ello there, this is Haley, or "borderlies" on fanfic. Hope has been going through some hard times (will be explained below), and so she asked me to post this for you guys. She apologizes for this being a lack of an update, but here is what she'd like to say:

Hi, everyone. I know, I know. You're probably super ticked off that this isn't an update. But I've had more happening than I've ever had.

First off, my computer won't let me go to the Internet. I emailed this message from my iPod and sent it to Haley (borderlies), who then posted it on here.

Life has not been particularly kind to me. At the moment, I am in the process of finishing off my 8th grade year, and I have exams coming up. I take middle and high school classes since I'm in the gifted/accelerated program, so that in itself is rather overwhelming.

My family has been hit with a huge wave of medical problems. I found out a couple days ago that my grandfather has cancer, and my great grandmother is dying... She refuses to eat or drink, and she's just giving up on life. We adopted three kids about 3 months ago, and the oldest one, Anna (17), was recently put in a psychiatric hospital for threatening to end her life. A horse at my stable had to be put down, and my sister's boyfriend was put in ICU for having six seizures in a very short amount of time.

Meanwhile, I'm still trying to deal with my own depression and stuff. I have started therapy, but I hate it and am very good at getting out of it whenever I can. I'm doing a lot to keep my family together, but my relationship with my mother continues to be practically nonexistent. It's been so very hard for me lately.

So you'll understand why I don't appreciate the rude/pushy reviews I have been receiving lately for all of my stories. I try my hardest, guys. It means the world to me that you guys like my stories enough to ask me to update, but you should know that if I could, I would! I love to write. But right now, it's taking a lot out of me to just get up every morning and go through the day. The last thing I need is more pressure. If you don't like my stories or you don't think they're original (I KNOW they're not original), then get off my page, okay? Your insults are uncalled for, and quite frankly, I don't give a crap about your opinion anymore. I'm tired.

Please know that I want to be on here, I want to update, and I want to talk to you all. Your support on this journey has been so overwhelming and I can't thank you guys enough for helping me through a very dark time in my life. I read every single review, even if I don't respond to them. I want you to also know that I don't think I will be updating anything again. Maybe over the summer I'll be able to write something, but without my laptop, it's going to be a challenge. I'm literally crying writing this, because I know this is goodbye. I promise I'll try to post something again. This website is a huge piece of me that I'll never forget. I see every review and follow and favorite through my email, and it means the world to me that people are still reading and enjoying my stories. You guys are the best.

My PM box will still be open, though it may take awhile for me to respond. For a quick response, the best way to reach me is by my email, which is hope . schulz1 gmail . com, or you can reach me through Instagram horsecrazygirl13 (my personal) or thefaultinamultifandomlife (my fangirl account). I would love to keep in touch with you guys, and I'll still be reading and reviewing.

Also, I didn't get to see the Divergent movie right when it came out, because my sister wasn't able to take me then, but I'll be seeing it today, and I'm really excited/nervous. To be perfectly honest, I don't really find Theo James attractive. Just sayin'. ;) And I heard that they'll be making a Paper Towns movie with the TFiOS crew, except this time, Nat Wolff will be the main character. I'M SO EXCITED. Plus, TFiOS is coming out soon! AHHHH!

Another thing: There is a girl who reviews a lot of my stories... She's a guest, and she always signs off as "-the girl who gets bullied by her own best friends". This message is to you: You said in a recent review that I never read your reviews. I do. They break my heart every time, but I've never been able to respond, because you're a guest. You especially are welcome to email me anytime. You're amazing and beautiful. I understand what it feels like to be a second choice. It hurts. But those friends who bully you are obviously not your friends. You have to let go of them, which is WAY easier said than done, I know. I wish I could help you more. My heart goes out to you. Talk to me anytime, love, even if it's just a review on one of my stories. xoxo

Lastly, and this message is to everyone, if you are going through anything and you just need to vent or you need someone to listen to, I'm ALWAYS here. I'm up close and personal with depression, along with a lot of other issues. I suck at comforting people, but I will always offer an open ear. I don't judge or discriminate. You're all perfect just the way you are. Don't let anyone tell you differently.

Thank you will never be able to suffice. Goodbye for now, Fanfiction. I love you.

-HCG13 xoxo

So, um, yeah. Also, if you've been leaving rude reviews on her stories, please stop, okay? She's such a sweet girl, and she's already going through hard times, so if you could not post rude things, I, as well as Hope, would appreciate it. Hopefully you guys read this and understand.

-Haley/ borderlies