Luffy always acted like a child with that big goofy smile, but on the inside Luffy was an grown up, in fact he grew up to fast.

He knew things that you were suppose to learn when you grown older over time. But Luffy learned the about loneliness and the pain of someone dying that is close to you. He knew these feelings you were suppose to know when you grew older. But not Luffy.

He knew it all to well.

He never wanted people to know this though, so he kept it a secret, keeping his real self to him self with out letting no one know. Only Sabo and Ace knew this, but they never told anyone this.

They knew the real Luffy, the sad, depressed, scared, lonely Luffy. People saw him as a bright shining happy out going child. but he was none of those on the inside.

Even his crew he would never tell or show his crew his true feelings.

He wouldn't tell them how he gets up at night and goes into the basement of Sunny Go and cry. Crying trying to forget Sabos death and now Ace's.

How he was actually very selfish, selfish about keeping his emotions and food and his crew all to him self.

He knew him self was very selfish indeed.

They didn't want to join, Zoro, Nami, Sanji, Chopper, Franky and Robin wanted to leave but he, he forced them to stay with him.

To stay so he wouldn't get lonely. They all say that he saved them but the way he sees it they saved him.

Saved him from loneliness from pain, he was just selfish. He still wonders would have it been better if he didn't force them to join him? I mean the could be doing way better with out him.

They could be closer to completing their 'dreams' but he had to have them. He had to have the strongest, the smartest, the bravest, the best in the world.

So he forced them to join. He did all those kind things for them so he could have them, so they won't leave him.

But he knows one day 'his' crew will leave him, and that day comes he will also go. Go from this world all together. Leaving everything he has accomplished in life.

:') oh me and my depressing stories. Well tell me what you think. Review please. Tell me if you liked it Loved it or hated it. I still don't know if I want to keep going or stop here tell me, but for now it's going to be marked 'Completed'.