Chapter 4

Perfect instability

A/N: XC I got purple hair dye from HEB a few weeks back and I used it today with the help of my mother. WELL, my mom didn't put the bleach on right and now half of my head is purple while the other is dark brown, though it looks like I have purple highlights (some parts are strawberry blonde though LOL) I'm not mad though, it was actually pretty funny XD
On another note: I would have gotten this up a day earlier buuut...My cousins came over (they live five hours away) giving a day's notice before they set out (the conversation: "Hey, we're coming over on Friday so get a room ready for us!") and when people are at my house I CAN'T WORK! I hate it sooo much! Plus I had to babysit the two kids and the little girl is sooo clingy so I couldn't get away for even a minute without her following me! Sorry for my bitching but geez, it irritated the fuck out of me (not to mention she thought everything in my room was for her including my ipod, computer, bed, ect.)

ONWARDS! -with a vengeance beeyatches

XxX (Do I usually put these in the beginning?)

B had stayed in the infirmary for an hour then his worried brother came and picked him up, seething all the while.

"Who the fuck did this to you, Beyond? I'll fucking kill them!" Alfred growled and grabbed B's hand, muttering profanity he usually flinched at. B got in the back of the car and laid down, head aching from the heat and the walk, A carefully drove and stayed silent. Though Beyond could see his white-knuckled grip on the steering wheel and jerky movements.

"I'm fine." B simply said and A swerved to pull over, he unbuckled his seat belt and turned swiftly around.

"It's NOT alright B! You could have gotten killed by that lunatic! Think about how mum and I feel when you come home fucking hurt, we feel worse pain then you do! How do you think it feels to see my fucking brother getting his ass kicked because of some fucking slut? Fucking horrible!" A yelled at him, B's headache got worse as he rose up angrily.

"Think about how I felt when YOU'RE fucking friends beat the shit out of me in front you! Now you want to protect me? Bullshit! For your information I didn't get my ass 'kicked', the fucking idiot came up behind me, I had Light on the ground! Don't you even fucking DARE call L a slut! Call him that ever again and I will fucking kill you even if you are my brother!" B screamed at him and opened the car door. He got out quickly and slammed the door as hard as he could, nearly breaking the glass.

"I hate you so much right now, just leave me alone and stay out of my life!" B though it was a little childish but he was seeing red right now. He thought his own brother could sympathize with him, but apparently that was just wishful thinking.

Suddenly a hand yanked his arm back and B faced the furious face of his brother, without thinking B raised his fist and decked him in the face.

"Don't. Fucking. Touch me." B hissed and pulled his hand away from A's. He ran towards the school and didn't stop until he was behind the building, hiding behind the dumpsters.

XxX

A held his jaw in wonder, B had just hit him. His B had looked at him with pure disgust and hate, he just wanted to die. Tears slid down the brunette's cheeks as he slowly walked back to the car, he got in and sat for a while.

"I fucking hate him!" He yelled and slammed his hands down on the steering wheel.

"So why do I love him so damn much? I should hate him for what he said to me! I-I just...What is wrong with me? A brother shouldn't love his younger brother in this sick way!" He yelled to himself and hunched his back, hiding his tear streaked face from the window.

"He hates me so much...Why should I love him?" A mumbled to himself and dissolved into anguished sobs. He sat there even longer until his body stopped trembling from his cries, he made up his mind and drove to the nearest bar. He knew what he was going to do to stall his arrival home.

XxX

After an hour of sitting behind the dumpster, B began to walk home. He cursed when he remembered he had left his bag in the car with A. Speaking of A, what was his problem? When he got there he was pleased to see that A wasn't home yet. B quickly made himself a bowl of ramen and left one out for A, he ate and receded to his bedroom.

The nurse had told him that he was excused from school for two days, which considering that he had decked his own brother and proclaimed his hatred for him, he guessed that it was going to be awkward. He threw himself onto his bed and thought about it. Sure he could take the comment about getting his ass kicked, since he kind of did. However the L comment made him see red, it pissed him off beyond (A/N: see what I did there? FAIL on my part) belief. He had no right to go there, he deserved the punch to the face.

"Still, it was pretty harsh of me...Well fuck. Maybe I'll apologize to him when he gets home. Maybe..." B sighed and rolled over. He decided to wait for A to come home but soon midnight rolled around and still no one came home. It wasn't until two in the morning that the door finally slammed open and then shut. B was jarred from his thoughts and smiled, not noticing the time. He got up and padded into the main room where A was leaning against the wall for support.

"Hey, A. Sorry about earlier, it's just I really like L and I don't like that you called him that name. He gets bullied a lot at school anyway and just hearing it from my own brother just set my fuse." B apologized awkwardly and walked towards him. A smiled and wobbled closer to his younger brother.

"S'okay B, I love ya so I forgive ya..." A trailed off and pulled B in for a hug, B was taken aback by the stench of alcohol.

"God A, your breathe reeks of beer." B was suddenly unsure about this, A obviously wasn't sober and the raven didn't know how he was like drunk. He yelped when he felt a hand go under his shirt.

"A, please get your hands off me." B commanded and yelped again when the hand traveled from his back to the front of his chest and circled a nipple.

"B...if you're really sorry then help me..." A whispered and grabbed his brother's right hand and placed it upon his bulge. B blanched and tried to wrench his body from A's drunken grasp.

"Alfred, this isn't funny! Take your hand off of me now! Leave me alone or-or I'll tell mum!" B yelled and tried to kick or knee his older brother. His back was violently shoved against the wall, he looked up and saw his brother's eyes. This wasn't Alfred, it was a different man. His hands traveled lower on Beyond's body until they reached his jeans.

"Please...don't do this, Alfred." B pleaded and tried to shove those hands away, he was getting creeped out and disgusted by A's actions. A just replied with slamming his lips against Beyond's, the receiving boy hissed in pain and fought with renewed vigor. His first kiss was taken...by his own brother. Now the feeling of disgust was prominent, he also felt hurt wheedle it's way into the mix.

"Fuck Alfred! Get the fuck off me!" B screamed when A came up for air, he rose his hand and slapped him hard across the face. Time seemed to have stopped, A staggered back and gingerly touched his face. Rage enveloped him and he picked up the nearest object (which was a lamp) and threw it hard at his brother. It clipped him on the leg, cursing himself, B ran out the door and didn't care if A was on his tail or not. Using his hands, he vaulted himself over a wooden fence and landed in an alley. Running down it and into a desolate park. He stopped running and limped to a tree, climbing it and resting on a tree branch.

Mum, please come home... B thought and stared up at the sky, happy to see a full moon. What the hell just happened? His own brother had kissed him and practically molested him.

"Can I forgive him? Pfft, he calls L the slut?" B just shook his head.

XxX (two days later~)

B was glad his brother had a job, else he would have been stuck with A for two days. Thankfully their mother was coming home that night, B probably couldn't have taken another night like the one two days prior. He had retrieved his bag and set off for school, thinking about what he had missed and happy to see L. He wondered how L must've gotten on without him, probably glad without the constant fights. He walked into the building and saw L talking to his friends but when he glanced at B, he dismissed himself and walked away.

"So he's avoiding me now..." B sighed and trotted slowly to his class. L was sitting in his normal seat beside B, but his body language clearly explained that he was uncomfortable. B sat down and turned to talk to the raven but immediately stopped when he saw L's neck. Several faint hickeys littered his neck, some bite marks and scratches. B felt rage swell inside his body, he knew it was Light and it infuriated him.

"L, who did this?" B couldn't help the shake in his voice, he was just so pissed. When L didn't answer B averted his eyes and scribbled on his notebook.

"Whatever, I can't believe I thought you were different." B sighed and felt something painful pang inside his chest. His eyes prickled with stabbing heat, growling in vexation he wiped his eyes and glared hatefully at the desk. He just couldn't look at L, it sent more throbbing pain into his body.

"I'm sorry." L choked out, unlike himself. B didn't look at him, it was too painful.

"Please come to lunch with me and I'll explain everything..." L said quietly.

"I can't...I fucking got beat up for you L! How can you just do this to me?" B demanded, his voice getting louder until it rang in the classroom.

"Mr. Birthday! To the office!" He barked,

A/N: Hey guys! I seriously would have uploaded yesterday on Saturday. So pretty much Thursday I took a break (I regretted it), Friday my cousins came over like I said before, Saturday we were having rolling blackouts and some storms so I couldn't upload. This chapter was supposed to be one chapter but I was like "Fuck it, if this crap keeps happening then I'll never get it out!" So expect part 2 of this chap tomorrow (If something else doesn't come up). Sorry I've been bitching waaay to much, mormally I don't but damn, this week just sucks.