September 27th 2014

Gail had been sitting in the same position for over 2 hours, it was dark and cold and yet she couldn't bring herself to move. Her mind was working overtime trying to compute a situation that had completely blindsided her. She had come home from work a few hours ago to an empty house and a scrawled note thrown haphazardly on to the kitchen counter. She had taken up position on the stool to read said note and hadn't moved since. Its funny how one note can completely change your future plans, jolting you from the course of how you thought your life was going to be and down another path entirely.

Although she wouldn't admit it to anybody Gail had spent a lot of the last year contemplating her future and although she hadn't yet worked through the minor details she was sure of the one major one, that Holly would be in it. The two had spent the first 6 months after the shooting quietly together. It wasn't that Gail was keeping it a secret, she was fairly certain that everyone knew anyway, she just wanted to keep what the two of them shared close to her and away from anything that could potentially wreck it. Of course at a certain point Gail understood that she had to make a final commitment and so after professing her love to Holly 6 months ago the two had been completely open with their relationship.

Gail had met Holly's family, a pleasant experience, and Holly had met her parents, a not so pleasant experience. She had also moved herself in to Holly's small apartment just down the road from the division. Things were going smoothly and despite some small bickers about Gail's general untidiness and a long running argument concerning baseball and its lack of validity as a sport (Gail thought that for a sport that was centred on people hitting a ball with bats there wasn't exactly a lot of that going on, Holly of course completely loved it.) both were extremely happy and settled in the relationship. That wasn't to say that it wasn't exciting, Gail felt a thrill and attraction with Holly that she never had with anyone else previous, it was just that Gail was able to completely let her guard down and relax into who she truly was. That had bought about a sense of stability for Gail and for the first time in her life she had a clear picture of where she was heading. But as usually happens life seems to have swung back and kicked her in the ass because now instead of the picture that was oh so clear just a few hours ago, now all she could see was static because now she was sat on the stool in darkness clutching a note that read I'm sorry I thought I could but I cant, H x.

This is a bit experimental, there will be time jumps. First fic in a while so please let me know what you think.