If you haven't heard the song "Make This Go On Forever" by Snow Patrol then I highly recommend you do so you can kind of get the feel for this story.

DISCLAIMER: I don't own anything in this chapter or any chapters to come.

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Please don't let this turn into something it's not.

I screwed up. Bottom line.

I messed up and I pushed away the best thing that has ever happened to me. I think the saddest part was that I didn't even realize just how much she suffered. I didn't even realize just how far I was pushing her. If I had seen what I was doing then maybe I could've avoided this. If I could've seen it ten seconds sooner then maybe I wouldn't be in this situation.

I've messed up before, countless times, but I guess this time was worse. That's what she told me anyway. Normally I would've just ignored her… but this time was different. I saw it too late and now it's come to this to make me see it.

I told her that we've gotten through so much worse than this, but there was something about this time she just couldn't look past.

I don't deny it. What I did was wrong. What I've been doing was wrong. I just couldn't see past myself to fix it.

And I hate that now I see it. I hate myself for putting her through this. I... I can hate myself all I want but that's not gonna fix the problem. She'd only agree with me.

I honestly think this is so much smaller than she's making it out to be… but then again, I guess that kind of thinking is what got us here.

I want to make this right. I want to show her that I'm not what I was. I can be different. I want to show her that I still love her. I want her to remember the good times and forget about the bad ones. I created a lot of good moments and granted... I created a lot of the bad, but for some reason, the bad will always outweigh the good. I guess she just couldn't take it anymore.

"I'm here. I'm ready to fight." I say.

"It's too late now. You don't have anything to fight for" She says brushing my tears away with her thumbs.

It can't be too late. I love her. There's no expiration date on love, especially not ours. She can't just give up on me now. She doesn't understand, I said I'm ready to fight.

"I'm sorry" I whimper.

"You always are Jade. What's different about this time?" She asks

"I'm ready to fight. I want to save us. I'm ready to try"

"If you had been trying from the start, then we wouldn't need saving. It's too late for us." She says as more tears roll down her cheeks.

"Please don't give up" I beg.

"What other choice have you given me? You gave up the minute you said you loved me. Now it's my turn."

I can tell it hurt to say that. Like her heart just tore in half from that one sentence.

"I can be better" I sniffle.

"I know, just not with me." She says stepping back.

I just want all this to be some sick joke she's playing. I want this to just be her trying to scare me into being better. I want her to walk out, then walk back in and tell me she's not really leaving. I want her to say that she just wants me to change.

"Please don't leave" I whisper.

"You left first. I'm just following your lead" She says as she turns to go.

"Tori please…" I beg.

She stops at that and slowly turns around to face me again. She's breaking just as much and just as hard as I am. With one word she can stop the pain for the both of us, but she doesn't. That's what scares me. That's what makes this real.

I was so sure that this would never happen. Tori was like a human doormat in this relationship. I never thought she'd be pulled right out from under me.

"I can't keep doing this Jade. I want to be with you but I can't when it hurts this bad." She says allowing herself to cry more.

"I'm not going to hurt you anymore. Just please… don't let this one time make up your mind."

"This isn't about this one time, this is about every time. This is just the first time I can't take it."

"I don't know how to be without you" I say walking up to her. "And I know you feel the same."

She has to feel the same. We are who we are because of each other and we have the rest of our lives to continue in that. She can't just call it quits now.

"Jade I can't…"

"What do you want? Tell me what you want and I'll do it or fix it or find it or whatever you want." I beg.

"Time" She whimpers.

"Ok then, we have time. We have forever Tori." I try to smile.

"Apart"

"What?" I whisper.

"I want time… apart." Ok… just some time apart for both our sakes. That makes sense. Just a little time.

"Ok, a little time apart. You got it. For how long?" I ask

"I don't know… as long as it takes… forever… I don't know Jade." She says stifling a sob.

Forever? She… she wants to be apart forever. How exactly does she plan to do that? We can't just avoid each other. We can't just run from each other. We're in love. This can't happen because we're in love. She has my heart. Regardless of if she wants it or not, my heart's gonna follow her wherever she goes. And unfortunately for her, I follow my heart.

"You can't honestly expect me to just give up." I say.

"You have before."

"But this time-"

"Jade this isn't something you can just fix in five minutes. You have to work at it and never stop." She cuts me off.

I wish I could work at it, but she's usually the one to guide me through it. She shows me what I'm supposed to do. She takes my hand and makes sure I don't fall. How am I supposed to do anything now?

"Don't leave" I say a little more sternly.

"I'm sorry Jade" She says wiping her eyes.

"Tori if you walk away, don't expect me to be here when you come back" I threaten. A threat that she and I both know is empty. It's my last move. The last desperate attempt I have to make her stay. It's what the old Jade would've done. I usually use scare tactics to manipulate people, but not Tori. Not anymore. I know better than to pull that with her. And the fact that she didn't even flinch when I said it tells me that she knows that. I'm desperate.

"You and I both know you don't mean that. But if you must move on then I'm not stopping you Jade" She's wrong. She's everything that's stopping me.

"I don't know where to go without you" I say as more tears spill down my face.

"Are you kidding?" She says with a smile I know is fake. "You're Jade West. Strong and unstoppable Jade West. You're gonna find a way and you're gonna be fine."

She can't reassure me that I'll be ok. God knows I won't I won't be.

I don't anything left to say, but there's one thing left that I can do.

I kiss her. I kiss her with more passion that I've put into anything in my entire life. She kisses back with just as much passion and her hands go to the side of my face. For a moment… I thought I changed her mind. I thought she could feel all the things I couldn't say to her. I thought she would stay. But then she pulled back and rested her forehead against mine.

"Contrary to popular belief, kisses don't always make it better." She whispers.

"I know" I whisper back.

She leans back and looks at me with more love than I've ever seen in her eyes and strokes the side of my face. She reluctantly lets her hands fall back to her sides then turns around and heads for the door. It's killing me to just stand by and watch this, but I have nothing left. All I can do is watch as my life walks right out my front door.

"Jade?" She says with a sob as she turns around in the door frame. My eyes meet hers and I nod, my voice has given up.

One thing. She says one thing that hurts and heals me more than you'll ever know.

"You'll always be my love…"

The final word in the final sentence you ever uttered to me was love.

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Hello everyone A.Y.P. here. So, what do you think? The inspiration for this one came purely from the song. I think I'm going to like where this one's going and hopefully you do too. And no, this is not a song fic, tis simply based from the song.

Yes, this will be a multi chaptered fic. I fully intend on letting you in on what's going on between Tori and Jade.

So tell me what you think. You like it? Love it? Want some more of it? Try so hard but you just can't rise above it? …Anyway, tell me what you think and if I should continue.

A.Y.P.