Hi everyone! Goodness! I'm still nervous by making this. It's my second fanfic and I'm planning on doing songfics because it's really obvious that I love them so much! Sorry for any mistakes and I do hope you guys like this :) Oh! I suggest you guys listen to the song while reading the story. Okay? it'll be much better. Hehe. Damon: Vamp. Elena: Human

Song: Mad - Ne-yo

Thank you for having me!

Damon Salvatore

I honestly can't process the aching feeling of not talking to Elena for the past few weeks. Ever since that fight about Stefan and being that stupid, irrational and boyfriend that I've been. I just…I don't know! It's just so new to me that Elena's finally mine and then I suddenly became this overprotective guy that's been wanting to slaughter all the guys trying to even look at her.

It's not my fault I don't feel that good about Elena talking to Stefan like they never happened. It became weird to me that they become friends all of a sudden. I know that Elena's that kind, sweet, friendly and compassionate per-Damn, I really miss her… It's Stefan! You guys get what I mean?

Anyway, I honestly didn't know what came over me while I said those hurtful things to her. God, it almost killed myself just remembering them. These are times I wish those "time machines" or whatever existed. Even so, I would have still felt so damn guilty for what I did. Aching feeling? No. My mistake. Massive understatement. It actually feels like HELL.

It was a real miracle that I didn't hear the words "We're and "over" still, I can't even describe how close they are of Elena's last words to me before she walked out leaving me haunted for which seemed like forever.

"Just what is your problem!?" Elena cried. She looks so frustrated and I can practically see her in flames.

Then again, so am I.

"You know exactly what my problem is! What the hell am I supposed to think when I saw you alone with Stefan? When I even knew you were supposed to be Forbes and that witch!" I yelled. The asshole part of me took over and I'm damn sure I wasn't thinking clearly when I yelled at her, but I was so fucking angry.

"You can't be serious! I said I'd be going out with my "friends" Damon. It didn't mean exactly just Caroline and Bonnie! And one other thing, I said I'd be meeting them at 7pm, NOT in the afternoon when you saw me with Stefan!" Elena replied frustratingly.

"Friends huh? Stefan? Well that's strange; I didn't know exes get to be friends a few months after a break up. Not to mention especially shifting to his brother which kind of reminds me of someone." I said thinking about crossing my arms and tilting my head and a tone as if I'm recalling someone. But I know better than to do that when I realized what just said.

Shit.

Elena froze and looked like she was stabbed a hundred times over on the chest. Did I really just say that? And hand flew across my cheek and before I could even touch my face, she was running to the door. I rushed to her, grabbing her arm gently and firmly. There's no way in hell I meant what I said. I wasn't going to let her walk out that door without her knowing it.

"Wait! Elena, I-"

"How dare you…? Do you even know what it's like to feel something for you trying hard not to become like HER? You don't think that it kills me every day just to hope that I WON'T become like HER! I chose YOU Damon! YOU! Why can't you see that? For your information, I was talking to Stefan to agreeing about letting things go from now on and I was about to call to know where you are when Caroline picked me up early to get ready."

I didn't know what to say. I felt like a lunatic and wanted to kill myself for even bringing Katherine up and almost trying to compare them. God, thinking of it makes me want to throw up. If I ever found a stake nearby I'd probably jabbed himself over and over.

"It's like you don't even trust me. No... You DON'T trust me." Elena spat the last words then she turned her back. Sniffed and starkly wiped her tears.

No..she can't leave. I won't let her leave like this

"Elena, please, I'm so sorry, That was a dick thing to say I wasn't thinking I swear" I pleaded as he reached for her but she took her hand away.

"I can't deal with you right now." She paused for a moment then said the words that almost destroyed me. "And I can't be with someone who won't trust me" she continued.

I was stunned when she walked away and slammed the door. And that moment I felt like having a heart that stopped. It's like killing me all over again.

I'm such a fucking idiot! I'm this close to losing Elena because I manage to always stick my foot into my mouth. I can't lose her. I just can't…

Alaric called me to check out the bar a few blocks from the park. He said it was a ninety to a hundred percent Elena's going to be there since it just opened two days ago and people really liked it there. I guess he knew about what happened and due to me being his drinking best buddy and him always understanding what I'm going through, he wants me and Elena to work things out. I have to admit he's a really cool guy despite the fact that he's kind of a naff.

I quickly pulled out my leather jacket and drove to the place where I don't know what'll happen if I took a step in. Good thing I came right on time before the rain started pouring.

I walked in the bar and quickly spotted Alaric with Jenna. Ric motioned for me to come over so I did and sat beside him. The place looks pretty good if you ask me but it would change a thing about my bonds with the Grill.

"Damon..perfect timing. She's over there" Alaric said pointing towards the girls. I subtly looked over her direction.

"I guess you're wondering why I'm saying this and no one's even asking but, you should know that you're good for Elena…" Jenna said reaching and putting her hand on my arm.

I stopped staring at the love of my life to looked at her aunt quizzically. Did she say what I think she just said?

"You make her happy and feel free. You even know things about her than I ever did." She looked into space and then at me. "Do you want to be with her?" She asked

"What the hell of course I do!" I answered like it's the most stupid question ever.

"Okay chill man! If you do want to be with her, stop being a chicken ass and talk to her!" Ric chides presenting Elena with his hand.

"I will! Just… give me a moment! I don't want to act or look like an idiot in front of her!" I said raising my voice but making sure that Elena won't hear me.

Ric and Jenna both sighed. "Damon believe me, you already look like an idiot."Ric said and I rolled my eyes yet accepting it. A real pal indeed.

They were sitting maybe five tables away and near the glass wall with the logo and name of the bar facing outside. Caroline and Bonnie's backs were facing and Elena's sitting across them. Which makes me have better access of seeing her and probably…seeing me.

Tyler showed up and walked towards them and it's like he's asking Caroline to dance as he offered his hand. She quickly grabbed it and began pulling him. Jeremy followed Bonnie which now leads to Elena sitting alone and I stared at her as she played with the straw of her drink. I just wanted to wrap my arms around her and hold her all night, apologizing, pleading, and saying that I love her.

Her eyes scanned over the people dancing then the DJ announced that slower songs will be played shortly because of dedications coming. Great…really great.

I saw the couples setting on the dance floor and a few others getting back to their seats. Ric and Jenna decided to join them so I'm left here with my untouched best friend. Bourbon.

The song played and I glanced at Elena and I nearly fell on my chair as she looked at me. Seeing her sad but hard expressed doe eyes connecting with mine makes me want to hit myself knowing I was the cause of it.

Elena looked at him and her heart skipped a beat noticing that he's watching her. She planned on pretending that she was looking somewhere else but failed. Elena knew the spell or curse of locking eyes with Damon so therefore she had to face the consequences of inevitable mixtures of feelings growing inside. She can tell his face was plastered with pain and full of sadness and now all she feels is heart break.

She's starin' at me
I'm sittin' wonderin' what she's thinkin'
Nobody's talkin' 'cause talkin' just turns into screamin'
And now it's I'm yellin' over her, she yellin' over me
All that that means is neither of us is listening

And what's even worse?
That we don't even remember why we're fighting
So both of us are mad for

Nothing, fighting for
Nothin', crying for
Nothing, whoa
But we won't let it go for

Nothing, no not for
Nothing, this should be
Nothing to a love like what we got

Oh baby, I know sometimes it's gonna rain
But baby, can we make up now?
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
Can't sleep through the pain

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed mad at you
And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me
No, I don't wanna go to bed mad at you
And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me
Oh no no no

Oh, baby this love ain't gonna be perfect
Perfect, perfect, oh oh
And just how good it's gonna be
We can fuss and we can fight
Long as everything's all right between us
Before we go to sleep
Baby, we're gonna be happy, oh

Tears were formed in Elena's eyes which wounded Damon even more as the lyrics say exactly what they needed to realize. Sure they fought and had these so called problems but both knew they couldn't and won't sacrifice the good times because of them.

Baby, I know sometimes it's gonna rain
But baby, can we make up now?
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
Can't sleep through the pain

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed mad at you
And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me
No, I don't wanna go to bed mad at you
And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me
Oh no no no

Elena wiped her tears, stood up and ran out the exit then Damon followed her. Rain was heavily pouring down from the clouded night skies as Damon caught up with her, grabbed her arm and turned her to face him placing his hands on her shoulders.

"Elena…"

Elena softly cried looking down but slowly lifted her head.

"I love you Elena. I'm so sorry for letting you think I don't trust you. I DO trust you. You are NOT anywhere near being the same as that bitch you hear me? You are nothing like her. I'm so sorry to make you think otherwise. "He paused to look at me sincerely after he punctuated every word then continued."I know I made a lot of mistakes and I…I'm just so sorry for hurting you. Please give me a chance, I'll be better!" Damon promised pleadingly.

Elena's eyes softened as he spoke. Seeing his vulnerable state always makes her heart melt and as soon as she began seeing his watery blue eyes, all of her bad memories of the night they fought were forgotten.

"I'm sorry too...maybe I've made my mistakes too. But I want you to always and I mean ALWAYS know, that I choose you Damon." Elena said cupping his face with her hands.

"No, I don't deserve your apology. This is my fault. I was being an insecure Boy-zilla-friend" Damon said resting his foerhead over Elena's.

"Boy-zilla-friend?" Elena asked with a little giggle

Damon chuckled "Yeah, you could say that."

His faced turned serious as he spoke,

"Elena, you and I both know love isn't perfect. Well nothing is. I don't care if we have imperfections, because that's what makes it real... makes us real. And I really love you Elena Gilbert." He declared emphasizing "really".

"And I REALLY love you too." She replied smiling ever so sweetly.

He kissed her feverishly and smiled as she kissed him back. Both not caring how soaked they were.

They pulled away with nothing but eyes gazing each other lovingly.

"Does this mean we're okay now?" Damon asked just making sure he didn't have to go through that hell feeling again.

"Hmmm…" she pretended to think to lighten up the mood then Damon frowned.

She nodded and chuckled "Yeah we're okay". Seeing his face was priceless!

"Don't do that..." He said slightly menacing "I don't know what I'd do if I lose you" His tone changed to the vulnerable one.

She smiled "You won't, because I'll always be with you no matter what, Salvatore". They kissed again with more passion knowing that whatever struggles come their way, nothing could ever come between them.

"Always?" he managed to say.

"And Forever" She mumbled.

Fin

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