A/N: I have no excuses. Except that I was busy with school...and wasn't in the mood of writing this story. But recently' I've been feeling appropriately to write the story. The chapter is a bit different but I hope you enjoy it
WARNING: THIS CHAPTER MAY BE TRIGGERING, PLEASE BEAR IN MIND THAT THIS IS A DARK FIC.
That being stated, I want it to be made clear that I in no way approve of anything which is considered morally wrong by the vast majority. I have strong morals. This is, however, a dark fic and I intend to explore as many subjects/themes as possible.
Rin's POV
What day is it even? Harry...why isn't he writing to me? Is he alright? Why doesn't he write to me? What is happening? Could he...could it possibly repeat itself?
As my mind was plagued by these thought I remembered something. Faintly as mist and quick as a lightning. But I saw it clearly in my mind: a flash of pale skin, uneven...rough...melting...and then pain.
Bile rose in my throat as I gagged, struggling not to throw up. Who was this even? I don't know. I don't even remember anymore. Was it me? Or was it Akira? But who am I? And Akira...or Akane...what happened to him...her...
Harry is alright, he will be! He has to be.
A dangling body with rotting skin, blood everywhere
A scream
Who was even screaming? Was it Harry? Not it couldn't be Harry, I won't ever allow it.
Hissing "Won't allow it? How do you intend to do that? The way you did it the last time? Like that ended well.
Screams
Tears
Flames
And then... I don't remember anymore. All I remember was my bones were on fire as my lower body felt like it was being split apart. I remember lifting my head and through tears I saw an eye.
Who are you? Why you doing this? Is it really that amusing? Am I that repulsive that you wish to see me suffer?
I remember thinking. I couldn't understand. How could anybody wish such misfortune to befall a person...a child.
Everybody there...they just...I don't know what happened to them. I remember Utau, pretty little Utau, whose beauty was her curse. They couldn't stand her beauty and so she was stripped of everything.
Beauty
Innocence
Clothes
She couldn't take this happening for...how long was it even? A year? Two years? and soon she disappeared. We weren't told what happened to her but I...we...I don't know who...found her rotting corpse hanging from a tree. Did she do it herself? Or was it done to her?
I don't know.
I don't want to know.
I don't blame her anyway. It was better if she was dead. I remember wishing I was her; wishing I was the corpse hanging from the tree. Death was what I...all of us yearned for. It was escape, home, salvation...peace. But no. Instead, everything became worse after she died. We couldn't even wish for her spirit to come torment Them. Nobody knew her real name. We were forbidden to ask.
But I hope she is happy. At least she is dead now. Unlike me.
I remember wishing to save everybody, but mainly myself and my brother...sister...sibling. And I did. I tricked Them.
Ue was never forced to eat cold meat ever again. But he seemed to had developed a liking for it. My...his...our arm still hurts from where Ue sank his teeth into it.
I remember running. As fast as I could. The tents burning in the distance while we all ran as fast as we could. But starved children with missing limb don't run very fast. We soon heard one of Them running towards us. We hid. We panicked. Nobody wanted to return there. The punishment would be worse that ever we had experienced until now and none of us could imagine it. We weren't capable of imagining it.
So I...we killed them; the children died painlessly but then it was time for me to kill my sibling...or my sibling to kill me. I remember killing him/her at the same time s/he killed me.
And then She appeared and said to me:
"I am sorry. But you need to go to Hell"
Haven't I/we suffered enough? Was I really leaving the world of the living only to spend an eternity in Hell.
Then she continued:
"I however, do not wish for you such fate. You do not deserve it after this life. You helped your friends save themselves. For that you deserve to go to Heaven. Yet, you killed them. For that you need to go to Hell. I have decided to offer you a compromise. You will spend a day in Hell as punishment for your sins. But then you'll become a demon...or a youkai to be more specific. That way you'll be able to punish those who deserve it...and help me protect my children.
Do you agree to this?"
Her eyes whose colour I can't recall anymore pierced my soul and found myself mumbling
"Hai, Kami-sama!"
Her smile was the las nice thing I saw before I started to burn from inside out.
The next day, I emerged from Hell seeking vengeance.
A/N: I'm sorry if you didn't understand the chapter but I really wanted to write it from Rin's POV and as we know that demon is insane. Well there's a reason for that as you found out this chapter. If anybody want more information on what exactly happened please ask and I'll reply in PM. Please note that I haven't mentioned the effects Rin's human life had on the poor demons mind and I have purposely thrown in those names. It will all be made clear in due time. Side-effects etc
Translation:
Shiki (屍鬼) - spelled like this it means a 'corpse demon' or 'death spirit'
Setsuwa (説話) - tale/narrative
Shiki No Setsuwa (屍鬼の説話) = The Corpse Demon's Tale
Utau (歌う) - to sing
Ue (飢え) - hunger
Hai (はい) - Yes
Kami (神) - God/Goddes. Although now the word 'Megami (女神) is used for Goddess it's still a relatively new word that I don't think existed when Rin was still human.
-sama (さま) is a untranslatable Japanese honorific. It is incredibly polite and used when talking to/about a person who's rank is far above yours. 'Kami-sama' is the common way to refer to God.
Youkai (妖怪) are spirits in Japanese folklore. For a full description check out Wikipedia.