A/N-I want to thank my beta MistressLoki1618 whom is really great. I hope you like it also the title might change every now and then until i find one i like.
I do not own glee or any of the characters.
Chapter One
17-year-old Santana Lopez had always been a good girl, a model daughter, a great student her family and friends were always so proud of her. However, just a few months ago her parents had died, and she had to go live with her Abuela, who had become her legal guardian. She adored her but it just wasn't the same as having her mother and father around, given her age the old woman tried her best to do right by her and raise her right even though, she didn't agree with the choice her granddaughter had made having a child so young she was family. The more she tried the more she pulled away from her, and she didn't understand why. She knew she still was grieving for her parents and the terrible accident, she knew that she blamed herself even though she told her that it wasn't her fault it didn't matter. Santana had heard Alma call her but didn't move she laid on the bed starring at the ceiling thinking about how much she missed them and how she wished they were here. it would be the first year of school soon, like every year she and her mom would do the usual things like shop for clothes, get a make-over. They're beginning of the year dinner and early-morning breakfast. She thought about these things as she got dressed and the tears began to form in her eyes. Why didn't she get home when she was supposed to, why did she fight with them?
Flashback-2012
She rushed home trying to get there before seven like she had promised so that her parents could go out to their anniversary dinner. She finally reached the door it was seven thirty she knew she was screwed and here came the lectures about responsibility that she had heard so much she could recite it backwards. She opened the door tossing her things on the couch when her mom walked into the room followed by her father.
"You're late" her mother said
"I'm sorry, Hannah and I were working on cheers and lost track of time" she replied as she took the little boy out of her arms ticking him, he began to giggle as he squirmed in hers.
"I don't care about that we have an arrangement, and you need to stick to it"
"I have and relax it was just one time" she sighed
"Santana I know you like cheering, and we agreed you could stay on the squad, but you can't forget-"
"that you have responsibilities" she mimicked her as she rolled her eyes "I know mami you don't have to keep reminding me or lecturing me"
"Don't talk to your mother that way you are still a child" her father reprimanded her
"No I'm almost 17, I'm an adult"
"Then act like it do what you're supposed to without us having to tell you"
"I always pick him up from daycare, feed him, give him his bath, I haven't been late in three years fucking get off my back and cut me a little slack" she shouted
"First of all, of all you're his mother you're supposed to do all these things and secondly cutting you slack is what lead you to your little mistake in the first place" she said as she saw the flash of hurt on her daughters face she quickly tried to take it back "I'm sorry I didn't mean that you know I love Alejandro"
"Save it, I don't want your apology, and I don't need you to look after my son anymore since he's such a burden to you"
"Santanita that's not what your mother meant"
"I want you to be able to be a kid again I'm not trying to take your childhood away I want you to have fun, but you have Alex to think about and I don't want you to get pregnant again"
"I am thinking about him. I love my son so don't you ever question that, and I'm not stupid I'm not going to get pregnant again for god's sake" she yelled as her son became uncomfortable and began to whimper at the sound of the loud voices. she gently rubbed his back to calm him down. "You need to trust me"
"And we're supposed to take your word for it, you told us when we let you go away to that camp for two months, and you came back pregnant" her mother reminded her "how do we know you want betray our trust if we loosen the reigns again"
"you know what it doesn't even matter because next year we are out of here, and you want have to worry about him anymore because you will never see us again" she yelled as she shifted him on her hip, she went upstairs slamming the door behind her. She placed the boy on the bed as she bed as she grabbed a bag and tossed something for the both of them inside, she picked him up again as she made her way back down the stairs.
"Where do you think you're going its dark out" her mother said as she headed for the door "And it's almost Alex's bedtime"
"He's my kid remember so I'm taking care of him, and I don't want him in a house with people who don't want him around"
"Santana we didn't" but her father cut his wife off, he knew his daughter was stubborn and arguing with her wouldn't help
"Just tell us where you are going so that we know you both are safe" he asked
"I'm going to Hannah's" she told him not looking at her mother
"And you will be back Sunday night" she nodded
"Say goodnight to you abuelo, mijo" she whispered to her son as he rested his head on her shoulder
"Night-night" he yawned as she turned and walked out the door not knowing that would be the last time she would ever see her parents again.
As they made their way home from dinner, which was less than eventful, he glanced over at his wife whom was still quiet ever since they had left home. He let out a sigh he loved his daughter and understood her need to feel like a kid even if it was for a few more minutes, but his wife was right they had to set limits for her. They loved their grandson but couldn't risk her getting pregnant again or let her slack off and rely on them to drop everything and look after Alex. He reached over and took his wife's hand as a way to comfort her, she looked over at him tears in her eyes.
"Do you think she meant it, do you think she will really take Alejandro away and never let us see him" she asked
"Santana is like me. You know that she says things that she doesn't mean, remember when she was six and wanted to go to the zoo, but it was raining so we told her no she said she hated us and was going to run away"
"Yeah she went and hid in the closet under the stairs I was so scared when I couldn't find her"
"But we did and she had forgotten all about the zoo and wasn't upset"
"I know but she isn't six anymore, and if she wants to leave we can't stop her and she will take Alex with her, and I would hate to not see him grow up"
"We want" he assured her "We will be there to watch him grow up, Santana as well. We will be there when she gets married and has another child I promise you" he smiled as he took his eyes off the road for a moment to kiss her on the cheek he looked back at the rode in just enough time as a truck ran through the intersection plowing into the side of them.
Soon after she had made it to Hannah's, she had put Alex to bed and told her friend all about her fight with her parents. Sure she was upset and said something she didn't mean she needed them and without them. She would have never been able to take care of her son; she would never keep him away from then. She had gotten out of the shower and had calmed down by then and was about to call and apologize when the police had arrived at the Miller's front door. Her parents had put them down as an emergency contact in case neither of them could be reached, so when she saw them and by the look on Mrs. Millers face she knew it couldn't be good.
'Where are they'' she asked as she arrived at the hospital frantic with worry.
"Don't worry sweetheart, I'm sure they are fine'', Hannah's mom said wrapping her arms around the young girl. Santana had called her from the hospital soon after the police arrived at her home to inform her of her parents' accident because she needed someone, and was the only other family that she knew.
''But why haven't they come to tell us anything, what's taking so long?'' she yelled as she cradled the sleeping child in her arms
"Sweetie you just need to be patient I'm sure we will know something soon" she replied as walked towards them; she handed her son off to her friend's mom.
"Hey doc, so can we go and see them now?'' she asked
"I'm so sorry sweetie but we did everything we could, but both of your parents sustained internal injuries from eh accident that we couldn't fix what was wrong and they both didn't make it" he told her as she shook her head.
''No, no, no, they can't be. Your lying, I want my mom and dad, I want to see them now''. She cried as she ran through the hospital doors calling out to them.
''San came back'', Hannah called after her, finally grabbing her and holding her in her arms as the both fell to the floor, and she rocked her in his arms.
''Mami, Papi I'm so sorry''. She cried ''please forgive me '' she wept as she held on to her friend for what felt like dear life.
Flashback ends
She didn't feel like doing much of anything since she had arrived in Lima a few weeks ago. Her abuela had come to New York to help her and Alex through the funeral, they stayed there until the end of the school year then packed up their things. They were currently in bed he was curled into her side as she gently stroked his golden locks as she began to cry silently, how was she supposed to do this for the past three years she had her parents by her side to help. They would watch him when she had school and cheer practice, as long as she was home by 7, or when he was sick, she had a strong support system that she had destroyed out of anger. She had so much that she wanted to tell them, including the fact that she was sorry, but now she would never get the chance. She pulled away from her son slipping her arms from around him and climbed out of bed as she pulled the blanket up over him as she walked over to the window looking out as the sun began to rise she closed her eyes and began to pray.
" Mami, Papi if you can hear me; I want you to know that I'm sorry, I didn't mean what I said, and I wish I could take it all back. I wish that you were here because I need you right now" she glanced over to the sleeping form on the bed "and Alex needs you, I can't do this without you, I don't think I know how" she sobbed silently.
"Mami" came the small voice "Mami, where are you" he began to cry as he sat up on the bed rubbing his eyes
"Right here mijo" she replied as she crawled back into bed pulling him into her lap as she rocked him
"I go home now" he sniffled "I want abuela"
"I know baby I do to, but we can't see them remember I told you they went with the angels" she explained as her grandmother came into the room
"I came to tell you it's time for school, but I can see your already up"
"I'm not going today Alex needs me" she replied
"No what he needs is for you to go to school, he will be fine without you for a couple of hours"
"I'm not going he just lost his grandparents I can't leave him as well" she defended but her grandmother wasn't having it as she picked him up out of her arms before she could protest he began to cry "you already missed two days you're not missing anymore so you're going to school the last thing Alex needs for a mother is a drop out" she replied sternly "your parents might have let you get away with a lot, but you want be doing that here there will be rules" she replied before leaving the room. She sighed she knew how stubborn the woman could be, and she wasn't in the mood to argue right now so went and took a shower to get ready for school.
After saying good-bye to her son whom clung to her crying to go with her before her grandmother pulled him away she made her way to school. As she walked up, she noticed a few things were similar to her old school You had your cliques on one side where a ground of football players clad in her letterman, throwing a ball around, then you had the geeks who were undoubtedly talking about science camp or whatever lame activity they had done over the summer. They you had the cheerleaders the hierarchy of the school dressed in their red and white uniforms and hair up in the traditional high pony.
"Hey hot mama how about a ride on old puckasauras here" a guy with a Mohawk called out as all his friends high fived him. She rolled her eyes yep no matter where you went; there was always so sex-crazed idiot who thought every girl wanted him.
"Not on your life" she shouted as she walked inside making her way through the crowd of students until she came to the office to pick up her class schedule and combination lock.
"Hi you must be Santana Lopez" she greets her as she stood before he taller girl a bright smile on her face.
"Um yeah who are you" she eyed her suspiciously
"I'm Rachel Berry, Principal Figgins told me to show you around today since he had a meeting and wouldn't be able to"
"Oh"
"I already have your schedule as well I see we have some of the same classes so it will make it easier until you get used to things" she rambled on as she walked he taller girl to her locker, she placed her things inside and hung the picture of her son on the inside door
"Is that your little brother, he's cute" she commented as Santana closed her locker
"Yeah he is cute" she smiled not really answering the question she wasn't ashamed of her child and would never deny him, but she didn't want to be known as the teen mom and teased all year. Even though it did happen at her old school, mainly because she wasn't a cheerleader anymore her status dropped, but once she lost he baby wait and got back on the squad, she was a holy terror whom no one dared mess with. However, she didn't know how things worked here who she could or couldn't trust so she decided to keep her home life and her school life private.
"Okay so our first class is Spanish with Mr. Shue, he's also the glee club director" she heard Rachel say as she was listening again having missed most of what he shorter girl had said
"What's a glee club?"
"It's show choir you know singing that whole thing didn't you have one at your old school"
"If we did I wouldn't know I mostly hung out with the jocks and cheerleader"
"Oh, well me meet every day-after school maybe you can come and audition we are always looking for new members and maybe this year we could actually win" she said as they waked into the room all eyes were on them
"Rachel your late that's not like you" the curly-haired man whom she assumed was Mr. Shue said
"Sorry I was showing Santana around, she's new"
"Oh your Ms. Lopez I was wondering when you would show up" he grinned as he approached her placing a hand on her shoulder "Why don't you tell us a little about yourself, and then you can take the seat next to Rachel"
"Well my name is Santana Lopez, I'm 17, I recently moved here from New York for reasons I don't want to share right now" she shared before taking her seat next to the short brunette before Mr. Shue continued with the class Rachel leaned over and whispered to her
"You're from New York" she nodded "we have a lot to talk about I want to know everything about the big apple" she exclaimed before sitting back up in her seat. As she turned her attention back towards the board not that she needed to pay attention, she was fluent in Spanish, so she opened her book and began to doodle not noticing the blonde hair and hazel eyes that had been on her since she had entered the room.