HEY MY A-CA-BABES! Here, it is! I won't talk much but since I have so many things going on right now I will get a chapter out every Thursday, if it's too short or really long, don't kill me! Every chapter for CWJ was like 2,500- 3,500 words because it was 3 shot but these, my goal is 1,800 words on each because there will be at least 50 chapters. I'll try to post once or twice a week for the next couple months! So I'm gonna shut up now.

Oh and really quick, if you haven't read Christmas With Jesse (CWJ) I highly suggest it, things will make more sense.

Also, the chapters are irrelevant, I listen to music while I right so I put these in. Wasted Tears by Haley Reinhart. Sorry for any mistakes, I rushed to get this up for you guys!

Xoxo Emerson, Emma, BardenBella, whatever, love you guys!

Chapter One: Wasted Tears

Turns out every night I cry those wasted tears.

I can't erase, can't get back another yesterday.

If I knew then what I know now I would have walked away.

It's so hard to breathe when love's buried alive.

Turns out I've been crying wasted tears.

Reluctant tears were streaming down my face, Jesse and I were sitting in our spot, we wrapped around each other. Our dorms were empty, we had our degrees in whatever and it was just over, I wasn't sure of anyway to tell it.

My final farewell to the Barden Bellas had been emotional; beyond sad. Fat Amy was going back to Tasmania, Stacie was two months pregnant, and Lily was off to grad school. Denise, Ashley, Jessica, and Cynthia Rose were off to find their place in the world. And me, I was off to Los Angeles, where I've always wanted to go. It was a place I had always wanted to be, I used to call it home. Not anymore, my home was wherever Jesse was. My new home is going to be in New York City, 2,789.9 miles away from sunny LA, and it's going to be hard.

I hadn't realized but I started crying harder, thinking of leaving my family and the boy I love more than my life. "Shh, Becs, It's gonna be okay. We'll see each other as often as possible and one day we'll be led back to each other." Jesse tried to soothe me as his arms tightened, whispering into my ear. I nodded into his chest, I was pressed up against.

After a couple more moments of silence I broke it, "I love you, Jesse. I love you so much. And I'm gonna miss you like hell, nerd. What am I gonna do all day after work without you with me."

I could feel him smile sadly into my hair, knowing that he will be going through the same thing. "We'll get through it and in two years when I'm finished with school, we'll have more time for each other." I nodded again. Jesse did so well these for years New York University offered him a full ride for a two- year program to learn all about scoring. Jesse was prepared to move with me to LA, until this came up. There was no way Carol or I was going to let him turn it down. "We still have time, you know. You are going to come down to Virginia and we are going to have a ton of fun before you have to go and start your internship."

I smiled into his chest, "Okay." I whispered and I took a deep breathe, "I'm gonna miss Barden, I became so attached to this place, you know? But you are right, everything is gonna be okay and I can't wait for the first few weeks of summer back home." In habit of Jesse and I going to his childhood house every single long weekend or holiday break for the last three years I started to call that place home and that family, my family. I looked up to him, "Is Mom still planning that party for us?" That's another thing I picked up. After my second Christmas with the Swanson's Carol and Scott insisted, well kind of, it just kind of slipped out one morning when Carol and I were cooking, I called her Mom without thinking twice and I'm pretty sure she started crying and we hugged for ten minutes straight.

Jesse smiled down at me; my gaze met his, "Unfortunately." I chuckled at his reaction.

"I mean, it won't be that bad, right?" I tried to reason.

"If it's anything like my high school one or Emma's were screwed and now there's two of us graduation, so expect double everything." I laughed at the memory of Emma's graduation extravaganza last spring. With much protest from Jesse and me, she's at UCLA, we wanted her at Barden but she said that wasn't for her. But now I'm excited because I need at least one Swanson in that city with me. Emma and I had gotten really close over the years, she was like my sister and I was overjoyed to have her with me. Instead of us staying together, I wanted to give her the college, she shouldn't have to live with her "older sister" when she wants to make mistakes and do crazy things; fortunately she knows I'm always gonna be there for her. We don't need prison "to change" anybody else in this family.

"I'm sure it'll be fun, though." I said trying to convince myself that Jesse's parents weren't completely crazy, loving.

"Oh, I'm sure." Jesse replied half sarcastically. We separated, dried tears on our cheeks, just admiring the beautiful campus with freshman tours going on and seniors packing their bags. I ran my fingers through the soft, green grass at my hand, things were about to change drastically. I could feel it.

We ran down the stairs, "Beca, Jesse, dinners ready." Jesse and I had gotten home this morning after an overnight train and since Emma was coming in tomorrow; God forbid she miss the party! And the other Swanson's were in two towns over; Jesse and I had Mom and Dad to ourselves, which was kind of rare now that I think about it. Jesse slid the slider open on the back porch and we walked outside to the sweet aroma of burgers on the grill. There were watermelon slices and potato chips on the picnic table. We took our seats across from Mom and Dad at the table and dove in. It was a majority of small talk until Carol spoke up, "So, are you guys excited for the party tomorrow afternoon?" She asked excitedly. Jesse and I shared a look before turning back to her.

"Super excited," I commented.

At the same time Jesse replied, "Of course, Mom." We both swallowed loudly as Mom gave us suspicious looks.

"Ya, okay…" After her staring us down (me and Jesse's eyes never left our plates) she gave in, "Well, good because it's gonna be fun." She smiled encouragingly to me, leaning on the table and staring at the top of my head as if looking for me to say something. I picked up chip and plopped it on my tongue, indulging on the saltiness.

Dinner ended with a kiss on our heads from Mom as she snuck back inside. Jesse and I excused ourselves to bed, that was until he dragged me into his closet in his room. He reached on the very tall shelf, "Should I be scared right not or are you going to show me some cheesy childhood sentimental shit?" He rolled his eyes as he pulled out a really old looking ball of a tarp and poles.

He looked straight into my eyes, the package resting on his hips, "Beca, we are going camping." He said seriously.

I snorted, "Well, as fun as that sounds count me out please. Besides where would we even go?"

He rolled his eyes at me, "In the back yard of course. Where else? Now, I've gotta get pitching this tent before the sun goes down." I rolled my eyes.

He was in the threshold to his room when I called out to him, "If you miss my body next to you, I'll be in bed." He completely ignored me. I rolled my eyes and stripped down, throwing on some sweatpants and his Treble's hoodie. I'm gonna miss him. I put my nose under the collar and took a deep breathed in smiling. I crawled under the Darth Vader (I DONT OWN STAR WARS) sheets and smiled as I drifted off.

Sleep was short lived when I felt cold, the cover were being peeled off of me. "Come on, sleeping beauty, we're going outside he said as he pulled me into his eyes. I quickly realized I was in the air.

"Jesse Swanson. Put me down. I'm not going to freeze my ass off outside." I stumbled over my words sleepily.

Again, he completely ignored. As he slid the back door open he finally answered, "Beca, this is going to be an awesome couple moment. You. Me. Under the stars. Cuddled up in a sleeping bag. Telling secrets. Making out, don't deny me of this. I wanna hang out with my girl before I can't anymore." He tried to convince me and of course that last sentence was like black mail to me, how could I deny him of anything now?

I sighed, defeated, "Fine, only because I love you nerd." He pecked my lips as we made our across the porch, him still carrying me. I snorted loudly when I saw it. The tent was tiny and the roof was the type of screen with tiny holes so it looked non-existent. "Are you sure we're gonna fit?" He nodded.

He set me down at the door of the tent, if you could even call it that. "It's time for our magically romantic night, just you and me." He bent down to kiss me and it was like God felt the same way I did because the house to left of his turned on their porch lights.

"Beca! Jesse! Is that you?" I groaned and shot Jesse a glared or palmed his forehead.

"Shh, don't say anything!" I yelled- whispered to him as I slammed my mouth on his face and pulled him to the sleeping bag so he was lying on top of me.

"Guys?!" Abby continued, God could this girl ever give us a break. After a minute or two the porch lights went off and hopefully she had retreated into her house. Jesse flipped us over so I was on top. And we started laughing, hard.

"That was so close!" Jesse cried as he ran his fingers through his hair and they went to my shoulders, rubbing them.

"You're telling me! I told you this whole thing was a bad idea." I was cut off, about to go into how I much I hated Abby when he sat up halfway, him pulling me towards him in a knee-weakening, toe-scrunching, goose bump giving kiss. Our lips moved against each other routinely, this kiss was needy and urgent. It was fast but slow and savoring. His back went back on the ground and I pressed up against him. I pulled away to breathe, my forehead never leaving his. "Let's look at the stars." I said, pulling away.

He sighed and muttered, "You tease."