A.n.-Hiya, this is my first Yugioh fanfic^_^Its told from Ryou's p.o.v.^_^I hope you all like it^_^
Dissclaimer-I don't own Yugioh or this song "Don't Think Of Me" by Dido^_^
~So your with her, not with me
I hope she's sweet, and so pretty
Here she comes, delightfully
A little angel besid me~
I watched from deep within the Ring as my darker half made Anzu smile brightly, her deep blue eyes sparkling with innocent joy. How long had it been since I had simply sealed myself off inside of the Ring? Days? Months? Years? More? Couldn't of been to long, since Her face hadn't really aged at all. Still the same as I rember it. Not long after me and my darker half had become...more or less 'civil' to one another, basicly he wans't beating the shit out of me when ever he was bored or angry, Anzu had addmitted feelings toward him.
-Feelings- damnit. I think he only really started to date her to hurt Yuugi and his other half, becouse it was blindingly obviouse that Yuugi was head-over-heels for her. Though over time I belive his motives changed. I saw my other half less and less. Jou and te others grinned and joked that I probbaly enjoyed haveing so much time to myself after all this time.
But without him near me its like someone ripped out half of my soul. I couldn't take it, couldn't take the lonelyness that drowned me when he wasn't near. I lived 5 years with him always near, possively near. There whenver I awake or sleeping. Overbearingly close to me no matter what. Every breath I toke at night was tainted with his scent, my ears dureing the day rung with his cold voice.
Despite the fact that nearly everytime I was with him he'd ussualy give me a bruise to my extensive collection. But....I think he was just afraid. Afraid that if he didn't have some sort of solid proof of his being in conrtoll. There was always that look in his eyes afterward, just a split secoud before he went back into the Ring: regreat.
How did I fall in love with someone who smacked me around all the time you may wonder? Becouse of what I saw in his eyes, becouse I knew he inwardly regreated causeing me pain. Even if he couldn't say it aloud then. He has been with me for so long I barely rember what it was like without him...although...I did lose him once......when Yami Yuugi sent him to the Shadow Realm.....
I thought I was going to die. I truely did. Without him near, I felt someone had yanked my soul in half; which in a sense is exactly what Yami Yuugi did. I tried to act somewhat normal, tried not to allow myself to drown in the sea of misery, failing miserbly. But then, he was back. Just like that, as though he'd never left.
I won't say that the punishment he gave me for my defience dureing the Shadow Game wasn't painful, but gods it was nothing compared to the agony i'd felt when he was gone. Things did change a bit after that little incident though. I think it was more or less becouse of Yami Malik of all people, though what exactly happened that changed his mind i'll never know.
All I know is that he came back after a visit and he didn't try throwing me into a wall or anything. He'd....hugge d me. Held me for the first time ever. That gentle touch was more then I had ever hoped for in the deepest part of my mind. He gave up his quest to have the Sennen Puzzle and actually stopped trying to tear out Yami Yuugi's throat every time he appeared. Things went for the better and I...I thought perhapes now I would've of been able to tell him how I feel.
Wrong-o.
Anzu apparently ended up haveing a 'crush' on him and asked him out. I felt like my heart had been pulled out and stomped upon when he accepted; though somehow I'd managed to hide it from him. I'd gotten good at hideing my pain from others, even from the other half of my soul. Even though he had made 'peace' more or less with Yuugi and such, I think the only reason he really started to go out with Anzu was to hurt him a little.
It worked, but only to an extent. For it was soon found that Yuugi had fallen in love with his Yami and they were together. But by that time, my Yami had already fallen too far into the web Anzu had spun. He was depenendent on her and I saw and felt him less and less. This was worse then when I'd lost him to the Shadow Realm. For now he was here but I never saw him really.
~So your with her, not with me
Oh how lucky, one man can be
I hear your house is smilein' clean
Oh how lovely when your homecomein' queen
Oh how lovely, it must be~
Finaly I did the only thing I could do, the only way I could be close to him. I sealed myself into the Ring. How you might ask? Simple really. When Yami went into his Soul Room, I simply went into mine as well forceing him to take controll. Then I more or less permently locked the door to my Soul Room. Ignored his voice and pushed myself so deep into the Ring that I probably couldn't leave if I tried. This Forced him to have compleat controll over my body.
Sometimes at night he'll bang on the door of my Soul Room and yell for me to open the damn door. But I won't. I watch the world through his eys. Watch how Anzu cleans our house untill its shining clean. He's with her, and he's happy I belive. And really thats all that matters to me. As long as he's happy.....I can live with this. As long as I'm close to him.....I'll be okay.
~Oh when you see her sweet smile baby
Don't think of me
And when she lays in your warm arms
Don't think of me~
Though maybe its better if he forgets that I ever really existed. Maybe that way he'll be more happy. Even if he had, apparently, liked haveing me around after his 'talk' with Yami Malik. Not that it really matters any more. Nothing matters now.
It'd probably be best if he did forget me, I hope he dosen't dwell on me too often. Though I do sometimes see thoughts of me running through his mind when she lays asleep in his warm, strong arms. He shouldn't think of me, I'm gone more or less now. Its too late to go back now, too late to change all that has happened. You can't turn back the hands of time.
~So your with her, not with me
I know she spreads sweet honey
In fact your best friend, I heard
He spent last night with her
Now how do you feel, how do you feel?~
Through your ears I learned something that shocked me so compleatly I nearly relesed the hold on my sealed door. The bitch, Anzu, had been sleeping around behind your back. With your best friend Yami Malik of all people. Gods the mere thought of what she did makes me fall on the floor of my soul room in rage and pain. Pain becouse its that slut I lost you to, anger becouse of what she'd done.
Waves of hurt and anger flow to me through our link. Adding to my own more or less. For a freezed moment of time I litterly consider sepereating from you and chaceing after the whore and screaming at her. A fractin of a secoud later I find myself doing exactly that. Pushing open the rusted door of my soul room.
Pauseing I drop my hands and force back in place the lock. Silently I dropped back onto the bed, feeling tears pour down my cheeks. Funny how fate really seems to have in for me. Really, I think this is some cosmic joke that it has come up with to simply make my life hell.
~When you see her sweet smile, baby
Don't think of me
And when she lays in your warm arms
Don't think of me~
~And it too late, and its too bad
Don't think of me
And its too late, and its too bad
Don't think of me~
//.......Abiou?//
I cringed at the hesisent sound of my darker half's voice. Closeing my eyes and drew my legs to my chest and didn't reply He should have forgotten about me by now. Its too late to change anything. Nothing can be done about me or him now. I still love him, hell I always will. But I kno whe dosen't love me. Hell, if he did he'd of never went of Anzu. Never of -slept- with the damn whore.
But he did, and if I were to leave the depths of the Ring now he'd simply float farther and farther away from me. And I won't survive that. I know I won't. Cowardly perhapes I am, but atleast this way I'm somewhat close to him. And thats enough for me.
//Abiou.....talk to me//
His voice...its just like I rember. So strong....perfect really. For the barest insent I pictured those deep brown eyes of his. So hard...even cruel looking at first glance. But if you knew him like I do...you'd see the warmth. Gods, how can it hurt so much to miss something I only saw once or twice?
~Does it bother you now
All the mess I made?
Does it bother you now
The clothes you told me not to wear?
Does it bother you now
The angry games we played?
Does it bother you now
When i'm not there?~
//You can't stay in the Soul Room forever you know. Evenetualy you'll be forced out.//
I moistened my lips nervousely. Wanting deperetly to respond..if only for a secoud. Fear forcing me to try and hold back...
/.....you stayed in there for centeries./
Desperation always wins out though. Fear may be strong....but despereation will always be stronger. You can only hold out for so long.
//Thats different and you know it. The Pharaoh sealed me in it, you can not seal yourself inside of it. I'm suprised you've lasted this long really inside there.//
Sorrow washed through me. Lasted? Barely. I'm pretty sure that I fell of the damn deep end a long time ago. Tears rolled down my cheeks. I missed it really. Human contact....light....all the simple little things of Life really. I'm surrounded by darkness all the time. And its so cold.... So very cold in here...
Idly I wondered if anyone really missed me though out there. If He really missed me. After all the messes I made, all the times I defied him even after we were friends.....If he really missed me at all. I thought it'd be enough just to be able to feel his soul entertwined with mine through the power of the Ring...but......I wish I could feel his hand on my face. His warm arms around me.
A felt amusement and sorrow flow through our link
//Of course i've missed you, Ryou...Yuugi and the Pharaoh are constantly working on a way to make you come out...please...Abiou...come out...please.....//
~Oh, when you see her sweet smile, baby
Don't think of me
And when she lays in your warm arms
Don't think of me~
I cursed myself and quickly put up a mental bloak so he couldn't read me. How could I have let my gaurd down like that? Baka, baka, baka. Closeing my eyes I layed down on the bed in my soul room, curling up into a fetal postion.
/Its too late now, don't think of me anymore Yami......I......I//
I cut myself off and closed my eyes tightly. I'm too much of a coward to tell him how I feel anyway The rejection would oblietrate me completly. And at least this way...i'm close to him. With that I rose up the the mental bloaks compleatly so he couldn't talk to me anymore....but I could still feel him and he me most likely.
I know he's right though....eventualy the Ring will force me back into my body. But.....hopefully thats a day far from now.....Maybe by then, i'll of really be forgotten.
Why dosen't that bring me any joy? Maybe becouse in the end......all i'm ever going to be left with is a graveyard of memories.
~And its too late and its too bad
Don't think of me
And its too late and its too bad
Don't think of me~
A.n.-Probbably not the best Ryou-based fic on the net, but it is my first and I've been wanting to use someone from Yugioh with his song....Ryou and Bakura just seemed to fit it best though. Also, I know my spelling sucks but I don't have spell cheak on my comp. Also, I haven't seen the whole serise yet, I am reading up on the 1st and third over the net but I don't know the whole thing about the Soul Rooms or how long the Hikari's can stay inside of them. If they really can't stay in there really long or anything then I soppose this is in the AUish kinda category. Also, if any of ya got some flams for me go ahead and send 'um in. I'll simply post them and make fun of them so everyone can see your stupidty. Petty perhapes it is, but it sure as hell makes me feel better.
Ja ne
Dissclaimer-I don't own Yugioh or this song "Don't Think Of Me" by Dido^_^
~So your with her, not with me
I hope she's sweet, and so pretty
Here she comes, delightfully
A little angel besid me~
I watched from deep within the Ring as my darker half made Anzu smile brightly, her deep blue eyes sparkling with innocent joy. How long had it been since I had simply sealed myself off inside of the Ring? Days? Months? Years? More? Couldn't of been to long, since Her face hadn't really aged at all. Still the same as I rember it. Not long after me and my darker half had become...more or less 'civil' to one another, basicly he wans't beating the shit out of me when ever he was bored or angry, Anzu had addmitted feelings toward him.
-Feelings- damnit. I think he only really started to date her to hurt Yuugi and his other half, becouse it was blindingly obviouse that Yuugi was head-over-heels for her. Though over time I belive his motives changed. I saw my other half less and less. Jou and te others grinned and joked that I probbaly enjoyed haveing so much time to myself after all this time.
But without him near me its like someone ripped out half of my soul. I couldn't take it, couldn't take the lonelyness that drowned me when he wasn't near. I lived 5 years with him always near, possively near. There whenver I awake or sleeping. Overbearingly close to me no matter what. Every breath I toke at night was tainted with his scent, my ears dureing the day rung with his cold voice.
Despite the fact that nearly everytime I was with him he'd ussualy give me a bruise to my extensive collection. But....I think he was just afraid. Afraid that if he didn't have some sort of solid proof of his being in conrtoll. There was always that look in his eyes afterward, just a split secoud before he went back into the Ring: regreat.
How did I fall in love with someone who smacked me around all the time you may wonder? Becouse of what I saw in his eyes, becouse I knew he inwardly regreated causeing me pain. Even if he couldn't say it aloud then. He has been with me for so long I barely rember what it was like without him...although...I did lose him once......when Yami Yuugi sent him to the Shadow Realm.....
I thought I was going to die. I truely did. Without him near, I felt someone had yanked my soul in half; which in a sense is exactly what Yami Yuugi did. I tried to act somewhat normal, tried not to allow myself to drown in the sea of misery, failing miserbly. But then, he was back. Just like that, as though he'd never left.
I won't say that the punishment he gave me for my defience dureing the Shadow Game wasn't painful, but gods it was nothing compared to the agony i'd felt when he was gone. Things did change a bit after that little incident though. I think it was more or less becouse of Yami Malik of all people, though what exactly happened that changed his mind i'll never know.
All I know is that he came back after a visit and he didn't try throwing me into a wall or anything. He'd....hugge d me. Held me for the first time ever. That gentle touch was more then I had ever hoped for in the deepest part of my mind. He gave up his quest to have the Sennen Puzzle and actually stopped trying to tear out Yami Yuugi's throat every time he appeared. Things went for the better and I...I thought perhapes now I would've of been able to tell him how I feel.
Wrong-o.
Anzu apparently ended up haveing a 'crush' on him and asked him out. I felt like my heart had been pulled out and stomped upon when he accepted; though somehow I'd managed to hide it from him. I'd gotten good at hideing my pain from others, even from the other half of my soul. Even though he had made 'peace' more or less with Yuugi and such, I think the only reason he really started to go out with Anzu was to hurt him a little.
It worked, but only to an extent. For it was soon found that Yuugi had fallen in love with his Yami and they were together. But by that time, my Yami had already fallen too far into the web Anzu had spun. He was depenendent on her and I saw and felt him less and less. This was worse then when I'd lost him to the Shadow Realm. For now he was here but I never saw him really.
~So your with her, not with me
Oh how lucky, one man can be
I hear your house is smilein' clean
Oh how lovely when your homecomein' queen
Oh how lovely, it must be~
Finaly I did the only thing I could do, the only way I could be close to him. I sealed myself into the Ring. How you might ask? Simple really. When Yami went into his Soul Room, I simply went into mine as well forceing him to take controll. Then I more or less permently locked the door to my Soul Room. Ignored his voice and pushed myself so deep into the Ring that I probably couldn't leave if I tried. This Forced him to have compleat controll over my body.
Sometimes at night he'll bang on the door of my Soul Room and yell for me to open the damn door. But I won't. I watch the world through his eys. Watch how Anzu cleans our house untill its shining clean. He's with her, and he's happy I belive. And really thats all that matters to me. As long as he's happy.....I can live with this. As long as I'm close to him.....I'll be okay.
~Oh when you see her sweet smile baby
Don't think of me
And when she lays in your warm arms
Don't think of me~
Though maybe its better if he forgets that I ever really existed. Maybe that way he'll be more happy. Even if he had, apparently, liked haveing me around after his 'talk' with Yami Malik. Not that it really matters any more. Nothing matters now.
It'd probably be best if he did forget me, I hope he dosen't dwell on me too often. Though I do sometimes see thoughts of me running through his mind when she lays asleep in his warm, strong arms. He shouldn't think of me, I'm gone more or less now. Its too late to go back now, too late to change all that has happened. You can't turn back the hands of time.
~So your with her, not with me
I know she spreads sweet honey
In fact your best friend, I heard
He spent last night with her
Now how do you feel, how do you feel?~
Through your ears I learned something that shocked me so compleatly I nearly relesed the hold on my sealed door. The bitch, Anzu, had been sleeping around behind your back. With your best friend Yami Malik of all people. Gods the mere thought of what she did makes me fall on the floor of my soul room in rage and pain. Pain becouse its that slut I lost you to, anger becouse of what she'd done.
Waves of hurt and anger flow to me through our link. Adding to my own more or less. For a freezed moment of time I litterly consider sepereating from you and chaceing after the whore and screaming at her. A fractin of a secoud later I find myself doing exactly that. Pushing open the rusted door of my soul room.
Pauseing I drop my hands and force back in place the lock. Silently I dropped back onto the bed, feeling tears pour down my cheeks. Funny how fate really seems to have in for me. Really, I think this is some cosmic joke that it has come up with to simply make my life hell.
~When you see her sweet smile, baby
Don't think of me
And when she lays in your warm arms
Don't think of me~
~And it too late, and its too bad
Don't think of me
And its too late, and its too bad
Don't think of me~
//.......Abiou?//
I cringed at the hesisent sound of my darker half's voice. Closeing my eyes and drew my legs to my chest and didn't reply He should have forgotten about me by now. Its too late to change anything. Nothing can be done about me or him now. I still love him, hell I always will. But I kno whe dosen't love me. Hell, if he did he'd of never went of Anzu. Never of -slept- with the damn whore.
But he did, and if I were to leave the depths of the Ring now he'd simply float farther and farther away from me. And I won't survive that. I know I won't. Cowardly perhapes I am, but atleast this way I'm somewhat close to him. And thats enough for me.
//Abiou.....talk to me//
His voice...its just like I rember. So strong....perfect really. For the barest insent I pictured those deep brown eyes of his. So hard...even cruel looking at first glance. But if you knew him like I do...you'd see the warmth. Gods, how can it hurt so much to miss something I only saw once or twice?
~Does it bother you now
All the mess I made?
Does it bother you now
The clothes you told me not to wear?
Does it bother you now
The angry games we played?
Does it bother you now
When i'm not there?~
//You can't stay in the Soul Room forever you know. Evenetualy you'll be forced out.//
I moistened my lips nervousely. Wanting deperetly to respond..if only for a secoud. Fear forcing me to try and hold back...
/.....you stayed in there for centeries./
Desperation always wins out though. Fear may be strong....but despereation will always be stronger. You can only hold out for so long.
//Thats different and you know it. The Pharaoh sealed me in it, you can not seal yourself inside of it. I'm suprised you've lasted this long really inside there.//
Sorrow washed through me. Lasted? Barely. I'm pretty sure that I fell of the damn deep end a long time ago. Tears rolled down my cheeks. I missed it really. Human contact....light....all the simple little things of Life really. I'm surrounded by darkness all the time. And its so cold.... So very cold in here...
Idly I wondered if anyone really missed me though out there. If He really missed me. After all the messes I made, all the times I defied him even after we were friends.....If he really missed me at all. I thought it'd be enough just to be able to feel his soul entertwined with mine through the power of the Ring...but......I wish I could feel his hand on my face. His warm arms around me.
A felt amusement and sorrow flow through our link
//Of course i've missed you, Ryou...Yuugi and the Pharaoh are constantly working on a way to make you come out...please...Abiou...come out...please.....//
~Oh, when you see her sweet smile, baby
Don't think of me
And when she lays in your warm arms
Don't think of me~
I cursed myself and quickly put up a mental bloak so he couldn't read me. How could I have let my gaurd down like that? Baka, baka, baka. Closeing my eyes I layed down on the bed in my soul room, curling up into a fetal postion.
/Its too late now, don't think of me anymore Yami......I......I//
I cut myself off and closed my eyes tightly. I'm too much of a coward to tell him how I feel anyway The rejection would oblietrate me completly. And at least this way...i'm close to him. With that I rose up the the mental bloaks compleatly so he couldn't talk to me anymore....but I could still feel him and he me most likely.
I know he's right though....eventualy the Ring will force me back into my body. But.....hopefully thats a day far from now.....Maybe by then, i'll of really be forgotten.
Why dosen't that bring me any joy? Maybe becouse in the end......all i'm ever going to be left with is a graveyard of memories.
~And its too late and its too bad
Don't think of me
And its too late and its too bad
Don't think of me~
A.n.-Probbably not the best Ryou-based fic on the net, but it is my first and I've been wanting to use someone from Yugioh with his song....Ryou and Bakura just seemed to fit it best though. Also, I know my spelling sucks but I don't have spell cheak on my comp. Also, I haven't seen the whole serise yet, I am reading up on the 1st and third over the net but I don't know the whole thing about the Soul Rooms or how long the Hikari's can stay inside of them. If they really can't stay in there really long or anything then I soppose this is in the AUish kinda category. Also, if any of ya got some flams for me go ahead and send 'um in. I'll simply post them and make fun of them so everyone can see your stupidty. Petty perhapes it is, but it sure as hell makes me feel better.
Ja ne