Wow, that's amasing! I really love your story! Also i think i join people who hopes that Gon is actually alive, lol. Perhaps he knew too much so they decided to remove him? Or may be he wanted to protect Killua somehow (and screwed up big time lol)? Or may be they kidnapped him to use as a bait for Killua? *or may be i should just accept his death in this fic lol*
I hope you didn't abandon that fic but even if you did, thank you for your work!

I love this! The story is captivating, and you completely captured the essence of Killua, and his inferiority towards Gon. I know over 3 years have passed since you last updated, however I will still have hope that you will someday update it (just as I still have hope perhaps this is all fake and someone staged Gon's death and he is really alive). Please udpate! I'll be waiting patiently along with the many others excited to see this brilliant story unfold.

update please!

UPDATE!
Please.
Pretty please.
Pretty please with sugar on top!
Your Killua is amazing, chapter 3 made me cry, and the PLOT dammit!
It's all unreal. This fic is AMAZING and i need it too continue.
Bye.

Okay sorry that I'm typing this on mobile but I realized I left a part of your story at the end of my review and I forgot to say that I also really love that part :)

Okay, I really, really love this story.
First of all, the way Killua is written is so well done and so intriguing. You explored the facets of his personality so well, especially how he felt inferior to Gon and how much Gon hurt him during the CA arc. I loved how you analysed his relationship with Gon and how he was in his shadow even after years (less successful, worse reputation). I loved how you brought his darker side that has always haunted him: "Venom dripped from his tongue. "I could get out of these cuffs and kill you in less than five seconds. You'd be dead before you got the chance to scream."" Characterization is so well done and believable. Alluka is also written really well! Ah, it's so heartbreaking to see how you've so skillfully written about the contrast between Gon and Killua and how Killua's always been the one to pick up after Gon. I loved this part: "Gon had always shown brighter than anyone else in the room without even trying. Sometimes, he missed simply chasing the light." you showed Killua's feelings so well and it's so sad how he's bitter of Gon yet still loves him so much , like when he was so happy that Gon texted him :( it really made me think about all their interactions in the CA arc. It made me think there was definitely a reason why Gon had stopped keeping in touch, because it reminds me a lot of why Gon decided to handle Pitou alone. Because Gon, in his own way, in his own human way, didn't want to be responsible for Killua's death. Gon can't deal with his own weakness and he is self-destructive in that way. So instead, he chose to keep Killua out of it, but in doing so, he hurt Killua so much by destroying himself all alone. He took away the one thing that Killua felt he could do to help Gon as friends. And it makes me so sad that they were both trying to protect each other in their own way. It pains me so much when I think about Gon's self-destructiveness, while seemingly selfless, is an inherently selfish act because it's Killua, Killua who is self-sacrificing and doesn't hesitate to put his life on the line. Because it's Killua, because it's Gon, hurting each other was inevitable. Your story really reminded me of the complexity of their relationship and the implications of everything that had happened and what it would cause in the future.

Chapter 3 really hit home for me. The way you wrote Killua's grief was so, so good. "Killua had always tried to protect him, even when Gon had seemed determined to put himself in danger. He had saved him – he'd risked everything to save his life, when Gon himself had thrown it away in a selfish fit of rage, without any thought to his feelings at all.

And yet...

And yet, Gon had still left him. Gon had finally left him behind, for good. He'd left, without so much as a goodbye." I absolutely loved the part! It was so heartwrenching and I could feel so much of Killua's pain. It just made me think, again, of how much love yet hurt that their relationship causes each other just because of who they are. You write so well, it's such a pleasure to read, everything is so polished and your word choice is fantastic and concise. I loved how you referred to Nanika as "they" , that was such a nice touch! I love how you write the angst and grief and suspense! I REALLY want to know what happens next! I'm hoping that Gon isn't dead and that he might have been the stranger Killua was chasing (or connected somehow) because Gon dying and leaving Killua alone is just too sad. I also really hope that Killua kicks the ass of whoever is responsible for framing him and this atrocity! I hope Killua finds Gon and they hug it out and they understand each other and stay together forever. Sorry for this long review, I really like how you write you're amazing! I hope you update soon, but I understand life gets busy. I love everything so, so much so far.

Killua crumbled against the brick wall. He buried his head in his knees, screams dissolving into sobs. In the isolation of the basement – with no one and nothing to shield him from his memories – resolution finally melted into defeat beneath the black, bitter touch of grief.

WOW. Okay, I'm so sorry it took me so long to finish reading (literally months, I'm the worst ;A; ), I've been hovering between Sweden and France for my exchange studies and buried myself in writing to survive my semester in Sweden... I barely read any fanfiction ;-;

But I'm so glad I got to read this! I'M SO CURIOUS NOW OH MY GOD I NEED TO KNOW! The skull moon strangers are so mysterious and I'm so, so curious of them, especially that they're strong enough to make KILLUA feel scared and KILL GON! I wanna know why they're so intent on ruining Killua's reputation too! My mind screams "ILLUMI" but perhps it would be too easy but perhaps you'd have thought "they will think it's too easy so they won't suspect Illumi" when in fact it IS Illumi and I NEED TO KNOWWWWW ;A;

WHO WAS THE STRANGER KILLUA RAN AFTER OMG... I have this wild idea that it's Gon, that he didn't actually die and staged his own death with some incredible conjurer who conjured a fake body for him (Kortopi?)... But then why would Gon want to ruin his best friend's life? COERCION? Illumi? (everything goes back to Illumi because I don't like him /shot) GAHH I'm rambling but IM SO CURIOUS! You managed to hook me with that plot!

Okay, I should stop gushing about the plot and review the rest instead. I love the way you write Killua, I may have said this before but your Killua is so different, with a ruined reputation and a struggle to make ends meet, I had never read that (I'm blessed with the fics I currently read and the amazing Killuas). I also love your writing altogether. I don't struggle too much to understand it even though English isn't my first language, and yet it's elegant and flows well. That nightmare was chilly!

(Okay okay I need to make another crazy assumption: the nightmare is about his mind being manipulated? BY ILLUMI! *throws knives at Illumi* *coughs* but yes. AND THE FACT THAT NANIKA WAS GONE TWO YEARS AGO WHEN THE MOONSKULL STRANGERS ATTACKED THE QUEEN... IS IT A COINCIDENCE? gahhh I need to knowwww!)

ANYWAY sorry for the crazy assumptions, I hope they didn't bore you too much :'D I hope you update soon! *hearts* Great chapter :)

I love this fanfic , and the way you write it ! It's awesome !

Oh gosh this story is so intense you are an amazing author I'm currently dying and can't formulate the words to express how awesome this fic is. ! Ahhh ok the angst is super painful and I can't believe you killed Gon but ack I'm still holding onto this thin hope that he's still alive and it was all staged... I was half convinced the stranger was actually Gon but now I'm not sure anymore :''''( Anyway you're awesome, and I hope you'll be able to continue this story!

amazing!

This chapter is so sad and so well written. You can just feel exactly what's going on in his head. I can relate to Killua in this chapter SO MUCH. Which is why I need chapter 5 to come out so I Know what to do. This is probably the most hooking story I've read in years.

On the jenny thing: I always thought it was analogous to Japanese yen, so a 1200 jenny dress couldn't be much more than 10 usd... are the Zoldyck sibs really that broke? I know Killua has a rocky history when it comes to money management, but I'd hoped he would have learned to stretch out his earnings from Greed Island.

Anyways, this is really depressing! But intriguing, and well-written, which encourages me to keep reading. I'm already forming theories concerning Gon and Killua's fallout and Gon's disappearance.

Well, you've got me hooked.
Gon's my favorite character, so I'm super depressed by this set up, but I'm also morbidly curious as to how (or, more hopefully, if) he kicked the bucket. Can't imagine many people in the world are capable of such a feat.

Beautifully written; I love this story so far.

The plot is really creative, with Gon's mysterious death and the disappearance of Nanika. I'm really curious to see who the hooded figure is since they'd have to be crazy strong to have scared Killua before like that. And you mentioned that it was someone Killua recognized, so the suspense is really high right now. :)

I'd also like to see why Gon grew so distant over the years and what made him busy enough to stop contacting Killua. It's obviously bothering Killua a lot and I'm sure that there's a good reason for it, though I don't have any speculations at the moment. Hmm.

This is a refreshing change to all the repetitive HxH stories out there. Your writing style is really nice and I can't wait to read more!

Omg, that chapter was so sad ;A; I really loved the way you wrote Killua's delayed reaction to Gon's death. It was really powerful. You depicted really well the mess of emotions, the anger, the sorrow, and the emptiness, the ugly feelings that make you so human. That was a very strong scene.

Now, on more technical matters, I thought it was cool how you developped Killua's ability! How he could control electric devices. It's a really cool idea, and I'm all for Killua developping his ability and coming up with new tricks.

Good job!