Chapter 6 Devious Deceptions

"Sebastian, this isn't amusing in the slightest." Ciel was having trouble controlling his emotions as his butler's eyes feigned sincerity and yet had all but convinced him.

"I am not joking Young Master. When have I ever lied to you?" Ciel blinked and nodded. Sebastian was right, he had never lied… to his knowledge. "I swear to you that Alois Trancy is going to betray your trust. He's been tricking you this whole time, making you give him information." Ciel's fingers twitched under his desk.

"But he-"

"Young Master." His voice was stern, almost as if he was in control. Ciel didn't like it one bit. "For your sake, I would like to recommend you not go near the boy until you realize the truth. My apologies, I know you seemed fond of the boy." His tone suggested teasing, and Ciel hated that.

"No that's ridiculous; this is the boy who killed my family! You've said so yourself!" But still, wouldn't he have been too young to… No, Sebastian would never lie to me! Right? C-Claude lied to Alois, and… Oblivious to his internal conflict, Sebastian nodded. "And how is the search for Claude going?"

"It is… not doing so well I'm afraid sir."

"Well then Sebastian, I order you to stop wasting time and find him!" Sebastian bowed and rushed off with a slight bit of confusion.

Was this still for the Trancy boy or personal revenge? He shook his head in mid-air, Ciel was convinced. He could see it in the boy's expression. He smirked and continued on his way.

He's going to betray you. He's been tricking you. Do not go near him. These words rang in Ciel's ears as he stood outside Alois's door. He always came around this time. If he didn't, then Alois would worry.

He shook his head, why did he care if he worried? Wasn't that why he was here? To not care? Ciel lightly touched the dagger in his pocket before opening the door with his usual expression on nonchalance. It soon changed to a bright blush.

Alois had his hips up in the air as he was looking under the bed for some reason. He seemed to be reaching for something as his back twitched and he grunted in an effort. Ciel willed away his blush as best he could before clearing his throat.

Alois jolted and hit his head on the bottom of the bed before backing out while holding it in pain.

"What the hell Ciel, don't you knock?!" Ciel smirked, blush completely gone.

"My house. I don't have to knock." The blonde frowned and Ciel's smirk fell as he remembered this wasn't a visit for pleasure.

How? How could he have come in with such a straight mindset and have it switched so suddenly simply by being in the presence of the blonde idiot?

"Yoo-hoo? Ci-Ci? Wake up~" Ciel jumped back when he realized Alois had been waving his hand in front of his face. "Awww, did I scare you? What's wrong?" The bluenette's expression became serious again and Alois's grin wavered. "Ciel?"

"Sit down Alois."

"C-Ciel, you're scaring me…" Ciel had to use every bit of willpower he had to not apologize and hug the blonde while reassuring him everything was alright… every bit.

"Alois."

The blonde bit his lip and sat on a chair without armrests, looking up at Ciel in confusion and fear, but without tears. Ciel stood in front of him with his arms to his sides, searching him for any sign of guilt or anger whatsoever.

"What's wrong?" He breathed, snapping Ciel back into the present once more. Why did it have to be so hard?

"Alois…" he kept his hand near his pocket just in case "are you here to betray me?" Alois's eyes widened. "Did you call me and ask to stay to get closer to me?"

"W-Who told you that?" Ciel whipped out the dagger and Alois's eyes widened in fear.

"Answer me. Are you here to hurt me?" Tears began to run down Alois's face as he shook and spread his arms to the side.

"I-If you don't believe me w-when I say I never want to hurt you again… then go ahead and kill me." He sniffed and continued to cry while speaking. "I-I don't want to be alone again, y-you're all I have… you're the only one who cares even a little, and I..."

He squinted his eyes shut and waited to be stabbed in the heart, because no matter what he said, he was still not much more than a stranger right? Nothing more than a burden to the great Ciel? He heard a clattering sound and opened his right eye slightly to see that Ciel had thrown the dagger across the room and fell to his knees in front of Alois.

"I'm sorry… I'm so, so sorry. I should have known you wouldn't… I am a fool." Ciel hung his head. If Alois did want to kill him, then he would have pleaded for life right? Not surrendered himself because he had nothing to lose.

Alois didn't stop crying, but pushed the chair back and fell on the floor in front of Ciel before grabbing him into a hug that he hadn't expected. The blonde clenched his hands in the back of his shirt while sobbing.

"I-I don't… I-I don't know how… what you think… I…" He couldn't choke out a proper sentence as Ciel hesitantly rubbed soothing circles on his back.

"Alois, I don't care about you a little… I care about you a lot, and that scares me." He felt the blonde tense up in his arms. "It scares me because I've forgotten how to care for people… forgotten how to smile. Things like that I've lost… You can't get back what you've lost. Once you lose something you can never truly have it back again." Alois shook his head and backed up to look Ciel in the face as he lifted his eye patch and the bluenette didn't even try to stop him.

"No. You can't get back what you've lost. I know that. Once you lose something you can never truly have it back again. But what do you have now? Focus on what you have NOW and don't look back. Never look back…" Ciel blinked in confusion, his other exposed eye adjusting to the light in the room.

It made sense… it made so much sense, but…

"What do I have Trancy? I thought that no matter what I lost, I would have Sebastian until the day he took my soul," he didn't miss the shudder that came from Alois at that "but I know now that I was wrong… I have nothing, nothing to live for." Alois didn't ask if it was Sebastian that fed him those lies, he could tell… he just knew.

"Y-You're wrong Ciel." Ciel blinked in confusion and looked at Alois with his deep blue eye and the fuzzy vision of his purple one. "As long as you want… you have me. Please don't make me leave you. You can have me…"

Ciel remained silent for so long that the blonde felt like he had been slapped. Like he was waiting for the imminent rejection.

"No." Alois's head fell down but Ciel caught it in his hands and lifted it back up. "We can have each other, no matter how short our lives may be." Alois found his lips caught in Ciel's and kissed him back chastely with every ounce of thankfulness, every bit of happiness, everything simply overflowing.

Ciel released his lips and embraced him warmly for several minutes. Until Alois stopped crying and fell asleep in his arms with a smile.

"We can't stay here Alois." The blonde bit his lip. He knew that, he did… but he wasn't happy with it all the same.

"But where can we even go? If he betrayed you, then we can only assume that he never hunted… that he…" Ciel held his hand to calm him.

"They can find us wherever we go, and that's why the only way to escape them… is to find a way to kill our demons." Alois stared at him. "What?"

"Are you fucking insane?!" Ciel smirked, the closest thing to a smile that ever graced his lips.

"A little."

This morning my sister roped me into doing my makeup and when she was almost done, do you know what she did? Asked me to close my eyes and open my mouth because apparently closing your eyes makes your lips shape differently for the application of lipstick. Then she put some on me. Then she squeezed a ton of sour candy into my mouth before I closed it and said, and I quote, "What the hell? What the hell was that?!" Her response? "Sour Candy." "NO SHIT!" T^T

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