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WARNING!:
Some events and situations in this chapter maybe too graphic for anyone under the age of 18. If you are under age stop here, if not continue. The warning remains due to capricious plot bunnies!

What Could Have Been

CH.20

Sam:

I phased immediately and howled for the pack to come to the cabin, Embry and Quil came and then Seth and Leah and Paul and Jared. I told them what Emily had told me, Leah went inside after she called Sue to come over and help with the kids. We left and started searching for Jacob, we circled the cabin. We howled for him but no answer, we didn't feel him phase either. I heard Seth in my head.

'He has to be in human form because if he was in wolf form he would've answered by now.'

I agreed, we searched around some more until Quil piped up and said.

I got him, his scent is a bit fainter. He left last night, the trail leads to Billy's house.'

We all hit hell for leather and ran to Billy's, when we got there I knocked on the door and waited for Billy to open the door.

"Is Jacob here Billy?" I asked.

"No! why?" Billy asked worriedly.

"Because he left his home late last night and Bella and the babies are upset." I replied with a slight edge to my voice, my wolf getting ticked off at Jacob.

"I promise you Sam, I had no idea he came here last night or I would've called Bella and let her know." Billy replied upset at the situation.

Billy moved aside and we walked into the house, Jake was definitely here. We walked down the hall to his old room and opened the door. There he was passed out on the bed. I called Emily and told her we found him at Billy's asleep and to tell Bella that we would be bringing Jacob back with us. Billy came in and yelled at his son to get up! Jake flew off the bed and was up and awake.

"What's going on?' Jake asked frantically.

"Why are you hiding over here Jacob Ephraim Black!" Billy said with a father's authority.

"Because Bella won't leave me alone!" Jake said agitated.

"Why?" Billy asked curious as to why his son would leave his family.

"She wants something from me that I can't give her until after the wedding."

"Oh, I see; what's going on now?" Billy replied.

"Bella's been crying all morning because she thinks you left her and aren't coming back and she's sorry for last night." Sam said furiously.

"Oh crap! I only wanted to get some sleep." Jake said sadly.

Jacob POV:

I got up and ran out of the house into the woods; I ran home and burst into the cabin and went up the stairs to our room and opened the door and found Bella on the floor in the corner of the room still crying. I ran to her; picking her up and placing her in my lap. I wrapped my warm arms around her tiny body and told her that she wasn't going to lose me and I didn't leave her, I just went over to my dad's to sleep.

I kissed her on the lips and wiped away her tears gently with my thumbs. She told me she was sorry; that it wasn't her fault that she wanted me so much, it was her hormones acting up. I apologized to her as well for getting upset at her and for leaving last night. I kissed her again and held her close; she finally looked up at me with those eyes and said "I love you Jacob and I'm sorry."

I told her "I love you to Bells."

I asked her if she still wanted to marry me? and she said yes she did and I held her even tighter. We kissed and held each other and when she cried again, so did I. Bells looked up at me with red puffy eyes and wiped away my tears and said.

"Jake, I love you more then anything and I can't lose you; you're my life now and I can't live without you."

"Bells, I feel the same way honey about you and I don't want to lose you again, we have a family now and I won't abandon it or you."

We talked and worked everything out, she calmed down and went into the bathroom to wash her face. She washed mine with a warm washcloth gently and smiled up at me with those big doe eyes smiling, then she reached up and kissed me softly on the lips. I deepened the kiss and let her feel how much I loved her and needed her in my life.

We both share a deep love for each other that no one can take away from us; we would even fight each other to keep that love alive.. I told her that tonight is my birthday party and we can spend it together. Bells was so happy to spend time together, just two more days until our wedding and then forever.

Bella POV:

I was so shocked to feel just how deeply Jacob loved me, it was magical, I had never felt that kind of love before, not even from Edward. From that moment on he was mine forever and no other woman could take him from me. I let Jacob feel just how much I loved him; I could tell he felt my love for him because he smiled at me never breaking the kiss.

We walked into the nursery and picked up our screaming babies from Leah and Sue. The minute Jacob held his children snuggly in his arms, they calmed right down. He kissed their little cheeks and told them that daddy was never leaving them or their mama again.

We gave the babies back to Sue and Leah once they were fed and calm. We kissed once more and decided to go get ready for Jacob's birthday party. I put on a beautiful green dress and shoes to match; I needed very little make up because Jake preferred my natural look to all that mess most women caked on their faces, I brushed my wavy hair and pinned the sides back with green butterfly hair clips. Jake put on a white dress shirt; top three buttons open showing his beautiful russett skin, black dress pants and shoes.

We got the twins ready too. Emily and Rachel were very happy to see Jacob and I back together and very happy. We went downstairs with the twins, I held my son while Jacob had our daughter in his arms, our babies were almost three months old now and they were beautiful, it's like having a small version of yourself.

All our family and friends were here for the party. Alice was here earlier and brought Jake's present over from all of the Cullen's; she put it in Billy's garage, I didn't even know what they got him but I'm sure Alice will be watching for my sign for her to show up and reveal his gift.

Charlie came with mom and Phil; Sue was with Seth and Leah, Quil and Embry came too, Paul, Jared, Kim, Sam, Emily came and she brought little Claire with her, she was staying for the wedding with her Aunty Emily. Rachel had a present for Jacob from her and their dad. My mom made Jake's present but she couldn't say what it was.

We had a big bbq and ate burgers and hot dogs; there was alcohol for those who were able to drink, I had fruit juice for me because I was still nursing the twins, we made sure there was plenty due to all of the wolve's and imprints.

Emily and Claire's present to Jacob was a georgious cake, it said 'HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY JACOB!' It was beautiful, a German chocolate cake. We sang happy birthday to Jake as he blew out the candles on his cake.

We dug into the cake and by the time we were done it was all gone, everyone sat down and we started doing the presents, this is what Jacob got.

From:

Charlie: A bow and arrows for hunting.

Sam and Emily: Cake and a dreamcatcher.

Sue, Seth and Leah: An Indian shirt with a russett wolf on the back.

Quil and Embry: a photo album with all of the pictures of the three of them growing up.

Paul and Jared: a tribal bone choker with a russett colored wolf on it and a bone bracelet with the black family design on it.

Joseph and Christianna: a plaque with the babies' hand prints, it read 'We love you daddy' on it.

Claire: A painting of her uncle Jacob.

Rene and Phil: my mom made Jacob a quilt from all of his family photo's of Jake; Billy, Rachel, Rebecca and his mother Sarah, there were also pictures of Charlie, Rene and me from when we were kids. (Jacob started to cry and he went over to my mom and Phil and hugged them both and told them 'Thank You', my mom said to him this way he can remember his mom and their life's together with our whole family.)

Billy and Rachel made Jacob wear a blindfold so he wouldn't see what his presents were from them. We went outside on the porch while Rachel led Jacob down to the yard, she put her finger to her lips asking us to be quite while she goes to get his presents.

We all smiled when we saw what he got. Rachel told Jacob he had to guess what he got and could only use his hands to figure it out. She brought the first present to Jake and she put his hands on it. he kind of freaked out at first; he could feel it was warm, had a heartbeat, was breathing and was strong.

He said it had to be a person, male but he didn't know who it was. So Rachel had the guy move away and she brought another present; she put Jake's hands on it and he was confused because his other present had its back to him, same result, a person, heartbeat but a little slower than the other one, smaller frame, long hair, curvy and smelled like roses.

By that time Jake had kind of figured it out; he said it was female and by the scent it was a family member. Rachel started to giggle and so did the other girl and they sounded alike, she told him he could take the blindfold off now. Jake took it off first and blinked his eyes a couple times and then he jumped at her and threw his strong arms around her and hugged and kissed his sister Rebecca.

He gave her husband Justin a hug and they shook hands. He then picked up Rachel and hugged her and then his dad. Jacob told his whole family that he loved them very much. Jake kept hugging Rebecca, he was so happy to have his whole family back together again.

Alice and the Cullen's had given Jacob a GSXR 750 motorcycle, modified to go really fast, and seated two people and two helmets. Alice showed up and took Jake to Billy's garage; she had him close his eyes while she opened the door, then she said 'open them', he was very surprised that they would even do that for him.

He asked Alice if she wanted to go for a ride?, she said 'sure', they put their helmets on and then the motorcycle roared to life, then they were flying down the road, everyone hoped Jacob would be ok because Jacob did like to go fast.

They went all the way to Charlies house and then came in less then ten minutes, I saw Jake and Alice coming back up the road they were having a ball, you could hear the screaming as they pulled up to the house. Alice and Jake got off the bike and took off their helmets, Jake immediately hugged Alice and told her 'thank you shorty' and said to tell the rest of the family thank you as well and that he loved his gift. Alice hugged Jake and I and went on home.

I know Jake had a great birthday but his favorite presents were his sister and brother-in-law and the quilt my mom made him. My present to Jake was a promise bracelet that Emily and Sam taught me how to make, I gave it to Jake to open, then I put it on his wrist and he said 'I won't take it off'. He hugged me and kissed me, picking me up off the ground and spun me around making me dizzy. We laughed so hard and held each other tightly.

It was getting late; Rachel and /Rebecca fed the twins and changed them for bed, they both sat in the rockers rocking their niece and nephew. Rebecca was amazed at Joey because he reminded her so much of Jacob when he was a baby, the girl's loved spending time with them. They put the twins to bed after they were asleep; Rach and Bec hugged us goodnight and went home with our dad Billy.

Emily went up to bed after cleaning up the party remnants, she said goodnight and closed her door. Everyone else headed on home for the night. Jake and I took the rest of his presents up to our room and changed for bed. We crawled under the covers and snuggled up close to each other and fell asleep.

The next day were the parties for me and Jake, and Jake officially turned 18 today on January 14th. I woke up and started my day, I went to feed the twins and get them ready for the day. but after I fed and dressed them, they fell back asleep.

Jake and the kids were sleeping, I didn't want to wake him or the twins just yet so I went downstairs to the kitchen where Emily, Rach and Becca were sitting talking while Em nade breakfast. They were talking about tonight and where we were going, I walked in and said good mornning to all three of them. They wanted to know if Jacob was awake yet? I told them 'no' that I was letting him sleep awhile.

They told me we would be leaving at 6:00 p.m. for the party and Sue would be over around 5:00 p.m. to babysit the twins while we were gone, I made sure to pump enough milk for the babies' while we were out for the night. We all sat down and ate breakfast together, we heard the babies' fuss and then they got quiet.

I picked up the baby monitor and turned up the volume a little; Jake got up to take care of the twins, he was talking to each one.

"Hey little ones?, you know tomorrow I'm going to marry your mama, she is the most beautiful, caring and loving woman you will ever know. Your mama is the love of my life and now I get to share that with you little peanuts." Jake smiled affectionately at his children.

I smiled and so did the girl's. I have my best friend and my new sisters' with me now and I couldn't be happier. We loved listening to Jake and our babies' together, they were so damn cute together. A few minutes later Jake came down in sweat pants and no shirt, he came into the kitchen and said good morning to us.

I was his first stop, he kissed me hello and then made his way over to Rach and Becca, he hugged and kissed them both on the top of their heads. Emily was the last to get a hug and kiss on the cheek from Jake. He smiled that big sunny smile of his and walked over to the counter to fill his plate and grab some juice. He walked over and sat down next to me and ate his food.

"Jacob? when did you get a tattoo?" Becca asked curiously.

A/N: I know! hides behind the sofa. Another cliffy, I have my reason's Lol.. anyways hope you enjoyed Jake's birthday? I know he did... so Becca doesn't know about the wolves' and how do we think Jake will respond to her question? will he tell her the truth or not?
The suspense is killing me! any who! until next time my lovelies! please review to find out what happens next.