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Okay so I lied, after this one it will likely be 2 more chapters.

But because my GCSE exams are starting soon and they don't end until the 17th of June so I won't be putting up any more chappies. SO, I decided to leave you with this chapter albeit a wee bit short, before I go off the map for a while though I assure you, after my last exam I will promise to upload the rest of the story :) !

So this is like an outtake type chapter, it's in Merlin's POV but only for this one time.]

Hope you enjoy! Sorry its so short but I wanted to leave you with at least something :')

Disclaimer: See every other chapter.

I bit back a sob.

I wiped my nose with my hand before crawling to look under my bed. Picking up the floor board, I gingerly took out the brown pouch and raised it to my eyes.

"Why are you causing me so bother?" I muttered angrily at it. As if I expected it to talk back. So I threw it to the other side of the wall, sighing when I realised I would have to put it back where it belonged later.

I crossed my arms over my chest and scowled at the candle light.

Why was this all so complicated?!

What had I done to deserve this? I had, and still do, protect Arthur with all my being and still the gods think to play around with me.

I growled in frustration.

No. I... I couldn't do it. But I had to. Even if it would go up in my face. I would have to try.

For Arthur.

I walked back to the where the brown pouch was and placed it back into the floor.

Laying down in my bed, I blew out my candle.

Arthur knew something was wrong. Of course he knew. It would be the same for me to know what was wrong with him.

But sometimes I wish he didn't know me so well.

I couldn't tell him though. No, this would be something I had to do on my own. And he wouldn't understand anyway. No one did. No one knew what I was to do. And tomorrow, I would be a total fraud. And Arthur would think why he even bothered with me in the first place.

Now the tears came.

So I hugged my legs to my chest and closed my eyes, wondering if sleep would overcome me tonight.

So this is it until June. Please stay in tune. Oh! ANd please review, it'll make me tres tres happy! :3