ITS AKAKURO WEEK GUYS! GOSSSSHHHHH!

This fic btw was inspired from the song 'Forget about me'. Its a song about break up. Lol, pretty sentimental right? XD. I wanted to write something with fluff but, I can't help it! I am a big fan of Angsty stories!

DISCLAIMER: I Don't own knb. Major oocness. And pardon my english :(.

Enjoy?

"Ne Papa, what's a first love?" My 6-year old kid, Takayuki suddenly asked one day.

I was a bit shocked by his question but managed to recover fast. "T-Takkun! Where did you heard that word from?" I stuttered a bit.

"Why papa? Is it a bad word?" He tilted his head in confusion. I placed a plate of strawberry cake for his afternoon snack. "No, its not. Just, where did you hear it from?"

He looked up at me, a fork on his mouth as he chew the cake slowly. "Hatori told me that I was his first love!" He said happily which made my blood slowly drain from my head. "Hatori-kun is a boy right?" I asked.

"Yup!"

"O-oh.. First love, as what is called is a feeling of love building up for a person for the first time." I said as I patted his silver locks.

He chuckled. "Then, does papa has a first love too?! Can you tell me?!"

Ah.. The bittersweet memories of my first love came back to me all at once. "Sure. It all started when.."

10 years ago (Flashback)

I am Kuroko Tetsuya, 16 years old and a first year student at Rakuzan High School. I joined the Music & Arts Club together with my best friend and childhood friend. I love to draw and play the piano.

I have someone I like. He's the Club president, his name is Akashi Seijuuro, same age as me. He's a piano prodigy, I fell for him the first time I heard him play.

It was a peaceful afternoon, I was making my way towards the Library when I heard someone playing the piano. He was playing Johann Pachelbel's Canon in D Major. It was a beautiful piece and my heart warmed as I heard the melody being played perfectly, so curiosity killed me and I decided to peek. Ah, Even the guy himself is beautiful. His red hair illuminated by the sunlight coming from the window that made it look like its on fire while his gaze focused on the piano like its the most interesting object in the world.

I was so entranced at his face that I didn't notice I accidentally opened the Club room's door. My face immediately flushed in embarrassment. 'He must've seen me looking at him!' I thought.

"Do you need something?" He stood up from the Grand Piano's chair and slowly approached me. "Ah sorry.. I-I wanted to sign up for the club!"

Crap! I was supposed to join the basketball club with Ogiwara-kun, my bestfriend!

The red head chuckled. "Really, there is no need to be embarrassed. Did you play the piano too? Or other instruments?" He asked as he shuffled the drawer to look for a membership application.

"Y-yes. I play the piano and violin." I replied shyly. "Here, sign this up—?"

"Ah! I'm Kuroko Tetsuya from Class 1-B! Nice to meet you uh.."

"Akashi Seijuuro, 1-A. The Club President" He smiled as he handed me the Application form.

That afternoon was the day our friendship began.

We started to hangout after that. Eating lunch together, attending the club meetings together and practicing some piano pieces together. We even go home together then hangout on weekends.

Little did Akashi-kun know that as our friendship started to bloom, my feelings for him also grew stronger and stronger.

It was our first winter together when I asked him out. I could see the shock on his face, but he replaced it with a smile, a fake one and agreed to go out with me. I could see on his face that he does not wish to, but he agreed. Probably because he doesn't want to wreck the friendship both of us have.

Months have passed but I could see no change on our relationship, from the start I was just a friend. I chose to ignore it, but after our first anniversary together, I started to have doubts on him.

He had forgotten our first anniversary. Its been a year but no kissing, no hugging, there's even no holding hands. Every time I told him that I love him, he would only reply 'yeah', 'I know' or just a nod, and that breaks my heart so much.

I tried talking to him one day.

"Ne Seijuuro-kun... What do you really think of me?" I asked, a little bit irritated but silently hoping that he loved me too. But as expected, he just silently stood there. "Do you love me?" I could feel my patience wearing thin.

He looked at me in the eye. "I...I'm sorry but.. I already has someone I love.. Even before we met." My azure orbs widened. I wasn't expecting this. I can accept the fact that he didn't love me but.. Seijuuro-kun in love with someone else... No..

"Why?" I asked. "I thought I could move on if I dated you, but it seems that it didn't work.. Sorry Tetsuya." He replied.

"I'm still in love with him, even after these years.. I guess my feelings for him won't fade." He chuckled bitterly.

I could feel tears leaking from my eyes as he continued.

"Why?! Why didn't you just dumped me when you already know its hopeless?" I fell on my knees as I clutched my chest, trying to ease the pain I'm feeling. "Am I just a tool to pass time?" I sobbed.

"... Maybe." He replied as he turned his heels on me and walked out.

I clutched my chest tightly. It hurts..

Ah.. So that's why he hasn't even bothered to hold my hands, to kiss me, to said 'I love you' even if its a lie.

Two months have passed but I still couldn't move on. I tried dating some guys, but I can't.. I love him so much that I can't bring myself to betray him even if there's really no us. I cried almost everyday, wishing that I could move on.

Today, I decided to pass my resignation letter at the club. I couldn't stay, knowing that he's on the same club as mine, the club president to add. Being on the same room as him is just too suffocating.

I stayed on the club after class to meet Sei— Akashi-kun. I'll definitely move on after this.

After a few minutes, I heard the door slide open, and there is Akashi-kun.

"Tetsuya? Why are you still here? There's no club meeting today." He said as he slowly walked his way towards me. "Akashi-kun."

His eyes widened a little on the way I called him. He must've expected me to call him by his given name.

"I came here to pass my resignation." I handed him the paper and slowly walked away without a word when a pair of arms suddenly hugged me from behind. "Go back to me Tetsuya... I'm sorry." He whispered.

"It wasn't gonna be like it was before. Mark my word Tetsuya... I love you." I turned to look at his face and was quite shocked that he wasn't lying. He was smiling at me, a genuine smile. A real one. And that was enough to make me cry.

"I love Seijuuro-kun too." I hugged him back, sniffing his scent that I missed so much.

The red head chuckled. "Yeah.. I love you too. I'm sorry." He kissed my forehead, and that made me extremely happy.

As Seijuuro-kun said, he changed. He's kissing me now, on my forehead, my cheek, my neck and even on my lips. But we did not go beyond that, I could still feel something's missing.

Once again, I ignored it and a year have passed, I attended Tokyo Daigaku* along with Seijuuro-kun. But our relationship remained the same, we did not go beyond kissing. Not even touching. And here I thought our relationship was going well.

I was walking towards my next class, which is Chemistry when I noticed a mop of red on the bathroom. Its Seijuuro-kun and it seems like he was with someone, I silently peeked and my eyes widened from the shock.

There's Seijuuro-kun, making out with the guy named 'Chihiro' as he repeated the silver haired guy's name like a mantra. I couldn't control myself and gasped, which caught the two's attention and stopped from their activity.

Seijuuro-kun's eye widened as he saw me at the door, can barely stand from what I saw. "T-Tetsuya I can explain.." He ran to me and wrapped an arm around my waist to support me on standing but I slapped his hand away. "Don't touch me!" I shouted, my anger risened up.

"Che, you told me you didn't have a lover." The guy named Chihiro said as he walked away, leaving me and Akashi-kun alone.

"Tetsuya I—

"How long?" I murmured under my breath.

"Eh?"

"How long have you been cheating on me?"

"... Last month.." He replied. "I'm really sorry I—" I slapped him, hard enough to leave an angry red mark on his face.

It hurts.. I thought it would be for real this time but, I guess not. I thought he finally opened his heart for me, but he just pushed me out of the door, not even letting me in.

"You said it wasn't gonna be like it was before... Why Seijuuro-kun? Am I not enough? I don't even know what I meant to you anymore.." I cannot take it, tears started to leak out of my eyes.

He gave me a bitter expression. Don't tell me all these time, he doesn't love me?

Just the thought hurts so much, bringing more tears from my eyes. "I... Were through Sei— Akashi-kun. Please forget about me, and I'll do the same." I said. I heard calling me but no, not anymore.

I just wanted to run. Away from Akashi-kun, away from tokyo, away from everything.

End of Flashback

"*sniffs* I-If I ever saw that guy who hurted papa, I'll beat him to death!" He sobbed as he took a spoonful of pudding.

I chuckled. "It was a long time ago Takkun, there's no need to get worked up over something that happened 10 years ago."

"But!—

"I'm home."

The chibi bluenette perked up from his seat as he heard the voice. "Ah! Daddyyyyy!" He jumped at the guy and hugged his torso.

"Takayuki." The man chuckled.

I stood up from the dining chair and followed Takayuki. "Welcome home." I smiled at him.

My red head lover smiled back at me and ruffled my blue locks. "I'm home, Tetsuya."

Moving on, being as hard as it is, was even harder because Akashi-kun won't stop bugging me. He was messaging and calling me every single day. Apologizing, Wanting me back or whatever.

But I can't have any of that. I won't fall for the same trick twice.

I joined the Cooking club just a few weeks ago. Just so you know, I'm a terrible cook, so maybe joining this club will help me learn how to cook, even if its just a little.

And as I thought, it worked. Thanks to my clubmate and new friend, Kagami-kun. He's a good cook and his red reminded me so much of him. But I know they're the exact opposite. Akashi-kun is always calm and composed while Kagami-kun is hot tempered and easily annoyed. Akashi-kun is small but smart while Kagami-kun is tall but a total dumb.

They may has the same hair and eye color, Akashi-kun is Akashi-kun and Kagami-kun is Kagami-kun.

And after a few months, Kagami-kun confessed to me and we start dating.

Its so fun being with Kagami-kun. The way he blushes when we kiss or when we hug. The way he would get embarrassed. The way he would repeat my name when we make love and yeah, it ls a total bliss. I love his arrogant yet caring attitude. I can clearly feel that he deeply loves me, and I'm happy with that.

I love him. Yet, I don't. You get my point right? I love him as a friend, a true one. But I don't love him in a romantic way, and that made me hate myself.

After all these months of being with Kagami-kun, my heart still belonged to Akashi-kun. My heart only beats for him. And that made me hate myself even more. I could feel Kagami-kun's love for me is real and all I need to do is to love him back, yet I still longed for Akashi-kun. Why?

Kuroko Tetsuya, are you really a masochist? Why do I still longed for someone who did nothing but hurt me?

3 years later and I haven't heard of Akashi-kun ever since we graduated from college. I was working as a kindergarten teacher now and still dating Kagami-kun, whose working as a firefighter now. We've stayed strong all these years, and now were living together with a child we adopted whose parents died on a plane crash.

I've got a family of my own now, yet it seems that something is still missing. What could it be?

"What's for dinner?" My lover, Taiga-kun asked as he removed his outdoor shoe. "Ah! Its already dinner time?"

He chuckled. "Tonight, why don't we just go to a restaurant and eat?" He picked up Takayuki and stood. "Sure."

As you can see, we are a happy family now. I'm satisfied just by having Taiga-kun and Takayuki on my side.

Too lost in thought, I bumped someone quite hard and dropped my phone. "I'm sorr—

"Tetsuya?"

I froze. Ah, its him. The guy I've been longing for all these years. I looked up and see a man with a short red hair, wearing a navy blue dress shirt and a black jeans.

"Hey papa! Are you all right?" Takayuki asked as he ran to help me pick up my phone. "Yes Takkun, I'm alright." I patted my sons' head and smiled a bit.

"You have a son now?" Akashi-kun asked. "Ah, yes I adopted him when he was only 3 years old because his parents died on a plane crash." I picked up Takayuki and ruffled his blue locks. "Ne papa, who is he?" Takayuki pointed at Akashi-kun.

"He is Akashi Seijuuro-san, an acquiantance of mine. Say hi." I urged him.

Takayuki jumped off of my arms and slowly walked towards Akashi-kun, who seemed at shock at the moment. "Hi Akashi-san! I'm Kagami Takayuki! 6 years old! Nice to meet you!" He said as he offered his right hand for a hand shake.

"Ka..gami?" Akashi-kun replied, still a little shocked but he took the chibi's hand anyway. Before Tetsuya could answer, he was stopped by a certain redhead calling for him.

"Tetsuya! What's taking you two so long?!" He panted slightly due to running. "Oh, I'm sorry but I met my old acquiantance along the way so we decided to have a little chat." I said. "By the way, Akashi-kun this is Kagami Taiga-kun. My...boy–

"His husband."

I could not say I wasn't shocked when I bumped into Tetsuya. I have been looking for him all these years. I have been wanting to apologize for I continously hurting him in the past. I have been wanting to convey these unsaid feelings I've locked ever since he left me. And maybe.. Maybe he can give me another chance.

"Hus..band?" I asked. Am I hearing right? Tetsuya is.. Married?

The man named Kagami Taiga wrapped his arm around Tetsuya and smiled. "Yeah. Nice meeting you, uh Akashi right?"

I forced myself to smile. "Yes. Likewise."

"Wow. How long has it been since we last saw each other?" Tetsuya smiled a little. "Wanna join us for dinner?"

I only nodded in reply.

We ate in a small Italian restaurant. Tetsuya was feeding his son while Kagami was eating a bunch of pasta and pizza. Their aura made me feel out of place. Like I wasn't supposed to be here.

After we ate, Tetsuya and I exchanged numbers then went our separate ways.

I still can't believe Tetsuya has a family now. I've always regretted what I did to him. Is this punishment? For hurting him?

If only I could go back in time and cherished him more in the past. Maybe.. Maybe he is Akashi Tetsuya, not Kagami Tetsuya. Maybe we're so happy right now. Living together as a married couple.

But who am I to hope for that? Aren't I the one who repeatedly hurted him in the past?

I want him back. I want to start over again with him. I have always dreamt of Tetsuya in my arms, to tell him I love him and to promise him that I won't hurt him again like I did back then.

But I could only dream for that, because Tetsuya will never be mine again.

There's something missing! What is ittttt?! I'm not satisfied :((((. Please guys point out to me if you ever figured out what's missing!