Chapter 1

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PLEASE DO NOT READ ME: If you are not at least eighteen years old or older. This story contains profanity, violence and hot kinky wolf loven. So if this offends you stop reading here.

BELLAS POV

Spending all of my time at the reservation with Jacob. I was trying to salvage what little bit of life that I have left in me after the Cullens disappeared. If it wasn't for him I would have not made it this far. Even though my best friend has ended up being a wolf; it seems to have made our relationship stronger somehow.

Tonight Charlie and I are going to a bonfire cook out with the pack. Knowing what they are doesn't bother me because I had already been thrown into the world of the supernatural with the Cullens. But I am not welcomed by all there and I know that. Some of the wolves hate me because I love Edward Cullen and others fear that I will turn on them for other vampires.

Someday they will see that I love and respect them as my family. I would already be dead when Laurent came to avenge James death for Victoria if it was not for them. They risked their own life to save me only I didn't know at the time what they were.

But now that I know their secret; it makes life easier for all of us. They don't have to pretend that everything is different when I am around them. I don't have to pretend that I am not a magnet that is drawn into their dangerous world. Jacob can just be what he is when he is around me and that's what I love about him the most. Sometimes he fears that he will hurt me but, I know in my heart that he never will.

Calling Emily to see what she wanted me to bring for the dinner tonight. She said to make a desert. I love being around her and talking to her. She has the most positive outlook and the most upbeat personality of anyone that I know. We have gotten close since I have hung out there so much. I spend time with her when Sam is not around because I don't think that he cares for me to much. Emily tells me that is just his personality and not to worry that I am welcome there anytime.

Finding everything I need to bake with. I killed the morning by making two cakes and six dozen chocolate chip cookies to take. I know how much the pack loves to eat. Charlie called while I was frosting the cakes and told me he would meet me there after work. I figured that I would go early to help Emily out.

Emily and I had a great afternoon together. Everyone loves her and it is not hard to see why. She was yelling at Seth because he was eating it as fast as she could cook it. "Stay out of the food. There has to be enough to feed all of your brothers tonight." I told him to follow me outside.

Now I was glad that I had made so much. There was a lot of cookies so I gave him a handful of them. "Thanks Bella I'm starving." He is so sweet and nice to me. He doesn't hold the Cullens against me. To Seth, I'm just Bella that is his friend, no more and no less than that.

Charlie called Billy and told him that he wouldn't be able to come tonight. There had been ten people killed by an animal attacks. All of the police force had to report to find the animals that were doing this. It was like the string of killings were making a path straight to Forks.

When they called an emergency council meeting I knew that it wasn't animals at all. It was vampires. We couldn't attend the meeting so Emily and I waited at the house for them to be done. Emily kept telling me not to worry. But I already knew if they were coming, who they were coming for.

All of the pack were out on patrol and on a high alert. Different vampires had shown up at the edge of their land tonight. It has been hours for the rest of us; sitting around on the beach waiting to hear what was really going on. Sam left a couple of pack members close by to protect us.

Jacob came back carrying Brady in his arms because he had been hurt by the vampires. I went down the beach with everyone else to see what had happened. Leah was telling everyone "There were five vampires with just me and Brady. Three of them had him down and I didn't get to him in time. He was fighting them off as hard as he could. But he still so young and has never had to fight them before. He didn't really know what to do. These were leeches that I have not come across before except for the redheaded one. He passed out before you guys got to us." He is so young and his mother was weeping. A lot of mothers were weeping because it could have been their own child. Collin, his brother, took him from Jacob and was carrying him to their house. My heart was breaking. Vampires are starting to invade this town and it is because of me.

Leah got inches from my face "I say that we hand you over to them. There are not enough of us to fight them all. They are only here because they want you. Brady paid for your loving the fucking Cullens so much." I knew in my heart that she was right. If I had not fallen in love with Edward and the wolves had not saved me; none of this would be happening now.

Trying to pull my shit together. I went to go back down the beach to where we had been. I needed to set down and calm myself. But Paul got in front of me before I made it there "This is all your fault, you stupid little bitch. I hope his cold dead dick was worth all of this bullshit that you're causing. You have done nothing but ruin the lives of those that you are around. You're doing it to Jacob too. You have him following you around like your something special. You don't give a fuck about him and you're using him just like you're using all of us. Where are your precious little Cullens at now that you need them? Answer me?" I could not breathe let alone answer him. I have always known that he did not like me. But hate was not a strong enough word for the way he feels about me.

Jacob got in front of me and pushed Paul back "Leave her alone. It's not her fault that these other fucking leeches came here." Jacob was defending me even though I know that it is my fault. Just like he always does.

Paul laughed at him "Jacob you are so stupid if you believe that she will ever love you. That pussy is so ice cold and she will use it to keep you on the hook. Shit she won't even give you any." Jacob shoved him again.

They were both starting to shake and I knew that they were about to phase. Sam was yelling at them "Both of you calm down now. Bella get away from them." But I just stood there like time was standing still. Jacob was fighting his brother again for me. I can't do this anymore with Jacob. He will only be miserable in one way or another as long as I am around him. He has done nothing but heal me and I keep hurting him.

After two days of the pack constantly being on patrol and more of them getting injured by the vampires because I was on the reservation; I decided to leave. I know that Jacob will be mad and hurt once he finds out but, I have to do it. This is how for once that I can protect him and return all the selfless love he has given me.

When Jacob got ready to go on patrol this morning again I hugged him "Jake I will always love you. Thank you for everything that you have done for me."

He smiled that beautiful smile that lights up my world "Bella I will always love you too. This is what we do; kill vampires. I would take my last breath to know that you are okay. You are going to return my love someday, you'll see." Jacob is going to make a great man for someone. I have tried to have those kinds of feelings for him but I can't.

I wrote two letters one for Jacob and one for Charlie. I left Jacob's letter on his bed for him. He will always be my best friend and the one that saved me. When I was leaving the house Billy asked me where I was going. I was trying to sound convincing "I'm just going to help Emily cook for the pack today. She has been cooking nonstop for the last couple of days and I just want to help out. I'm going to stay there tonight too and I will be back in the morning." He told me to be careful and to not wonder off alone.

Stopping off at the bank on my way home. I took out what money I had in my savings account. I needed to leave here to at least protect Charlie. There wasn't enough of the pack that they could protect him anymore. They had to worry about protecting their own and their land.

Charlie would be gone for the next week anyways. Everyone was reporting within the Tri-County to figure out what was killing all those people. I just hoped that the vampires would not find him.

When I got home I was trying to decide where I was going to go. I left the letter on the table telling Charlie that I was going to my moms and not to worry. I am not going there either. The vampires would just kill her and Phil then. Maybe the vampires will follow me and leave everyone else alone or just finish the job so that this will finally be over with.

Hearing someone coming through the front door downstairs. My heart was beating a hundred miles a minute. Was this going to be the night that I meet my final destination?

Trying to decide which one would be worse; getting killed quickly tonight so that I no longer would have to keep running from the evil vampires that wanted me dead. Or keep dyeing inside slowly for the vampires that I love so much that left me behind because they didn't care or didn't love me back. I think the quicker way is the better option because either way I am on my way to hell right now. At least if they kill me they will stop hurting the ones that I love and so will I.

Yelling hello downstairs to whoever was there but, no one answered me. I went downstairs because at this point the outcome really didn't matter to me. I saw Paul standing at the bottom of the stairs. Maybe he came here to continue telling me how much he hates me.

He waited until I got down to the bottom of the stairs "You need to pack fast. There is going to be more leeches coming. I came to get you out of here." Why would they send him here? They all know how much he hates me. I know that Jacob wouldn't so I was going to use caution with him. Maybe Jacob got hurt and they had no other choice but him.

"Why did they send you to get me and bring me back? Is Jacob alright? I'm not going back to the reservation. I have decided that I am only hurting the people who I love. I just want this nightmare to be over with." Tears were coming and I was trying to be strong. I am tired of being the weakest link to everyone and them having to take care of me. So I held them back because he is the last person that I wanted to see me cry.

He was smug "No one sent me first of all. Jacob is still out on patrol. We are not going back to the reservation. We are leaving this town to save what brothers that I have left. They will all be slaughtered trying to save your dumb ass." I hate him as much as he hates me. That is usually a word that I do not use but for him I will make the exception.

Walking back up the stairs and totally ignoring Paul "Thanks but no thanks. I don't understand why you're here but I am not going anywhere with you. So you can fucking leave now."

Paul grabbed me off of the stairs and had me pushed up against the wall before I even knew what was happening "You don't fucking get it do you? This is not an option. I am ignoring the direct orders of Sam by leaving the reservation. Do you know what will happen when he figures out that I just left and I am not coming back? You will leave with me one way or another. I am trying to save you so don't try my patience. Now go pack your shit and get your ass in the car." Then he let go of me.

Paul scares me and I wasn't sure that I could trust him "Why would you want to save me? You hate me and tell me so all the time. How do I know that you are telling me the truth about anything and that you won't hurt me?"

He rolled his eyes "If I wanted to hurt you, I would have done it already, duh. I can't save everyone else without saving your ass too. Besides I… I just have my reasons so do it. Oh and one more thing. You can't piss me off or I will phase. This is going to be hard for you. Because when you are near me; I get pissed off. But if I phase then everyone will know where we are because they will be in my head." He is such an asshole. I wasn't going anywhere with him. I just had to think of a way to get him out of the house.

Telling him that I would go with him but, I wasn't. I just needed a few minutes to get my stuff together to wait for me in the car. When he went out the door I locked it "Ha, I'm not going anywhere with you. What do you think about that you stupid wolf bitch?" Damn that felt good even though I had to do it through a locked door. I am getting really tired of him calling me a bitch. So I wonder how he likes it.

I went back upstairs so that I could call Jacob and tell him about Paul coming here for me. When I walked into my bedroom Paul was standing by the window. Fuck he came back in through the opened window.

"Bella I don't think you are getting the whole meaning of don't piss me off. This is how this is going to work. If you pull one more stunt, I will do a vampire drive by and throw you out the window of my fucking car to the vamps myself. Now pack your shit." I bet that he would love to throw me to them too.

Paul started to walk out of my bedroom door and stopped but he never turned around "You have two choices right now. Leave with me on your own or I will take you against your will. I am not going to wait long. So if I were you I would make your decision quick. You have five minutes so don't make me come back in here." Then he walked out the door.

I hope that you enjoyed reading me. I am not sure how much longer that I will be allowed to continue this story on this site. I heard the song: Little red riding hood you sure are looking good. You're everything that a big bad wolf could want.

I had that silly song in my head all day. I thought of Paul and came up this story.