So, here it is...the final chapter of Erase and Rewind!
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Chapter 12
~Bella's POV~
All that I could do was watch as Jacob disappeared into the woods, tears falling freely. The howl that followed after he walked away was one of despair and betrayal, it rang in my ears and nearly brought me to my knees. The poor choices of my past were still haunting me. I regretted marrying Edward under the despicable agreement...sex should never be a reason to say yes to a marriage proposal. Further more, sex should never be anyone's main reason in accepting anything or making decisions period.
"How could I have been so stupid?" I asked myself while I shook my head.
None of this would be happening if I never agreed to marry Edward in the first place.
"Edward..." I suddenly thought in disgust. "He just had to go and have the last word..he caused all of this."
In an instant, my tears dried up and anger swallowed my anguish as it overtook me.
I wasn't one to have dark, vulgar thoughts in the past but I couldn't keep them out now. Thought after thought ran through my head of what I could do to get back at Edward. My being human and all kept me from doing much but there had to be something that I could do.
"Think Bella," I told myself. "What is a vampire's biggest weakness?"
I made a list in my head, it wasn't a long list but I was able to come up with a plan.
"Fire," I thought to myself with a smirk.
It may not kill him but at least he'd learn his lesson, one about what happens when you piss off the wrong human girl once too many times. I might be human but I was just as capable of getting the point across to him as any other being.
"Where's a flamethrower when I needed one?" I asked myself while a grin formed on my lips. "Wait...hairspray and a lighter would work just as well for this. He'd never expect that coming from me, it was the perfect plan."
I mentally thanked Alice for her insistence to buy some hairspray to keep here.
"It's show time," I thought and spun around to stomp back towards the house where Edward..Sam, Paul and Jared all were gathered. "Oh shoot!" They witnessed everything..now that was embarrassing to say the least.
I just couldn't win for loosing right now.
"No Bella, now is not the time to be embarrassed..save it for later, if there is even a later," I told myself. "Please let Jacob hear me out when I go to talk to him."
I had already made up my mind to give him time to calm down. I felt it wasn't a good idea to talk to him when he was so angry and hurt with me as he was at the moment. I had the foresight to know that if I tried to talk to him sooner than he was ready for, would not be conductive for either of us.
Edward was still standing right where he had been before, his arms crossed and an arrogant smirk graced his face.
"You just wait..it won't be there for long," I thought to myself.
"That didn't last long..not that I'm surprised." Paul noted with a smirk.
"Shut up!" I hissed while I glared at him. "I have half a mind to slap that smirk off of your face," I said in agitation. "The only thing stopping me is I still recall the last time I did that..." I snarled while I remembered how he got so angry and phased after that.
I was surprised to find that I effectively shut him up with that reminder.
Sam and Jared looked as if they had no idea what to say to me so they remained silent.
"You need to leave," I spat at Edward.
"Now, why would I do that?" he asked.
"Because I said so," I snapped. "You have two choices, leave willingly or I make you leave."
Edward let a dark chuckle out. "Real funny, Bella," he said while he tsked at me. "Have you forgotten I am a vampire and you're just a human?"
I mocked him with my own dark chuckle. "Just because I am human doesn't mean you should underestimate me."
He opened his mouth to say something back.
I ignored whatever idiocy he was spewing, instead I went inside to retrieve my hairspray and couple of lighters. I didn't want to chance the need of a back up lighter and not have one. I went back outside after I had what I needed.
I walked up to Edward without a word and before he could figure out what I was doing. I sprayed him with the hairspray, mostly in his face. He wouldn't die even if I did end up setting him on fire so I didn't feel bad about aiming it at his face.
"What did you do that for?" he asked while he spit out the hairspray after I stopped spraying him.
"You're aware that hairspray is flammable right?" I asked him while I held up one of the lighters. "You've got ten seconds to get out of my sight before I light you up like a Christmas tree!" I threatened while I lit one of the lighters to prove my point. "I am being very generous by giving you that much...10...9..."
Edward looked at me and laughed in disbelief. "You wouldn't dare," he said thinking he was calling my bluff.
"Don't believe me?" I replied in a "do it, I dare you," kind of tone..."8..7..6..5.." I continued my countdown.
"Bella," Edward scolded. "Stop this nonsense..we both know you won't do it."
I ignored him. "Leave now and never come back," I snarled out. "4...3..."
Edward still refused to believe me and the obvious hint that I wasn't joking.
"2...1..." I finished my countdown.
True to my word, I lit the lighter once more and threw it at his face. I pulled out my back ups and lit them before I threw them as well. It would be very easy for him to put the fire out but I still got to enjoy the show for a little longer. The lighters hit their intended target and ignited when they hit his face.
"What the hell, Bella?" he asked angrily.
I had never heard Edward curse before.
Sam, Paul, Jared and I burst out laughing at the flaming vampire.
It wasn't because he cursed for the first time that I had ever heard and it sounded hilarious. We were laughing because by the time he put the fire out, most of his clothes had burned off and revealed a part of him that was quite laughable to say the least.
"Don't get me wrong, I really meant it, it's not just about sex with Jake..but I'm so glad that I changed my mind when I did." I said through my laughing fit.
Edward gave me a confused look.
I tried to tell him...when that failed I tried to give him a subtle head nod towards what I was referring to but he didn't get that either.
Paul ended up being my saving grace.
Paul was in between laughs when he said, "No wonder you're still a virgin...I doubt the girl you pick to be with forever would even feel that tiny thing...can it even be classified as a dick?"
Edward's eyes grew wide before he dropped his gaze down and realized what Paul and I were referring to.
Before I could even blink he disappeared back into the woods where he came from.
"Oh my god!" I exclaimed after I turned around to face the guys still in hysterics. "Now, do you all see and believe in quick change of hearts?" I asked with my arms crossed.
Sam was the first to stop laughing and speak up. "I think we can all agree after what just happened that it's obvious..we were wrong for not believing you."
"Can you blame us, though?" Paul asked.
Sam and Jared both slapped him on the back of the head.
"Well played," Paul recanted, changing up his words.
"That's as good as you're gonna get from him," Jared said while he shook his head and rolled his eyes.
"Believe me, I know," I replied. "The best part of it all, I wasn't even trying to do anything...it's just a bonus that I ended up teaching you three a lesson as well as him."
Speaking of which, now that my ex was out of the picture...hopefully for good...I had more pressing matters to deal with.
"If you will excuse me, I have to go figure out how to fix Edwards attempt at sabotaging my relationship with Jake," I said as I went inside without another word.
I made a beeline for the phone and dialed the phone number that I knew by heart.
It rang a few times before someone picked up.
"Hello," Billy said on the other end of the line.
"Billy, it's Bella," I replied, skipping the pleasantries.
"Bella, you're back," he said in surprise.
"Yeah, I am," I confirmed.
"Is Jacob with you?" he questioned.
"That's actually why I am calling," I answered. "Something happened after we got back, now I have no idea where to find Jacob."
There was a pause on Billy's end.
"What happened?" he finally asked.
I sighed and wished that Jake had not been so quick to discount my true intentions. "It's a long story..." I trailed off. "Can you just call me when he comes home?" I asked him. "I'll come over and try to sort things out with him...if that's even possible now."
"Yes, of course I will," he told me after he thought about it for a short time.
"Thank you, Billy," I smiled.
"You're welcome, Bella," he replied and I could just hear him smile back at me.
I hung up after thanking Billy once more and cleaned the house to distract myself while I waited for Billy to call me back. I really hoped that Jacob would hear me out.
~EAW~
The call still hadn't come by the time I had finished cleaning about an hour later. I had begun to freak out..it couldn't really be taking Jacob this long to calm down...could it?
"Oh god," I said out loud. "This is bad...really really bad,"
If it was taking longer than an hour for him to call down, then there was no doubt in my mind that it was going to be much harder to convince Jacob that Edward's words were not as bad as it sounded.
I spent the next half hour pacing back and forth. I was biting my nails to the point where I no longer had any to bite. I was losing it...going completely crazy by having to wait. Why wasn't he home yet...Where was he...Was he really that hurt by what Edward had implied? Oh god...what had I done...again? No...not me...Edward had done this...What the hell did Edward do?
"Just be home already!" I screamed in frustration.
I was less than a minute away from pulling my hair..the wait..the not knowing..it was all so nerve wracking.
"Come on!" I cried out. "Call for crying out loud!"
I had to be dreaming if I thought I could make it happen...life didn't work that way, or so I thought.
While in mid pace, the phone suddenly rang.
I immediately grabbed the phone.
"Hello!" I answered with enthusiasm.
"He's in the garage," Billy said over the phone.
I smiled briefly. "Thank you for calling..I'm on my way," I told him. "Just don't let him know..I don't want him to leave before I get there."
"Don't worry...I don't think he'll be coming in anytime soon," he assured me. "He came in long enough to tell me he was home but wanted to be alone."
"I'll be there soon," I said, a sad frown on my lips.
I wasted no time in grabbing my keys to the car Edward had lent me when my truck died. I made the mental note to trade it in as I took off and headed straight for La Push.
"Please God, let Jacob be willing to listen to me," I thought out loud.
I had a feeling that if he didn't listen to me, it would literally kill me. The stress and despair would sooner or later if I didn't have a heart attack and die the second he didn't. I just hoped it wouldn't come to that.
~EAW~
I had probably broke every law of the road on my way to La Push but I couldn't care less. I needed to talk to Jacob as soon as possible. I wouldn't be able to bare it if we didn't talk and try to fix things. I was completely aware that when Jacob had made his mind up about something, it was impossible to get him to change it. I couldn't let him be that stubborn this time..not about this.
I was in such a hurry that when I got there, I didn't turn off the car. Instead, I threw the driver's door open, got out and ran straight for the garage. My stomach was churning with somersaults as I got closer. If this was anyone other than Jacob that I was trying to fix things with, I would've probably caved from my nerves and just left. This was Jacob though and I wasn't going to lose him again.
"Jacob!" I called out as I ran into the garage and looked around for him. "Jake?"
I looked around and found him leaning forward against the tool bench.
"Jake," I said as I swallowed the nervous lump in my throat while I made my way over to him.
He sensed my next move because when I reached out to touch his arm, he moved out of my grasp.
His move made my heart feel like it had sunk into the pit of my stomach.
"Please, Jacob," I pleaded quietly. "You have to let me explain."
Jacob shook his head. "There's nothing to explain," he told me, turning to look at me. "It's obvious what this was all about."
"No, no it's not," I argued.
Jacob crossed his arms over his chest. "It's not about sex then?"
"No, of course not!" I exclaimed. "I mean...the sex is great but with you, it's not just about sex."
"Yet, it was with the leech?" he asked, not even hiding the disgust in his tone.
I sighed and looked down. "I didn't think so at first," I admitted. "I thought I truly loved him but seeing as if I only agreed to marry him because it was the only way he would..." I trailed off when Jacob growled.
I raised my head to look at him. "Well, you know.." I continued and spared us both from having to continue down the awful memory lane. "I guess it was just about sex in the end with him."
They say the truth will set you free...I didn't know if that was true yet. It kind of made me feel like I was a sex crazed teenager, who let my urges control me...oh wait, that's exactly what I was.
"It's different with you, Jake...it really is," I assured him. "It's not just about sex with you, I truly do love you...I'm very much in love with you." I reminded him, truth in my tone. "If we never had sex again, I still would be happy...because I'd be with you."
I paused to let him speak but he didn't have anything to say yet.
I sighed and whispered, "It's about you and me, Jake...sex is just a bonus."
Silence fell between us for a short time before being broken by a voice outside of the garage.
"Bella!"
I recognized Charlie's voice right away.
"Oh god," I thought, panic suddenly overtaking my.
Jacob and I were still on the rocks and Charlie now knew I was here. I knew he'd want answers..which meant I would have to likely end up leaving things on bad terms with Jacob still.
"As if my life couldn't get any worse," I said to myself.
I felt like I could break down and cry any second.
"You shouldn't keep him waiting," Jacob said, breaking me from my thoughts.
I looked at him and gave him a pleading look, his name passing through my lips. "Jake..."
Jacob refused to meet my eyes. "You owe him an explanation."
"Jake, please..." I begged him again. "Don't do this to me...to you...to us. Don't let him win and have the last laugh...please don't...it's what he wants."
"Bella!" Charlie called for the second time.
I stared at Jacob for a while longer but he said nothing more.
"Bells?!" Charlie's voice came a third time.
I sighed sadly and turned without another word to go explain it all to Charlie.
At this point, the only thing I could do was hope...pray that Jacob would believe what I had told him...but only time would tell.
~EAW~
Once I had finished filling Charlie and Billy in on everything that had happened, I went back out to the garage to try and reason with Jacob again. He had left...I felt my heart sink down into the pit of my stomach again. I didn't feel like sticking around anymore after that, I wanted to be alone.
I wasn't sure what else there was to do so I went home with the intent to take a shower and go to bed.
The thought of sleeping alone now just made me feel even more upset, it was the worst of the worst. Nothing was going well for me since we had came back from Seattle. I had started to think that maybe the world was against me. I believed I had fixed my karma by making better choices but it seemed that wasn't the case.
I stood in the shower with the warm water running over my body...trying to wash the troubles of my day away but all it did was further remind me of Jake.
I wished more than anything that Jake was here with me right now. He could be...he just wasn't. I was powerless to stop the feeling of fear that he'd never be with me again. A lot of people say "being positive is the key" but it's so damn hard to stay positive when in a situation like this.
I was pulled from my thoughts when the front door opened and closed downstairs. I didn't think anything of it, I just figured Charlie had come home from Billy's. I grabbed the shampoo from the shelf and squirted some in my hand. I had just lathered it in my hair when I heard footsteps in the hallway. Whoever it was, was getting louder as they got closer. I knew it wasn't Charlie now, there was no reason why he would have come up here while I was in the shower..talk about awkward and weird, if he had.
My first thought was, "Oh god! This is going to be like that Psycho movie all over again...just me as the victim." I stopped at that thought and realized how stupid it sounded. What was the possibility of that happening anyways? It was just a movie...right? Of course it was.
I reached out with a cautious hand for the shower curtain and leaned forward to stick my head out. I gasped as the door knob turned. I was about to scream bloody murder when the door opened before I saw a shirtless Jacob standing there. We made eye contact and without a word, he stepped inside the bathroom and closed the door, locking it as well.
"Jacob," I said his name quietly. "What are you..."
Before I could finish my question, he had his cut offs removed and was stepping in the shower behind me.
"Jake, what are you...?" I started to ask again as I turned to face him.
He silenced me by his lips meeting mine.
He reached behind me and grabbed me by my ass, hoisting me up.
I instinctively wrapped my legs around his waist.
"Jake?" I pulled back to break the kiss."
His lips found their way down to my neck as he sucked and nipped my pulse point, drawing a moan from me.
I swallowed hard as I fought to breath. "Jake," I said, and pushed at him to try and get his attention. "Jake...what...why...I thought?" I couldn't get a full sentence out.
Jacob finally with reluctance pulled away and looked me in my eyes.
We stayed in our current positions..just staring at each other without speaking for what felt like an eternity.
I opened my mouth to break the silence but he beat me to it.
"I believe you," he said simply.
"You believe me?" I repeated back to him.
He nodded yes to me. "I know it's not just sex with me," he said. "If it was, you could have made a move on me a long time ago..I would've given you all of me..no questions asked."
"I know," I whispered, I really did know that.
"You didn't though," he said with a small smile.
I shook my head. "No, I didn't," I agreed.
Jacob suddenly grinned his sunny grin. "I love you, Bells."
"I love you, too, Jake."
I know I had told him earlier that I'd be happy even if we never had sex again but with both of us naked...and in the shower...it was bound to happen...and it did.
~EAW~
The water got began to get cold and we ended up moving to my bedroom.
I lay my head on Jacob's naturally warm chest in exhaustion while I still panted slightly from our love making.
"That'll never get old," I said once I got my breath back.
"I sure hope not," Jacob replied with a chuckle.
"You know what I just remembered?" I sad, more of a statement than a question while I re-situated myself, my chin resting on my hands while I looked up at him.
Jacob wound a stray strand of my hair around his finger. "What's that?" he wondered.
"We still have the money that's left over from Edward's wallet," I told him with a sly grin. "I never gave it back."
Jacob grinned, his grin matching mine, "Looks like downtown Seattle will be seeing us again sooner rather than later."
I nodded in agreement. "We have to ride the Ferris Wheel next time," I said, already planning the trip.
"We have to eat at Sky City restaurant again too," Jacob added in.
I rolled my eyes and laughed. "You mean you do," I corrected him. "I didn't eat there last time, I was sight seeing."
Jacob shook his head. "Must everything always be correct with you?"
I laughed. "Well, duh."
"You're too much sometimes," Jacob teased and leaned down to plant a kiss on my forehead.
"Oh, stop your complaining," I said, going along with it while I slapped playfully at his chest. "So, it seems that we already have our first vacation as a couple all planned out."
Jacob raised an eyebrow. "Wasn't what we just got back from a vacation?"
I shook my head. "We weren't a couple the whole time," I pointed out. "So, technically it wasn't a true vacation as a couple."
Jacob thought about it for a moment. "Ah, okay. That makes sense."
"This time around, there will be no Edward and Alice around to cause problems for us," I stated proudly.
He growled at the mention of them. "I sure hope so."
"Trust me, Jake...it will be," I assured him.
"How can you be so sure?" he asked, curiously.
I grinned mischievously. "After you stormed off..." I trailed off and then went on to explain all that happened after he disappeared.
By the time I had finished telling the story, we both were out of breath from laughing.
"I love you even more now than I did before, if that's even possible."
"That's good to know...because I love you too...more and more every day...but you already knew that," I grinned at him.
Jacob and I had been through so much...together and apart from the moment I had moved back to Forks. I wouldn't change any of it for the world and all that mattered was that I had finally made the right choice. Jacob and I were where we needed to be...together and I wouldn't let anything get in between us ever again.
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