bitch I used to think myself in love with."

I was about to retaliate when Sesshumaru's voice sounded from behind him. We both turned to see Taisho step next to me and pull me up against his side. I saw Inuyasha's lips tighten even more.

"I am glad you feel this way brother. I was afraid that you still had feelings for my darling."

Inuyasha took a few steps back, looking at both of us as if we were the most disgusting couple in the world. I gripped Sesshumaru's dinner shirt tightly, hiding my face in his shoulder, not wanting Inuyasha to see my tears. Sesshumaru kissed the top of my head before turning towards his younger brother.

"I don't know which one of you is more disgusting. You, my own brother or she, that vixen who played me to reach you. I cannot believe that her trick worked. I knew that you were approving of her pervert behavior. You two repulse me. I feel like throwing up just by seeing the both of you together! I hope you two rot in hell!"

Sesshumaru pushed me behind him and stepped towards Inuyasha, his hands balling into tight fists.

"If so, then stay away from Kagome or I will break your face."

Inuyasha laughed at his threat, taking off his dinner jacket and rolling up the sleeves of his white shirt.

"Really big brother? Maybe you should try to break my face yourself, I am ready for you. Or are you not man enough to defend yourself. I kissed her right under your nose and she enjoyed it. Of course she would, she's a slut. What would you do now?"

I gasped and gripped Sesshumaru's shoulder tightly. I didn't want him to hurt Inuyasha! Inuyasha was only talking out of hurt. He didn't mean anything he said! He didn't!

"Please Sesshumaru!" I begged him and I felt his body loosen up a little. "Come one let's go."

"Yes Sesshumaru please go." Inuyasha laughed, looking at both of us. "I think that I should leave as well. Rin is getting really bored. She needs a little private attention from me."

I immediately felt Sesshumaru's body tense again, his eyes zeroing on his younger brother threateningly.

"What does it feel like darling?" Inuyasha asked, looking at me. "What does it feel like that the man you're with is probably imagining another woman instead of you? You should work extra hard tonight to keep his attention focused."

I shook my head negatively, knowing that my tiger was spoiling for a fight.

"Come on Sesshumaru" I said pulling him towards the balcony doors, towards the party. "Come on, it's not worth it."

"You're right." Sesshumaru finally answered, turning to leave with me.

"Now I know why Rin left you and came on to me. She wants a man, a real man, not a little puppy guided by a pretty whore."

As soon as these words left Inuyasha's mouth, I knew that I could do nothing anymore to hold him back. In a few seconds the two men were rolling on the grass, throwing punches and cursing on top of it all. I screamed, trying to separate them but not knowing where one ended and the other began.

The fight attracted a huge crowd, everyone moving from inside the huge ballroom to the dark garden. I saw Rin run towards them, screaming for them to stop while I stood fidgeted in my place, not knowing what to do.

"What did you do to make them kill each other?" she yelled at me, her eyes welling with tears. She hugged her friend as she watched the fight horrified. I shivered when I felt several flashes lighten the darkness of the garden. Of course, of course pictures would be taken. I felt empty. Inuyasha was right; I was a slut, a whore, a vixen. I should be shot. I was the source of this fight. I was the reason why Inuyasha was so disgusted; I was the one who caused the problems between Rin and Sesshumaru, pushing her to leave him by making her doubt our relationship. I was a she devil, a scarlet woman.

My eyes empty till now suddenly saw a man stepping towards the two quarreling men. Sesshumaru's bodyguard, I immediately recognized him. He pushed the two men away with the strength of his own hands and turned towards Inuyasha, his hand curled in a punch. No, he would hurt him, he would hurt him! I didn't know that I said the words out loud until I found myself without even knowing how standing between them, shielding Inuyasha with my body.

I heard Inuyasha yell for me to move away before I felt a searing pain as the punch landed on my stomach. My breath left my chest in one shocking moment and I tasted blood in my mouth. It was too painful for me to handle, just too painful. The last thing I saw was the man's horrified expression before everything went black and the pain accompanied me into unconsciousness.

I finally signed the release from the hospital three days later. I only sustained minor injuries, bruises to the stomach and a little bit of pain. I sighed heavily, staring at Sesshumaru standing right next to me, his face cold, and his body stiff.

"I'll kill him." He whispered as we got into his sports car. I shook my head negatively, not bothering to answer. He leaned over me, pulling my seat belt away from my injured stomach, rearranging my position.

"That bastard." He continued his rating, driving rather dangerously. "The things he dared to say to me. And you, you just stood there defending him like a helpless puppy in love!"

I closed my eyes, not wanting to hear the same things he kept repeating for me for the last three days I spent hospitalized.

"And to think that he dared come visit you the next day. 'I want to check up on her' he had dared to say!" Sesshumaru exclaimed, hitting the steering wheel with his right hand. "Of course I didn't let him in. that useless arrogant worthless bastard!" he continued, his eyes no longer cold but blazing with a fire I never saw there. "Oh but I told him the truth, I told him that you would rather die than receive his visit. Imagine Kagome; imagine that he told me to go to hell.

"He's quite harmless I assure you." I whispered, staring at the road. "He never meant the things he said. He was just angry that's all."

Sesshumaru pulled the car, staring at me incredulously.

"Are you defending him?" he asked. "Are you trying to justify what he did? You went to the hospital for God's sake! Your stomach is all black and blue because of him. And you sit here, daring to defend him!"

"Please Sesshumaru, please, I only want to go home. I am so tired."I murmured, leaning my head back, the effect of the pain killers wearing off.

"Fine." He answered firmly. "But Inuyasha will regret what he has done. In fact he already did." He smiled cruelly, getting the car moving again. Alarmed by his sudden smile, forgetting all about my pain, I turned to him, my eyes wide open.

"Why? What did you do? Please tell me!" I begged.

The billionaire laughed, shaking his head negatively.

"Why would I tell you when I know that all you will do is defending him against all odds?"

"Please Sesshumaru tell me!" I cried out, now seriously freaked out. He glanced at me, a smile tugging his lips upwards and for the first time, I feared him.

"I burned him in the market. No one with a decent logic would dare employ him. Not if they don't want me to destroy them to the ground."

My breath hitched, a sudden anger going inside my veins. Why? Why wouldn't he leave him alone? Didn't he know that Inuyahsa loved him? Didn't he know that all he did was out of agony, out of wounded pride?

"No!" I shook my head negatively, glaring at him. "No, you have no right to pull your weight against him like that. Don't forget that he is your brother. That he is your own blood. Please Sesshumaru leave him in peace!"

He shook his head negatively, obviously not affected by my speech.

"No. it's personal now. At first he takes away Rin. I could take that. But then he tried to hurt you in my presence. Oh no, big mistake. If he doesn't know who I am yet, he will by now."

I took a deep breath.

"He didn't hurt me." I argued for the hundredth time. "Your man did. He was the one who punched me if you don't remember the facts Taisho."

"True." He replied, focusing on the road. "But you wouldn't have been hit if you were not in the way. That's why I hold him directly responsible for your injury."

The rest of the ride was silent. I knew that Sesshumaru would now take out his frustration on Inuyasha, blaming him for all his troubles. I knew that he would use me as the pretext for all of this. As I got out of the car with difficulty, I stared at him.

"It's over Taisho." I told him. "I don't want to play this game anymore."

He circled the car, coming to stand directly in front of me.

"You cannot go back now, not now when we're so close to destroying him."

I pushed him away despite my pain, angry beyond belief.

"Destroying him was never my intention! I love him! I want to be with him!"

"But you can't!" Taisho said, shaking me slightly. "You should understand that Rin and Inuyasha are no longer convenient for us! It is our responsibility to destroy them for what they have done to us. And then we should make our relationship official. We're good for each other. We're good together."

I stood there, shocked by those words.

"No, I didn't sign up for this. I don't want to destroy him. I want to be with him! You confused my intentions and for that I am sorry. Please leave me alone. It is over."

Sesshumaru nodded, moving away from me.

"You're naive Kagome. You still want him while he hates you. You've always wanted what you couldn't have."

"This is not the case Taisho. This time it is different, it really is." I whispered, watching him leave. I never wanted to hurt Inuyasha, never.

As soon as I got in inside my apartment, I kicked off my shoes and collapsed on the sofa. I didn't even bother to turn on the lights. It was starting to get dark outside and I dozed off.

I woke with a start a few hours later, my eyes going automatically to the clock. It was really dark now. I wondered what could have waked me up when I spotted a dark silhouette near the door.

I jumped in my own skin, terrified. The lights went on and I saw Inuyasha standing at the door, gazing at me calmly, silently. I put my hand on my heart, too shaken up to even speak.

"I used the key you gave me before to come in. I still have it." He said in the silence, watching my every move like a hawk. So that's what must have woken me up, the sound of the door opening and closing. The first words that escaped my lips were the farthest from my mind.

"I need that key back." I whispered. He threw it immediately towards me and I caught it by reflex only, my eyes never leaving his.

"I came to check up on you in the hospital but your knight in shining armor wouldn't let me in. I believe they were your orders huh? Not wanting to see me. I can understand that."

I nodded.

"Please leave. I don't know why you've come. Maybe you need to tell me more about your feelings towards me. Your hatred, your repulsion, your disgust. You don't have to. I understand you. I don't blame you. Please leave."

Inuyasha sighed heavily and sat on the chair right across from me. He sighed again, his elbows resting on his knees. For the first time since he got in I had a really good look at him. He was wearing black jeans and a white shirt with the top loosened to show a glimpse of his golden chest. I winced internally, knowing that I looked as if a bus had hit me several times in my baby blue simple cotton dress, my hair neatly tied down.

"I am confused." He finally broke the silence.

"Confused? About what?" I asked, smiling bitterly.

"About you. Why did you put yourself in front of that hit? Were you trying to protect me?"

I laughed incredulously, not wanting him to humiliate me further more. I had to toughen up, to go back to what I used to be.

"I honestly don't remember." I lied, shrugging indifferently. "I think that in all that chaos I confused you with Sesshumaru."

His eyes, so far soft, suddenly hardened, his pupils dilating considerably.

"An old habit of yours princess." He answered rudely, getting up immediately as if my furniture was burning him.

He wouldn't believe me, even if I told him he wouldn't believe me. His heart was hard on me, closed, far away from mine.

"Princess? I thought that you now preferred calling me by other less flattering names."

He shrugged, walking towards my mini bar and pouring for himself a glass of black whiskey.

"You're obviously confused." I carried on, watching him with avid eyes. It has been a long time since I saw him so near me. I could feel him, smell him, and almost touch him. I loved him so much, oh so much.

"Not anymore. Thank you for clearing things up for me. I just wanted to know and you told me the truth." He mocked, staring at me from the corner of his eyes. "So how are things between you and Sesshumaru? I read that you two are getting serious."

I closed my eyes.

"Please Inuyasha, just leave."

"But why?" he asked innocently coming to sit right next to me. I felt like passing out. "We are just getting to know each other."

I shook my head negatively, too tired to even reply.

"What's wrong Kagome? You can discuss it with me. We're friends right?"

"Enough Inuyasha!" I cried out, getting up. I couldn't handle sitting right next to him without even touching him. "It's over between me and Sesshumaru. It's over! Are you satisfied? Now just leave me alone."

He got up, his face suddenly hard.

"Already bored of him princess?" he asked venomously. "Maybe it's over between you and my brother but it is far from over between me and you."

He gripped my forearm, shaking me roughly.

"Did you really think that I would let you live your life happily after you sullied my reputation? Did you think I was happy when your darling friend Arashi called me your toy boy? Did you think I would really let you go with it?"

His anger was not contagious and I tried to move away from him. I cried out in absolute pain when he pulled me towards him, my injured stomach colliding with his arm.

His expression panicked, and he caught me to him, gently caressing a few strands of my hair away from my face.

"What's wrong?" he asked me obviously worried. "Did I hurt you?"

I couldn't reply, feeling myself nauseated from the pain. He hugged me to him, his frame shaking.

"Why can't you speak? Did I hurt you love?"

The endearing word was too much for me and a strangled sob escaped my throat as I clung to his shoulder, crying softly. He hugged me tighter to him and when I cried out again he immediately pushed me away from him, his mouth trembling, his expression dejected.

"I am a monster. You made me a monster." He whispered as if horrified by the sudden realization. I reached for him but he stepped away as if any contact with me might hurt him. "Look what you made me into! Look what you have done to me."

He fisted his hand in his hair, absolutely miserable.

"I hate you." He whispered again. "I hate you more than you would ever know." He went to the door and I called out for him.

"No!" he cried out, his eyes snapping to mine. "You make me lose my head. I need to go; I need to go to Rin."

He opened the door and left, leaving after him the scent of his cologne and his last words.

"I never want to see you again Kagome. Never."

I sank to my knees, tears clouding my eyes.

"I love you." I whispered brokenly. "I love you Inuyasha, I love you so much."

"Are you sure?" Sango asked me, gripping my hand tightly. I nodded, kissing her on the cheek before moving away from her.

"Yes, I need this vacation. Don't cry Sango!" I begged her, hugging her tightly. "I will be back as soon as possible."

"Why won't you let me come with you?" she asked, tears in her eyes. "Why do you have to travel this far away?"

I shook my head negatively, needing her to understand.

"I need this time alone, to forget about all of what happened this year. I will be back a new person, free and happy again. Don't you want that?"

She nodded, pleased by my answer.

"Don't forget to have fun." She said waving me off as I disappeared in the huge crowd. My plane was my ticket out of my misery.

My heart beat loudly in my chest, tears sliding down my cheeks as I sat in the plane seat, the first plane going back home. The sound of Rin was still resonating in my ears, the truth of her words making me go stiff with fear.

"Inuyasha drank more and more after you left the country." She had said over the phone, startling me from my long relaxing vacation. "He was never happy. You destroyed him, you destroyed him to the point that he drove like a mad man a few days ago and had a terrible car accident."

I gasped, almost dropping the phone from my hand.

"Please tell me that he's alive." I had begged, too terrified to know the truth. When she assured he was not, sobs threatened to rip me apart. He was alive and all I could do was thank the Lord for preserving his precious life.

"But he is not well."

I froze, gripping the receiver till my knuckles turned white. I could taste blood in my mouth. I realized then that I was biting my lip to the point of drawing blood.

"What do you mean?" I whispered, sitting down on the floor of my hotel room, right where I stood. "What's wrong with him?"

She refused to answer, insisting that I should come and see for myself.

"I'll be with you as soon as possible." I assured her.

And there I was, in the earliest plane home, my heart beating loudly in my chest, praying for him the entire flight.

I arrived to the hospital the very next day, still jet legged, tired and weary, but beyond all sick with fear. I saw Rin in the corridor and I rushed towards her, begging to tell me where he is. She pointed towards a room and told me to go in. not needing her incentive, I rushed in and opened the door. My heart slammed twice in my chest when I saw him sitting on the bed, his head bandaged, three of his fingers in a cast and bruises covering his face. But above all, sitting there on the edge of his bed, looking straight at me, I knew that he was okay and I sobbed in relief, turning my back towards him, not able to hear his hurtful words now, when he was so close to death. I shivered, knowing that I could bear his torture, his disgust, his resentment but never his death. Anything but his death I could tolerate.

"Don't cry princess, I am fine. Just a few bruises."

His words were so soft that they made me turn around, my eyes wide in surprise. He smiled at me, pointing at his injured head.

"Just a mild concussion. The doctor told me that I was driving like crazy and they had to cut the car into pieces in order to get me out. The thing is love is that I don't remember having a car myself."

I stayed silent, his words sinking in slowly.

"What do you mean?" I whispered. He shrugged, smiling at me gently.

"Well the last thing I remember is that you were trying to get me a car."

I blanched, gulping nervously. The conversation he was referring to was ages ago. What did that mean? Didn't he remember what happened next?

"You're quite bronzed."He remarked gazing me over and I felt the same admiration in his eyes that he used to gaze at me with before we went to bed together. "Quite stunning as well my princess."

I stayed rooted in place, not daring to move an inch. Inuyasha laughed, shaking his head.

"Poor darling. You'll have to bear with me princess. The doctors said that I am quite shocked because of the accidents. They say that I repressed my memories. But don't worry!" he exclaimed when he saw my face go pale. "I will remember. I just need some time."

I nodded, not imagining this in my wildest scenarios. That's why Rin called me, that's why he was asking about me. He still thought himself in love of me. I should have told him the truth, I should have told him that he hated me more than life itself, I should have told him that the last words he had said were that he didn't want to see me ever again, that he hated him.

I closed my eyes for a few seconds, my decision already taken. I was Kagome Higurashi, I loved myself beyond all. I was not one to make sacrifices. I would never pass away a chance to love him for a few days. What he thought of me after he regained his memories I didn't care for. I loved him and I would take every second that life would grant me with him.

I smiled at him, letting my purse slide down my shoulder to the floor. I came to him and sat on his lap, taking his injured hand in mine, kissing his fingers tenderly.

"Why was I not with you in this vacation of yours?" he asked, gazing at me strangely. "Why did you leave me behind?"

I shook my head negatively, kissing his hand again.

"It was a business trip. You didn't want to come with me." I lied through my teeth. He seemed to consider my words before he shook his head negatively, leaning his face till his nose collided with mine, rubbing it slowly against my own.

"I feel that I missed you so…" he whispered, his other hand cupping my cheek tenderly. I leant into his caress, closing my eyes. "Please tell me that you missed me too." He begged, kissing my lips tenderly, making them tingle as if a sudden fire went through them. Another kiss quenched his fire and left me wanting more.

Between kisses I was lost and I could only shake my head negatively as he asked me "it was only a business trip wasn't it? Did you meet anyone else?"

"Only you." I whispered, shaking in his hands. "There was only you tiger."

A strange light passed through his eyes before he hugged me, pushing my head to rest on his shoulder.

"When I woke up and didn't find you I was terrified." He said, caressing my hair. "Your hair is longer." He remarked, smelling it before kissing a few strands of it.

I laughed, kissing his shoulder lightly.

"Never leave me again." He ordered before he kissed me.

I closed the door of my apartment and leaned on the door, watching as Inuyasha threw his backpack on the nearest sofa and threw himself on top of it. I shivered in guilt. He would lose his mind when he would regain his memories. The doctor told me that it could happen any minute and the thought left me cold with fear.

"I am hungry princess. You have to spoil me."

I smiled coming to kneel next to him, kissing his injured hand.

"What do you want to eat?"

He shrugged indecisive. I moved to stand, so he grabbed my wrist keeping me rooted in place. I stared at him, his eyes profound and serious.

"Did we have a fight?" he asked in concern. "Is that why you were away and I was driving like hell?"

I shook my head negatively.

"No tiger." I whispered, caressing his hair out of his face. "There is nothing wrong between us. Now I need to take care of you. What do you want to eat?"

His eyes suddenly heated as he sat up, and my body shivered strangely. His hands gripped my forearms, tugging me until I sat directly on his lap.

"I want to eat you." He whispered in my ear, biting it lightly. I closed my eyes in pleasure. It was wrong, oh so wrong to fool him that way, but it was my only chance to be with him again, to be loved by him again.

"Don't you want me princess?" his voice was husky in my ear, pure sin. "Is there someone else you would rather be with than me?"

I shook my head negatively, incapable of speech.

"Don't you want me darling?" he insisted and I realized that he seemed to be insecure, his words strange as he caressed my sides with his hands. Our eyes met and my words came loud and clear.

"I want only you." I assured, hugging him tightly. My cell phone rang and I pulled him out of my purse. Sesshumaru's number flashed on the screen with his name above it and I was all thumbs as I cut the connection and shut it off, throwing it away. I stared at Inuyasha from the corner of my eyes, fearing that he saw his brother's name, but he was still gazing at me, a smile tugging his lips upward.

"Any problem?" he asked and I shook my head negatively, getting up and pulling him with me towards the bedroom.

I lied in bed, the night still young, staring at the ceiling, my eyes full of tears. I was all what he said, I was a slut, a whore, an opportunistic fool. I closed my eyes. I felt as if I used him. Oh God! I was such a bad person. To what level would I sink again?

I felt his breath against my bare stomach as he laid his head against it, sleeping soundly. The moonlight filtered through the window, carrying with it the shadows of my dark past. We both were resting on the bed, our bodies glistening with sweat and I could only recall what had happened before my ears, my face and my whole body went up in flames.

I loved him, and making love to him after all those months only made me remember his love even more. I was deep in my thoughts when I felt him stir against him. I looked down as his eyes opened and he smiled at me, stretching lazily, sending pleasurable shivers against my sensitive flesh.

"Did I sleep for long?" he whispered huskily and I could only shake my head negatively.

"Just a couple of hours." I replied, caressing his hair, then his face, then my fingers touching his lips. He bit my fingers and I yelped moving them away from his laughing gaze.

"I missed you princess, I missed you so much." He said, kissing my stomach several times. I gulped, my hands fisting in his hair.

"I missed you too." I replied, smiling down at him. His eyes gleamed dangerously before he scooted up and his lips enveloped my nipple, suckling at it lazily. A bolt of fire went right through my center and I moaned as his hand went downwards, touching me intimately. A few seconds passed before he moved his mouth away from my chest, his thumb replacing it, tweaking the nipple insistently. I gasped and moaned as his finger entered me and he laughed, staring down at me.

"I love your body." he whispered, kissing my lips briefly before his mouth encircled the other neglected nipple, tugging it deeply inside his mouth. I cried out, my toes curling, my hands gripping his head closely to my chest.

"Inuyasha…" I moaned while the sound of his suckling and my panting filling the room. My body undulated as I rode his fingers, tears leaking from my eyes. "Oh Inuyasha, oh darling…" I sighed, loving him. I cried out in pleasure when he bit down on my nipple, tugging at it between his teeth.

"Oh tiger please, I can't…"

His mouth moved away from my chest and he silenced me with a deep erotic kiss. His tongue tangled with mine, his hand moving out of me as my legs encircled his waist. Our kiss deepened, his hands caressing my side, resting on my breasts, squeezing them roughly between his hands, his thumbs and forefingers pulling at my abused nipples till the pleasure became painfully good.

"Please…" I begged him as he broke the kiss, biting at the skin of my shoulder, "please, my breasts..." I gasped, "So sensitive."

He laughed darkly in my ear and his hands left my breasts. I sighed before crying out when his teeth took my nipple again, his mouth closing around it, and suckling at it hard.

I threw my head back on the pillow, my lower body trying desperately to find a contact that he denied me.

"I need you now!" I begged, rubbing myself on his thigh, trying to alleviate that infernal pressure. I could feel him hard and throbbing against my leg. Why was he denying me?

I sobbed as he switched breasts, drawing the other nipple deeply in his mouth, nibbling at it before soothing it with his tongue. My cries were ignored as he took his fill, his other hand pulling at my engorged nipple, tweaking it and twisting it harshly. It was a shock to both of us when I came hard, my mouth falling open without a sound.

My nipple escaped his mouth with a loud wet pop and he gazed at me, his eyes watching me like he never did before.

"Am I the only one who feasted on your delicious nipples?" he suddenly asked and in my shaking I could only nod. He smiled, kissing each one tenderly and I shivered when he came back to my face, kissing me gently before he flipped me on my stomach.

"Can't resist biting them." He whispered in my ear, his hands coming between me and the tangled sheet, squeezing my breasts for the last time.

I gripped the sheets, rocking with each forceful thrust he gave. He was relentless and I enjoyed every second of it. The feeling of him moving inside of me was pure ecstasy and I cried out when he reached around and rubbed me with his finger, bringing both of us to our orgasms.

Boneless, I stretched on the bed, my breasts pert and erect, my thighs brazenly wide, my hair disheveled and my face glowing. He rested his head on my chest, breathing heavily, obviously tired. I smiled at the ceiling and it was a few minutes before I was able to talk.

"How do you feel?" I asked him. He laughed against my skin.

"Do you really need to ask?" he replied, moving his head slightly. Knowing what he wanted, I smiled and gripped my right breast, giving it to him. I knew how much he obsessed about my chest and I sighed as my nipple slipped inside his mouth. He suckled me slowly, sensually and I caressed his hair, loving him. When my breast slipped out of his mouth, he stared at me questioningly.

"Are you sore?"

I shook my head negatively, malleable in his arms when he rested on his back and lowered me down on him. Once joined, I threw my head back, riding him with all the energy I had. I knew it was a matter of days before he recalled how much he hated me and I wanted to use every single second of it. I finally collapsed on top of him and he flipped us over, rocking inside of me, his hand gripping my leg, caressing it all the way to my thighs.

Knowing how to give him all his pleasure, I arched back and he immediately latched onto my nipple like a baby born. The rhythm was driving me insane and my cries coupled with the sounds we were making made me hot all over again.

The following morning, I woke him up after my shower, wearing a huge bathrobe and handed him a cup of orange juice. Squinting his eyes, he took it from me and drank it quickly.

"What time is it?" he asked sleepily.

"Late enough for you to wake up." I joked, moving away from him and throwing a towel at him. "You're all sweaty. You need a bath."

His eyes snapped to me.

"Only if you take one with me."

I rested against his chest, relaxing, and my hands holding the edge of the tub, water and soap lapping at my breasts. I sighed, feeling his fingers move inside of me. I opened my legs wider and moaned when he hit a particular spot. The bath became hotter and not content anymore, I turned around to face him, kneeling with my legs on each side of him.

His eyes watched me avidly as I gripped him and led him directly inside of me. We both cried out, already hot from our foreplay, and he rocked inside of me mercilessly. Water fell on each side of the tub as our bodies moved together. I gripped his face and kissed him passionately. His lips opened mine, his tongue seeking and winning entrance. His kiss then moved to my chin, biting it before sucking on the side of my neck.

I moved against him, taking him all in before moving up till he almost left me, then slamming down on him.

"You witch." He murmured against my shoulder, hoisting me against him, his mouth seeking and finding his target.

"Uhn, oh…" I moaned, hugging his head towards my chest, letting him suckle at me as long as he liked while my lower body never ceased its movements. "Inuyasha…" I cried out as I came collapsing against him. He moved us out of the tub, both naked and wet and we toppled on the bed, him still deep inside of me, still rocking with abandon. He kissed me again and again, bruising my lips, his hands grabbing my breasts, squeezing and then his fingers worked at my oversensitive nipples. My legs circled his waist even more and with a particular hard thrust he came over the edge.

Later, we both stood in the kitchen, nibbling on food. I had his white shirt on while he had slipped on his boxers.

"Do you want some juice?" I asked, licking my fingers clean. He swallowed a mouthful of his plate before sitting on a high stool and motioning for me to come.

I approached him, and when I stood between his legs, his eyes became pure gold and his hands reached for the top buttons, slowly undoing them. I stayed put in my place, watching him as my breasts spilled out of the shirt. He took a deep breath and without looking away he murmured to me.

"Your breasts can tempt any man."

"Only you." I immediately added, coming closer, looking down at him as he held one in his hand, weighing it before moving his fingers around the nipple.

"Is it sensitive?" he asked and I knew that he didn't care about my reply. His thumb and his forefinger tugged at it insistently and when I whined in pleasure he hushed me, still completely focused. My nipple engorged and elongated and I could feel a deep fire burn through me when he continued his ministrations.

"I am still hungry." He whispered against the rosy petal and his mouth opened, pulling it deep inside. I stood there in the kitchen, watching him suckle insistently, sometimes hard and sometimes lazily. I gripped his shoulders to steady myself and remained put while he inflicted this torture on my body. When I couldn't take it anymore I whispered huskily.

"The other one, I need you there."

He was happy to comply and I rested my chin on top of his head, my legs clenched together, my breast tortured by his delicious mouth.

"Please, inside of me."

He shook his head negatively, pulling away from my breast and closing the shirt button by button.

"What are you doing?" I cried in alarm, too much fire in me for us to stop. He turned me around and bent me on the counter, kissing my neck before I felt him inside of me. I cried out in ecstasy and moved with him. His hands went inside my shirt, gripped my breasts while he rode me with abandon.

"I need you." I whispered in the heat of the moment, "I need you, I always have."

"Who?" he whispered harshly against my ear, twisting my nipples painfully, as if punishing my words.

"Who do you need?" he asked and my blood immediately went cold. He thrust inside of me for a few more minutes before he finally came, this time pushing me away from him.

I stayed rooted in place, not daring to move.

"You remember." I whispered, wincing at his harsh words.

"I never forgot. The accident was the perfect way."

My eyes wide open; I turned around, seeing him naked, glaring at me with righteous anger. "Don't be coy Kagome. We both needed to fuck each other. Now that we did, we can finally move on with other partners."

My eyes prickled with tears.

"You wanted to fuck me while still being able to go back to Rin and claim that you were the victim."

He smiled, nodding cruelly.

"You will always be the best fuck of my life, but telling me that you needed me was really low, even for you. We both know who you really want."

"You idiot! Why don't you get it! I need you! Always have, always will!" I finally exclaimed, not bothering to cover myself. "It started as a ruse but then I wanted only you! Can't you see how little Sesshumaru means to me anymore?"

He stayed silent for a few minutes before a bizarre expression went over his face. He then simply ignored my outburst, going to the bedroom. In a few minutes, he emerged, fully dressed, ready to go.

"I must go princess." He said, having the guts to come and kiss me lightly on the lips. "I have to go back to Rin." He finished before leaving. Standing almost naked in my own kitchen, I suddenly felt very dirty, very used.

As soon as Sesshumaru opened his penthouse's door, I pushed him inside and closed the door.

"What's wrong?" he asked but didn't reply. Within a few seconds I threw my heels away and let the dress pool around my feel, leaving me naked in front of him. His eyes took me in, and I could sense his arousal. I knew I was too beautiful to resist.

"What are you doing?" he asked, his eyes zeroing on my breasts.

"I know you want it so take it Taisho." I answered, coming to stand a few hairs away from him. "Take me to your bed. If you even want me to turn around so that you can imagine Rin instead of me I have no problem with that."

He gazed at me for a long time before he pulled me towards him, kissing me hotly on the lips, almost bruising. His hands roomed my body and I could feel his heart quicken inside his chest. He was about to touch me more intimately when I pulled away, sobbing with distress.

"I can't!" I cried out, slipping back into my dress and taking my shoes in my hands. "I am sorry!" I sobbed before getting out. As soon as the elevator opened, I came face to face with Rin and Inuyasha, together. Their eyes looked me over, understanding from my appearance that something intimate must have been going on between me and Sesshumaru. At the same time, the latter's door opened and Sesshumaru, his lips bruised from our kiss, his shirt wrinkled over stepped out, calling my name.

The four of us froze, thoughts going around, the majority of them dark, before Inuyasha erupted like a volcano, his eyes going mad for a few seconds.

"I'll kill you both!" he screamed, his face twisted in an ugly sneer. I cried out, moving away and behind Sesshumaru and for the second time the two brothers fought. And for the second time I was the reason. But this time I intended to stop them.

"Inuyasha! Let him go! Nothing happened!" I knew that I didn't owe him the truth but I couldn't help but justify myself in front of him, even though he left me alone this morning, even though he was back with Rin.

"Inuyasha! I beg you! I love you!"

My words seemed to surprisingly have an effect on him as he pushed his older brother away and stepped back, glaring at me till I shivered.

"Say that again, I dare you!" he panted, trembling.

"I love you!" I repeated desperately. "And I know that I have wronged you but you have wronged me too and I still love you!"

To my surprise, tears filled his eyes and he took a deep breath.

"Then what are you doing with him?"

"What are you doing with her!" I countered, sobbing heavily by now. "I tried to get over you, but I can't seem to want any man besides you. Just leave me alone, I don't want anyone anymore!" I cried out, going inside the elevator. It was about to close its doors when he slipped inside. He cornered me against the mirror, his eyes wet with tears, an exact replica of mine.

"I loved you before I met you." He whispered as the elevator took us down. "I used to gaze at your photos in magazines and say to myself, oh that woman, I wish she was mine."

I turned my back to him, my nerves too tired to even listen. My shoes fell from my hands but he still kept going.

"And when you kissed me, I couldn't believe my luck. And when you betrayed me everything went black and dark and ugly."

"And that's why you threw yourself in Rin's arms!" I sobbed, using the fact that the elevator just opened its doors to propel myself outwards. He followed closely.

"I told Rin that we should play a game. Make you both jealous! Make you feel what it takes to have your heart burnt."

"Leave me alone!" I cried out, walking fast down the street, but he kept on following me.

"Nothing happened between us, she loves him and I love you princess, I only love you!"

I shook my head negatively, finding my car and getting in. He immediately blocked my way, cupping my face between his hands.

"I wanted to kill you for being with Sesshumaru but you kept looking at me when you thought I wasn't looking, and you placed yourself between me and that man."

I tried to push him away but he didn't budge.

"I still loved you so deeply, I wanted a chance with you but you left the country, leaving me to my desperation. I couldn't even see you in the hospital. I was worried sick and they wouldn't let me see you."

"I didn't want to see you." I whispered, feeling hope rise with every word he said.

"My lowest point was when you left the country. I kept on drinking and drinking and when I had that accident, I wished myself dead."

"No!" I immediately gasped, my hands gripping his forearms tightly, the idea of his death still terrifying me.

He laughed through his tears and leant down, kissing me gently on the lips. Gentleness soon turned into passion and I found myself gripping him tighter to me while he whispered his words between kisses.

"I wanted to make love to you so badly…" he whispered and I nodded my hand, understanding his yearning for one of my own.

"I lied to you…and when you told me that you needed me, I thought that was enough…I thought that I could live without your love but not without you."

"But I love you." I whispered, resting my forehead against his.

"Oh God say it again…" he husked and I whispered it in the kiss that followed. We only separated when the honk of a passing car sounded, alerting us to how much we were clinging to each other.

"So I brought Rin to make peace with Sesshumaru and I found you with him." His grip tightened painfully on me. "If anything happened I would have killed you."

"Nothing happened." I swore, clinging to him desperately, "I only ever wanted you, you're my only one, and I gave you my virginity without knowing how much I would love you later…"

"I am very possessive over you…" he whispered, kissing my forehead lovingly."I loved you from the first moment I saw you. Tell me again; tell me that you love me."

"I love you!" I vowed, "Believe when I say that no man had me other than you."

He smiled, but then his smile turned into a frown, making my heart clench.

"But this doesn't change the fact that you're who you are and I am who I am."

I nodded, understanding his words.

"Nor does it change the fact that I would die without you." I whispered. "Come with me. Come to my bed."

He groaned, bringing me into full contact with his body.

"I cannot take the looks that other men give you. Richer handsomer high born men will seek you out. What I am to do Kagome? How can I compete?"

The following morning, as we both lay in bed, exhausted after hours of loving each other; I kissed him gently, answering his question.

"How can anyone compete with you when I want you and only you? Marry me Inuyasha, please, make me the happiest woman alive."

He kissed my hand, staring at my ring finger.

"I can only bring you a tiny diamond ring." He said, staring at me.

"I will love it more than anything else." I answered, kissing him to the moon and back. When we finally parted I smiled, looking down at him.

"Now Mr Architect, what about those plans for my new villa. I am still waiting for the project to kick off."

He threw his head back and laughed.

"Let's make a deal." He answered. "You won't pay me, and I will accept to live in it after the wedding."

My eyes sparkled as I hugged him to me.

"For me, you're the only man I would ever take that offer from." I murmured happiness suddenly in front of me.

The end