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Empty Hearts
"Are you going to take it?" JJ asked from the couch in her house, her eyes facing the ground and tears filling them.
"I want to" Emily answered and watched as JJ shook her head.
Emily had just finished telling JJ, her girlfriend for the last year, that she was offered a job to head up the Interpol office in London.
"Were you planning on discussing this with me?" Emily sat down on the coffee table and reached for JJ's hands, but JJ pulled her hands away; still keeping her eyes casted down.
"JJ, I'm discussing it now" Emily's voice was soft, but it did nothing to sooth JJ.
"What the fuck is the point now?" JJ whispered, anger lacing her voice as she lifted her head. "You're going, with or without me"
"But I don't want to be without you!" Emily reached for JJ's hands again, but once again JJ pulled her hands away. "Come with me"
"Come with you?" It was a rhetorical question. "Emily, I have a son, whose father is already far enough. It's hard enough on Will and Henry, I'm not going to pull them further apart" JJ stood up from the couch and walked in front of the coffee table, arms crossed. "Besides all of that, I have a job here-a life here, you can't ask me to drop all of that and leave…I can't leave the team, and I can't believe you actually want to"
"I don't feel like I'm a part of that team anymore!" Emily shot up and moved to stand in front of JJ. "I love those people, they're my family, and they're not the reason why-"JJ cut her off.
"So then why, why are you leaving us…me?" This time when Emily took her hands, she didn't stop her.
"Ever since I got back, there's been this space in my heart and nothing is filling it, I used to get a rush by doing this job" Emily took a breath before continuing. "Now, now nothing, I feel something when I think about going to London. I need to do this JJ, for me"
"Then go Emily, no one's stopping you" JJ dropped Emily's hands and began to walk towards her stairs.
"So that's it? One year together and it's over, you're ending us?" JJ turned back sharply pointing a finger at Emily.
"Don't put this on me!" JJ kept her distance afraid of what she would do if she was at arm's length. "I'm not the one leaving, I'm not the one choosing a job over her girlfriend" JJ took a deep breath to control herself. "Just leave Emily"
"I can't leave with us like this" Emily whispered, tears stinging her eyes.
"Nothing you can do is going to make this better, just leave because you being here is just making it worse" Emily stated to move closer to JJ, but JJ turned and began to walk up her stairs.
"What are you going to tell Henry?" Emily asked, the young boy had gotten attached to Emily when he was a baby but when the two started dating he began to look at the woman like a second mother.
"I'll figure it out" JJ said over her shoulder.
Emily watched her disappear; she turned to the fireplace in JJ's living room and began to make her way over to the mantle. She finally let the tears fall freely as she picked up the picture of herself, JJ, and Henry. She ran her finger tips over the picture before placing it back down and walked out of the house.
JJ heard the door close, she sat down on her bed and placed her head into her hands and broke down.
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2 Years Later
"Henry, let's go you're going to be late!" JJ yelled from her kitchen.
The four year old hurried down the stairs and ran to his mother, JJ smiled seeing him running so she opened her arms and lifted him when he was close enough.
"Let's go mama" JJ smiled when he planted a kiss on her cheek.
She picked up her bag from the stair railing and put it over her free shoulder and then grabbed Henry's. She got to her car and placed him in his car seat, putting the bag beside him. She got into her driver's seat and heard her phone beep for what seemed like the 20th time that morning. She picked up her phone and saw another text from Garcia, it was her fourth asking her when she was going to be at work. JJ couldn't help but feel the worry that crept up in her heart.
"Mama, let's go" She smiled at Henry through the rear view mirror.
"Sorry baby" She started the car and began to drive.
JJ dropped Henry off at kindergarten and then made her way to work, once she was on her floor Garcia was rushing to her. On her way to work JJ had received another 5 texts from her friend.
"I got your messages, all 50 of them" JJ said with a laugh as she lifted her phone.
"You need to come with me. Now" Garcia grabbed her hand and began to drag her back to her lair.
Once they were in Garcia's office, JJ dropped her bag and fixed her blazer.
"Garcia, what the hell is going on?" Garcia turned to face her, JJ put her hands on her hips and raised an eyebrow.
"I need you to know that I knew nothing about this before today, that if I knew I would have told you right away" Garcia rambled on, something on Garcia's many cameras caught JJ's eyes and when she looked over she felt the wind knocked out of her.
"What is she doing here?" JJ's voice was a whisper as she pointed to the camera, her eyes never leaving it.
"I don't know, I just saw her walk in and talk to the team, and a little before you got here she went to Hotch's office" Garcia turned and faced the camera as well.
"Is she getting her job back?" The shock wore off and she began to shake with anger.
"I don't know JJ" Garcia said with a small shrug.
JJ turned and began to walk out of the office, but Garcia grabbed her wrist to stop her.
"What are you going to do?" JJ shrugged.
"I don't know, but she doesn't get to walk in here and think everything is okay" JJ pulled her hand back.
"Are you going to tell her?" Garcia raised an eyebrow.
"Maybe" JJ ran a hand through her hair. "Then she'll finally fucking understand how much pain I was in when she left" JJ grabbed her bag and walked out of Garcia's office.
JJ walked into the bullpen and up to her desk, she placed her bag down and looked up at Hotch's office.
"Do you know?" JJ heard Morgan ask.
"Yeah Garcia told me" JJ sat down but never took her eyes away from the office.
"I' glad Emily's back, I really missed her" JJ knew that Reid was only being honest, that he meant no harm, but it pissed her off.
Finally Emily and Hotch both stepped out of his office, she caught sight of him handing her, her badge back. She accepted it with a smile before turning to face the bullpen, her eyes connecting with JJ's. JJ thought she could handle it, handle looking into her eyes…But she couldn't, JJ turned and got out of there as fast as possible.
"JJ!" JJ heard Emily call her; she was just steps away from Garcia's office. After a moment she turned and faced Emily.
"Are you back?" JJ tried to keep her face emotionless, but she wasn't sure if she was succeeding.
"Yes" She started to walk closer to JJ, but JJ took a step back and that stopped Emily. "I never should have left like that"
"And…" Emily was taken aback by that, she wasn't used to JJ being so cold.
"I tried calling, but you never picked up" Emily was talking about all the ties she had called when she moved to London.
"It was too hard" Emily nodded in understanding.
"Did Henry get my cards?" JJ nodded.
"Yes, he loves you Em and I would never turn him against you…He missed you at his birthday parties" A small smile graced Emily's lips at that.
"I missed being there" JJ nodded and looked away from Emily, it was getting to hard to look her in the eye. "I know I don't have the right to ask, but I missed you and I was wondering if maybe we could go to dinner"
"No" Her answer was quick and sharp.
"It's just dinner Jay" JJ shook her head with a laugh.
"It's never just dinner Emily" JJ took a breath before continuing. "Nothing is ever going to happen with us again"
"JJ, I know I fucked up but…" Emily didn't hide the hurt and pain in her voice.
"I'm engaged Emily!" JJ raised her hand, showing the ring that was on her finger. "I'm engaged and I'm happy"