Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight. That honor belongs to Stephanie Meyer. I am just borrowing them for your amusement and mine.

A/N: This takes place during Eclipse. I'm not dragging out the beginning like most stories do. I'm jumping straight to the point of the story, where the plot really begins. If I were to try putting off them leaving for a couple chapters, then it would be absolutely terrible because I would have nothing to write about.

"Edward...please?" I moaned as he pulled away from me as soon as I put my hand on his chest and he practically flew across the room. It was inevitable, this happened every time. Usually, I'm the one to make a mistake and go too far, like trying to deepen the kiss. I mean, I did try to be understanding about his fears but it did absolutely nothing to alleviate the urges I had building up inside me every time we kissed.

As usual, his answer was always the same. "Love, we can't. It's too dangerous. I can't risk hurting you." I throw my hands up to my face and groan in frustration. "I'm sorry," he tells me.

Yeah, he's sorry my ass. Even I can tell that he doesn't feel any remorse at all. I don't need Jaspers ability for that. This is getting more irritating and frustrating with every passing day. I don't know how much longer I can take being turned down repeatedly. I stand up and start pacing angrily. Lately, Edwards been acting funny, it doesn't take much for him to pull away from me. If he pecks me on the lips and I put my hand on his chest or if I part my lips, even slightly, he pulls away. He doesn't cuddle me as much at night anymore. Ever since we got back from Italy, Edward hasn't been showing his love for me as much as he did before. He was so happy that I came and saved him – ecstatic that I was still alive, so loving at first. But then, slowly it has started to all fade. It's beginning to make me regret my decision to take him back. A knock on the door interrupts my thinking.

"Come in Rosalie," Edward calls.

Rosalie pokes her head through the door. "Family meeting downstairs in five minutes. The Denali's called, they need our help." She doesn't even wait for us to respond before she's leaving and I can hear the click click click of her heals as she walks down the hallway. I follow her with a quick glance back at Edward to make sure he's coming.

Down in the living room, everyone is seated with the exception of Carlisle who is pacing. Carlisle is the one to start. "Eleazar called. They're having issues with some killings up there and they are asking for our help. The whole family is going, with the only exception being Jasper and Bella. It's too dangerous for Bella to go and Jasper offered to stay behind to protect her."

"What? Why?! I can stay and do it." Edward protests.

"Son," Carlisle sighs and starts talking in that tone of his that says 'this is how it's going to be whether you like it or not'. "You can't. We need your mind reading abilities. Jasper is the only option. We need Emmett's strength and Alice's visions. The rest of us are going to help because we know the area since we visit a lot and the Denali's requested all of us go. Yes, Jasper's gift is important and would be useful but it won't be as useful as you're gifts. Plus, if we need his help. He's going to run up and help."

I think Edward senses that Carlisle meant business because he turns to Jasper and says "You better take care of her Jasper. Don't leave her out of your sight. Not even for a second." Jasper nodded curtly.

"Everyone go and pack your things. We're leaving immediately. Pack light, but as much as possible at the same time. There's no telling when we'll be back." I hadn't uttered a word this whole time. No telling when they'll be back? Good. Maybe this time apart will finally make Edward realize how he's been treating me lately. Telling me he loves me but hardly ever showing it anymore.

"Love, I promise I will call you every day. I will try to return home to you as soon as possible." By the time he's finished with the sentence, he's also finished packing. With vampire speed and whatnot. I can feel myself blinking back tears. I willed myself not to cry. He comes over to me and kisses me chastely. "I love you, Bella. Remember, this is not forever. I will be back. This is not like last time after your birthday party."

I try not to think about that time, where Edward left me because I got a paper cut and Jasper tried to eat me because every ones emotions got too much at once with my blood out in the open. I follow closely behind him as he walks down the stairs where the others are already waiting. After quickly saying goodbye to Edward. "Bella, it will be alright." I jump at the sound, completely forgetting Jasper was there.

"I know Jasper," I whisper. "I'm just not used to being away from him. Ever since I got him back, It makes me anxious to leave him because it makes me think of before, after my birthday party."

I see Jasper wince. I know he doesn't like to think of it either. A couple of weeks ago he came to me and apologized profusely. I told him he had nothing to apologize for. He was an empath and he could feel the bloodlust of 6 other vampires in the room. "I know, it'll be alright. What were you and Edward fighting about earlier?"

"He denied me once again. He was kissing me. But the second I try to deepen it. He denies me and off he goes. What's wrong with me, Jasper? Am I that undesirable? Am I that ugly?! He's always talking about his lack of self-control, but believe me when I tell you his self-control is iron-clad! It's me who has no control anymore…I want to be with him so badly, Jasper, but he just doesn't want to be with me. I wish he had the guts to tell me that to my face. I love him so much but often, lately, I'm starting to doubt whether he loves me or not."

"Oh darlin', you know that's not true. You're gorgeous and very far from undesirable." I see his eyes scan over what I'm wearing, which is a form-fitting sea blue shirt with skinny jeans and matching blue ballet flats picked out by Alice. I notice his eyes turning darker as he does it. Is he getting turned on by my body? Isn't that their eyes darkening what Edward told me happens when a vampire is turned on? "He loves you Bella, he's just trying to protect you."

"NO!" I screamed. All of my pent up frustration, all of my fears just broke like a dam and I lost it. "He is not trying to protect me! It's as if he's trying to control me. He treats me like I'm a child! He tells me what to wear, what and what to eat, he hides things from me, and he tries to make all of my decisions for me. He treats me as if I'm a stupid incompetent child. I sit there and take it because I love him. But if him controlling me is what love is really about between me and him. Then I DON'T WANT TO LOVE HIM ANYMORE! He knows I want to be changed and be with him for eternity but NO he can't give me that. He doesn't want my soul damned and can't risk it. But you know what I think it is? I think he'll miss my blood."

Jaspers eyes are wide as saucers by the end of my explosion. I sigh, "I'm sorry Jasper. I didn't mean to yell at you. I've been keeping that in for some time now and I guess I just lost control over my emotions. I apologize."

"There's nothing to apologize for Bella. You shouldn't be holding that in. Is that how you really feel?"

"Honestly? Yes, it is. I went to Italy to save him from his suicide because I love him and I couldn't let him think I was dead. I took him back because I love him. But now, I'm not so sure if loving him is what is right for me anymore."

"Maybe him being away for a while will be good for you then, and you'll be able to clear your head and figure out what is best for you."

"Yeah, maybe. Thanks for listening Jasper." I bit my lip in nervousness, "Jasper.. can I.. can I hug you? Would you be okay with that." Jasper smiled in response and wrapped his arms around me. I wrapped mine around his waist. We stood there for I don't even know how long. What felt like hours later he pulled away.

"Come on, you can fix yourself dinner if you'd like and we can watch Romeo and Juliet. I know that's one of your favorite movies."

A/N – What did you think of it? Should I continue? By the way, I'm looking for a beta reader. If anyone's interested, please let me know.