Hi :3 I am sooooooo sorry ._. so sooooo sorry. But school is really stressy. I know it's not really an excuse but it is. English is okay but french is haard. I read allegiant in February and that's also one of the reasons why i couldn't update. I read a spoiler back in (I think) November and that made it really hard for me to read allegiant. The book kinda ruined the entire series for me ._.
Now something i thought was kinda. . just idk. I had a speaking exam in January and I talked about Divergent . And after that my teacher asked me if I could lend him the book and I was like 'yeah sure' and then I forgot about it and after that he reminded me and I gave it to him and he thinks it's a great book. AND: He war reading CITY OF BONES. when he told me that I was like : 'OMG I LOVE TMI !' and stuff like that :D hahaha :DD so: now the new chapter

When I wake up and I am confused. I had a bad dream. It's still dark outside and I try to fall asleep then it all comes back. Four is in a band. Dauntless. He's famous. . I try not to over think everything,but what if I'm only a PR-Story ? He want's to help the poor,little girl. My heart hurts . I stand up and change into joggingpants and a t-shirt which is to big for my small body,but it's comfortable and I don't need uncomfortable stuff now. I go into the kitchen and notice that we don't have any bread anymore. I sight and look out of the window. SHould I really go out ? It's like 3 am. But I have no choice. I open the door to my mother's bedroom carefully. The bed is empty,so she's still at work. I sigh again. I should work more,so she could relax. I Go to the front door and pull on my shoes . There is a 24-hour-shop somewhere close to our house,so I can buy some bread. I Have 8 $ in my pocket. So maybe some bread and sweets. I just feel like eating sweets. The Four thing makes me sad . I open the door and see a black figure leaning against the wall next to our door. I take a closer look . It's Four and he has flowers in his hand. He's asleep. I try to leave the apartment without waking him up. I'm not in the mood to talk to him. I told him that I need time. Not only a few hours,but days or weeks. I accidentally step on his food and hear him inhale. He looks up and immediately his eyes find mine. 'Hey. .' He stands up and rubs his eyes. 'Hi.' I say quietly and look at him. He's still wearing the same clothes he wore yesterday. 'Why are you up. It's like' he takes out his mobile phone '3 in the morning. You should be asleep.' I chew my lip. If I tell him that I had a nightmare he will ask me what it was about. And i can't lie to him. I swallow hard and look at him hesitantly 'I just woke up because I was hungry. .' I say and i know that he doesn't believe me. But he doesn't ask any questions either. 'Oh. . I. I wanted to apologise again. I should have told you everything.' He rubs the back of his neck. 'I'm so sorry about everything. I wanted to be awake when you come out but I fell asleep.' He blushes. It's so cute. 'I know Four. But I need time.' I tell him again and look at him. He looks so sad that it hurts. 'I know. But I don't want to wait. It changes nothing between us. We're still the same persons. I'm still me.' He wipers and reaches out to touch my cheek. I swallow hard,but let him touch me. His Hand is cold,but soft and I can't push him away. It feels to good. 'Fo. .' I can't even say his name. 'Please don't call me like that. Please. ' He looks at me. 'How should i call you then ?' He just shakes his head. 'Let me buy you food. You should be in bed an relax.' He smiles softly. I shake my head. 'No please. don't I can do it myself. .' I tell him but he shakes his head. 'I will do it'. I sigh. 'No.' I answer and push him away softly. 'I don't let you go out alone. Not now. Not when a dead body was just found in your backyard.' 'Fou. . That does not mean that you have to accompany me. ' 'Tris please. If you say no i will follow you.' I sigh. I don't really have a choice. 'Ok Come. I'm hungry.' I leave the building and walk around. Where is the goddamn 24-hour-shop. 'What are you looking for ?' Four asks. 'There has to be a 24-hour-shop somewhere. But I can't remember.' he smiles and takes me hand. I shiver and look at him. 'Come on I know where the shop is.' we walk for another 10 Minutes until we arrive. I look at Four and smile a small,shy smile. We go in and I look around. I've only been here about 1 or 2 times and I forgot how big it was . After buying some bread,sweets and ice cream (He payed for it) , we go home . I open the door and look at Four. He looks so ,so sad that I have to ask him to come in. I smile and invite him in by nodding by head. I put away the stuff we bought and look at him. 'are you hungry ?' He shakes his head no and takes my hand. 'We have to talk Tris. Please. .' I shudder and nod . We slowly walk into the livingroom and sit down in front of each other. 'Okaaay.' I say slowly and swallow. 'Nothing has changed for me Tris. You are. . one of the most beautiful girls I've ever seen. You have to understand why I said nothing.' He looks at me and then looks away. 'I was shocked when you knew nothing about me. But then I thought that we could be friends. Like REAL friends.' He takes both my hands in his and smiles shyly 'Please understand me Tris. .' I swallow. 'Fo. . I understand you. I would have never told you about my life. That we don't have money. Because I wanted you to like me.' I smile and sight. 'But I need some time. I have to figure out what to do. The paparazzi will take pictures. of BOTH of us.' He nods and answers 'I want you to feel safe around me' It's just a small whisper but I feel something warm in my heart and smile at him. 'I feel safe around you. .I Just don't know if I can take the paparazzi' I look at him. 'We'll figure something out. Okay ?' I smile and yawn. He stands up and goes into the kitchen to make me something to eat. After about five minutes he comes back and I eat the sandwich he made. 'Thank you' I stand up and hug him. He holds me and then picks me up. I giggle the entire time he carries me to my room and then he puts me down onto my bed. 'I'll come back in the morning' he whispers and leaves. I smile and stretch one last time before I fall asleep with a small smile on my face

soooo this is it. I hope you enjoyed it . I had half of the chapter written in January and now I ended it. I know it isn't great but I felt so bad for not updating.

As always : I you want to talk about books and movies you can PN me :3 I won't promise to update soon but I hope I will update sooner 3