Author's Note: Okay so let me start by saying I'm sorry. I'm a rather fickle minded person and goes to what I feel the most. I deleted the first one which turns out to be a prototype since I didn't feel a thing when I wrote it. My sister told me that Teacher x student story isn't really a nice plot to go with that's why I changed it at. But if you really want me to write one just PM me and I will make a one-shot for it…

Anyways just be warned that this fic will be M rated and there will be heavy H-scenes [as I put it]. I'm not really sure of the angst but there will be one and I don't know if it will be as good as my previous work. [Good luck to me]

Prologue

Yume

"Even if the mind forgets; the body remembers"

-Tsubasa chronicles [I think it was Yuko that said that]

It was as if I had fallen into a deep sleep.

It felt like I was having a dream. In that dream I saw a boy with the same eyes as me, the same blue hair as me, and the same face as me. However, for some reason even if that guy looks like me he is different; it was as if he's the opposite of me. In that dream, that guy is very happy, in that dream he seems to not worry about a single thing and in that dream he never felt a single tinge of loneliness instead; I know that he feels what it is to love. Something I could never do.

Alongside that person is someone whom I could not recognize, but one thing I am sure of is that he has red hair and a pair of red and gold eyes. As I look at him I suddenly feel my chest hurt and ask myself, why does he seem familiar? Why does my heart feel a very unsettling feeling as he gaze upon the person who looks like me? As he gazes at him I know that it is full of love. And in that moment as I saw that that person is being loved, I suddenly feel jealous; for love is something I could never have.

The two of them look so happy; it was as if, just being the two of them together is enough. That just by knowing they have each other, they can surpass anything that will be thrown to them. They are in love, I am sure of it.

Suddenly I heard a tune. It was a soft and slow melody and as I hear it it feels like my heart is being dragged and a sense of nostalgia struck me. It is the first time I had heard such melody yet strangely enough it felt so familiar.

"I love you" I heard the redhead said and the person who looks like me smiled tenderly, and then he held the redhead's hand and responded "I love you too".

A strange tear fell into my eyes as I look at them, the emotions that they have for each other is so strong. My chest suddenly hurts and I think I'm about to cry.

Why? Why am I feeling like this? Why does my heart hurt as I look at them?

As I turn back my attention to them I heard the redhead said "You are mine forever, Tetsuya"

Tetsuya? Who the hell is Tetsuya? I saw the blue head smiled and nod, no way; we share the same name as me. He must be Tetsuya; however, for some reasons I know that that person is me. But at the same time he is not me.

I'm confused I don't know what to think anymore. Do I know that person? But why couldn't I remember him? Who is he? Why is that happening? Why?

I was about to go towards them when I realize I couldn't, I tried to but no matter how I try my attempts are futile. Then before I knew it everything becomes distorted and everything went black.

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I found myself sitting straight up, the walls are painted white and I seem to be wearing white hospital robes, it was then I realize that I am in a hospital when I see that my right hand is inserted with an IV. I suddenly remember what happened, I was hit by a car and before I knew it I collapsed.

I wonder who brought me here, I ask myself. I thought of walking out but I wonder where my clothes are, I was about to stand and look for my clothes when suddenly the door opened and there came in an unfamiliar redhead. He is talking to someone on the phone and when he saw me sitting up, he hung up on his call and then rush towards me and hugged me.

"Tetsuya" he said that name excitedly and then he pulls away from me immediately, who the hell is Tetsuya. I just stare strangely at the tall redhead. "This is a miracle. Do you know how long we have been looking for you?" he said to me.

Looking for me? Do they know me; however he's speaking to me so familiarly, like we're close friends. "Wait who-" I tried to ask him who he was however he cuts me off.

"I'm sure Akashi will be thrilled when he sees you. He had never stopped looking for you, you know"

"Wai-"

"Don't worry he's coming here. I have informed him that I found you, where have you been all this time" the redhead continues to talk and I don't even know what the hell he is talking about, it suddenly get into my nerves.

"Wait!" I yelled, he's never letting me finished my sentences and I am feeling a bit annoyed, that's why I just yelled out suddenly, the tall redhead stare at me with surprise.

"What s it Tetsu?" he asked me.

"You suddenly start speaking as if you know me" I said, the tall redhead suddenly looks at me as if I am insane.

"What are you talking about? We have known each other for years now" he said.

"Ha? I don-" all of a sudden the door barged open and then another redhead came in, who seemed to froze at the moment that he saw me.

"Tetsuya", that name again, I thought. Who the hell is Tetsuya? And why are they calling me that name? This is really freaking me out. Like the tall redhead the shorter redhead suddenly rushed and held me tightly, he was holding me like he's planning to never let me go again. "My Tetsuya" I suddenly cringed when I heard that. I have never known these people nor have seen them for the rest of my life, and strangely enough, it is weird that this person seems to hold on to me with his dear life. And calling me names.

"I finally found you" he said. I couldn't take this anymore, weird things suddenly happening to me. Without saying anything I pushed the redhead as strong as I could, I know I'm weak that's why I extracted enough strength to push the redhead that seems to be stronger than me.

However as I pushed him away, I could see the shock in his face "Te-tsu-"

"Look I don't know if this is your idea of a joke but I'm not appreciating it" I yelled.

"What are you saying?"

"Look I don't know how you and I don't know who the hell this Tetsuya is"

"Oi Tetsu, we are not kidding around and what the hell's wrong with you. You're acting as if you don't know us, you hit your head or something" the taller redhead said, however after he said that I saw the shorter redhead froze. It was as if he is thinking of something incomprehensible. I don't know what to say but as I look at him I could see the horror and grief in his eyes, it was as if he had lost all the hope in the world. I want to ask what's it's all about however it's none of my business that's why I just pretended that I didn't notice it.

"How would I know you anyway, this is the first time I saw all of you" I said.

"Huh?"

"Who are you anyway?" I ask.

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I watched as the sun is starting to set into the horizon. At this time, Tetsuya and I would stare at the sunset in the rooftop of his house as he sketched on his sketchbook. He would sketch anything that he will see and I would just stare at him as he is engrossed with his work. I love the way his expression changes as he draws, and in that moment he always manage to capture my heart, there was never a day that I never loved him.

Whenever he draws his blue eyes were concentrated with his work, he would look at his attention back to his subject and then he would look down on his sketch and correct any mistake that he had done. And when he is done, he would smile and he would lift his sketchbook and stare at it for awhile. When he thinks that its already done it was then he would face me and then hand me his work and asked "So how is it? Does it show any love or what?" And then I would reply "It's really beautiful Tetsuya" he would smile at me and I would just stare at him. He would yell at me that I should stop staring and I saw his pale cheeks tinted with a pink hue as he looks away, it's not as if I want to tease him however I couldn't help it. I just love him too much, and just by knowing that he's there by my side, I have never been happier.

And I think I could never love anyone else in the world. Even if he's gone from me I would love him with all my might.

"He's gone" Kagami said as we came back into the room that Tetsuya is supposed to be confined with. We left him since we had to go to the doctor; Tetsuya said that he wanted to be alone that's why Kagami just come with me. However the both of us know that he's going to go, that's why we intentionally left his clothes so that he won't have to go in hospital robes.

"What f he's not Tetsuya"

"No. It is him" I said as a matter of fact. There's no mistaking it, it is Tetsuya, I have been together with him and I knew every part of him that's why I know that it is really him.

Kagami sighed, I knew that he also knew that it really was Tetsuya and I know that as absurd as it sounds he might have wanted to cheer me up. "Of course I knew that" he said.

"It's clear that he has amnesia" I said.

"So what are you going to do?"

"I don't know" Kagami looked at me strangely and I know why. And even to myself I wonder why. I had a solution to every problem that are presented to me however at this time it seems that I don't even have an idea as to what I do. I know that there are a lots of solution to his problem however, I suddenly felt tired to think about it. It was as if I had been running into a goose chase and when I was able to get it and it slipped right into my hands. It almost feels like I don't want to think about anything.

"This isn't really like you Akashi" I heard Kagami say. I don't want to be lectured and he's the last one I want to hear it from.

"You think I don't know?" I said feeling annoyed.

"I'm not saying that…however I know that it must have been hard"

I just stood there and stare at the bed that Tetsuya was suppose to be in. I always think that if I'm going to find him, I'm never going to let go again however it ended bad and I have failed. Yes, I have found Tetsuya, however one thing for sure, he's not coming back to me. And the end result: I failed.

Seijuurou Akashi failed. And it almost seemed synonymous to the word lost. I lost. Seijuurou Akashi lost.

Kagami seemed to have sensed that I want to be left alone since he told me that he had to go. I just nod without saying anything.

There is a really first for everything. It's the first time I had never seen Tetsuya looked at me like that, he seemed sacred and there's hostility in his eyes and I know that to him we are nothing more but a mere stranger, someone who suddenly approach him and called him strange names. He has no recollection as to who we are.

I don't know why but in that moment I thought that its better that he died. At least when he's gone he's still able to remember me. That to him the memories that we shared together are with him that even if he died he still holds the memories of us. Unlike now, true that he is alive yet the memories he had when we're together, all of those times that we shared together. He doesn't remember any of that.

He's like another person who shares the same face and name as my Tetsuya. And I know for a fact that that Tetsuya doesn't share the same feelings as my Tetsuya.

What's more painful is that he's there yet at the same time he is NOT there.

I decided to leave the hospital and go to that place. It took a fifteen minute ride to get to that place. As I arrived I immediately went to the rooftop of that building.

The sunset has a beautiful view in this place, as I watched my watch I realize that it was this time when I have first met him.

[xxx years ago]

The sun is setting at that moment. I decided to take a break after doing all that painful paperwork since it's the end of the midterms. As I reach the rooftop I suddenly saw a bluehead student who is not from this school standing at the other side of the railings, all it take is one step and you will fall four storey's high to your death.

His teal head was basked in the color of the sunlight, it shone a beautiful color and it that moment I was mesmerized. I have never seen someone like that, it was the first time I had seen such a person as him, I was caught up with my own thought that it took me minutes to realize.

He is planning to die.

To be continued…

Author's Note: It turn out better than I expected though the grammar is not really my best point but I'll work harder for this fic. I think I'mma try to look for a Beta reader. But at the moment please bear with my grammars. Thank you very much.

BTW, the tune that Tetsuya heard is Beethoven's Moonlight Sonata…yeah I got the title from that, try to listen to that piece it's beautiful.

I hope someone reads this…Good luck for me…

Shiori

I'm half lazy half human-being.