First impressions are the most lasting

Disclaimer - I do not own Sekaiichi Hatsukoi nor do I make any kind of money from this story.

Dear Diary,

I haven´t written anything since I graduated abroad in England. The thing that bothers me is, that I got transfered into a shoujo manga department instead of literature at Marukawa Publishing. My boss, Masamune Takano is a whiny, bitchy bastard who sexually harrassed me on the very first day on the job. How? He kissed me as an example for a manga artist. Well, it seems he can do anything he wants as long as he gets desired results? My life has gotten once more and more unpleasant. Takano dumped a whole hell lot work on me, calling me a newbie. Me a newbie?! I have three years of editing under my thumb might I add. I´m not some friggin´ idiot who just got into this bussiness. Oh well, I should end my rant for today and do my work, since Takano piled up on me so much , I have to do it in my free time. Can you believe it? I feel so sick and my stomach kinda hurts. Anyway, I´m done today with this bullshit.

Ritsu Onodera

A pissed of young man with green eyes and brown hair closed his eyes shut as he tried to get rid of his irritation. He had to wait two more weeks. Two more weeks and he can resign from shoujo manga and go to literature. Ever since high school, his life has become a huge mess. Ever since Saga senpai led him on and then laughed him out. Laughed out his pure love. In that moment, he realized that nothing is to be taken as granted. Now, ten years later, he has become a completely jaded adult.

Ritsu was disturbed, when his doorbell rang. Who could it be? An -chan was abroad and his parents didn´t know that he moved yet. Maybe his new neighbour? He stood up and went to answer his door. " Comiing ! " He opened it and saw a familiar figure... very familiar. " Ta - Takano - san ?! "

Ritsu´s POV

I was getting annoyed. Really annoyed. Maybe it showed on my face, because he raised his hands up in peace declaration. " Oi, calm down. I brought over some sakura tea. I thought that we could have a little chat." I sighed internally. He IS my BOSS. I should let him in. " Right. Come in. " Takano looked around my place. " It is ... tidy and clean. I´m impressed. " What did he mean by that? Of course it is tidy and clean. " Well, pardon me for keeping my apartment clean. " I told him to sit down in kitchen, that I´ll prepare the sakura tea. I took extra time preparing it, hoping he would get bored and leave . The tea was ready and steam was coming from cups. " I´m bringing the t - " He wasn´t in kitchen. I put cups on table as I went to find him. I found him in living room , reading a book. I raised my eyebrow in a sudden irritation. He sure made himself at home. " Takano - san ! " He turned to face me , a shocked look on his face. " It couldn´t be ... but ... impossible. " He pulled me in a tight embrace. This action made me blush. " Takano - san ... please, let me go. " He carresed my cheek and made me look at him. There was something in his eyes that made me wonder about him. " Never. I finally found you, my sweet Ritsu. " With that said, he leaned down a bit and kissed me. I tried to pry him off me , but it was foolish. Wait a minute... his sweet Ritsu? It couldn´t be ...

He kissed me so tenderly as if i was a porcelain doll. Afraid of breaking me. To tell the truth, I felt my legs turning into jelly. He held me so tightly, that I felt so secure as never in my life before. Something was wrong with me...no only my legs gave out on me, but my vision started to blur... ugh... I felt so numb...

The last thing I remembered was how Takano shouted my name. Takano... is Saga senpai.

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I woke up suddenly . I saw that Takano was sitting on a chair beside me. He was sleeping in a very uncomfortable position. I tried to sit up, but my stiff body wouldn´t obey me. Takano heard my pained hiss and woke up instantly. He jumped to me , worried.

" You should stay in bed. You have a high fever. Why didn´t you tell me anything? Are you even eating well ? " He cares about me. He is Saga senpai. " Are you ...Saga senpai? " He looked down, pained look made him look so fragile. " Yes, it´s me. My parents have divorced when I was still in high school. Right after you left. but, I would have never imagined that I would meet you someday again. I missed you so much all those years. " I blushed a little. " I-is that so? Then why did you laugh me out, when I asked you if you feel something for me ? " Takano stared at his hands. " Well, I was very nervous. And I was a brat in high school. I didn´t know how to respond. And then I found it funny that you asked me if I have feelings for you after we were together for some months. "

I felt like a big idiot. So, this whole mess is all my fault? I wished I could crawl into a hole and die. Takano leaned in and kissed me on forehead. " I love you. " I blushed madly. " Good for you. I don´t feel the same way anymore." He sat on the edge of my bed and pulled out a pack of cigarettes from his pocket. He lit one with a lighter. Takano exhaled deeply. He stared at me with erotic intensity. " Impossible. "

I felf angry. God, this guy pisses me off ! He stood up, glancing at me. " I will make you fall in love with me once more. And you will say that you love me."

As if ! Over my dead body ! Takano gave me a intrigued look. " I will come by later. Since your apartment lacks medicine, I´m going to buy some. "

When he was about to leave, I tugged at his sleeve. He turned , shocked by my action. " What is it?" My voice felt foreign as those words escaped my mouth. " Don´t leave. " He smiled at me sweetly. " You haven´t changed one bit. Always so straightforward and honest. That´s what I love about you. " Takano patted me on my head. " I will be back soon. " I let go of him , embarrased . My hand moved on its own. He left my apartment.

Why? Why do I meet him now? My heart is racing like crazy. Calm down, Ritsu. Maybe it´s just a temporary whim of his.

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What if Takano loved me these past ten years? I tried to go out with girls, but I couldn´t get myself to love them. It´s because my heart is being held captive. By Takano. I sank my head into a pillow. No matter what I do or with who I try to go out, I can´t forget him. Tears ran down my cheeks as I realized my feelings haven´t changed even after ten years.

I love him.

He is such and idiot.

But what does that make me?

That makes me a huge idiot.

AN - I made a promise to myself to upload something every two weeks , so hopefully I will upload more frequently and I WILL finish my older stories. For the sake of my pride as a fellow writer here on FanFiction. Net and for people who are actually reading my stories and are waiting for more.

So, with that said, please review- this is just a first chapter, but I promise it will eventually get better.