Emotions

Hinamori sat on her bed and stared into space. She felt numb, emotionless, empty. She could forget everything, get up after all betrayals, but not after his betrayal. She got up and got closer to the window. Everyone was enjoying the sun that finally showed up after the long winter. And she was again stuck in a black hole. Hinamori moved her head from the window. The scenes were only making her sadder.

Then her look became focused on the spot on the floor, where everything happened. She never thought she could be that intimate and close to a man, until last night. Held in his arms helplessly, arms that gave her only comfort before. She shivered.

She was in the 4th division, waiting for Unohana to say something after a long pause.

- It's nothing serious. Don't worry. However, he should have been gentler with you, since it was your first time. Honestly, I can't believe that he was not cautious.

- It's my fault. – Hinamori said softly. – I didn't tell him that I was a virgin.

- Momo-chan, but why? – the captain smiled at her. – It is dangerous hiding such things. And stupid. Every man will understand that it was a lie.

She could not meet the gaze of the older woman. She just bowed to her and thanked her for her assistance before she left. "He understood" – she thought.

Hitsugaya's hand hit the wall. He was already bleeding but he did not care. That punishment was not enough, definitely not enough. He failed again. This time he could not be forgiven. Never…

- Taicho! – Matsumoto said, the worry in her voice clear. – What's going on?

- Matsumoto, leave me alone…

- But your hand is bleeding… - she pointed at it with her look and tried to get closer.

- I said LEAVE ME ALONE! – he shouted.

The confused woman nodded and left the office, determined to find the only person, who could explain it to her.

The orange-haired woman was very worried about the whole situation. Everything was going smoothly until a few days ago Hitsugaya's behavior suddenly changed. The tension in the office was visible. He was clearly very angry about something but he just wouldn't tell her what the problem was. She sighed. "It must be connected to Hinamori-chan!"

- Rangiku-san!

The lieutenant turned to find Isane running towards her.

- Isane-chan… - she smiled nervously. – I am so sorry, a have a job to do…

- But it is important! – the 4th division lieutenant said softly.

- Isa-chan, you know my taicho! He will kill me if…

- But it is about him! – Matsumoto's expression changed.

- His health…is he ok? Please…

- Yes. Don't worry. Unohana-taicho wants to see you. – the girl said quietly. – Please, this way.

Matsumoto nodded and followed her. She had a bad premonition. Why would Unohana want to talk to her about her captain? Luckily, no one acted strangely, so she assumed that it was kept a secret. They walked about 5 minutes and reached a quiet and almost empty space. "So, Unohana was far away from the crowded corridors and the noise." Matsumoto assumed. Isane knocked on the door.

- Come in. – the soft voice of the 4th division captain was heard.

Matsumoto walked in, surprised when Isane didn't follow her, but instead closed the door and left them alone. The worry increasing even more.

- Rangiku-san, please sit. – Unohana said, and when Matsumoto did not do so, she repeated. – Please!

She was persuading enough.

- Don't worry! Everyone is fine. At least when we speak of health.

- So, what is going on with taicho? – Matsumoto loudly asked, nervous enough.

- I think he is intimate with Hinamori-chan. – Unohana calmly said.

Matsumoto looked shocked. So that was it. The problem was that they were intimate. She sighed in relief. Then, she couldn't help it, but laugh. Was sex some sort of taboo in Soul Society?

- I am sorry! – she said to Unohana, trying to suppress the laughter. – But what is the problem then?

- I fear something is not right. That morning Hinamori came to me. It seems that Hitsugaya-taicho was a bit rougher than needed.

Matsumoto suddenly stopped laughing.

- You must be kidding me! – she said. – He treats her like porcelain. He would never…

- I know. – Unohana smiled. – That's why I was so surprised. – she continued softly after offering some tea to the lieutenant, which she refused. – Hinamori-chan also seemed sad and worried, which is not normal in this situation, don't you think so?

Matsumoto became as white as a piece of paper.

- So, you suggest that…that he forced himself on her? – her voice shivering.

- I don't want to accuse him. But I can't believe that he lost it to the pint of leaving red marks on her wrists and being pushier. It could be a traumatizing first experience.

- Hinamori! Hinamori, please open the door!

Momo stood up up and looked through the window, careful not to be seen.

- Please, we need to talk! – the blonde-haired guy shouted.

She sat down on the floor, tears running down her cheeks.

- I am so sorry about this morning. Please, forgive me!

Kira's voice suddenly became close to a whisper. In the scary silence, his heavy breathing could not be mistaken. The man was crying too.

Hi, everyone! This is my new story. It is not connected to my previous ones. It is rated M, because of the content and is quite different from the other ones, as you will see. I am sorry that I did not finish "A long way to go", but I got no reviews, so I left it due to lack of readers' interest. I hope that will not happen with this story. I am sorry that the chapter is short, but I wanted to keep it a bit mysterious. So, please review!(I will accept your critics. excuse me if my English is not good enough.)