Title: Living in the shadows.

Disclaimer: Don't own anything all rights got to Richelle Mead.

This takes place after last sacrifice and Dimitri and Rose never got back together and Adrian still leaves. It's been about a year since everything went down. Lissa doesn't really talk to rose anymore. Christian and Lissa are still together. They are trying to get Dimitri to go out with other people. Rose is Christian's guardian and Dimitri's Lissa's. Yet Rose starts to lose herself and starts cutting and no one notices what's wrong with her.

Chapter 1

It's been a year now that everything happened. A year since I lost most of my friends. Eddie has forgiving for what I did when we took off out of court. He's Lissa's other guardian. Eddie is worried about me because I won't talk to anyone. He's worried that something is wrong. But I tell him everything is fine.

Yet nothing is fine. I've been going to church and pray that my life will end and that I don't have to be here anymore. And nothing is ever simple. The days seem like a blur and no one cares too much. My mom has been resigned to be Abe's (a.k.a my father) guardian and now she's with a child. I'm happy but I don't show it anymore.

Walking out of the church after praying and cutting my wrist, I see Lissa, Christian, Eddie, Mia, Dimitri, my mom, Abe, and some strange women. They were all laughing until Eddie stopped and looked over at me. When he saw me, he stopped and so didn't everyone else.

"I'll be right back guys. I need to ask Rose something." He said to them.

Lissa watches where Eddie is heading and said, "Are you-"

"Go away. I don't want to talk to you right now okay." I said as the tears start to fall from my eyes. I didn't want to see them so happy; I didn't want to be near them. I just wanted to be left alone and I could never get that wish with Eddie around.

Eddie reached out for my wrist until he sees the blood and said, "What have you been doing to yourself?"

I could look at him in the eyes but I knew that I had to say something so I can escape this place, escape them so they wouldn't notice but I knew they wouldn't care what happened. Eddie was always the one that still carried for me and not one else did. But I looked at him and said, "Nothing okay. I just want to be alone right now."

"Rose, you've been acting weird lately and I want to know what's wrong with you?" said Eddie who was worried about me. I knew that he would notice, but he was the only one that knew I wasn't myself and that hurt real bad that he knew that something wasn't right about me.

"It's nothing okay. I got to go. Please Eddie, I'm telling you the truth. I need you to accept that I'm fine and that you shouldn't worry. Please don't worry. I'll be fine." That's was all I could say to him. I have no idea what to say and when I noticed that the others were watching me and Eddie and none of them tried to come closer to me, that's when I felt like I was going to break down and that's when I took off running and I didn't stop. They didn't care about me. I was living in the shadows of them. But I did what I had to do to protect them. They mean the world about me. That's when all the memories were in my mind. I couldn't get them out.

I went to the gym and started to beat the hell out of the punching bag while the music was playing a Linkin Park song. I was so mad that I felt everything going from my mind to the punching bag. I didn't want to be here anymore. I couldn't find in me to stop myself I just hit harder and hard her till I realized that someone called my name.

"Rose." Said a voice, a voice that I knew all to will.

I stopped and looked over at the door and saw Sonya Karp there. She looked at me and said, "How are you? I see you haven't been the same. Is there anything that I can help you with?"

"Fine and I don't need help from anyone. I'll be fine." I said to her without even thinking. The word fine has been the one word that I've been saying to everyone more and more lately and I wasn't sure if that was a good thing or not. I just wanted everything back the way it was before, but I knew in my heart that nothing would ever be the same again and I would be dreaming if it was.

She looked at me and said, "You don't seem like yourself. Hans asked me if I could come and talk to you because you haven't been like your usual yourself, Rose are you sure everything is fine."

"I'm fine. I don't know why everyone is so worried about me. They haven't cared for me in the past year. They don't even say my name. The only one who does care is Eddie. Lissa, Christian, Dimitri, Jill, and Adrian all hate me. They don't care. None of them came to see me when I was in the hospital. Mia doesn't even look at me anymore. My parents are too worried about the baby that's due in a few months' time. They don't care. It seems as if they had forgotten me. Maybe it would have been better if I was just killed when Lissa's family had die. It would make everyone feel better. It would make the world better and this stupid place a lot better if I was never born. I can see how much I'm not wanted and that I something that had to be born and that my so called friends don't care about me or what happened or even realize that I'm not the same Rose they all know. I hate them. I hate all of them and I hate this world."

Sonya looked at me and said nothing while she walked out of the gym. I knew she came to talk to me because of Mikhail and the others. They really didn't care about me. No one did. Then it hit me, that none of them cared and that I knew that I wasn't wanted I would just do just that. I would leave this place so that no one has to worry about me again.

Hours later I walked back to my room and Dimitri's door opened up and the strange women walked out of his room and said, "It was nice meeting you Dimitri. I hope we can hang out again sometime?"

"Thank you. I will think about it and give you a call back." He said while walking her out. When he saw me, he stopped and just walked the women out of the building. Dimitri lives across from me, which sucks because I usually run in to him but we haven't said a word to each other. I knew what he saw when he saw me, and I just didn't care anymore. The only reason why we lived across each other was because we were both guardians to Lissa and Christian.

I just walked into my room and turned on the TV to find something that was good. But nothing was on. Even the radio didn't have any good music on. I just shut everything down and just lay down in the darken room and thought of nothing. Thoughts of nothing as they passed over my mind till I had a bad memory and that's when I slowly took the small blade that I kept with me at all times, and that blade that I held in my hand I used it to pick at each finger until blood came out. I just watched the blood until someone knocked on my door.

A/N: Okay i wrote this story last year and now i'm back again. so please review this story and let me know what you all think of it.

RoseSkyangel.