I sincerely apologize for not having updated this story in so long, especially after the promise of not only continuing it, but rewriting it. I believe you all deserve an explanation. This is very personal, but I have a hard time telling what is and isn't appropriate to share. I'd rather say too much than nothing at all, as the hate mail and impatient reviews are beginning to upset me.

About a year and a half ago, slightly after finishing the last update on any of my stories (several months after updating this one and beginning the process of rewriting it), I was hospitalized again for roughly two months. This was for mental health reasons, which are the cause of the lack of updates. I had to drop out of regular school and begin doing it online. My haphephobia and agoraphobia worsened drastically to the point that I could barely go outside. You would think that would mean more updates, and so did I, but it didn't. When I was discharged, I lost all of my motivation to accomplish anything at all. For about three months, I sat in bed and drank until I fell back to sleep. Then I met my girlfriend online, and I started getting motivation back. I was told that if I got my grades up, I'd have the financial support needed to visit her. Reason #2 why I couldn't update. Over the past year, I've moved from one side of the country to the other to live with her and get away from what was happening at my previous home. I'm happier than I've ever been, but the mental health issues have not disappeared.

I'm autistic. When I started this story, Supernatural was my special interest. For autistic people, special interests are things that we become deeply obsessed with to the point that it can sometimes be the only thing they can truly focus on. I had over twenty chapters planned out in detail, and actually took a little red book with me everywhere just in case I got new ideas for it. I planned chapters on the bus to school. I planned chapters during dinner with family. I planned chapters at four in the morning instead of sleeping. And then the hospitalization happened, and most of my special interests just disappeared. I didn't have the energy to get out of bed, much less plan a story that I wouldn't be able to write for God knows how long.

Now, my special interests have changed, and Supernatural is no longer one of them (although I do want to get back into it in the near future). We're starting our own business, finishing school, seeing a new therapist, and dealing with constant issues with family. I simply don't have time anymore. So I apologize that I promised something that I couldn't do; I've honestly offended myself by doing that. Promises are a huge thing to me now, although they weren't back then, and knowing that I've disappointed even a few people and broken any kind of promise to them and myself is a huge deal. I sincerely apologize.

This is not to say that this story will never be updated, but at the moment, I've already had to sacrifice almost all personal activities (roleplay via Tumblr, writing, most video games, blogging, karate). I cannot update it right now. I just can't. I might sometime in the future, as I remember all of my plans for it (although they could be improved greatly), but please don't expect this right away. I'd really appreciate it if the angry messages and reviews would stop; they're honestly upsetting. Thank you for your time.