"Please sit down." I didn't let her hand go and felt something hit the back of my legs. I turned and Carlos was smiling, trying to get me to sit back in my wheel chair. I sat down and Alicia reached for me. He set her down in my lap, carefully. I looked back at Jamie who was lying back smiling, silent tears coming down.

"I'll…uhh…I'll let you guys talk." Carlos patted my shoulder, softly and waved at Jamie as he walked out. As soon as the door closed I wrapped an arm around Alicia and reached up again grabbing Jamie's soft small hand.

"Kendall?" I looked in her crying eyes and nodded. "Am I going to be addicted to heroin now?" I let out a chuckle and she sat up wiping her eyes. "It's not funny! I don't want to be a heroin addict!"

"Baby you're not going to be…" She huffed and sighed, laying back down. "Do you want to do drugs?" She sat up fast again, mouth open. I laughed and Alicia giggled.

"No of course not!"

"Well then stop worrying…" I sat back relaxing and she quickly grabbed my hand. "How are you feeling everywhere else baby?" She slowly rolled her upper body, to face me and sighed reaching for Alicia who squealed out and wrapped around her fingers.

"Fine…they gave me some pain medicine. I'm actually surprised the bat to my ribs and head didn't do more damage." I looked away, pissed at myself for letting that happen to her. "I was so scared. I didn't know what they were going to do to Alicia…and I kept waiting for them to just kill me or whatever…it was…" She stopped and I quickly wiped the tears away from my eyes. "I'm sorry…I'll stop."

"No I'm sorry. This shouldn't have happened. I should have never let them in our house. I should have forced them to take me instead." She squeezed my hand and a hard burn ripped through my chest. I let go of her hand and put my hand over the burns on my chest.

"What's wrong?" She sat up on her elbow still holding on to Alicia's hand.

"Nothing…it just burns." We locked eyes and she bent down and tugged at my gown. She pushed it down off my collar bone and shoulder and sighed out when my chest came into vision. It was absolutely disgusting. I looked away from her knowing, at any moment soon, she was going to leave me, for a normal looking guy.

"Look at me." I closed my eyes and shook my head. "Baby…I'm sorry this happened to you…I…." I looked at her and she sighed reaching down at my chest.

I was expecting a horrible burn when her fingertips came into contact with my skin, but they were so cool…I closed my eyes and gasped out.

'"Oh my God I'm sorry! Babe I didn't mean to hurt you!"

"No…" I opened my eyes and leaned forward grabbing her small delicate wrist and pressing it lightly on my scars. I closed my eyes again and shivered. "It feels so…so good babe. Your hand is so cold." She relaxed her hand and I heard a sigh. "I thought for sure you would leave me." I slowly opened her eyes and she let go of Alicia. There was a sharp slap to the side of my head and I rubbed it while she pulled away.

"Owe! What was that for?"

"You think I'm that shallow?" Another slap to my head and I smiled.

"I wouldn't have blamed you from leaving." Another slap and I sat back out of reach of her hand. "Okay I'm sorry. Your right." She laid back and grabbed Alicia's hand again.

"Sometimes Schmidt…you make me want to strangle you." I laughed and leaned back close to her.

"Can I have a kiss?" She giggled and leaned forward. Our lips touched, for the first time in days, and I smiled into it. We probably would have made out the rest of the night, but a small hand came up to my chin and poked it. I pulled away and looked down. Alicia was looking up with one finger in her mouth. I laughed and Jamie's hand ran through my hair. I sat back in my chair and felt the morphine slowly, lulling me to sleep. "I'm sorry if I fall asleep on you…" She laughed and we grabbed hands again.

"It's alright…hand up Alicia." I placed a quick kiss to her head and handed her to Jamie who placed her in her arms and laid her down.

"I can call Logan's mom…she said whenever we needed her to watch Alicia…"

"That's sweet of her, but I'd like to sit with my family right now handsome." I smiled and nodded. I sat back in my chair and gave out a loud, hard yawn. "Go to sleep baby…I'll be here when you wake up." I fluttered my eyes, and soon my eyes closed, and I drifted into a dreamless, hard, happy sleep.

When I did wake up, she was still there. I was still in my chair, and slowly opened my eyes peeking at who she was talking to. She was sitting in her bed, with Alicia in her arms, sleeping. I closed my eyes again, hearing her talking.

"I kept telling myself after they told me they had dies…that I didn't want to live any more. And I wanted to fight, just so they could kill me."

"I'm sorry. I can't…I'm glad your back and you and Alicia are safe. I just wish I hadn't seen Kendall that way." It wen t quiet and quilt and nausea rushed through my body. Logan probably saw me at my worst. He would know. "I honestly think this is his last straw. I mean I can't tell you for sure but…I don't know how he could want to keep doing this after…" She interrupted him and I felt my body tense up.

"I don't know if I want him to keep doing it." It went dead silent and I heard a small sigh and then a outburst of cries. "I think she needs a change…"

"Here I'll do it. We should probably wake up Kendal too. He needs to eat with that morphine."

"Do you have to wake him…he looks so peaceful…and already awake?" I slowly opened my eyes and smiled. "Kendall Francis Schmidt, how long have you been awake?" I sat up and stretched my sore body.

"Since she started crying." Logan walked over to me, and was still wearing his uniform. "Have you been home yet?" He smiled bright at me and shook his head.

"No. I got a call…from this one…" He pointed back to Jamie and checked the IV bag standing next to my chair. "She said she wanted to talk, and she needed help with Alicia." I looked at her and she was trying desperately to stop her crying.

"Well get home dude…I can take care of my girls now." He raised his hands and shrugged his shoulders.

"Okay. I'm gone. You know my number." He patted my shoulder and walked to Jamie. He gave her a kiss to the head and did the same to Alicia. "Have fun you three." He walked out waving, and I waved until he was out of sight.

"You want me to quit. For real this time?"

"I knew you were listening! You eves dropper!" I laughed and pushed myself out of my chair. My back was so sore, and stretching it kind of helped. I slowly walked to the other side of the room and opened up the baby bag Logan's mom got for us. "Kendall I just…"

"I'm going to quit." I grabbed a new diaper, the wipes and baby powder. I walked back to her bed and she was avoiding eye contact. I set the things down and sighed, taking Alicia, still crying her eyes out, and laid her flat on her back on the bed. I slowly changed her, my body screaming at me to rest and stop moving, but I ignored it.

"I don't want you to quit because of me." She was quiet and when I looked up she was still looking away from me. I sighed and put my hands outside of Alicia who had stopped crying but still sniffling.

"Baby girl…the sooner you realize everything I do is because of you, the easy life will be for you." She looked up at me quick and I leaned in kissing her forehead.

"But you love your job!" I pulled away and continued changing her and laughed,

"Actually…I don't." We locked eyes and I tightened the diaper on Alicia. I gracefully tossed the dirty diaper in the trash an pulled Alicia up into a sitting position. "I mean…damn. I used to love my job. You have no idea how much I loved going to work every day, just so I could feel the rush of chasing down bad guys and beating the shit out of him, not literally. I was the big man. I was a tough bad ass."

"You still are." I laughed and picked Alicia up walking back to my chair. Definitely had to sit.

"Yes on some level I am. But guess what babe?" She looked up, tucking hair behind her ear. "I don't need that anymore. There was a time in my life when I thought…running around town, saving people from…thieves and murders…would fill me. It would make me feel useful and wanted. Now…I have something else to make me feel that way." She smiled and turned away. "You and Alicia are the only two things that matter to me. You give me the rush. Alicia…she is the only thing in this town, besides you of course that I would kill for. And…I think Gibbs…he needs a break from me"

"Baby…are you sure?"

"I'll give my two weeks the next time I see Captain."

"What about Carlos?" I laughed and shook my head. Alicia was now bouncing in my lap, chewing on her hand.

"Carlos is a big boy. There was a time he was ready to quit to be with his family…I think he'll understand." We locked eyes and she sighed lying back on the bed. She yawned and rubbed her eyes. "Get some sleep. I will never let something happen to you or her again." She smiled at me and nodded.

I watched her slowly force herself to go to sleep. When her eyes closed, I looked down at Alicia and smiled. Alicia let out a sigh, probably of boredom. I laughed and quickly wheeled myself to the baby bag, with her in my lap. I opened it up and found an abundance of toys. She quickly grabbed one and squealed. I laughed and felt around in the bag for some juice or a snack for her to eat. I stopped when I felt something, cold and sharp. I pulled it out, and my heart stopped. It was a picture taken a minute after Jamie gave birth to Alicia. She was holding her small crying red body, while she herself cried. I sat back looking down at the picture and smiled. Her hair was still up from the wedding. Her cheeks and nose were red, from pushing and crying. Her left hand, holding under her small head, shined bright from her rings. Out of the corner of the picture frame I could see an arm and a hand, running through her hair. It was my hand and she was looking up at me, while Carlos Logan and James stood behind me, smiling and laughing. Carlos was snapping pictures, even though she insisted, she looked to ugly and blotchy for pictures. The looked she was giving me…was of love. And pride. And most importantly safety.

I only ever wanted to see that look on her face again. And I knew the only way to do that…to ensure my family and the love of my life was safe, happy and loving, would be to quit my job. But that's looking at it negatively. I'm not quitting a job…just making time for a new one.

Father and Husband.

SO THE END! I THINK THIS IS A PERFECT PLACE TO END THIS…AND I'M NTO SURE IF THERE WILL BE MORE. I DON'T KNOW YET…IF ANYONE HAS SUGGESTIONS…HIT A GIRL UP!