A/N: Hey:) those who follow me on twitter know that it isn't a brand new story but I'm re-writing it and post it here... so main changes:
1.) the time skip as you see after a few lines above, is 4 months.. not 2 as it was before..
2.) the girl is not YN anymore, she has a name, Annie :) deal with it:)
I don't think there's nothing more, expect I fixed the mistakes, I don't think there are too many now, but if there is, please forgive me...
AND SOMETHING IMPORTANT for the end... gonna start a new story which is my favorite idea ever.. I will see how my mood is, I might post it yet today or tomorrow... Kendall and OC.. that's all about that now, gonna do a longer summary in the first chapter ...
That's all, now really.. I'm gonna try to keep up and re-write the rest and I post the new chapter what I know everyone waits for, within a few minutes after this... sorry for confusing those who have no idea what this is all about... the main thing is, read the story and review if you like it :) later it will get better, i promise.. i can't change too many things now because with that i would confuse everyone else who reads this already... oh so thanks and love!
-Chapter 1-
"Please, for God's sake, let me kiss you once again." He begged her in the backstage of the theater, just before they should have gotten out to the stage and play in front of everyone for the first time.
She sighed, "no, I can't do it. It hurts too much. Why can't you understand that?"
"Tell me that the pain what it causes isn't worth the joy what it gives." He stepped closer and she was squeezed in between a wall and his body. His breath at the end of the sentence, hit against her lips. So hot. The warmth reminded her of their earlier kisses. His mouth was incredibly warm every time he touched her, everything in him was just hotter than the sun, burning, and she would be lying to say that she didn't like it. He warmed her up, he comforted her, and yes the pain it caused, the emotional pain what she felt afterward of the guilty pleasure, was totally worth it.
The silence what followed his question assured him that she never doubted that it wasn't worth it.
Begging eyes came closer and closer to her along with waiting and delicious lips, with craving hotness, and she wasn't able to push him away.
Their lips crashed together and the meet was as hot as ever. Burnt both of them, lips, heart and every little part of their body. Not only because of the heat was naturally between them but from the guilt, they knew they mustn't do it and yet it happened all over again and more often, day after day, they wanted more of each other.
Their deepening kiss turned into a rough make out session, hips pressed together and Kendall's hands were all over her, as well as hers on Kendall.
It was way the most dangerous thing they ever did. Out there and somewhere around the backstage, people were everywhere. Right then it didn't matter if they got caught. They lost it.
4 months earlier
Annie was satisfied, her first day in LA was starting well. The plane just then landed and she couldn't tell with words how much she already loved this city. Somehow she could get a cab so soon arrived to the campus which was only for about a 10 minutes walk away from the college's buildings. At least the prospects said this. We will see how much it takes to me. She thought getting out of the car and looking around.
Pretty nice place. So is everything else here. At first sight at least. And with that when the driver brought her suitcases out of the trunk she was standing there with six huge suitcases and had no idea how she'd take them up to the campus.
She saw a lot of people around, young girls and guys were around her age or a bit younger some of them and since she was not that chicken-hearted girl she was trying to ask them if they can help.
"Sorry I'm late" the most of them answered something similar.
That was weird for her. It wasn't even the first day of school and everyone was in a rush.
That was just the first week called 'registration week' when everyone got their campus rooms, got enough time to get their books or stuff, they register for the first semester. You can think it from the week's name and of course they were having some awesome parties before it all begins.
So she didn't get it what was that rush.
Though she grew up in New York, she hated the crowd and people who were too busy to pay a little attention to others, hoped she could get somehow out of that lifestyle but LA seemed to be similar.
She turned around after asking a cute guy for help when he denied her, and a blonde guy bumped into her with his skateboard. It was close, they both almost fell. "You better look out" he said being rude as much as he could 'excuse me?' Annie raised an eyebrow "you're the one who bumped into me."
"Ah yeah but you're the one who is standing in the middle of the way with her huge suitcases" he pointed at her with his finger.
Annie shot it down "Yeah, because here is everyone such a busy person that they can't help me to move away from the middle of your freaking way" she said frustrated punching his arm.
"Wahhh if you're talking to them like this don't wonder" he said and hopped on his stupid skateboard and was about to leave.
"How do you mean that?" she asked rolling him off his toy by grabbing his arm. Uh his muscular arm, I have to admit it feels good to hold him like that. She then quickly realized what she was just thinking about and let him go.
"Hey, hey just keep the distance okay?" he gave her a look she couldn't get.
"Who do you think you are just bumping into a girl and saying stuff like that?"
"Who do YOU think you are to talking to ME like that?" he continued arguing with her.
"Hah I don't think I am anyone here, you're right I'm nothing but you don't have the right to talk to me like this."
"Why?" he lifted an eyebrow.
'WHY? Just because a guy, who almost makes a girl fall, mustn't talk like this."
"Don't tell me how to talk to girls or to anyone else. Move your ass and let me leave."
"Fuck off" Annie said half loud half quiet and stepped backward, with that he left.
She wondered for a few seconds, thinking about this idiot and soon she tried for some more time to ask for help but then after more people defying she just sat down on the biggest back pack after a half hour passing without anyone willing to help. What's wrong with me? Why just can't they help to me? It won't take more than ten minutes.
"Great. People in LA are rude" she sighed and didn't realize she said it out loud.
"Uhm, maybe some of them are, but not everyone" she snapped out of her thoughts by the soft voice and looking up found a tall brown haired, muscular guy standing in front of her. She stood up quickly and in that moment she noticed herself looking into the most gorgeous brown eyes on earth.
She realized it could seem like she checked him out so she shyly turned her look away but felt her face getting a shade of red how he carefully placed his fingers under her chin and lifted up her head forcing her to look at him again.
"Don't be shy to look at me. I don't bite" he said.
"Maybe not everyone that rude as the others" she said trying to get her normal mind back, but his eyes made her paralyzed.
"I'm pretty sure in that" he kept smiling "do I look like a rude one?"
"You look like a cute one" she spat out something like that and wondered what she just said.
"So are you" he quietly noted and gave her an awesome smile. A perfect one of his, Annie was sure even if this was one of the first ones what she'd seen from him.
"So why LA people are rude?" he asked.
"Uh, I just arrived here" she began and turned her face onto her suitcases around them "and whoever I asked wasn't able to give me a hand. A guy even told me I'm rude to people and stuff. In fact I was just pissed because nobody seemed to help me, so that's why."
"Who was that?" he asked.
"Some stupid guy with skateboard and blonde hair and bunch of colorful bracelets. No matter" she answered and then realized how much she studied the strange, rude blonde. Annie remembered even the bracelets and she know he was wearing some shorts and a white tank top. His muscular arms showed up in front of her eyes again. He wasn't bad at all but such a jerk.
"Ahh, skateboard, blonde" he mumbled snapping Annie out and wondered for a second. But then began again noticing he was lost for a minute, "anyways pretty much suitcases for one girl" he giggled and she just punched his arm "hey, yeah maybe but I won't be able to go home for a half year or more so I need everything to be with me here" and he was just caressing his arm where her fist hit his arm.
"No girl on earth who dares to punch me like this" he said but he smiled.
Why is he smiling at me, without stopping?
"Sorry" she said ashamed "I didn't mean, I just hate when people come up with stuff like this." Uh I really deserve that what that blonde guy said.
"No problem hey, I am glad you did it. I mean girls around me are not like you. They think they have to be careful and they never dare to argue with me in anything."
"Why?" she asked looking back up at him again.
"They are scared that they lose their chance" he said and looked like a bit embarrassed to talk about it.
"Oh I got it. So you are here something like the famous guy, right?"
"Haha, no but, maybe, I don't really know why others think I am that famous guy."
This cute guy didn't know why. I had to tell him why.
"Why?" she began laughing "just look at yourself and then start to talk to yourself. Every girl wants a guy next to her like you are" her hand immediately landed on her mouth. Oh my god, what I said again?
Meanwhile this conversation a bunch of people was walking by them and they all said a 'hey' or 'hello' not to her, -she noticed- to him. So she was sure in it, he was the big face. Before he began to talk to her nobody said a word who walked by. He was the guy there, every girl wanted him. She was sure.
"You are something you know?" he asked reaching his hand out. She grabbed it and they shook hands, "I do, I am Annie Swift."
'Any kind of relation with Taylor Swift?" he asked joking.
She laughed, "no, unfortunately but I love her music, so that's it."
"Good. I'm James, Diamond. And glad to know you. So if you asked a lot of people around here and nobody gave you hand, what if I offer mine without you asking me to do that?"
"I would say a huge thanks" she answered and smiled at him. I smile at him. Gosh. Since he was around her she was smiling non-stop.
He grabbed one of the back packs, lobbed it over his shoulder "I will make sure about you to keep your word" he winked and then grabbed other two suitcases of hers which had wheels, so did her and with that they headed to the front door of the campus. That's going to be an interesting year. She smiled again at him.
They reached in to the building and walked up to the counter, so Annie could ask the young girl if she can tell where she can check in. She showed her the way where to go and gave a smile to James. Man, here every girl is into him. She shook her head and with that followed by James she made it to the dormitory's principal's office.
During the whole time while James and Annie were walking outside towards the building, they were talking about random stuff. He asked where she came and what she was going to study and why she decided to spend her senior year at another place.
"It has nothing special reason. I just desire for some adventure." She just finished talking about her decision when they reached in and with that they stopped talking. Annie could see it was a girl campus and every each girl who they had met on their way to the office, was studying James and her. Annie began to speak again when they got to the office and the girl from before said they needed to wait till the one who was inside would come out. So they just sat down next to the door.
"Why did they stare at us?" she asked and he turned to her with an ashamed look "sorry in advance but when so many girls see me with another girl that is going to start some gossips."
"Gossips? Why?" Annie asked and gave him a weird look.
"Ah yeah. You know since I am here I haven't met a normal girl who didn't want to be with me only because I am good looking and the famous guy here and whenever they see me alone with a girl they start whispering." He took her hand and looked deeply into her eyes again "I honestly sorry."
"You don't have to sorry. And if you want you can leave me now here. I don't need more help I think, if it's uncomfortable for you …"
He cut her word off "no, no, never. It's nothing but good to me to be here helping you."
"But if you don't want them to see you with girls.."
He did it again "I don't care, just wanted to warn you. I won't leave you here. I like to be with you, I want to be your friend or something."
Ignoring the 'friend or something' part, Annie began again, hoping he won't cut her off this time, "okay, thanks. I think. That's good if you want me around. Anyways I know how you feel, I thought college is different but I learnt it isn't. It is almost like high-school. In a way its worse because here people can be even ruder, despite of the fact that we are not here to fight for some teenage love. The most of us is here to study and build some base of their future. But I know right everyone is eager for gossips and people like to ruin other's life. So if gossiping happens it won't be your fault and I can deal with them. Annie said caressing his hand in her and neither of that realized that someone stood in front of them and watched the scene. It just felt so good for them to hold hands, they forgot about the world's existence around them.
They didn't notice the person till she began to speak, "you can go in if you're the next" and with that she left. Before James or Annie could check who that was, she disappeared.
"I will wait here."James said when Annie stood up and let his hand slip out of hers. She missed the touch already but now they needed to separate for a while. Annie nodded and showed him a smile again and with that walked in to the office.
When she finished with the principal, she got her keys and signed the papers what she had to, and headed outside. When she once was out, she saw James was still sitting there how he promised and looked after Annie's packs.
"Bad news." She said.
"What?" he looked worried.
"No, not that bad." Annie calmed him down with another smile and a wave of her hand with the key of her room in it. "I got a room on the fifth floor so we have to bring this whole stuff up there." She giggled and he began to laugh "you scared me you know?"
"I do." She replied and with that they picked up her suitcases how they did earlier and headed up to the 5th floor by elevator of course.
"Your luck that you came in time or I couldn't be here." James said when they got into the elevator and Annie pressed the button with the number 5 on it.
"Why?"
"Because it's a dormitory to girls and I can only be here because today the gates are open to make it easy to move in again. So everyone can come in to help the students." he explained.
"Ah. I see. Sure it's in the rules, I will read that later." Annie said. "I am glad you could come in." she smiled again "and honestly I would love to hang out here together after you helped me to move in, uh you know, I don't know why I ask this I don't wanna seem like those other girls but I really … uh .. I don't know why I am acting like this, I am not that chicken but after what you said about the girls I don't wanna be like them .. I don't want you to see me like them so you know … " she smiled shyly and the door opened so they got out.
"Sure. I would be honored if we could spend the rest of the day together." James helped Annie out of her girly embarrassment.
"Nice, thank you James." Her sweet smile again appeared on her face. James smiled back, enjoying that he made her smile all the time. And she wondered how it was possible. She had never smiled this much at a guy in her entire life before and now during this half hour since she had known him, she smiled, a lot. A lot like that.
They found her room and she opened it with the keys what she got downstairs in the office. It's pretty big and there were three beds. Roommates, she immediately thought. But nobody was there yet so she just chose a bed and put her handbag and the smallest bags on it. The others next to it and then she turned to James who was standing in front of the window staring out of it. "What are you seeing?" Annie asked stepping behind him.
"Uh just, it's the 5th floor. My room is on the 2nd in the next building." he said turning back to her and holding out for her hand. Annie grabbed it and pulled him closer, so only a few inches were between them. "Now you shyly invited me to check your room till we can wander free between the campuses?" she asked and saw the spark in his eyes.
"Kind of. If you want to come. Just to show you where to look after me if there is nobody to give you a hand." he smiled and leant closer. His breath caressed Annie's cheeks how he turned his face to the right to tuck some hair behind her ear. His fingers were tickling her skin and she felt her face turning into red again.
"You said we mustn't go over to the other dormitory." She whispered.
"Uhm, if you read the rules you will know there are a few hours when you allowed to visit the other campus but you can't stay there for night and you can't be there all day every day when you want. They check this severely. And of course there are some special occasions when it's allowed to stay longer time over there if you want to do so. When we have parties or something." James explained, his voice sounded amazingly gorgeous as gorgeous he was.
Letting him touch her nose with his, she said "I already like this when you are so deep in explaining. What are those special occasions?"
"You will see soon." he smiled.
Their lips were close like he was about to kiss her. She'd waited it to happen, wondered if chemistry can form between them so easily, after a few minutes of knowing each other. She never was that kind of girl but right there and then she didn't even care if he would have kissed her. There was something in him. Is that bad if I want to kiss him? She couldn't help but leant closer waiting the kiss to happen soon.
When his lips got dangerously close to her, she began to talk "I don't wonder why you're the famous here."
Their lips almost brushed each others' when he responded "you don't?"
"No" she said shortly. "But I am really curious were you always like this?" she asked just to keep up the conversation and avoid the possible kiss what came closer by every single second.
Some nervous showed up in his eyes how he answered. "No, I weren't." James stopped obviously waiting for Annie to move over the topic and ask something else or kiss him instead but she never said a word so he continued embarrassed.
"But I don't know where it started. I mean I think it was slow and somehow it worked out like this. I would like to be invisible sometimes. I don't know why I am so special in the girl's eyes when none of them knows how it feels to be my girlfriend." It surprised her. It means he hasn't had a girlfriend from here since he studies here.
She gave him a weird look, but cute weird, raising her eyebrows and trying to lean back slowly. "You mean there are these many girls into you and you have never dated any of them?"
"Yup" he said shortly "and I don't think if I want to change that." he continued and Annie saw in his eyes he was studying her facial expressions so she didn't show any feelings on her face. Even if she had many of those in that moment. She was kind of disappointed to hear all of that what just now slipped out of James' mouth. He didn't want a relationship. It came out weird though. He almost kissed her and yet he said he didn't want to get a girl. Already confusing and mysterious and gorgeous. All those things just made her even more interested in him.
Annie didn't know what to say so she simply asked "why?"
"They're fighting all over me already. They begin to hate each other if I give one more look to any of them than the others, or if I accidentally touch her hand. That is why; I don't want to make more problems. Not for me, for the girl who would be the lucky one." James had a magical smile and he showed it again and again, sweeping Annie off her legs without even willing to do it.
"You know your hand just touches my skin and makes me trembling already, I can understand them."
"You do?" he asked. "What would if I touched your lips?"
"Try me." she said shortly hoping if she was wrong a minute before and she still did have a chance if he flirted her like this, and was about to lean back that close how they were before.
"Later." He said and with that released her.
She couldn't understand him and she again noticed that she liked that. Annie liked when she couldn't count it out what comes in the next moment. She liked the challenge but now she didn't want to be challenged, but kissed, by James.
Before she could ask what that I-flirt-with-you-but-then-I-leave-you-hanging thing was for, her phone went off in her pocket.
She picked it up. "Hey mom." She said. "Yeah I am here, someone helped me to move in." She turned back to James who didn't take off his eyes of her since they parted and gave Annie a sweet smile. While Annie's mum kept asking her she just wondered why he was looking at her like that. Why he was leaning so close to her for a kiss and then when it was about to happen he backed off.
She finished talking to her mum, instead she finished listening to her how she said her to be careful and stuff what a mom would say in the same situation and Annie said good bye and finally hung up.
Putting her phone back to its original place, she noticed that James walked up to her again. "The weather is nice. If you want I can show you around."
"Sounds pretty cool. I would love that." She said and grabbing her handbag and some water they walked out of the room. She locked the door and they left the building in laughter how Annie began to tell James a story about her first day at the other college where she was going.
"You're so funny:" James said opening the door to Annie. She walked out and continued, "it was just a stupid misunderstood. Since then I check if I am actually not talking to a teacher before asking him out."
"How you didn't notice?" he asked.
"Ah I was just deeply in thoughts and walked by the office like here with you, he bumped into me and I grabbed those eyes of his and wanted to know if I can see him later after we ended up with booking in." She blushed how she recalled the awkward memory.
"And then he?"
"He said "sure you can on your economics class right on the top of the podium" and then I felt like I was gonna die there in shame." Annie finished turning her look back at James.
"I think it's funny. Seriously. I am glad I found you before you bump into one of the younger teachers here." James joked with her and she playfully punched his arm but he grabbed her arm and pressed her close to his chest, crossing his strong muscular arms around her torso.
They were standing there like that right in front of the campus; they didn't even reach out of the property of the university. And for this reason there were a thousand people seeing them cuddling and laughing as hard as they maybe never did before.
Annie just smiled at him shyly and softly slid out of his embrace "so where we going?" she continued to walk along without goal, soon James followed her, "uh just round and round in the city if you want."
'"Okay." she answered and with that she asked him about random stuff what he asked her before, like why he was there, what he was studying and how he saw his future.
In a few minutes they got to his car, he opened the door to Annie and she got in. He jumped in on the other side and started to drive and kept talking about his life.
Annie didn't know why but he told her about his parents, how they divorced and stuff. She found that amazing how he opened to her. A few minutes earlier he was shy and didn't dare to kiss her, didn't really want to talk and now he was pouring everything out. Why? She didn't know and didn't understand but was glad for the sudden change.
Every word what left his mouth was so perfect, no one else spoke the way he did. He had an amazing personality Annie could say it already and she barely had known him yet then.
I began to like him. Even if she came here like she didn't want to get boyfriend and even if she knew because he said before that he doesn't want to change his status either. Annie liked him, a lot. After about 40 minutes together.
She was gorgeous in James' eyes. Even if he decided to not fall in love before he'd be done with this year, he was amazed by Annie. And after 40 minutes he liked her, a lot. But honestly he wanted to hold that feeling back. James didn't even know why but went with it when she asked him to hang out with her the rest of the day. Probably because he needed someone. There was a lot in his mind right then and she was there looking like she was interested in him without knowing who he was, so why not. This year would bring a lot and would take a lot away from James, too. He knew it and his mind couldn't stop working as his fears grew second by second. And this gorgeous girl could take his mind off with a look, a smile, a sound of her laugh coming out of her sweet lips.
James just started the car not knowing exactly where he wanted to go with her; their first stop was a nice coffee bar where James often went to chill either alone or with friends.
During the drive they kept talking and laughing. Other girls never could make James laugh like she could. No others, except for one, who he wanted to forget forever finally since she didn't seem to pay attention at him at all. He knew he screwed their things up but he always hoped for something, a better, a new start, but that time had never come. And the new year just now was about to start again and that certain girl would be in his sight again. That was the thing he was thinking about when he met Annie, and was grateful for her. She made him forget about his issues.
James could see Annie had no bad wills, she was just herself.
"I thought," James opened the door to her when they got there, "it can be the first and the only stop for today since you and also I should pack our stuff out plus I promised to show you where you can find me at the campus, so we should go back in time."
"Okay." she said shortly and getting out of the car she hooked into his arm how he offered her to do that.
They walked in and after finding a good place in the corner and ordering some drinks they began to talk again.
"Anyways, sorry for pouring myself out before." James said looking down his my coffee.
"Hey, its okay. I was surprised a bit to hear that all, all of a sudden but it feels good you talked about yourself." she said smiling at him and taking his hand.
She just took my hand? James wondered and looked at her smiling. "After you talked about yourself I thought it is fair if I do the same." he said just to say something and avoid himself blushing into her action.
James didn't know why he asked the next question but he wanted to know. Since he was with her he just forgot about that he wanted to be single till he won't finish at college, so curiousity took over him.
"So anyways how are you about the guys all around?"
James noticed her thinking for a second, he already regretted that he asked it but it was out, there was nothing more to do to take it back.
After a while she opened her mouth to speak "there is nothing going on actually. Since I left my home to come here so far from everything what I had there. And I don't think if I want to change this status." Probably because of James' earlier statement about him not wanting girlfriend caused her to come up with something similar.
She knew she didn't come to LA to get a boyfriend on her first day or anytime soon, but she didn't really know how to express that she wouldn't miss the chance of a gorgeous boy coming to her way and sweeping her off her legs. After all he said he didn't want girlfriend. It's better to keep still and see what his intentions are.
She didn't miss the little spark lighting up in his eyes when she said she was single. But then when she repeated his earlier phrase about not wanting to change the status, that expression again changed. Disappointed? She didn't know. Though she knew one thing, she felt the same thing when James didn't kiss her in her dorm.
She quickly changed the topic so they could forget about girlfriends and boyfriends, at least for a little while.
She talked again about her family but then she regretted when she saw the sadness deepening in James' eyes instead of washing away.
"Sorry" she mumbled, when she realized she was talking about the perfect family when James had that much problem with his parents. She moved her hand to link it with James' again.
He squeezed it and looked up "Nah it's nothing. It's just hard to be here, actually alone in the world without them. You know they are both here, there, everywhere and even so they are nowhere for me. I mean since they divorced I came here and we have never been together the three of us. I'm kind of lonely without them but on the other hand I don't desire their company either. It's a weird thing, hard to understand, I don't understand it either." His quiet chuckle signaled that he felt a little bit miserable.
"James," Annie began, "if you let me to say something without any bad will," he nodded so she continued "if you're so lonely without parents why don't you .. ?' he cut her off and finished for her, "get a girlfriend?"
Annie looked down but he lifted up his other hand and rose her head up by her chin. She just sent a shy smile apologizing but he started to talk. "No need to look at me like this." he said "I don't get girlfriend because honestly I love to be alone. I don't have responsible for no one and I can do whatever I want. And secondly, if I got a girlfriend that wouldn't wash away the problems in my family. It would make more problems."
"Sorry for interfering." Annie murmured, "but a girlfriend can help you in a lot of things. And yeah can cause problems but honestly also can give you the best things on earth."
"Says a girl who doesn't want to get a boyfriend saying her life is perfect without it." He laughed and released both my hand and my chin as he pulled back lowering into his seat again..
"You're right." Annie shyly noted, "probably I don't know what I am talking about. Sorry for butting in." she looked for some money in her pocket. After she found it she stood up, James watched her actions. "Sorry. Hope, see you soon." I said and walked away.
James quickly stood up and ran after her. Grabbing her hand he turned her around so she looked at him again, "sorry" James said and led her back to our table.
"Sometimes I just don't know what I am talking about. I know what you want to say is true, and I know you say that to help me and I know if you don't want boyfriend now that doesn't mean you have never had and you don't talk from experience. So sorry." he said and saw her changing her facial expression. She smiled.
"Fine. I'm sorry, too." She said and with that they began to talk about other stuff, forgetting about girlfriends and boyfriends now really.
After about an hour of talking James noticed the time and knew they should leave the place to reach back in time.
"Mind if we are going back now?" James asked her while she was sipping up what left of her coffee.
"It's okay. I think I should get to know my roommates and walking around to see where I will live in this year." She smiled and stood up and James followed her.
After a little argument about who should pay, Annie didn't challenge anymore and let James fix the bill. Then James held out for her hand and she accepted it, didn't pull away, they walked out and till they got to my car we were holding hands.
There was nothing embarrassing in the moment, till they got to the car. James had to let her out of his grip. Let's just say he should have to. But how James opened the door to her he just couldn't release her.
I wish I would have kissed her there in her room then probably it would be different now.
We are close enough again, holding hands; I should just pull her in and press a kiss on her lips.
"James?" she snapped him out when he didn't let her go and it was more than weird how he stared at her lips. Then James quickly leant in and gently kissed her. It didn't take more than a few seconds, his lips touched hers and then he pulled away.
With that he let her hand slide out of his and she could get in.
James wondering what she thought about him now and Annie wondering how she could process all the confusion James kept giving her.
She was thinking about James' actions. It felt extremely good to take his hand, her mind was blown away ever time he smiled at her. If you send all those smiles, talk so freely about everything what comes up, argue over nothing and then quickly fix it, almost kiss someone but then pull away with a kinky smile, that all has to mean something. But every guy is different. I don't know what it means if it's James.
He was actually flirting with her and yet said he didn't want girlfriend. Oh, fuck, boys and their minds.
He kissed her briefly, if that can be labeled as a kiss, and they were holding hands for long minutes, but nothing happened. She wanted it and she felt like James wanted it, too. Then what kept him back?
The ride back to the dorm was silent. Both of them thinking and sometimes blinking sweetly at each other, confusing the space even more.
When he stopped the car Annie undid her seatbelt and took his hand "James?"
He stared out of the window, not looking at her he said, "yeah?"
"Wanna kiss me?" he turned to her when she questioned that and lifted his eyebrows. She even saw a light smile on the corner of his lips.
"This time let me kiss back. I won't bite. Except if you want me to." She giggled and leant close to his face.
When she was already halfway toward him, he began to lean, too.
Once their lips met and she immediately felt how sweet he was, they found the perfect rhythm but the kiss never deepened because James pulled back, again.
She swallowed and moved back to her seat pretending like she didn't care that James again withdrew. Annie opened the door and getting out she mumbled a quiet "sorry."
She took a few steps to walk away when she heard the door shutting and a second later she found herself in James' arms. James looked deeply into her eyes when and said, "I'm the one who has got to say sorry. Obviously I seem like an idiot."
"Yeah kind of." she laughed.
"Can we start it again?"
'Why? Didn't you like that?"
"Nah, nope. I did. But you deserve a real kiss, the best of mine." He said and winked and slowly moved one of his hands to the back of her neck and leant in again.
"Can you do even better?" she questioned when their lips almost brushed against one another's again.
He smiled again before catching the moment to kiss her, "I can, trust me." And with that they kissed again. Now it was a real kiss. This time it was longer. Much longer. And with every second getting into it, it got deeper and more passionate. A part of both of them wondered how they could kiss someone like this after knowing each other only for a few hours. None of them knew the answer, though they tried to find it with getting into one another's mouth even deeper. But can anyone question them? If it felt good, why not then?
What was between them from the first moment was something none of them had ever had with others. You can't see it, you can't catch it and hold it in your hand but you can feel it and you can hide it somewhere deep inside in your heart where nobody can take it away from you.
They knew till their kiss lasted nobody was gonna grab it out of there and they wished if the kiss would end, that little something would still be there.
James liked her too much already. He opened to her, talked to her, he could look at her how he had never looked at anyone but one girl and it felt so good to see that she was looking at him like it was the same special for her, too. James wanted to remember that feeling, that special invisible something what stuck them together for hours and then it seemed it's going to be longer if they can continue the kiss.
But once they had to pull away.
James slowly took his tongue back and a few times touched her lips still, then they both leant back smiling.
"You definitely can do it better." she said laughing. "Now I gotta go." And Annie wanted to break out of James' arms but he pretended like he didn't hear when she said she wanted to leave. He just stared at her along wishing he could kiss her again.
"James?" she snapped him out of his fantasy. He already kissed her again in his mind.
"We are in the middle of the street. People see us" she said and it was enough for James to know they really had to finish that there.
"Correction" James said looking around and seeing bunch of students there, "they already saw us."
"They can live with it. Don't they?" she asked lightly, never caring others opinion.
"Hope so." he said and slid his hand down and taking her hand they headed back to the dorm.
In front of the door James stopped.
"What's it James?" she turned around looking at him.
James pointed at the door, there was a sign saying "no strangers after 6."
"You're not a stranger" she winked and bit on her lip playfully, "and it isn't 6 yet, that cannot…" she began but then how she pulled out her phone she saw it was almost 7. "were we out for this long?"
"Guess so" James said kissing her forehead. "see you tomorrow" and took a few steps aside-
"James" she called after him. When he reached down to the bottom of the stairs he spun around.
"I don't know where I can find you if I need you."
"I know where I can find you and I will be coming if you need me. See you and be good." he turned around and made his way to the next building where his room was since the first year he'd studied there.
Annie watched James getting farther and she just didn't want the day with him to end like this so she ran after him, slid her hand into his and followed him to the next building in silent.
"Now." James started.
Annie cut his word off, "I know." She sighed, "now I can't go in but this is the first day, people are collecting. There aren't any parties today? We could go or … "
"You want to party?" he gave her a questioning look.
"Not really, I'm tired. But since we only had a few hours and … ah forget it." she said and kissed his cheek. She just wanted some more time with him but it all didn't matter since James obviously wanted to get into his room, alone. "See you soon." She mumbled but didn't turn around, kept her eyes locked on his hazel ones and her smile, too, resting on her face, waiting for James to forget everything he wanted and give in.
"What are rules for?" he asked smiling and brushing a thumb across her left cheek.
"To break them." Annie answered giggling. Like she would have been that person who always broke the rules. But this time she wanted to do it. She just didn't want that day to be over, She was scared if next day she would wake up, she would realize it was all just a dream, nothing happened. She didn't even meet him, they didn't hold hands, they didn't kiss, they didn't agree in a next meeting. Annie just didn't want to wake up if that was a dream.
"Okay. There is a back door if you go around…" he began but Annie cut him off again.
"What if I go to the wrong door?"
"Will you ever let me finish something?" James asked with a huge grin appearing on his face.
"I might." She grinned back.
"You won't go in the wrong door. There is only one door in the back side. There you don't have to use passing card, I can open the door to you and the doorman won't see you either. I will be there to open the door to you." He kissed her forehead and released her.
"Okay." She nodded and headed to go around the building.
She wondered what she was doing but a second later she shook her head just grab the opportunity and run with it. She whispered when she reached the door.
Annie just then stopped in front of the door when it opened and James was there. "Come on" he grabbed her hand and they ran along on a corridor to the elevators.
"These are the back elevators we can use it if we come in through the back door. If you come in the front …" we were already inside and Annie just wanted to kiss him again so when the door closed she pressed him to the wall and let her passion drive the moment. She cut James off again and the thought of that made James giggling into the kiss, hard.
He didn't challenge though, instead he turned her over so then she was against the mirrored wall. But since they wanted to go only to the second floor the door opened soon enough again so they pulled away like nothing happened.
They didn't say a word till they reached a door, that was his room. The corridor was silent. Probably everyone was out; the clubs in the city were much better than the university's.
James opened the door and led Annie in. When the door shut she found herself up against it, James kissing her neck, no not kissing, sucking it hardly.