This little story inspired by the song "Crow and the Butterfly" by Shinedown. I was pretty upset and sad after heard not Bamon is the endgame. I am so disappointed. The writer prefer let Damon end up alone than to make us happy.. So this is my goodbye for them.

I used Xander instead Zander because I like this better. :)

Little bird...little redbird...my sweet little redbird...

Bonnie's eyes popped open. That was the eighth night that she woke up with the husky whisper of her vampire in her head. No, he is not her vampire. She has Xander. Thinking of Damon as her vampire is not right. Having his voice in her head is not right either. Despite her thoughts and feelings, she sat up quietly. She looked beside her to see Xander sleeping peacefully with his face that seemed so angelic. Angelic to the point where Bonnie couldn't help but smile. She leaned and kissed his cheek gently, making her long wavy curls caress his very muscular chest. She was lucky to have a man like him. Then why is she about to stand up, pick up her white velvet gown and open the window to someone who reminds her about the worst and the best time in her life again?

She sneaked out through the window; her heart gave a leap with every step as she approached. She took the handle and said a silent prayer in the hopes that Xander would be deaf for the time it takes her to leave the place without waking him up. A cold whiff touched her face as she managed to push the huge window up.

"You are beautiful. Like an angel." She heard his smooth voice and her heart melted with guilt and joy.

Bonnie closed her eyes for a few minutes and leaned her forehead against the ledge. "Please don't call me that." She whispered powerlessly and opened her eyes. Her huge warm brown eyes met his black ones and she felt their common past fill her mind fully. "Why are you here, Damon?" This was the first time that Damon showed up in human form. The other seven nights, he sat on an opposite branch like a crow. Now he balanced on the window sill. "May I come in?" His usually strong voice now was weak, barely noticeable. Bonnie glanced back over her shoulder towards her bed; this wasn't right, she is not like this. It's not fair with Xander but still she turned back and nodded her head slightly.

Damon silently landed on the parquet, so close their bodies touched. Bonnie unwillingly took a step back so as to not touch him but Damon stretched out his hand and smoothed away a red curl from her eyes while gently caressing Bonnie's face with shaking fingers. "You grew up." He whispered the words and watched every little detail of Bonnie's face like he wanted to memorize them or compare to the Bonnie whom he had known.

"Please answer me. Why are you here?" Bonnie repeated her question while trying to sound very confident. Damon pulled back his hand; a faint smile appeared on her soft lips. Bonnie remembered the bittersweet taste of his lips very well even after all this time.

"I'm here for you, Bonnie."

Bonnie shook her head tiredly. "What happened between us was 5 years ago. I'm not that naive little girl anymore."

"No, you are not. My baby bird became a woman." Bonnie heard a little hint of disappointment in his voice but she also heard more amazement.

"Yes, I am a woman." Bonnie slowly rolled her silver ring around her ring finger. Damon noticed this, gently took her hand and lifted up a little. "That's a nice ring you got there, but it's not your style. I would've chosen better. He doesn't know you the way I do." Bonnie had a feeling like the little Bonnie hitting the door of her heart wanted to come out. That Bonnie wanted to hug Damon and never let him go again. That Bonnie was more than happy to see him. She swallowed back her tears and looked back over her shoulder once again to check Xander. "He is my beloved fiancé and I do love him." She said and pulled away her shaking hand from the vampire's grip.

"I didn't say you don't love him." Damon took a slow step toward Bonnie and Bonnie stepped back again. They repeated this silent dance for a couple of times until Bonnie's back hit against the wardrobe. There was nowhere to run anymore. "He is not me." Damon gently stroked her chin, Bonnie fought not to close her eyes while staring at the black eyes without breaking.

"You're right. He is not you." To the sound of Bonnie's agreement, Damon smiled and leaned closer to kiss her soft lips. He dreamed about those honey-sweet lips for long years. He remembered the taste of her lips; it was like he tasted heaven every time. As he slowly leaned down, Bonnie stayed motionless. When their lips almost touched, Bonnie spoke. "He had chosen me." Damon halted and pulled away. Bonnie's voice broke a little as she tried to fight back her tears. "All those years...I was there Damon. I was always there for you. I know I was a stupid little girl but I did care for you. I know you cared for me as well but you never tried to show it. I was really confused. You used to kiss me...protect me...carry me... and still, you wanted Elena. I was never mad with you because I understood your feelings towards her but I knew you had feelings for me as well so I had hoped that eventually, you would choose me. As it turns out, you had chosen her. I was broken but Xander found me. He made me happy. He makes me happy. I'm really sorry that Elena didn't choose you. You deserve someone who truly loves you and I hope you will find that someone someday." Bonnie cleared her throat and blinked away the tears what burned her eyes. "And now, please go." She whispered and gently put her hand on Damon's chest to push him a little.

"You are the one that I want. I don't need anybody else just you." Damon put his hand on hers and didn't let her go.

"You left me Damon." Bonnie bit the corner of her lips; she doesn't want Damon to see her cry again. The little Bonnie inside her was already sobbing and wanted to find comfort between her vampire's arms. She didn't look into his eyes because she knew that it would be too much to bear so she stared at their hands instead.

"I only left because I wanted you to be happy. I wanted what I thought was best for you." Bonnie heard his voice choked up, she can't help but looked up on his watery eyes. "Then why are you here?"

"Because you're not happy, redbird. You can't be happy without me and I can't be happy without you." Damon tried to kiss her again but Bonnie didn't let him. "Then we will be unhappy forever." She whispered and stepped aside. She walked towards the window and stood beside it like a painful goodbye gesture. Damon didn't move. He looked at Bonnie pleadingly like his life depended on her. "Bonnie, please…"

Bonnie closed her eyes and turned her back on him, with her hands grabbing the ledge. She felt a little wind and a body against her back and then a whisper. "I love you baby bird." Damon's cold breath gave her chills; the soft kiss that he placed on her ear was so painful like a lunge to her heart. She slowly opened her eyes but didn't turn. "You would be here even if Elena had chosen you?" Her voice was so quiet that only a vampire would be able to hear. Her pain just grew bigger when the only answer what she got was the silence. She shook her head and stepped back a few steps. Damon stood in front of her for a few minutes; Bonnie knew that is their silent goodbye. She let him kiss her forehead before he jumped out and the darkness swallowed him for forever.

She closed the window and let her tears roll down on her cheek. She leaned her forehead against the glass. It was cool and this coolness felt really good. She had chosen well. She kept repeating this sentence until she finally believed it.

Damon watched as Bonnie closed the window. He saw her tears and he felt guilty for hurting her again. He didn't dare answer her again. Now when she can't see him, he looked into her lovely brown eyes and whispered the answer. "Yes, I would be here little redbird."