So I did have that one shot idea after I've seen the episode 3X10 (and I have to say it broke my heart!). I just hope it will be great, I first wrote it in French, so I'm translating it... Sorry in advance for mistake (hope it make sense because I mostly don't use translator, but had to on few points). I did change some of the 3X10 dialog and the 3X13 to adapt to my need. I hope it still will make sense to you ;)

It was so hard to hear the tears in her voice, but Sam had to admit he was no more able to continue that way. He couldn't be with her and make his job anymore, it was simply impossible. Not because he didn't want to, but because that when he was not with her, he was wondering if she was okay and when he was with her, he was scared of her putting her life in danger... It was definitely not good for the job!

- One day, maybe we will be able to be friend...

-Don't do that! Don't take everything that we are and put our relationship on some stupid cliché!

She was looking straight into his eyes, letting a tear slide on her cheek. Andy couldn't believe it, yes she understand that he just lived a terrible thing, the lost of his very best friend, but she was there, she was ready to listen to him, she wanted to help him to get through it... instead he was... he was doing what actually? Was he really breaking up with her? Outside of the Penny? Seriously?

- Are you saying it's over? If that's it, just leave, get in your truck and leave, but when you'll think of it, and believe me you'll, remember one thing you told me...

Sadness gives way to anger in McNally's eyes. She breathes in slowly then she reminded him the promise he made to her a moment ago already.

-Remind yourself that you promise that I wouldn't get rid of you without a good fight, yet you are the one breaking up with me behind the Penny without even throw a single shot!

There, she had said it. As Sam was opening his mouth to say something and she knew she didn't have the strength to hear it, she started running. She just hope he wouldn't follow her, after all he was the one who broke up with her, but she was a McNally, no way she was getting dump without a good replica. After a while running without anywhere to actually go, she decided it was time to head home. She saw Sam's truck, but she just ignored it, not even one scornful look, because hatred is as bad as love, it means that you still care about the other, but unconcern was way worst. She unlocked her door and got in. She made a quick check around, making sure she was alone (habit she pick up lately) Then she went for a shower.

The hot water didn't do as much good as she wished. She was constantly on her nerves lately. But her muscles didn't relax under the soothing heat of the water. So she got out fast and dries herself. She put her pajamas on and collapsed on her bed and it is only at this point that she finally let go. She let every tears go, until she fell asleep in one of those restless sleep, those who get to you when the life just won't let you go on your happiness.

Yeah! She had to find the exact words! Those who will make him crack; those who will make him check back his decision again and again and again... He wanted to explains her... to tell her how sorry he was to not have the strength to face the sadness, but she didn't let him the time, she was gone, she surely dreaded to get back on what she just said. He was not mad at her, he wish he could do the same, but he had say the inevitable, she was mad, she would forget him for sure.

When she left, he didn't want to follow her, but he wanted to be sure she got home safe and sound. When he finally saw her, he was relieved. However he knew by seeing her that the damage he had done tonight would be irrecoverable. She completely ignored him, not even a look at him, nothing! He knew he deserved it, but it hurts so much to see her like this. Sam started his truck and went home after that. It was late, he was exhausted and more than anything he was mad at himself. It didn't took him long to fall asleep, in which he saw that chaotic evening filled with promise to Andy, then her injured face that become hers, and would probably haunt him for a very long time.

The weeks go by, but McNally didn't feel any better. When she was at work, she was doing her best to ignore him, she didn't go out to the Penny anymore, actually she did not went out anymore. She refuses every invitation; even Tracy was unable to lift her mood. Andy is isolated herself, her eyes were emptying of any emotions she could feel, she wouldn't let anything or anyone to shake her up.

Andy got to the gym a lot of time, boxing against the bag or Nick because he would volunteer. He did understand that it was her way to let emotions out, or at least the few she was letting out; angriness and hatred. At start she barely would touch him, but she got stronger and more precise, hitting straight where it hurts. But he knew she needed it, so he would say anything.

Today, Luke came to meet them in the gym, usually nobody did it, but he had to talk with the two rookies. He offers them to be part of an UC, not any UC, but one of the most important of their careers! Without even thinking of it, McNally accepted, she didn't need the details, she just wanted a way out and it was exactly what Luke was offering her. Nick took few more minutes, he wanted some details, but he did accept, knowing that he was one of the few who will be able the break trough McNally's shell. They would have to go tonight, but first thing they had to do their shifts.

It was three weeks that Sam saw Andy closing herself to the world, her eyes losing their sparkles a little more every day. He knew she spent a lot of time in the gym with Collins, but he would like to see her smile. Even Nash couldn't tell him how she was, yet she was her best friend. On his side, he spent his nights at Penny, drinking until Oli would bring him back home. Most of the time he wouldn't even get to his bed, preferring his couch to all the memories.

He now regretted having yielded to all this misery, because he was now even more destroyed then before. He didn't know what to do. The few times Franks paired them, she didn't say a word of all shift, ignoring each of his remarks, funny or mean. He was simply trying to get her out of her hell, but she seemed to be rooted in deeper.

Today, he was determined to talk to this woman who knew how to show him how she felt, but first he would have to face this day that announced badly. He woke up late, with a big headache, and then he forgot his wallet home... Nothing could get well when a day started like that!

As he had predicted the day went very badly, he was paired with Collins, and early in the day they had to go in search of a kidnapper of children... And then he was here, in front of McNally who holds a bomb. She was without any doubt the strongest and most courageous woman he ever knew, but how can he makes her understand? How to tell her the way he feels toward her, tell her how much he regretted not having fought back that night.

- Andy, I

- No Sam! Don't say something you'll regret, don't make promise you won't keep.

Was it her opinion on him now? The guy who couldn't keep his promises and that he regrets them?

- Listen McNally! I don't regret having made this promise to you, but I wish I hadn't avoided the first round, I've never been the type to say how I felt, I'm not the type to express myself, find the right words for me it is so difficult, but you knew that! But the truth is, I can't take it anymore, I can't see you broken, ignoring me, I wish your eyes would get their sparkles back! I... I love you McNally, please don't doubt that! I would do anything for you!

But what irony! It took the death of one of his friends to realize that he could not continue to see me. And I hold a bomb that might explode at the slightest misstep for him to realize that the risk of losing me was harder for him to bear my presence at his side. He's kidding me or what? I will teach him myself! I'm in love with him yeah, but you cannot let me down like an old sock and then pick me up again...

- Too bad I hold a bomb ... That it is what it took you to realize all, but it is too late Sam, you lost me when you decided that both of us it was not worth the shot ...You took the decision alone, but you need to understand one thing, I'm not a toy, you can't drop me when it is going the way you want and come back trying to fix me after! The life isn't like that!

When Andy saw the minesweeper, hope is slowly returning in her heart, perhaps she finally will come out. She would be able to get UC tonight. Now seeing Sam for a moment, it was already a win! When the minesweeper tells her, she let go of the bomb, and once more, she ran away from the man who was making her heart beat. She refuses to let him see the pain that was hers for the three last weeks! After having dried her eyes from the tears that made her eyes red, she got out of the toilet and ran toward Collins' car without even addressing a look at one of her colleagues.

The day after the incident, Sam arrived early at the station, he wanted to talk with McNally, but he knew she would not listen to him anywhere else. He went straight to the gym, put on boxing gloves and slapped several times in the sandbag for this purpose. After two hours, he went to the evidence she would not come today...

He checked the schedule and she wasn't on it. She wasn't paired with anyone. She was not even at the briefing, but where could she be? He would wait the next day ... But would she talk to him? He doubted more and more, how could he convince her that he was ready to do anything for her if she did not hear? The day was long, Dov has not stopped talking throughout their patrol, then nothing extraordinary had happened, not even a speed ticket... a boring day what!

After a long day, he decided he really wanted to see Andy, so he went to her place. Arrived there, he found that her vehicle was not there, so he decided to come back the next day.

He had had enough! It was now one week Andy had not presented or to work or to her apartment, there were no a thousand solutions, she had gone to this great mission undercover and she didn't tell him! What would he do if she didn't come back? Or if it came back broken! He never forgives himself! In a fit of anger he had even visited Luke's office, he had raised his voice, he shouted his anger, threatened him with a fist, but Luke had made it clear he could kill him; he would not overturned the operation so far.

Sam left so angry against the world, he went to Penny drinking until he loses all meaning. Olivier once again took him home, but this time he did not let him alone, he knew his friend needed him more than anything in the world!

McNally and Collins had left late in the evening of the grenade incident. Andy did not say a word all the way even less on what had made her cry earlier in the day. She prepared earlier to become the young drugged she should be for the next few weeks or months. She breathed slowly trying partitioned each section of her life, those who would serve and those who wouldn't serve her. Definitely, Sam was one of those to completely forget about, but how would she, she loved him! He said he would do anything for her ... She crossed her fingers that the wait would be part of it ... Although she has pushed him away...

The first morning, it was destabilizing, confused to be found in a room that was not hers, but soon she realized where she was, almost immediately she would have liked to fall asleep, but she had to get up and prepare to walk the streets looking for drugs ...

A week and a half, it had been a week and a half she got up every day a little more discouraged than before. She still did not know what to do about Sam, and he was always on her mind. She could not concentrate on what she was doing. At least it was easy to find the drug she needed for the operation, Collins seems to enjoy the part he had; playing the pimp.

That night, she took a moment to undo her last suitcase ... She had to remain static for a while, but she should really be a fool not to have realized it faster! She walked over to a small general store walking very fast, and she bought two or three little things before returning home...

After a few minutes she had the confirmation. What would she do? It was impossible ... Think about it now did not help her to forget the man she would have liked to put aside would do it for a short time...

It knocked on her door; she dried her tears, and got up to see who was there. Collins was, so she let him in. Immediately he saw her eyes reddened, he was uncomfortable, but he had to know.

- Andy? What is going on? Are you sure you'll be able to continue?

- I tough that I could... but...

- But what?

She could not bring herself to tell him; instead she showed him the test she had done.

- I need to leave, and fast!

- Wait, I'm calling Luke, he'll get you out of here!

Less than an hour later, Andy was back in the car of her ex-fiancé. She was sitting on the back seat, unable to look at anyone or even say anything. Anyway what to say when you do not even know what to think...

- Swarek is probably at his place, you want me to call him?

- No, just drop me where we left my car please, I will get along with my problems.

She had answered a little more coldly than she had wanted, but he had no right to interfere in her life that way. She arrived at home quickly, then after getting rid of its entire luggage-that is to say, a few suitcases, she took shelter under the covers... Repeatedly turning, unable to sleep, she got up; she knew what she had to do. She walked over to the only home she knew she would find comfort ... or at least she hoped.

But who could knock at his home at two thirty in the morning? For once he was not drunk, he would have loved to sleep in peace ... When he opened the door he could only retain the words he had intended to spit in the face of this person.

- Andy? What are you doing here? Weren't you in UC?

- I... Yeah, I was, but I came home few hours ago.

- Already? But I thought it would be one of the biggest UC made in years! So either you're even better than what we think, or... actually I have no idea what you could be except of that...

Realizing he had left her on the edge of the door and he began to speak more than necessary, he ushered her in.

- You want some coffee?

- No Sam, I want to talk.

- At two and half in the morning? You know that you are a funny girl? When I want to talk you flee, and then you knock on my door in middle of the night to talk?

Andy smiled slightly, he was nervous, and it was so rare to see him!

- Sam, there is no good way to tell you what I need you to know, but I have no choice... So first be aware that I do love you...

He tried to stop her at that moment, to tell her he loved her, but she just didn't let him.

- And before you say anything, you also need to know that I'm pregnant and you are the father...

The silence felt in Swarek's kitchen. Pregnant? But it was a great time since they last... Was he really the father?

- When did you learn?

- A few hours ago, that's why I came back...

- And you are sure I'm the father?

- Yes.

- But it's been more than a month since we last seen each other, how didn't you realized it earlier?

- Hummm, stress? Sadness? Events? Life? I had not calculated the time between my last period, but when I opened my last suitcase today I saw it... and I counted ...

Sam got up, he turned round for a moment, absorbing the news, and then suddenly disappeared from the kitchen. Andy was worried, but did not dare to move. A few minutes later he returned with a letter.

- I wrote you that, the night I realized you vanished... it's weird to realized, but read and you'll understand what I mean.

"Andy,

I don't know how long you would be gone, not even how you will be when you get back, but I hope you have been able to clear the feeling you have towards me. I will respect your decision, even if that means for me I have to get out of your life. Know that throughout our relationship, I loved you a lot even if I didn't admit it.

Express myself is so hard, yet you see it was you who gave me that smile. You were my life, and I should have seen it before I left. I should have told you before your life was in danger, but I didn't know how! I wanted to shout it from every rooftops of the city, but this would not suffice.

The only thing that could make me even happier than to have you by my side is to have you by my side for eternity. So we could plan a family, have a house, a dog named Boo Hadley... or not, but we could be crazy together! Because if we want to be crazy as well be two! And I don't want to be crazy without you!

Please come back and accept, because an eternity by your side would never be long enough! I want to fight with you, for you, for us!

I love you

Your Sam."

When she had finished reading the letter, she could not help but let a tear. He had to ask her to spend eternity with him? When she looked up, she did not saw Sam immediately, and then she saw him kneeling before her with a ring in his hand. No words came out of her mouth, she simply fell on her knees and kissed him, it was the only answer she was able to give him.

So I know the end is super cheesy, but I didn't know how to end it up any other way! Did you like it? Comment? A review? I accept all ;)