Sheridens story

I felt like my world was collapsing, James was at my side crying his eyes out and Logan just sat in silence staring at me from across the corridor.

Mackenzie went in to premature labour last night, she was only 27 weeks pregnant, the doctors had tried giving her medication to stop it but it didn't work, she ended up getting herself in to a complete panic state with her asthma, she was now in surgery having a c section.

I was told that the survival rate for my twins was 16%. No one was allowed in to be with her. We just sat, I stared at Logan as he stared at me, James was a complete wreck. Carlos was at bel air looking after Georgi for us.

We waited well over an hour before the surgeon came out to talk to us, he sat next to Logan and held his hands together.

"I'm pleased to say that both the boys have made it, one does have severe breathing difficulties, its impossible to say what the out come will be at this stage but everyday that passes they will hopefully grow stronger. They are just about to be taken down to the neonatal intensive care, I'm afraid you won't be able to hold them, they are at high Risk of infection" he said. I squeezed James' hand.

"is Mackenzie okay?" I asked him.

"yes she is absolutely fine, very emotional, but fine." He said.

Just then a nurse came out with my baby boys in an incubator, I didn't even get a chance to see them before they were taken away to the elevator to be taken to their ward.

I started crying.

The surgeon then explained to Logan what would happen next, another nurse came out with a sympathetic smile and guided James and I to the elevator, I hugged Logan quickly before we separated company. He stayed behind to see Mackenzie.

The journey in the lift seemed to go so slow, we were then taken in to a room that had dinosaur shapes on the walls, and cute fuzzy little monsters on the privacy curtain that hung in the room.

James and I held hands so tightly as we looked at our tiny little boys that lay side by side in there incubator.

One was a bit smaller than the other. they both had little knitted hats on and oxygen tubes attached to their tiny faces leading up to their noses. They were so small, my finger was the same size as one of their arms.

"how much do they weigh?" I asked the nurse that was checking machines that the boys were attached to.

she smiled "this little guy came out first and weighed in at 2 and a 1/2lb," she said looking at the smaller of the babies "and this little chunk rolls in at 3 and a 1/4lb... They sound small but that is very good weights for babies born so early" she said soothingly.

"how long will they need those tubes?" James asked.

"the little one despite his size has better developed lungs than his brother, so he may be free of the tube in a few weeks, his brother I expect will need it until he reaches full term, they are both on medication to mature their lungs but its a waiting game now I'm afraid" she said.

"they will be in hospital for a long time then?" I asked,

"yes I would expect if all goes well and no complications arise they may be able to go home when they reach around 38 weeks" she said.

"what complications could we face?" I asked.

"once the boys are more stable they will be scanned to check for any brain damage, internal bleeding and their eye sight, preemies do tend to have retina problems but they do catch up when they grow stronger" she said

I gave James a hug and had a good cry.

"what do we do now?" James asked.

Again the nurse smiled "make yourself at home" she replied "take some pictures of the boys, you can put your hands in the holes there to touch them as long as you use the sanitary scrub over there first, they have very weak immune systems so we don't want to let them get sick when they have a long enough journey ahead of them" she said then busied herself with notes and machines.

I looked at James, he nudged me as to say go wash my hands, I didn't want to though. I was scared.

the nurse looked at us "guys I know its weird but just ignore us, you will get used to us hanging about like part of the furniture, hold your babies hands and talk to them, let them hear your voices"

I nodded and washed my hands then placed one inside the little hole that ran alongside the incubator.

I cried as I put my finger in the palm of the smallest baby.

As time ticked by and James and I spoke to our beautiful tiny boys Logan came in with Mackenzie in a wheel chair.

"hey, how are you doing" I said giving her a hug, she was crying already but cried more so now she was being spoken to.

"I'm fine... How are they?" .

"they are hanging on in there Macks, come and say hello" James said taking the back of the wheel chair and wheeling her towards the incubator.

Mackenzie cried even harder "they are tiny" she wept

"Thankyou for doing this for us Mackenzie, no matter what happens Sheriden and I will be grateful for as long as we live" James whispered to her as he kissed her on the head.

"they are beautiful" was all she replied staring wide eyed at the baby boys.

"how are you feeling Mackenzie, are you in much pain?" I asked as I pulled out of a hug with Logan.

"I'm fine, just not allowed to lift anything, have to take it easy that's all" she sniffed out. "I can't get over how small they are" she said.

I smiled at her.

"its going to be a hectic time of year for you huh" Logan said.

I smiled and thought of Georgi, it is her first birthday tomorrow,
"lots of joint parties coming our way" I smiled.

James chuckled at the thought.

"I'm going to get some things from home for Mackenzie later, write a list out of anything you need and I will pick it up for you... Did you want me to bring Georgi up with me?" Logan asked

"yeah that would be amazing, I'm staying in with the boys, and James is going home so he can take her back, if your sure you don't?" I said back to him.

"course I don't mind, we are a team aren't we guys" he said pulling us all in for a group hug.

The afternoon went by slowly, I wasn't sure how I would cope with the next 11 weeks if every day dragged out like this. I was so impatient at the best of times, let alone when I wished my children to full health.

Logan had left about an hour ago, he returned with Georgi and a bunch of stuff for both me and Mackenzie.

I showered Georgi with kisses and wept silently as she babbled away, she was so happy, so unaware of the woes of the world.

James then took her, giving her an almighty cuddle, he walked her over to the incubator.

"Georgi I would like you to meet your little brothers" James said to her.

"here I will take a picture of all you guys" Logan said moving me gently next to James, he took the picture then showed it to me, it was nice, you could see the twins well as they were lit up in their incubator, and Georgi had a beautiful smile on her sandwiched inbetween James and I as we stood behind the boys.

"beautiful family of five" Mackenzie said as she looked at the picture.

"have you thought of any names yet?" Mackenzie then asked

"yeah we have decided on their names, I hope you like them because in a sense they are both named after you guys" I said

Both Logan and Mackenzie smiled at eachother.

"this little guy is Max" I said pointing to the smaller of the babies. "and this is Mitchell" I finished looking at the larger of the twins.

"I don't get it, how is it connected to logues and I?" Mackenzie asked,

James chuckled, so did Logan

"your Macks aren't you... For max, and my surname in the show is Mitchell... Max and Mitchell Maslow. That's cool, they are awesome names guys Thankyou" Logan said smiling.

As days and weeks did go by the twins had steps forward and steps back but they were surviving, all tests that my poor little babies had to be put through came back with good news, they were both fighting for survival and doing so well.

It looked likely that Mitchell was going to have to stay in longer because of his lung problems, but at 41 weeks both my boys were allowed home, Mitchell now weighed in at an amazing 8lb and Max was just shy of 5lb.

They were beautiful, I could see James in them so much, my boys were going to be so handsome, I wondered how many hearts they would break in their life time.

A week after they had been home we planned a party for our close friends and family, it was to celebrate 3 things. One being Georgis belated birthday party, she had missed out as the one we did have planned had to be cancelled due to the twins arriving early, the second was of course the boys being home and a good opportunity to show them off, but the big one was 4 days ago we got confirmation that Georgi was now an official maslow. I cried so hard when I spoke to Karen on the phone, she wished us love and luck with our new family, she truly was an amazing person, she said she would always send Georgi a birthday and Christmas card with a letter included, she asked if that was okay with James and I, I was over joyed that she still wanted at least a little contact with her beautiful girl.

As guests arrived and James and I greeted them in our home, our very family orientated gathering got underway, we had all of James' family, all of the Pena family, and our beautiful extended btr family.

I hadn't seen much of the other guys since the twins were born so I was determined to have a good catch up. As we spoke to guests the hours flew by.

Ophelia was walking now, she was so cute, kendall had attempted to put her hair up in bunches. She had a little fringe cut in now too, her hair was jet black just like paisleys. Fran was so good with her, she had hold of Ophelia while kendall had one of the twins.

Mackenzie had the other one, she was sat with savannah at the large patio table in our garden.

"Group meeting in a second guys" James said as our party came to an end and guests were leaving.

Once again James and kendall had reunited their friendship and once again appeared to be best friends, I guess the tour had brought them back together. It must of been nice to not have me hanging about. But it was a sight for sore eyes to see them like this again.

As we all gathered around in the garden I noticed James had a ridiculous smile on his face.

I was sat next to Mackenzie who cradled Mitchell, Georgi was sat on my lap, Carlos was sat next to me, savannah and Fran sat at the end of the large table, kendall who still had max was next to James and Logan. Ophelia was plodding around on the grass just in front of us.

"okay so Sheri and I have a gift for Mackenzie to say thank you for helping us bring these two little boys in to our lives" James said handing Mackenzie an envelope.

"guys what is this? You have honestly done enough for us" she said looking between James and I.

As promised we paid Logan and Mackenzie the 450 thousand once she signed the surrogacy contract, we had also paid them another 750 thousand dollars after the twins were born.

She had no clue about this other little surprise that James and I had for her. Logan did though.

Mackenzie passed Mitchell to Logan who was on the other side of her so she could open the envelope.

"what is it?" She said nervously

"just open it Macks" Logan said smiling

Mackenzie opened up the envelope, she read through the huge amount of paper work before realising what it was

She screamed in joy "oh my God... How did you get it?" She finally said reading through the papers again.

"the old fashioned way... Waved money in his face" James replied.

"oh my... I honestly don't know what to say... Thank you so much" she said.

"what is it?" Savannah asked.

"its my salon, its red cherries, I have it back!" She screamed out.

"wow that's cool Kenzie, you loved that place" she replied.

"we actually have a little something for you too savannah, without you we wouldn't have Georgi, so I would like to offer you this" I said handing her an envelope.

She opened it up, it was another contract for her to sign with me but had been revised that she did have a but more freedom to do things she wanted plus the opportunity to be on my judging panel for my show that would start filming soon.

"are you fucking kidding me... You want me on the panel? Jesus Christ, that's amazing" she beamed.

"so you want to sign your life away with me again?" I asked her.

"course I fucking do, who else is gonna keep my feet on the ground huh" she said then got up and gave me a hug.

"thanks shoo, it means a lot to both of us" Carlos said.

"your welcome," I replied.

"so is that all the mushy stuff done with now, can we get on with having a few drinks and get all these kids to bed" Logan said

"sorry logues... I have a little envelope for each of you," kendall said handing out envelopes that had been sat in front of him, to Logan and Carlos, James already had his so I presume he was in on what ever was about to be said

The boys opened up their envelopes and read what was printed.

"shit are you serious?" Carlos said as he smiled so hard, I thought he might cry.

"yep 100%, James and I got talking and we discovered that we have a load more ideas that would only work if we were together" kendall replied.

"have you signed yours?" Logan asked.

Both kendall and James nodded

"this is amazing, I'm in... Get me a pen" Logan said

again it was savannah that asked what it was, if it wasn't obvious enough

"its a contract for a 5th season of the show and a 4th album as a group" James replied to her.

"so big time rush aren't calling it a day?" I said smiling at James.

"nope not just yet, after the tour we realised that the love we have for the band was bigger than the rift we had between us" he said now giving kendall a pat on the back.

"we are hoping that you don't cause any trouble this time round Sheriden... A peaceful life would be nice" kendall joked.

I raised my eyebrow at him. There was no way I was going to mess anything up now, everything was perfect!

The end.