It just happened.

after a while things were great, they went out had fun, talked to people they were together and she was complete. But that didn't last long anyway. I found out that he loved another, and he had to chose and Liz and I were prepared for who he would chose, except I never thought that he wouldn't chose me. I was broken but didn't cry, lately I haven't been crying no matter what's been happening.

he never explained why, he just went to her, as I made it to my room, and he went out with his new girl friend. Liz told me she loved Kidd, but I guess she lied now I still don't know how I got here anyway, all I know is that they got close to each other and they fell for each other; and he loved her more.

and that's that too, I can't do anything even if the sadness is to Greg I can't cry, everyone asked how Ive been but I smile and say I'm over it. But I know I ain't, and I have a feeling he knows too, for some reason these new kids came and liz explained they were 'friend thugs' on the streets in her words, and they didn't like me.

they bullied me behind my friends back, like when they went away they would call me the most horrible things, I don't even want to repeat, but back then I don't tell soul; because they were his friends, and I didn't want to interfere. I would sometimes get angry and soul would notice and ask what's wrong, but I brushed it off and we went all out war.

i guess that didn't help much.

and everyone loves those people except me, and everyone else knows but won't say anything. I thought about saying something but found I couldn't it hurt to know, that now it was all for nothing, I don't want to tell because liz has been getting snappy, I mean she would come to apologise at the end of the day when her and soul went on a date.

" sorry but you know how it works, your doing me a favour I'm sorry though can you forgive me?"

I felt insulted but just replied with okay, because I understood but didn't say anything because I did the first time and here's what she said.

" your just still in love with soul!"she said.

" I am not!" I shouted.

" Whatever am I forgiven?"

" Okay"

and ever since that's been my life, anger, overflowed by sadness, like making a simple piece of paper in art, of hurt. I wanted to ask Tsubaki for advice, but her boyfriend is well one of those guys, she could do so much better though, and that's when it happened. I was proud I didn't cry but that made ,e seem more guilty.

those guys went around spreading rumours, and had a picture of me with a stripper, I went to tell everyone it's a lie but they ignored me, laughed and my friends... They believed it, and ever since not one word not one, I go too school and I get bullied, I'm ignored laughed at and given glances, I might as well never exist.

my favourite hiding spot is at the top of the academy, and I find myself alone glaring at the world, as the wind flows in my hair, but I can never feel it on my face I wasn't there, I didn't think I was. Just a passing ghost that could talk, I cried very day up there, and I don't notice my tears. I lost my emotions because I had no strength.

a weight of the school settled on my boys, and I read and read until I fell asleep, and only ate every second day, and I found myself glancing at the moon. I felt drained to it lately, I think it was mostly because of how vacant I was, I felt no taste in food.

i yearned for Soul, but I knew I couldn't have him like a reflection in the water. He would look at me with pity at home and would always say.

"why?"

I felt like asking him the same, but he seemed sad but his face brightened when his with liz, like he used to with me. And when the gang were with ise guys I would get bullied by them, but Crona and Tsubaki just what he'd. An after a while I realised I missed them, to the point of hating them.

is it so much to ask for just a friend? do they care? do the teachers know? Am I going to be alone for the rest of my life? Will I ever escape? Am I crazy? Am I that much of a bad person? Why did soul break up with me? Am I that unattractive?

And I have been seeing shinig aim a lot too, he calls me in and I ask what he wants, and he looks me up and down and says.

" nothing just wanted to see you"

and I leave, I found no meaning to be near anyone any ore if they didnt want something. Or if it was nothing I know it was rude, but what would you do when everyone turns there back on you, and papa has been vacant even, and I think he knows, but his waiting for something I can see it in his eyes.

i felt dead and honestly wanted too die, but the only friend really was Blair, but she was always away on vacations with her friends, and never invited me anyway. And when they were around I was ignored like a stranger, and when they asked who I was she just said.

" oh don't worry see ya nya"

and she left. Like everyone else, I even called mama but she told me to hang in there, and she would always finish saying have to go sweetly, and she would hang up I lost interest in being like her, and when I was told to do something I did it. No one would care anyway, like if they asked for homework to be done, I would do it for myself and others, that was the only other thing that seemed to fill my life at the moment.

and so e times I would roam the streets when there was nothing to do, when soul would head of and so whatever he wanted, I even heard liz saying how good he was in bed. It hurt and thought I was going to cry, but I didn't either way. Soul didnt care at school but in home he did. I think, we usually said things like this.

" Maka can I have a drink" he asked.

" Yeah" I replied.

" And pured him a glass of water set it on the table and was about to walk away.

" Are you okay"

" no"

" you wanna talk"

" there snitching to say"

" yes there is"

" no there isn't"

" Maka I can tell will you ever talk to me" he was getting angry.

" Sorry but tiny tits, slut,whore here doesn't listen to people anymore, a especially her so called partner" I said and walked to my room to lie down and I laid on the bed, and felt I was about to cry when soul stood in, his eyes red with rage, the ones I used to love, but know saw nothing, my eyes saw nothing, only black and white.

" I am your partner, are you going to talk to me at all!" He tried to yell but he was hurt.

" Why should I reply?" I asked turning over not facing him closing my eys.

" Because we all miss you why can't you see that?" He yelled.

" No you don't, you just want to be to seem like a kind person, I thought you used to be" I said thinking I would fall asleep, my muscles as dead as death, and my body exhausted from even speaking.

" Why would you say that we're your friends!"

" Friends don't torment there friends last time I checked, and ignore them treat the, like trash" I heard a slam, and I felt a quick lump on my bed then disappear as it came, like a ball just dropped on my bed.

" We'll it's your fault we saw the picture! Why would you do that it's hypocritical you say men are pigs, when it could also be women cheat as well" and he slammed the door on his way out as I cried.

my tears salt and white, as a clear glass.

pi don't know after that what he said, but I received dirty looks from everyone even a slight glance from Tsubaki, and Crona was afraid of me even when I offered help, when I wasn't that sad. I felt like dying but, I already had and there's no point I will endure it, those words at the battle of a shura still encouraged me either way.

and I don't know but missions have been awkward, and we all new we were only resonated at a thread. But soul couldn't find a new partner so he was still stuck with me, which I was happy to be near him, but he hated it I could tell I new he was going to find a new partner, but I wasn't prepared and would never be I new that.

at times like this I would remember when I broke up with him, and it would come like a slap in the face.

we were at the apartment him, he was going in his room saying he was going on a date, I didn't want to change because I knew he wouldn't care. I thought we were going to the beach, like he said but when he came through the door.

" Sorry Maka, I chose liz" he looked down " I'm sorry" and he was gone along with my heart.

it was cold, really cold not like my soul. And I felt like he bit my heart out and it bled through my boys, like the fruit of my sadness, and I was paralysed as I cried, silently until I ran in my room not being able to hold it in, and he walked out as quickly as he had walked in, coming back drunk and fell asleep with a hey Maka. And he was out like a light; sorry like my life.

and the only words that filled my mind were words like:

" hey slut"

" so how much did you make last night"

"I mean considering she cost a cent"

" hoe"

and soul said, including Blacksatr and patty.

" Sup pigtails anyone want you yet" said Blackstar.

" Hypocrite"said soul

" hippo" said patty. And patty would taunt me as an ugly animal

then mum came over one day, and said hi we had fun for a while, and soul would say hello to her and act all nice, and then I slapped him across the face, and mum slapped me too. It felt good just like my emotions I liked it, and soul was on the ground with claw marks, almost like a wolf slapped him and he deserved it, mum kept yelling.

i told her to get out. That whole time when these things happen, I remembered she's left me, she didnt bother to collect me, I didn't get to cry in her arms, she was never there and papa wasn't here now either. She looked shocked even soul did when he looked up, soul had watery eyes, and mum did to she asked why, and I told her. She looked slapped too but walked gracefully and soul gave me questions, and I forgot to mention dad was there along with my ex friends.

" why did you do that!" Yelled Blackstar.

" Yeah you didn't have to slap her" said liz agitatedly.

" Whats wrong" asked Tsubaki.

" Maka apologise to your mother" said spirit.

" Wow" said patty

" Maka" said Kidd shacking his head. I decided to answer them in order. I smirked feeling bd and mean, and I had a right to be, they were tacking back I could tell I looked scary, but I didn't know I was crying.

" We'll let's order them in sequence" I said smirking hiding behind my banks " you know why I did it you heard me, honestly if your going to surpass god you should smart enough, and don't worry we all know its not going to happen. and I slapped her because I could I mean it wouldn't be compared to what you used to do, rob people hurt people take there knew, it seems you should be ashamed not me" Blackstar looked slapped and liz looked slapped also.

" And Tsubaki you should no whats wrong and you do you a I do, your just to much of pussy's to admit it and help me so why should I, we all new you couldn't say anything bad about anyone anyway' Blackstar was angry and Tsubaki had her head down " and why should I apologise you never did for cheating, but I have to apologise to you dad"

everyones eyes. We're wide " I can see why, and anyway she don't have to leave she could've tacking me way so I ddint have to deal with your man whoring" he looked down, when his smile vanished " and Kidd" I tutted and head " I guess that gentle men act was a lie after all you really can't do things on your own, without them and your daddy" I walked away stopping at soul.

" And you deserved that too, I guess I am a hypocrite, and anyway you gave me the opening I needed to kick her out. So thanks and sorry everyone," I turned to face them "but since you have all been so honest I thought I could follow your example, you must be so proud of yourselves"

no one looked at me, and I walked out with a slight laugh.

I looked at the picture in my hand it was one of me and soul, and I raised my other hand with a picture of him and liz, and whispered.

" There was no competition"

and then I don't notice my tears were as black as coal.