Authors Note: So this is the first updated chapter, not too many changes yet and in all honesty the big changes may not happen until later on, for now it is mostly me updating from writing as a 18 yr old to being 21 and learning a bit (not much though lol).

Changes occured September 14th 2016. Enjoy.

Rin Takashi had grown accustomed to a life of wandering, following her Lord wherever he took her The memories of her childhood were often times too brutal for her to want to revisit, and eventually she came to the point where Sesshomaru was all that she remembered. And at the tender age of ten, the young girl had no set home or human family. Though she was happy, she never understood the hushed tones people seemed to adopt every time she passed through a village. For her, life was perfect. Her lord kept her safe and as long as she was with him, nothing could go wrong. After Naraku's death, everything changed. She remembered Lord Sesshomaru telling her that she would be attending the celebration in Inuyasha's village in his place, and she was honored that he trusted her with something her young brain saw as monumental.

Lord Sesshomaru had told her, well Jaken had been the one to tell her but she knew that her Lord was the one to originally speak the words and that was all that mattered, to meet him at the edge of the village after the celebration. Rin had spent the evening enjoying the company of Kagome and Sango, but could not comprehend the looks the older women had given her as the night progressed. The women sent her off with reassurances that should she ever choose to settle into the village they would welcome her with open arms.

When the sun started to fade from the sky, Rin approached the outskirts of the village. She could see her Lord not too far away, and her short limbs scrambled to meet him faster, afraid of him leaving the village, and her, behind. As Rin approached him, the demon lord did not turn to face her, but his mokomoko and hair blew gently to the side, creating the beauty for which the daiyoukai was known. Rin took a moment to take in her lord, and realized that only her lord stood on the hilltop with her. Ah-Un and Jaken were nowhere to be found and Jakens telltale screech for his lord to wait was not even a whisper in the wind.

"Lord Sesshomaru, where is Master Jaken?" Rin was rooted in place, her signature smile barely holding on.

"This Sesshomaru did not wish for his presence," Rin let out a relieved sigh. She knew that the toad demon could grate on her lord's nerves and was often sent away to do menial tasks. "and this Sesshomaru can no longer handle yours." There was a moment where Rin thought she had misheard her Lord, but when he turned and he somehow seemed colder than ever before.

"My... My lord?" Rin prayed to every deity and god she knew that she has simply misheard her lord, and that he was not abandoning her.

"Rin will stay in the village with Kaede to learn. This Sesshomaru will return to take back Rin, if she has proven herself worthy." And with a blast of light, the powerful diayuki was gone.

She was found hours later by a concerned Shippo, who upon returning to the hut for the night had heard the wailing of a young girl's life shattering.

That was eight long years ago. Rin, now a beautiful young woman, had grown out of her awkward young body and into a more mature, nimble one. In those eight years, Rin had mastered many of the disciplines that the small village had to offer. Kaede had explained to the distraught young girl, that her lord had not abandoned her. He had expressed concern at Rin returning to his home at a young age and no specialties or talents. By staying in the village Rin could learn and become useful.

At first Rin had been distraught, and unable to do much more than eat and sleep. But after poking and prodding from Kagome, the young girl had left the hut and begun her training. Rin had trained with Kaede for the first two years of her life in the village, learning everything she could about healing and caring for others. The young girl studied day and night, often times waking in the small communal room her hut with Kaede held, drooling on some healing scroll that she had studied into the night. When it became apparent that the student was now teaching the master, Rin was passed over to Kagome and Sango. Kagome taught the young girl how to behave like a lady ("I must know how to behave in my lord's presence when he returns for me!") and Sango taught the young woman how to defend herself and wield a sword.

And over the past six years Rin trained, and trained. The young woman soon took over the demon slaying duties from Sango, as she was with child more often than not and unable to complete those duties. She was often hired out to other villages and has amassed quite the wealth and name for herself over the years. But this was not the only reason the young woman was popular.

Rin has become known as Utsukushī kirā, or the beautiful killer. Her midnight black hair fell to her waist, and her expressive brown eyes could turn as cold as a winter night when hunting the demons that plagued the villages. Her body was curvaceous but nimble as she crept about at night, seeing danger before it saw her. Her skin held a tan, showing the world that this was not a delicate lady, but a woman who worked for her meals. The kimonos she received as gifts from her many suitors were left in her dresser collecting dust while her hunters outfit was worn and showed the use that it received.

Her outfit was unique among the other demon slayers. While many chose to dress like Sango, with a base outfit of black and accents of different colors, Rin took special pride in her work. Having modeled it off of her memory of her lord, her outfit retained the base of black, but held the red accents of her lord's outfit. Her obi was an exact replica of her lord's yellow and purple and her armour was white with the crest of the west in the center. This reminded her that she was still the ward of a great demon lord that would one day return for her... she hoped.

Every year, on the anniversary of the celebration, Rin would pack her belongings and set them on the hill top. She would leave the party as the sun set and wait till morning for her lord to take her back, and as she packed her bags for the eighth time, Kagome entered her hut.

"Rin, how is the packing coming along?" Kagome had long since given up on persuading Rin to not pack, and simply helped the girl pack away her necessities. It had brightened Rin's life when she realized that though she felt little to no hope, the women she looked up to still supported her. Kagome saw the young woman as a younger sister and refused to leave her to her own devices on the toughest night of the year,

"The same as usual Kagome, how is the baby doing?" Rin glanced down at Kagome's swollen stomach and a shot of jealousy shot through her. When she was younger, all she could imagine was growing up and having babies. Now she could barely go a week without getting the itch for a hunt and couldn't understand how Sango had let the life go. But it still hit her in the heart sometimes seeing Kagome and Inuyasha together, felt like she couldn't get the air into her lungs and the weight off of her chest.

"He's a little restless today," Her hand stopped her folding to rub her belly for a moment before continuing. "This will be the last time that we pack you up Rin, I can feel it." Rin flashed her best friend a smile and hoped that it would cover up the doubt that was weighing in her gut. The young demon slayer had started to lose hope that her lord would ever return for her, doubt for her use to a daiyouki slipping into her dreams and waking anxieties. She had tried for years to become as useful as possible, trying to please a demon that could possibly never get over that she was a frail human.

"I hope so as well Kagome, where is Sango? She is normally here by now..." Sango had, in the past few years, also taken to helping Rin pack. Both women claimed that if Rin was not to be with them in the morning then they wanted to share a few last moments with the girl to prepare her for the journey.

"I'm sorry for running late!" Sango was leaning against the door frame, gasping for air as she peered at the two younger women. "The kids would not settle down for Miroku and I had to calm them before I could leave." Sango and Miroku had married not long after the defeat of Naraku. Though they had not started to have children until Rin was trained and taking over her duties. The family had grown from a quiet house of two, to a rambunctious house of six in the past few years.

"So are we going to begin with our parting wisdom?" Kagome giggled and Sango came to sit near Rin, helping her air out some of her nicer kimonos for packing.

"Well, let's see. Never go anywhere without your dagger!"

"Sango!" Kagome and Rin pouted together, knowing that was not the information they were looking for. Sango laughed and brushed off another kimono.

"Well that is good practical advice, especially for a demon slayer living in a castle full of demons! But alas, you want advice on men," Sango paused, thinking for a moment. "Never give them all that they want, leave them begging you for more! Any human man will fall to his knees for you Rin, but demons may take a bit more work!" The group of women laughed, flashing back to the last group of men that had tried asking for Rin's hand.

"And never give up! Even if the tides seem to be against you, keep fighting." A sad look flashed across Kagome's face as the three year separation from Inuyasha was pulled to the forefront of her mind.

"I won't Kagome." Rin took the pregnant woman's hands in her own, squeezing them and pulling her back to the present. "I have waited this long for My Lord, anything else will seem trivial in comparison!" The last of Rins material possessions had been locked away in either her traveling bag, a gift from Kagome (she called it a backpack?), or in Kagome's closet for donation after she left. There was a curt knock at the hut door, and as the Rin pulled it open, Inuyasha stood in the doorway.

"Ladies." Inuyasha had not changed in the years that Rin had been in the village. He still stood in his signature stance (arms tucked away in his sleeve, an uncaring scowl on his face), but concern for his pregnant mate shown in his eyes. Rin had always had the gift of reading a person's, human or demon, eyes. No matter how hard their face may seem, the young demon slayer was a firm believer that the eyes were the window to the soul, and that had yet to fail her.

"We were just coming out, Inuyasha. Just have to put my bags outside Kaede's hut and everything will be ready to go." Rin slung the backpack over her shoulder and started her way up the hill, followed by Sango. A loud rumble had alerted them to Kagome's growing appetite and Inuyasha was shuffling her off to the celebration. Rin set her things down by the hut, just a few meters away from the place this all started. Rin lost herself in the memories but was pulled out a moment later by the gentle pressure of Sango's hand on her shoulder.

In that moment, Rin made a decision. If her Lord did not come tonight, then he was never coming, she would find herself a nice husband and settl down. And in that moment she once again prayed, and hoped that someone, somewhere would listen.