Author's Note: So, I know I've messed up on my last two stories because I wrote it on my ipad. I want all of you who read my stories to know that you are more than welcome to send me a message or review saying any suggestions or ideas you might have. I'm thinking to make this story into more than one chapter, but I'm still not sure.


Missed my chance

Jane

I just couldn't believe it. I was in love with my best friend, Billy Nutter. My best friend of twelve years. Eli had made me realize that, well, I kinda already knew I just wasn't sure about it.

"Is there anyone who knows the real Jane Quimby? There is one person. Let me guess, the complicated best friend. Well,...sounds like you should be with him." I wanted that more than ever right now.

This breaks my heart. Watching him now. With her. All I wanted to do was run off into one of the dressing rooms and cry my eyes out. But, I knew I couldn't. Billy needed me here. And, I was going to be there when he needed me from now on. He deserves that. He was always there for me, it was the least I could do.

This was it. The play was coming to an end. I couldn't stand this torture any longer. I thought I'd burst into tears a long time ago. But no, I'd held it together, and I wasn't about to crack now. I hoped. That's when he said it.

"It's you." Billy said to Zoe has he slid my bedazzled glass slipper (which were really heels) onto her. The fashion show.

"It's you, Janey." I thought I was going to cry right then and there. I now realized what Billy had really meant at the fashion show. He hadn't meant it as hey, It's you, my best friend, he had meant it as It's you, the love of my life. If I had known what he had meant I would have realized that I was in love with him too. Now I knew how he must have felt. I now knew the pain he was going through. Something in him changed. I could see it in his eyes. As soon as he said it. I think he remembered.

"You're the one." That should be me. I'm the one, or at least I should be.

"You okay?" I heard Ben ask beside me. Of course he knew something was up. He was my brother.

"Yeah." I lied. I felt awful for lying to him, but what could I say? Oh, you know, I just feel like crying because I've realized I'm in love with Billy, and hes not in love with me anymore. Yeah, that sound about right. Too bad I didn't tell him that. But, I knew I would have to sooner or later. I chose later. I knew Ben wasn't 100% sure I was telling him the truth.

To top it all of that was the kiss. My kiss. That was supposed to be my kiss. From the fashion show. I was the one Billy should have kissed, not her. I bit my lip and choked back a sob. I'd missed my chance. I knew that with all my heart I was unconditionally in love with him. In that moment more than ever. My heart ached for his. But, there wasn't one thing I could do about it.

I thought back to the first time I'd ever seen him. August twenty-eight. First day of kindergarten. I knew that he'd seen me first. Out of the corner of my eye I saw him staring at me. Something, something inside of me willed me to look at him when he wasn't looking at me. Just like him, I found it hard to look away. I'd memorized every part of his face. It was unlike anything I'd seen before. He was unlike anything I'd seen before. When I got to class everyone was drawing. I'd sat as far away from everyone else as possible. Without even noticing what I was doing, I'd drawn him.

The curtains start going down, breaking me out of the memory. I go back to help put back the costumes as I plaster the happiest face I can manage. My heart was literally breaking one piece at a time.

I've just put a costume on the rack when I see him. Billy. I think he sees me smile for real as he walks towards me.

"So, what did you think?"

"You were amazing." And it wasn't a lie. He was amazing. I'd never even given any thought to him being an actor.

"Glad you liked me." he replied grinning as he embraced me. I held onto him tightly, not wanting to ever let go. I felt that if I let go, I'd be letting him go. But, maybe that's exactly what I needed to do. Maybe, that's what he needed. I had to accept this. Billy wasn't mine anymore. He was just Billy, not my Billy anymore. Billy was slowly drifting away from me. I guess it had to happen some time around.

I hadn't even realized how long we were like that until he finally let go. If it was up to me, I would have stayed that way forever. He went up to Zoe and she pulled him away towards the cast party but, not before he shot me one final smile. But, it was almost a sad smile. Almost as if he knew that I was finally letting go. I could hear the music from the party. Another piece of my heart gone.

I think that possibly, maybe

I'm falling for you

Yes,

There's a chance

That I've fallen quite hard over you

I've seen the paths

that your eyes wander down

I want to come too

"Jane, there's some people who want to talk to you about your costumes." Ms. Clark told me as shes passing by.

I think that possibly, maybe

I'm falling for you

No one understands me

quite like you do

Through all of the shadowy corners

of me

i never knew just what it was about this

old coffee shop I love so much

"Really?" I whisper to myself. But, that's when I turn around.

All the while i never knew

There stands Gray and Eli. The last part of my heart breaks.

I think that possibly, maybe

I'm falling for you

Why are they here?

Yes,

There's a chance

That I've fallen quite hard over you

"Jane?" Gray asks me. Eli is just stand there with an I-told-you-so look on his face.

I've seen the waters

that make your eyes shine

Now I'm shining too

I don't know what to say. Gray is just standing there with her arms out slightly in front of her, waiting for my response.

Because, oh,

Because I've fallen quite hard over you

If I didn't know

I'd rather not know

If I couldn't have you

I'd rather be alone

i never knew just what it was about this

old coffee shop I love so much