A/N This is my first fan fiction and it might be a little awkwardly worded but I hope you like it! All rrights go to Suzanne Collins, the owner of The Hunger Games

Chapter 1

[December]

My eyes slowly flutter open adjusting to the sunlight shining through the window. I am pleasantly surprised to see that Peeta is still lying with his arms wrapped around me. He looks so peaceful I can't bear to wake him up. I just lay there watching him sleep, by his long eyelashes. I shift my weight to lie back down but I wake him up. I just look into his beautiful blue eyes apologetically.

He smiles at me and kisses me forehead as he climbs out of my bed. I follow his lead and drag myself from the warm bed bracing myself for the cool air surrounding me. He wraps me up into his strong arms and says "I love you." I can hear the tenderness in voice. I smile into his chest and stand on my tip toes and kiss him, "I love you too"

I grab his hand as we walk downstairs "Are you hungry" I ask as I pull a large pan out of the cabinet. "Very, how about an omelet?" although by the way he grabs the eggs from the fridge I know I will have no say. I walk over to the table and just watch him work his magic. Although he is a baker he works wonders on any type of food transforming it into a delicious mouthwatering meal.

After breakfast he walks back upstairs and changes into his work clothes and apron. After the reconstruction he finally was able to open his own bakery. Things have gotten better for us we picked our old routines back up and Peeta rarely ever has flashbacks anymore. I grab my bow and arrows and head out the door to hunt.

I look into the town as the new buildings are being painted and many are opened now. I glance at Peeta's new bakery and make a mental note to pick some berries for him to bake into a pie. As I pass the fence I take in welcoming aroma of the woods.

I catch two squirrels, a rabbit, strawberries and blueberries and even a wild turkey. Today was pretty successful. I decide it is time to head back to the Victor's Village when the sky tells me it's around noon time. It's starting to get unbearably cold. I sling my hunting bag over my shoulder and head on my way.

I am just passing the town when I see Delly exit rush towards me. After District 12 was rebuilt she came from 13 and managed to get a new job at the Justice building. She is the one that gives out all the permits and licenses. She is wearing a yellow sundress that hugs her torso and flows out down to her knees, it flatters her.

"Katniss!" she pants at me catching her breath, "Hey Delly" I reply. She smiles in return then her face turns serious, "I just wanted to say I am so sorry to hear Peeta has to go to District 4 for 6 months. If you need anything you know where I live." She pats my shoulder as she turns to go back into the building.

I just stand there while the words sink in. The hurt I feel turn into pure anger. Why didn't Peeta tell me? I remember he mentioned something about it weeks ago but said he wasn't going. How could he lie to me?

I stomp into town and slam the bakery door open, it crashes into the wall then quickly swings shut, announcing my arrival.

Hearing the commotion Peeta walks from the back with flour all over him holding the icing he was just using. His smile vanishes when he sees how angry I am.

"How could you." I spit at him through my teeth. Confusion fills his eyes. "How could you lie to me about going to District 4 for six months? Don't you think I deserve to know? Or were you just going to leave and not tell me? Do you not trust me enough to tell me? You say you love me then pull something like this. Maybe you really don't afterall."

The words come out more harshly than I intended but at this point I just need to know why

He stares at me, the confusion changes to hurt. "I was going to tell you I was just waiting for the right time. You know I love you and I just couldn't bear to hurt you by telling you. I was going to tell you tonight though." He gently grabs my hand to reassure me, but I quickly yank it free.

"Peeta, you wait until two days before you leave to tell me when you have known for week, no months even. I just can't do this anymore you are leaving me for half a year and you don't bother to tell me. Maybe we should take a break from us. Clear your head see how you really feel."

I begin to stalk out of the bakery. When I reach the door I turn to look back, and manage to choke out "Have a good trip." I look at him and sprint out.

I can hear him shouting after me "Katniss wait! It isn't like that! Please wait!" But I have to get out of there before I do something stupid like cry.

I don't even make it back my house before I slump down and cry. It sinks in that I won't see him for a whole 6 months since I can't leave District 12. I know I am being selfish but I can't help it. I will miss him. I have been in his constant company for over a year and now he's suddenly leaving me and doesn't bother to even tell me, I had to find out from Delly, of all people.

Then it sinks in, who will help me fight away the nightmares? Comfort me when I think of Prim? Maybe I was being too harsh on him though, he did say he was going to tell me. I shake the thoughts from my mind.

I force myself to stand up and walk home. Anger flows over me as I walk into our bedroom. It wasn't officially said we'd move in together but after all the nights he spent over and days we were together here his stuff gradually started coming. First a shirt here and there then finally he moved in a majority of his clothing and personal items.

I pull the dresser drawers open and throw everything into the hallway that belongs to him. I finish just in time, I fall onto the bed and begin to sob. My body shutters as each cry escapes my throat.

I wake up to buttercup sitting on my chest. I must have fallen asleep. I look over at the clock, 6:28. Peeta will be home soon. I push the thought out of my mind. I don't care. He lied to me.

I sit on my bed as I pet Buttercup and see the picture of us. We were so happy wrapped in each other's arms watching the sunset. I ruined it. I can't accept the fact that I was happy and I pushed him away. My fingertips trace the outline of Peeta's silhouette. I set the picture back on the dresser.

I examine the contents of the dresser, the top is covered in gifts from Peeta to me. I catch a glimpse of the Pearl he gave me during the Quarter Quell. The tears sting my eyes as they silently roll down my cheeks. I grip the pearl in my hand as I feel the smoothness

I just want to shut out the world. I crawl back in bed when I hear the front door open.

Peeta POV

"Katniss?" I call hoping we can talk. I feel terrible I didn't tell her sooner. I hope she will just listen to me. We got so close I didn't want to ruin it by mentioning the trip. I look in the kitchen and living room and they are empty.

I turn and begin to climb the steps. When I reach the top tears well up in my eyes. I look at all my clothes sprawled out on the floor. It's really over she'll never forgive me for what I did.

I turn the knob on the bedroom door. It's locked. I sigh and knock, "Katniss please open up, we need to talk." I hear a shifting in the room and I try the knob again. No luck. "Okay, please just listen to me. I love you so much. I would do anything to make it up to you. I realize what I did was wrong I should have told you about the trip sooner but I didn't and I regret that. Please just know that I would never do this on purp-" Her voice cuts me off, "Just leave. I hope you have a good life" I hear the sobs as I gather up my clothes.

"I guess this is good bye for now, Katniss" My voice cracks at the end as a lump forms in my throat. The tears begin to flow endlessly. I really messed up. She will hate me now. I grab a pen and paper and write her a letter. I tell her where I will be, the address, and the number. I tell her to call me if she ever wants to talk and most of all that I love her.