This is the penultimate chapter. Sorry it has taken me so long to update this fic, I just haven't been very satisfied with the way the chapter turned out. I hope to update my other fic, "Brighter as We Fall" soon, maybe within this week to next week. I also have another Dair fic in the works and it will probably be my last story for this specific fandom.

She couldn't stop touching him and he couldn't tell her to stop. Dan was only able to stay at the Charity Ball for thirty minutes before sneaking out with Blair.

He sat in her town car with his hand under her dress. She had him straddled and didn't care what the driver was thinking. Forming his two fingers into scissors, he pushed her silk panties aside and slid his fingers into her warm core, causing her to moan very lightly against his lips. He pulled back and tilted his head to stare at her with fascination reeking through his eyes. Her mouth was open and there was a light pleasurable noise mixed in with a heavy breath escaping her lips.

Leaning his lips on to her neck, he decided he was going to leave a mark. It was tiring having to watch all the guys stare at her. He wanted them to know she was taken. He never thought he was the possessive type, but it's different with her. Her running away was always in the back of his mind. He left his thoughts when her arm tightened around his neck and her hand was pulling his hair harder.

She was close

He pulled away from her neck and met her eyes. "Not yet darling." Dan then pulled his fingers out of her core and irritation crept up her face. He wanted to frustrate her because he knew it only made her cum harder. Once he placed his fingers in his mouth to taste her, all was fixed as she bit her plump lip.

She began nuzzling her nose against his cheek and he could feel her nostrils inhaling his cologne. "What do I taste like?"

"Unreal... Something dropped straight from heaven." He felt her smile against his cheek and jaw.

She moved to his ear. "I was wet the minute you walked in," Blair whispered before biting his earlobe.

He didn't think his pant's could be any tighter around his member. It was burning to be inside her. Their eyes connected and it looked as though she could read through his pain. He knew he was in trouble once her lips curved into a devilish smile. She dug her nails into his shoulders and began rocking her hips slowly against his hard on. It was becoming too much.

"Blair... I can't...stop," Dan struggled to say

"Tish tish Daniel, you know the rule," Blair replied before leaning close to his ear. "Ladies come first."

The whole ride continued to be a torturous affair until they reached her building. She grabbed his hand and pulled him into the lobby. Stepping into the elevator, he hoisted her up against the wall and rubbed his member against her warmth. She moaned and whimpered while his lips remained on his favorite part of her body, her neck. He didn't know what it was about her neck that he loved. Maybe it was the scent of jasmine or maybe it was the sounds she made in response.

After the elevator door opened, his lips never left hers as he pressed her against the wall of the foyer, then the door frame of the living room, and eventually they fell on the white ottoman of her living room.

With her tights to rolled to her ankles, and him pinning her hands above her head, he thrusts into her slick folds. His forehead was leaning against hers while he gave her deep hard strokes into her core.

They didn't last very long. He felt her clenching around him, with a wave of orgasm approaching. It hit her and she cried with pleasure as her legs trembled around his waist and her face twisted in a way he couldn't have found more beautiful. He continued to thrust with their foreheads meeting until he finally released his warm liquid into her.

XOXOXOXO

He's spent, but it was December and he had a craving for some hot chocolate. He pulled up his pants and headed towards the kitchen with Blair following his every step. She's never had hot chocolate and he's never had macaroons, so they both decided to try something new.

"So what do you think," Blair asked after he took a bite out of the macaroon

"Eh," Dan shrugged as they stood in her kitchen.

"I'm not surprised you feel that way, seeing as it's missing the ingredients of pork and cheese." Blair swiped the half bitten macaroon from Dan's hand and placed it back in her box. "Oh well, more for me I suppose."

Without her heels, she was shorter then he expected. He placed his hand behind her lower back, liking the feeling of her dark teal floor length dress.

"Go on, I haven't gotten all night, make your hot chocolate," Blair said crossing her arms and turning to face him.

"Do you even have the ingredients? I need a bar of pure cocoa chocolate," Dan told her

"Yes Humphrey. I was tired of hearing the complaints coming out of your Brooklyn mouth."

Dan tilted his head furrowed his brows. "Ahh...I never complained and I only asked you once if you had any."

Her lips pressed tightly. "Funny how we hear things differently."

Dan's lips curved slightly. "You're mad."

"And you're ugly, but please, continue to state the obvious."

Dan stepped closer and pulled Blair's hips to meet his. "If I was so ugly, then why would you let me do this," Dan asked softly and squeezed her butt cheeks with his hands, earning a gasp from Blair.

"Because I pity you," Blair said softly as he leaned in to where his lips were mere inches away from hers.

He smiled before placing a peck on her lips, then two pecks, and Blair finally pulled him in for a kiss. With is lips not tearing away from hers, he led her to the island in the middle of the kitchen and placed her on the marble top of the island.

Dan pulled away from her persistent lips and smirked. "Now sit and watch while I make you the most glorious hot chocolate."

She presented him a fake sweet smile and said, "I really can't wait."

As Dan began cutting the chocolate off the cutting board, he heard a Gossip Girl alert. He didn't reach for his phone, thinking Blair would tell him anyway, but what he didn't expect was his voice coming out of her phone. He glanced over and found her in a fit of giggles while on the cusp of falling off the island as her eyes were on the phone screen.

"Oh my god! How did Gossip Girl even get this," Blair said laughing

Fucking Nate

He's come to the realization Nate videotaped him singing in the shower.

"I mean what are you even singing?"

"Short Skirt Long Jacket by Cake," Dan told her feeling the heat rising on his neck and cheeks.

"Well the lyrics do remind me of a certain someone," Blair replied sliding off the island. Her lips began forming into a pout. "Aww Humphrey, I'm flattered."

Dan rolled his eyes and shook his head. "We're scheming against Nate tomorrow."

"Of course, I'll come up with something tomorrow. No one hurts my baby," Blair reassured him in her baby voice while rubbing his back soothingly with her hand.

Dan sighed tiredly knowing this wasn't going to end anytime soon.

XOXOXOXO

It's lunch time and Winter Formal's around the corner. He wanted to take Blair to the dance and let it be known that they were dating.

He spotted Nate, Blair, and Serena sitting in the corner of the lunch room by a small rectangular table. He sat beside Blair and her face looked unaffected with his presence.

"We should do a study group for our midterm in English," Nate said with his eyes shifting between Dan and Blair.

Serena perked up. "Oh, that's such a good idea Natie!"

Dan placed his hand on Blair's thigh and felt her place her hand on top of his. "Sure, why not."

"Of course that sounds good to you," Blair said looking at Serena. "Me and Humphrey do all the work while you and Nate pick our brains out."

"I don't see the problem with that," Nate joked with a smirk leading Blair to roll her eyes. "Dan helps me with school and I help him get laid. It's called friendship."

Blair snorted. "Well you sure haven't held your end of the bargain."

"I wouldn't laugh, Dan here has already been asked by a few girls to the Winter Formal," Nate replied

Blair turned her head to meet his eyes and cocked a brow. "Really? Do share Humphrey."

Dan sighed. "It's nothing really, I haven't been asked by anyone that interests me."

"What about you," Serena asked staring at Blair

Blair tilted her head down and her eyes shifted to her fruit bowl. "No, I haven't been asked by anyone yet."

"We should go together," Nate said raising his brows and looking hopeful. "If you want to I mean."

He waited in anticipation for Blair's response as his heart rate shot up.

Blair looked up and met Nate's eyes, giving him a light smile. "Sure, that'd be great."

His heart sank and he was hit with a wave of disappointment. He moved his hand away from Blair's thigh and got lost in his own thoughts, ignoring the rest of the conversation. She tried to reach for his hand under the table, but he pulled away. It felt like he had been slapped in the face with the realization that this was only a fling. He was her dirty little secret.

He left soon after Nate asked Blair to the Winter Formal, telling them he needed to edit a paper.

The school day passed and it was time for soccer practice. He took out his frustrations on the field. Even giving Nate a dirty sliding tackle, leading the coach to throw him out of practice. He hit the showers, cooled off, and got dressed.

As he left the courtyard, he spotted Blair's town car waiting for him. He rolled his eyes and continued on his way to the bus stop. The town car followed his every step as he continued to walk ahead.

The tinted window of the town car rolled down and he saw Blair sitting in the car with sunglasses on.

"Get in Humphrey," Blair said

"No thanks."

"Dan, someone might spot us, please get in the car."

Dan stopped and looked at Blair incredulously. "You're unbelievable. All you care about is how others perceive you."

Blair glared at him. "You've never been in my shoes so you have no right to judge."

"Do you even want to be with me?"

"Yes, of course I do."

"Then go to the dance with me," Dan said feeling like he was left alone on an island.

Her mouth open and closed a few times as she was having trouble putting her feelings into words.

"I can't," Blair told him softly and looked away

She doesn't want you, she never will.

I just think you're setting yourself up to get hurt, you don't belong in their world

Vanessa's word resonated in his head and it hurts thinking about it. He was too infatuated with Blair to realize Vanessa was right all along.

"Because you're ashamed of me," Dan concluded

"No," Blair protested instantly. "It's about how everyone else will react, not me."

He looked at her in disbelief. "Nate and Serena certainly don't think I'm below them."

"I don't think you're below me," Blair reasoned and her bottom began lip trembling. "You're taking this the wrong way."

"No, I think I understand everything perfectly clear. You don't want me to ruin you're status," Dan replied looking hurt. "God." Dan shook his head. "I am so stupid for falling in love with you."

Her eyes were covered with shades, but her mouth was open in shock. He turned his heels and left for the bus stop, not wanting to listen to what she had to say anymore.

XOXOXOXO

It's the night of Winter Formal, and he slides into Chuck's limo with Jenny. Blair and Nate are sitting beside each other while Serena is on the other side. He spent the past week avoiding everyone at school so he wouldn't have to speak to Blair. Just the sight of her made his heart sink.

Standing with his back against the wall in his suit and tie, he stared at Blair dancing with Nate in the darkness. For the whole ride, he didn't look at her once, but that didn't last very long. His jaw was clenching and he could taste the bitterness.

"Are you alright," Serena asked interrupting his thoughts as she was yelling over the music.

He glanced over and saw Serena looking as perfect as ever. "I wish someone would spike the punch."

Serena chuckled. "Same, this dance is lame, but it's should to get more interesting."

Dan's brows knitted together. "What do you mean?"

"Georgina's spiking the punch with some EX," Serena told him with a wicked smile. "Welcome to the Upper East Side Brooklyn."

"Jesus Serena, why do you even hang out with that loose canon," Dan asked as Serena just laughed. "It's not funny you crazy woman. This place is about to go off the wall berserk."

He quickly shoots text to Jenny and Nate not to drink the punch.

"Come on Daniel, we're in our youth. So live a little and enjoy the ride," Serena said with a bright smile. The blonde took his hand and pulled him towards the dance floor. "Let's see what moves you're packing."

Dan couldn't help but smile. Serena's Euphoria was contagious. She really could light the room up and there was something special about that. Dancing with Serena wasn't sexy, if anything, it was silly. They both didn't take themselves seriously and that's what he loved about Serena. He was doing the lawnmower while she was doing the sprinkler. They didn't care what anyone thought about them, all they cared about was living in the moment.

They struggled through the crowd and finally reached the wall of the gymnasium, with sweat glistening on their skin. Once he stepped out of the crowd, his phone vibrated and he received a Gossip Girl alert.

Good Evening Upper East Siders,

I just received a scoop that will cause some major turmoil. The virgin queen and lonely boy have been getting friendly, but has lonely boy been told of his new best friend's involvement with little J's and Chuck's short lived affair. It seems our queen had been a big influence on little J's decision to cozy up with Chuck.

Welcome to the Upper East Side lonely boy

You know you love me.

xoxo,

Gossip Girl

His brows dipped, leading a crease to form on his forehead as he stared at a open mouthed Blair.

With his jaw clenching, his fingers curled into fists and he had the urge to punch Chuck all over again.

He felt a hand on his shoulder, leading him to pull away from Serena's touch. "Get off me," Dan said grinding his teeth together, trying to maintain his composure.

He headed for the back door exit and into the cold, ignoring all of the eyes that were on him.

"Dan," Blair yelled out. He could hear the clicks of her heels against the cement of the sidewalk. "Please, let me explain."

She sounded desperate so he decided to give her a chance and he still couldn't stand the sight of her freezing to death while chasing him around. He turned around with his face stinging from the cool wind.

"I was mad at you, you didn't come to my birthday party, but I only told Jenny Chuck wasn't lying about his feelings for her," Blair explained.

"Oh fuck off Blair. Bass has been trying to nail my sister since school started so don't bullshit me by telling me it was some lame overreaction," Dan said looking at her in disgust.

"It's the truth," Blair protested instantly. She lets a moment pass before stepping closer. "This is why I didn't want everyone to find out about us. There was no way Jenny would've approved."

"Do you blame her? She trusted you Blair," Dan said looking hurt. "I trusted you," his voice breaks off.

Blair reached for his hand. " Dan," she called softly before he pulled away

"Don't touch me!" Dan began stepping back while facing Blair. She looked as though she was on the cusp of breaking. "Stay the hell away from me."

"I don't think I can. I love you," Blair whispered with a tear trailing down her cheek

He shook his head slightly. "I don't believe you."

"You took my virginity Dan, how you could you think I don't love you," Blair questioned with her voice sounding weak

Dan shrugged before turning around and walking away, leaving her by the back entrance of the school.

XOXOXOXO

School became different after the Winter Formal. He was alone, but this was a different type of alone. Everyone in school knew of him now, he existed and was the talk of the halls for weeks. His father continuously probed him on why he was ignoring Serena, but he explained midterms as being the reason.

Sitting at the end of the cafeteria by himself, Nate pulled up a chair to sit in front of him.

"It's been a while," Nate said with a small smile

He raised his eyes from his book. "What do you want?"

"I just want everything to be normal again."

At first, he thought Chuck was the only bad one, but he was wrong, they're all horrible in their own ways.

"You're Serena's future step-brother man, this cold shoulder treatment has got to stop, or else our parents are going to begin getting suspicious," Nate explained

"I don't care."

"Why are you taking your anger out on me and Serena?"

Dan dipped his book and bent his back forward to lean in. "Because you're all the same. You and Serena slept together and were forgiven instantly. in the end, there was no repercussion for your mistake. All you people do is hurt each other and never resolve anything. You guys think your little circle is so great, but it's just bullshit in my eyes."

"Come on man, it's not like that."

"I've been sleeping with Blair for the past month. It's exactly like that." Dan slid off his chair and left a speechless Nate at the small rectangular table.

Before, all he wanted to do was become one of them, he found their lifestyle to be glamorous and appealing, but after taking a step back and looking over how much he had changed because of them, he realized he was better off being an outsider. They were on the path of divorce and drama that could scar them for life.

XOXOXOXO

Knock Knock

She's knocking on his front door, but he doesn't care. He continues to ignore his father giving him the you're better than this speech. Blair's even won his sister over, but he wasn't surprised, his sister looks up to Blair.

Everyday, for the next two weeks, Blair came by the loft, either knocking on his door, or sliding a letter under the little crease beneath his door. All the letter's ended up in the trash, unopened.

"Maybe you should give the poor girl a break," Rufus said watching Dan stab his dinner while sitting by the counter top. "Christmas is in a few days, it's a good time to be a little generous." Dan ignored his father and continued eating.

"You won't be able to reach him dad, I think he prefers hurting Blair," Jenny pointed out taking a bite out of her ravioli.

Dan turned his head to Jenny. "I'm not trying to hurt her."

"And yet you are. If you cared about her, you would at least listen to what she has to say."

"I already did," Dan said

"Once isn't fair to her. I think it's obvious you're just scared because you know the instant you talk to her again, you'll forgive her," Jenny replied

Dan stared at his plate looking to be in deep thought.

After dinner, once Jenny made him feel guilty, he decided to go see Blair.

Taking a step out of Blair's elevator, he walked into her foyer and noticed how quiet it was. Dorota wasn't around and he had no idea where Eleanor was, which was surprising since Christmas was in a few days. He ascended up the steps of the staircase and found Blair's room to be empty. His eyes fell on an old worn out notebook on her dresser.

He's bit startled at first when he realizes its his notebook. It had all of the short stories and poems he had written about Serena. He lost it over a year ago and had been looking for it since. It must have dropped out of his locker and that's how Blair was able to get a hold of it.

He texted Serena and Nate, inquiring about Blair, and they both texted back saying she was at her penthouse. He then looked over the Gossip Girl spotted map, and it had her last spotted here as well. His eyes then fell on her bathroom door.

Stepping into Blair's bathroom, he was hit with a stench of something rotting. His eyes widened at the sight of Blair passed out and splayed across the floor, by the toilet.

I'm a horrible person, I know. Hopefully I'll update the last chapter of this fic soon which will be in Blair's POV.