A writer of--yes, I admit it--torture fic. If you are diametrically opposed to that, I'd rather you not read my story/stories. Just so it's clear, torture fascinates me. But in real life it disgusts me. I only "like" it in fiction. And I prefer to see it handled realistically. I'm not really big on hurt/comfort. More like hurt/angst/trauma/rescue. My email address has changed so please use the link to look it up. In fact, only the domain name has changed, so it shouldn't be too hard a transition.

Thanks for not giving up on me! For those who haven't figured it out yet, I'm not really a guy after all. I'm...(drum roll please)...Gabrielle Lawson, prolific writer of other fandoms. http://www.fanfiction.ws/u/4532/. And now you can keep up on Gabrielle and I (ha ha) through Twitter. We are only tweeting what we read or what we write. So it might help you hold out to get updates of what I posted to know that occasionally my muse let's me write. I'm Inheildi on Twitter. So follow me there.

And now I have a podcast! It's just me reading my stories and talking about good writing. If you'd like to listen, it's called There Are Three of Me and you can find it on Spotify and other places you get your podcasts. (Gabrielle Lawson is the 1st of me, Ainaechoiriel is the 2nd and the 3rd is me, Philippe.)

Wanna know how I got this pen name? Gabrielle liked the name Philippe so started with that. Then she used a French dictionary. The first page she opened to had a keyword at the top of Massacre. That's the same in English and French. But the first word she actually saw was Matraque. Matraque means "bludgeon or truncheon." Sounds like kismet for a torture-fic writer.

I started out with one torture-for-torture's-sake and romance to boot story. And now I've branched beyond torture. So not all my stories are torture. Gabrielle has assigned me all video game stories. Yep, she won't write those. But I promise, we have the very same brain, so I'll still give them my A-game.

Call of Duty Ghosts is a very different Call of Duty or even 1st person shooter. It drew me in in a way no other video game has. Shadow of Mordor did a pretty good job of making things personal but in that, you started out dead with all your family killed in front of you. It had a good ending. Call of Duty Ghosts made me care about my character because, I think, he's part of a family. He's not just some faceless sniper part of the team. He's the brother and son of 2 other characters. He sees his father killed right in front of him. Then the seemingly good ending turns terrible. You have to watch past the first credits to see it. It's awful. It's highly disturbing. It leaves you incredibly worried about what will happen in COD Ghosts 2 if they even make that game. So, I had to take it up from there for my own sanity. And you know me, I can't take the easy road on stories like this. Look at Gabrielle Lawson's Close To Home . . . So Far Away. Doyle is alive again, but he had to go through hell to get that way.

More Than a Ghost was my therapy for Call of Duty Ghosts. Maybe it can be yours. They don't look like they're going to make Call of Duty Ghosts 2, so my story is the sequel. For me anyway. Maybe for you.

Waiting and Worry, Revelations, and Momentis are all based on Final Fantasy XV and center on Ignis Scientia. The first two are short stories, and the last is still in progress. It's going to cover the 10 years of darkness as well as beyond. Given that a 1-year story took 10 years to write, a 10-year story would take a century if I wrote it the same way I write most of my longer stories aka 20-40 page chapters. So instead I'm writing it in moments. Some chapters are one scene while other moments might span 3 chapters.

And Gabrielle sent me another one. Another Call of Duty at that. In Call of Duty World War 2, we lose Zussman to captivity in a real-life concentration camp. Yep, the selection in Bad Orb happened. Berga happened. I was impressed they added that to the game. So Gabrielle decided I should meld real history as well as I can with game timeline and characters. I pick up right when they find Zussman to not long after Daniels, Aiello, and Stiles leave for home. 14 chapters and I finished it! And I wrote another chapter of Momentis!

Gabrielle Lawson and I are one and the same, after all. Don't expect easy from any of my stories, but do expect better speed. I don't want to do anything other than write. Writing has always been my drug. So, play the games or watch walk-throughs on Youtube. (Make sure you see the scenes after the credits in COD Ghosts.) And if you like these new stories, Follow them. I'm still writing. No story left behind!

And by the way, "we" always fix typos and grammar foibles if we find them. Sometimes we reread our stories to get back into the WIPS or just revisit the others. And we find them. Nighbird47 says "Typos breed in the dark." So we always find some. And we fix them and reupload them. Every time. (PS. Just replaced almost every current chapter of Momentis and 3 from Alien Us.)