Chapter 1: Kiss

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I drove my truck up to Jacob's house. It was raining and if he wasn't coming to me, I'd go to him. I searched for a minute, looking around the yard, before I got out of my truck.

I saw him.

He was walking around in the rain –with nothing but a pair of shorts on—and he was stacking firewood. He had grown again, since the last time I saw him, and had cut his hair, too. I got out of my truck.

"Hey!" I yelled at him, he kept on walking. "Jacob! Hey!"

I grabbed his arm, he finally turned to me. He looked like it was painful to see me again. Good I thought to myself, now he'll know how I felt when he ignored me!

"Bella…" He trailed off.

"What is with you?" I asked, I was nearly shouted, "I thought you were too sick go anywhere! Or… or answer the phone when I call"

"Go away, Bella." He warned, "I… I can't be your friend anymore…"

"What…? Jake, wait!" He had begun to walk away again, so I grabbed his arm once more, I tried to think of something to make him stay. "You… you promised me! Remember? You promised me!"

"I know…" he said, sadly, "And this is me keeping that promise."

I didn't know what to say then. How could he be keeping his promise to never hurt me, when this was hurting me so badly?

"Jake, this is killing me!" I started, once he threatened to leave, "It's killing me!"

He looked broken by me saying that.

"Did Sam get to you, or something?" I accused.

"Sam didn't do this! He's trying to help me!" He huffed, "If you want someone to blame… how 'bout those filthy bloodsuckers, you love!"

I stood still, shocked. How had Jake known? "I—I don't know what you're talking about..."

"Jacob! Jacob!" a faint voice called from far away, I barley heard it. He kept chanting Jake's name, trying to get his attention.

It was Embry.

"I have to go…" he said as he turned to leave, his hand swung lightly as he turned, I grabbed it. He had to turn around again.

"Jake… don't…" I pleaded.

"I have to…" he said, he tried to turn, but I still had his hand in mine, so he couldn't.

I couldn't let him leave again. I just couldn't. I was in an adrenaline-like state. I didn't let go of his hand, it was helping secure him here.

"Jake," I pleaded once more, the morose easy to hear in my voice. I wanted it that way. So he could here how much he was hurting me, promise or not, "Just… just let me tell you one thing before you go, okay? Just one little thing?"

He nodded once.

"Jake I—" I cut myself off; I knew what I had to do. And words wouldn't do it. So I leaned closer to him, his tilted his head towards me, as if to hear a whisper. I tilted myhead back to face him again. Our faces were an inch apart.

And I kissed him.

After we were finished, he closed his eyes, he was trying to think. He opened his eyes again. They were pained. Torn. He glanced back at Embry and the others, they had seen me kiss him. Embry had been still chanting, but when I kissed Jake he had stopped mid-name. Then it dawned on me.

I had kissed Jacob.

He leaned towards me again, and I thought he was going to kiss me again.

I wouldn't stop him.

Instead of kissing me, he whispered: "I'll be by your house later. We'll… talk more then."

He still looked torn. I nodded rapidly, as long as he wasn't ignoring me.

And he ran off to his pack.