A/N: I'm taking it as no, no one wants to beta? Here's another reminder, message me if interested.

Get Scared- Cynical Skin

Look, oh, look around - you're lost
but never found, no.
6 feet below the ground,
where you avoid your problems.

CPOV:

I can't believe I just told him all that. All of it. Magnus had calmly listened to all of it, only nodding occasionally. And that was probably for the best. Had he interrupted me, there was a good chance I may have not been able to start again.

"I'm very glad we got you out of there," Magnus says, once he had assessed I was done. "But what I don't understand is, where was your Mom in all this? She's so protective of you, if you can't tell from the secret she had hidden. How has she not noticed?" "I haven't said anything," I bite my lip. "She's busy, with her art and stuff. Luke never seemed like that kind of man before he moved in with us. There's no reason for her to suspect anything. She does kind of notice the weight loss, but I'm a teenager. Teenagers go on fad diets all the time."

Magnus shakes his head, looking me up and down. "Yes. That is another issue, your weight. It's a good thing Alexander and the blonde one went for food, you need some." My cheeks go red and I squirm a little. Would I even be able to eat Japanese food after all this time? And speaking of Alec ,even as skinny as I am, I'm kind of scared eating any of the food would be wrong as he obviously needs it more than I did.. I shake my head and quickly change the subject. I don't want to talk about this anymore. I've told him everything. And there was a more immediate problem at the moment anyway. Simon. My breathing falters.

"There's something.." I take a deep breath, trying to stay calm. "I need your help. I just.. I would never know where to start looking and there's so much I still don't understand. I couldn't fight him if I tried and I seem to have a hard time seeing whoever took Simon which causes a bit of a problem. I just don't know what to do-" "Clary," Magnus interrupts, looking a little alarmed at the rather abrubt change of subject.. "Take a breath okay. What happened? Who's Sheldon?" "Simon. My best friend," I pull at my shirt anxiously. I don't even know how I've sat still this long. I had forced him out of my mind during Magnus and mine's conversation, knowing I needed to know this stuff and that Magnus would not have told me without me telling him about me.

"Simon and me, we were at the park when Luke showed up. He grabbed me and something invisble, at least at first, grabbed Simon. It was a man, with pointed ears? Luke knew him though and he said if I didn't come with him he'd kill Simon.. Now that Luke is gone.. And I'm not with him.." I could barely breath.

Magnus nods, thinking. Luke could not have gotten to far. "I'll take care of Luke. As for Simon.. It may take some time to find him, but if we trap Luke it will buy us time." I open my mouth to ask how he would manage to trap Luke, but he is already walking away with the phone to his ear. "Caterina-" Is all I hear.

APOV:

"What do you mean you don't want anything?" Jace exclaims, right in front of the cashier. "You haven't eaten anything today Alec. You're becoming a skeleton." I blush as the werewolf girl taps the cash register, watching us impatiently. "I'm just not hungry. Get the food and let's go." Jace glares, but pays the girl. We walk out and I can tell Jace is not done with the subject.

"Dude," he stops. "What's been up with you lately? You barely eat and you don't ever want to do anything. Like.. Is there something I don't know?" His eyebrows furrow. "Is it a guy? Did you guys break up-"I freeze. "J-Jace!" I interrupt, staring at him in shock. "I-I-" I search for the words to get out of this as my Parabati smirks. "Don't even try," Jace rolls his eyes. "I know okay. I'm not completely blind you know." I bite my lip. I don't think I scream gay, do I? Definitly not in the way Magnus does. That's one thing my father doesn't know thank the Angel.

"No," I finally say, sighing. "It's not a guy." Cause no guy wants the depressed and closted Shadowhunter. "I've just been really tired okay. Don't worry about it." Jace's golden eyes bore into me in a few moments of silence, assesing me I assume. "Fine," He scratches the back of his neck. "Okay." I nod and go to walk away, holding the food clutched tightly in my hand, just relieved he believed me. "Wait," He grabs my arm and I hold back a hiss of pain, very disappointed I didn't get away. My arm stings horribly where Jace's hand held tightly You could say I am very thorough.

"Earlier, when I kept you from leaving at Magnus'? It looked like I hurt you when I grabbed you. Do you need an Iratze man? Why didn't you just do one yous-" "I'm not hurt," I interrupt him, pulling away. I hope my fear isn't plastered all over my face like I think it is. "God Jace, stop worrying," I put on a false grin. "You just surprised me is all." Jace isnt falling for it as he narrows his eyes.

"Alec. I am very offended." "What?" I asks, confused by his wording. "You're lying. You always do this when you're hurt, by the Angel Alec, is there demon poison in it?" Before I can stop him, he grabs my arm and pulls my sleeve up. We both freeze, me from terror and him from shock.

As I said, I am thorough. Cuts and scars lined not only my forearm, but everywhere. Dark red, some jagged, all deep. The marks of someone who's angry and sad. "A-Alec? What the hell?" I yank back, backing away slowly as I pull my sleeve back down over my mutilated arm. "Those arn't from a d-demon, are they?"

I just stare at him. No. I am not having this conversation, not now, not ever. It's my body and my choice. If I don't want to eat, I don't have to. If I want to cut, I can. I'm fine. I'm just coping with a situation I never asked for. And Jace would try to stop me. I don't know if I could take that."We're not talking about this," I swallow a little nervously as I try to keep my voice from wavering. "Yes the fuck we ar-" "Jace. We need to get back to Magnus'. I'm an adult and I can do as I please. Now. Let's go." My words hang between us, not quite getting through Jace's head. Jace looks furious as he moves forward so we're almost chest to chest.

I see a million ideas flash through Jace's eyes as he decides what he's going to say to me. But I don't give him the chance. I just walk around him, starting back towards the sparkily warlock's apartment.

A/N: So. Should I even try to apologize for my lack of updates and for how short and filliery this chapter is? No. You don't forgive me? Okay. Then I will apoligize for how much this chapter sucks. I'm sorry. It had to happen