Entry 17

Haven't met you yet. I've never been more hooked on a song simply because of how relevant it is to my current situation.

Now with hockey season over, Kendall and Carlos were freer. Of course Carlos was always free because of the broken arm and hip, but now it was official. And now every day after school the three of us would wait for Logan, of course doing a tutor session, and we would go to the park and screw around, while Logan tried to get us to do homework. Everything was going back to normal. Ish. I still had to deal with being in love with Logan, and I still had to deal with the fact that he didn't want me simply out of fear. Fear of not being with Kendall anymore, or maybe because he just didn't want to deal with another love. Whatever the reason it was driving me insane. And to add the cherry on top I had to deal with stupid Darren Smith fucking stalking Logan because he thinks it's open season. Not for long.

"I can't believe we can't go anywhere for Spring Break." Both Kendall and I turned to Carlos who was pouting staring up at the sky.

"We?" He turned to us and Kendall laughed poking his cheek. "You can't go anywhere because you're a crippled. Doesn't mean we have to stay behind with you." Carlos reached out to swat at his face but Kendall ducked back. "Unfortunately though, my plans were with you…so I'm screwed." Carlos grinned in triumph and turned back to look up at the sky. "What about you Diamond? Any Spring break plans?"

"I might go visit my parents…I don't know though. I don't want to go back to the city."

"Is your mom hot? Cause I'll go for you." I threatened to his hurt arm and he flinched, but laughed. "And Logan? Any idea of how you're going to sweep him off his feet yet?" Kendall turned a stupid grin on his face and I blushed looking down. We were sitting outside the gym on a table soaking up the warmer weather. It was finally spring which meant we didn't have to wait inside for Logan anymore. "Do I see a blush?"

"He probably has some romantic bullshit planned." I turned to Kendall and glared. He giggled and pulled his phone out of his jeans. "He should be getting out by now. Tell us before he ruins it." I laughed and stood up stretching.

"I don't have anything planned. I can't find a more perfect way to have him back then him remembering." They both stayed silent as I pulled my backpack on. "Besides if you guys actually think I'd tell you…your more delusional then I thought." Carlos busted out laughing and Kendall swung fast hitting his unhurt arm. I joined in by hitting Kendall's arm and we all started laughing and making jokes but it was short lived. We all snapped and went quite turning to the school doors. The door was hit hard on the wall and walking very fast towards us.

"What's wrong?" Kendall's voice was stern and I couldn't understand until Logan got closer to us. He looked seconds from bursting into tears. "Logan?"

"Nothing can we please just leave?" He walked right past all three of us and Carlos quickly sprang into action, following after on crutches. Kendall turned to me, concern washed over his face but both of the questions on our mind were answered fast. Coming out of the school was Darren. I didn't know about Kendall but I felt my blood boil.

"What did you say to him?" Kendall pushed past me and walked right up to him. He only laughed and Kendall stopped.

"Nothing I know he didn't want to hear." I saw Kendall's fist get clenched and I stepped up quick getting between them and turned to Darren.

"He obviously didn't want to hear it. What did you say?"

"First I asked him out. He turned me down." I couldn't help the grin on my face and he smiled with me. "So then I asked him why and he told me it was complicated and I said the only complicated thing was that he wasn't sucking my dick." I went frozen in my spot and he laughed. Louder. "So then he walked out, pissed and now were here."

"You're an asshole." Kendall tugged on my shirt and started pulling me back.

"One of us has to be." I turned completely and both Kendall and I walked fast to the parking lot. We stayed quite, both of us too pissed to discuss it. But we didn't need to really talk about it. Carlos did that for us. Except he was talking. He was screaming.

"Logan is the clumsiest guy ever! He freaking tripped on his shoe lace!" When we turned the corner Carlos was there, slightly out of breath.

"What are you talking about Garcia? Where is he?"

"By his car. He was telling em what happened when he tripped and smacked his head on the ground." My heart dropped to the pit of my stomach and I felt the blood leave my face. "I obviously can do much to help him, so both of you snap out of this stupid trance phase and go help him!" He poked into my leg with one of his crutches and I pushed past him. Kendall was right on my trail and as I got closer to the all to familiar black sports car, my heart started racing a 100 miles a minute. When I saw his bag on the ground, next to his slowly moving body, I picked up speed and ran as fast as I could to get to him, Kendall not far behind.

"Logan?" I don't think I had been this scared since when he was hit by a truck and laid unconscious on the ground. When I got to him, I could hear him groaning. "Logan!"

"Stop yelling James! My head is throbbing!" I don't know why but hearing him say that made me stop dead in my tracks. I felt my bag hit the ground as I watched Kendall fall to his side.

"You okay buddy?"

"I'm mad at you." His voice was lower and calmer.

"Why?"

"How could you choose your scholarship over me?" Kendall literally fell back on his butt and leaned against his jeep tire. His mouth hung open low and Logan slowly pushed himself up. There was only a small cut on his head that had a small lien of blood trickling down it. "I don't hate you, and I don't want to stop loving you, but I can't be in love with you anymore. That's why I'm with James." I swallowed the vomit that was sure to be coming up as he turned to me and smiled small. "If you're not mad at me?" I walked slowly over to him and he chuckled. "What is wrong with you two? You act like you're seeing a ghost." I kneeled down on the other side of him and saw Kendall staring wide at him. "Seriously…what?" He glanced around and I felt my whole body relax.

"What's the last thing you remember?" He turned to me and gave em a weird look.

"I was just in a tutor session with Darren. He tried making a move and I walked out…but that doesn't explain why I'm on the ground." He looked around and Kendall pulled out his phone. He put it in front of Logan's face getting his attention. Logan only looked once before reaching up and touching his wound. "I fell didn't I?" Kendall laughed small and nodded. Logan turned to him and wiped the blood on the back of his hand. "I don't want you guys to freak out, but I remember everything. Which is rare for a coma patient to remember anything ever, but I guess I'm lucky. I remember before and after the accident." He turned to me and smiled small. "All of it." All I could do was reach out and put him in my arms. I hugged him tight and eh wrapped around me even tighter. I looked at Kendall over Logan's shoulder and he smiled at me. "Did I freak you guys out?"

"It's been weeks Logan. Three months to be exact." Logan buried his face in my neck as he chuckled. "Don't laugh mister." Kendall slowly pushed himself up, staring down at the back of Logan's head. "You gave everyone a fucking heart attack, not to mention all the shit James and I went through." I smiled small and ran a hand through his short brown hair. I tried not to think about the pain and only think about how he was back in my life. Like, really back in my life.

"Did I put you through shit James Diamond?" I laid my head on his and shook my head slightly. "Not that you'd ever tell me, right?" I laughed and nodded. "Sorry." I pushed him away put gently grabbed his face.

"You don't have to say sorry for something you had no control over." He put his hand son mine and I was set on fire. "How do you feel?" He laughed and looked down.

"My head kind of hurts." I heard Kendall snort and I shot him a dirty look. "Don't bother with him. He's going to be a jerk right now because he hates seeing us like this." I felt awkward all of sudden but Kendall laughed out loud.

"No I don't. You haven't changed Logan Mitchell. Good look Diamond." He walked around the back of his jeep and unlocked his car. "Oh and Logan." He reappeared just as I was going to help him off the ground and we both turned to him. "Ask him about the song." He winked at em and waved fast. He jumped in his car, and not five seconds later he was speeding off. I dared to glance down at him and smile when I did.

"Song? You wrote me the song?" I blushed and sighed going to my backpack. "Wow…I asked you for something…and you're going to actually let me have it?"

"I'll sing it for you if it will make you shut up." I pulled out the same familiar black leather journal he had bought me. It was now slightly frayed but still showed how much love had been put into it. I gave it to him, watching him open it slowly. "It's in the middle…here…" I tuned right to the page and sat back sighing softly. His fingertips gently grazed against the page and he started to read. I watched as his eyes scanned across, and with each word he seemed more and more moved. When he finished he looked up fast and let the first tear fall.

"I asked you to write a song." I cocked my head and raised an eyebrow. "And you wrote me…your whole heart." I smiled small and shook my head.

"I didn't write my heart Loges. I wrote you a song. A song from my boyfriend because he asked me too. And I love you." He looked back down, chuckling and again ran his fingers over the page. "So you going to college with me?"

"Well it's obvious I can't leave you now." I laughed and he glanced up at me. "I love you too." I leaned in, but he backed away. "Wait…what college?" I smiled and pulled him in by his face. I kissed him softly and pulled away but not by much. I rested his forehead on mine and sighed.

"Whatever college you want. I'll follow like a lost dog." He laughed and closed the journal setting it in his lap. He wrapped his arms around my neck and sighed sending his hot breath all over my own face.

"It doesn't matter. As long as were together." I bit my bottom lip and he leaned in, kissing me gently. "I love you James Diamond." I closed my eyes and kissed him back, but followed in his footsteps mumbling against his lips.

"I love you more Logan Mitchell."

The End….