Chapter 1- Tris

As I walk into the cafeteria for breakfast, laughing and talking with Christina and the rest of my friends, I see Four sitting with Shauna.

Again.

This should not bother me.

I do not even remotely like him, not a little bit, no.

Just because he saved me from Peter, Drew, and Al last week, just because he risked one of his worst fears to climb a Ferris wheel with me, does not mean anything changes.

He and Shauna are still together and I can't change that. So why is this driving me crazy?

Shauna and Four are my friends. I should not be jealous. But I am.

I think back to when I first found out they were together, on the roof right before ziplining.

"Of course I know Four," Shauna had said. "he's my boyfriend."

I mentally berate myself for letting him distract me and try to focus on Christina's story about how she punched Peter in the face yesterday, but my heart is racing.

I rest my head on the table, barely missing the untouched bowl of cereal.

"Tris, are you all right?" Christina asks me.

"Yeah," I say. "Just tired, I guess."

I can tell from the look she gives me that she does not believe me, but she doesn't ask further questions.

I clear my plate and leave the dining hall, too out of it to eat or talk to my friends. I go to the dorms and flop down on my bunk, than quickly spring up again when I realize that tomorrow is the day before initiation and training is in five minutes.

If I hurry I can make it. I sprint up the Pit pathway to the fear landscape room.

Today's fear better not be about Four- he is the one administering the simulation.

I get to the fear landscape room just before eight, nod hello to Christina, Will, and Uriah, and Wait.

Today I am the first to go. When I climb into the chair, depressed, Four looks at me oddly. It's as if he can tell exactly what my bad mood is about.

"You OK," he asks.

"Fine," I say, keeping my eyes on the floor. I can't tell him the truth. He will laugh at me and it would just be too awkward. He injects me with the serum and the simulation takes over my brain.

Four

Tris seems a little off today.

I saw her staring at me from across the cafeteria this morning, and when I noticed she blushed and turned away.

It's like she knows I'm losing touch with Shauna, that I kinda have a thing for her.

She seems so sad lately, though, that I am afraid she will pull an Al and jump into the chasm. Wish I knew what it's all about.

I administer the serum and attach the wires to my head, and wait. Today her fear is the crows again.

But instead of calming herself down, maybe a minute into it she just gives up and starts crying. Something is definitely wrong because the normal Tris is the strongest person I know. I pull us both out of the simulation.

"Look, Tris. Don't be like this. I'm taking you back to the dorm, okay?"

she nods. The first time this happened, it was the first day of simulations and I was sure that though she was scared she wouldn't break like the other initiates did.

I'm being proven wrong.

But I sense that it goes deeper than the fears. I take her hand and lead her out the back door to the hall.

We go find Eric on the way and I ask him to administer the rest of the simulations for me. He nods and goes to the simulation room. I need to have a talk with Tris so instead of the dorms, I take her to the train tracks.

"Where are we going?" she asks.

"You'll see," I say.