I Followed Her, and She Lead Me to You

A.N.: This is a little plot that entered my head after I read a whole heap of Jasper/Bella fics in the past month but became really annoyed with how most of them happened. I only read one or two really good ones where Alice wasn't trying to kill Bella, or had cheated on Jasper, or anything else that seemed really out of character of her, or where Edward wasn't the world's biggest douche-canoe or had an Alice/Edward pairing. I just find that weird, and I don't particularly like reading it. I read one where it started as a Jasper/Alice story and then mystic soul mate stuff happened and there was Jasper/Bella, but while I liked this in theory (and have that sort of thing happen here) there were other aspects of the story I didn't enjoy. So here is my version of what would happen if Jasper/Bella was a thing.

No Alice hate, very little Edward hate, and a story of true soul mates.

Starts as Twilight in Jasper's POV, but with a few key differences and leads to Jasper/Bella.

Sorry for the long note.

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Preface

All beings that roam the Earth are simply a soul that possess a body. Not all souls are equal, and in a similar way not all bodies are equal. Some souls are capable of extreme evil, and others not. Some souls are raised in a way that they commit grievous wrong doings and yet never turn truly evil because they are capable of remorse and repair for their wrong doings. The evil souls are always evil as there is no remorse and these beings are often the worst of the criminals that have no value for life, no matter the species of the body.

But all souls have one true equal. Some are lucky enough to meet them in their time on the Earth, and others not. The truly good souls will meet their match, the evil ones will never. A good soul has a soul mate and will love this soul mate above all other souls on this Earth although the love comes in different forms. A soul mate may be a soul's child they will care for above all else, it may be the closest of friends that can never be parted, or twins who almost share one soul between two bodies, or the most famous of soul mates; the most perfect of lovers. These soul mates are the rarest, but the bond is something that can never be denied or ignored or defeated.

Two souls may be in possession of bodies that are not equal, but these two souls will both be aware of their equal, even if one is aware sooner or more acutely than the other, and these souls in unequal bodies will search for a way in which to become truly equal so nothing can separate them. If these souls ever accomplish this they will become inseparable- not in the way that the two bodies can never be apart- but in the way that nothing can ever come between the souls. A union of such strength would be truly unbreakable for all eternity, the souls remaining together even after the death of the body. For that is all that death is; the destruction of the vessel the soul resides in, a soul continues forever as a force that can remain indefinitely, in memories, objects left behind from the life of the body, or after seeking out a new body and continuing life although these souls may again need to begin the search for their soul mate.

Chapter 1

"….so lucky I found you…"

"Wouldn't want to be without you!"

"I thought I would end up alone."

Yeah, fuck off thank you very much. You humans are pathetic. Always worried about being alone when you really didn't know what being alone truly felt like. I had been alone since I was changed in 1863. Eighty five fucking years of loneliness. Of course I wasn't physically alone, there was always someone there, usually Maria, but I never made emotional connections with other vampires.

Except Peter that is. He was like a bother to me after he was changed half a century after I was, he was an ex-soldier to, from the First World War, and drafted into a new war we wanted nothing to do with but were told it was how life was for us now. We were naïve enough to think that was the only life. Of course I liked to have him around, but it wasn't right, or not what I needed rather. My inner animal was seeking something else. A mate. My soul mate. Supposedly all vampires had them, they just needed to find them.

I first got a taste for that kind of relationship when Peter ran away with Charlotte in 1933, and the brief instant I felt their emotions was like I saw the sun for the first time. I could name what I was searching for, yet I couldn't find it. It drew my attention to the dark depression I felt when I was around Maria and the armies of newborns. I couldn't find my mate but at least I knew what I was searching for now. When Peter and Charlotte came back for me in 1938, I was drawn to their emotions, it was like an addiction. And like an addiction it was unhealthy that I was so dependent on how others around me felt. I only stayed with my brother and the woman I came to love as a sister for about three years before I began life as a solitary nomad.

I kept sinking back into the uncontrollable depression I felt with Maria and it worsened with every human life I ended. I hated that I was ending all of these lives simply to prolong my own miserable existence. Yet I couldn't find it within myself to take matters into my own hands and actually end it. First I considered handing myself over to the Volturi and claiming I was responsible for so much carnage in the South, but I wasn't; not compared to any of the others, if anything I did the Volturi favours by destroying so many other fighters in the wars. Then I considered seeking out an old rival and egging them on until they attacked. But that wasn't how I wanted to die. Dead in a fight? Jasper Whitlock, killed in a fight? No, no one would believe it, I had a reputation after all. One time after a particularly bad night hunting where I forced someone to watch as I killed their loved one before turning on them I even lit a fire and nearly jumped in it. I was a coward though. Too scared to even set myself on fire. Too afraid of the pain.

So here I was, on a miserably rainy day in Philadelphia, hiding in the back of a diner to avoid attracting attention from standing out in the rain. It was safer in here because people wouldn't ask questions about what I was doing in the rain, but I hadn't fed in quite a few days and it was very dangerous for the people in here. One moment of misjudgement and I could snap, killing half of them before the other half even took another breath.

The door of the diner opened and blew a gust of wind straight into my face and out of reflex I took a deep breath. It was a natural reaction for a vampire, air moves around your face and you breathe it in to assess any potential threats or meals in the vicinity. As I continued my breath in, I smelt it. Vampire. My head snapped up too fast for in front of humans, and I looked to the entrance.

She was tiny, childlike, but obviously not an uncontrollable immortal child, and even more beautiful than any other woman I has seen in my life. Her short black hair was a spiky halo in the dim diner lights and her features were angelic as she approached me, her emotions calm and happy; assuring me she was not going to attack. Not that she would get far if she attacked me anyway.

"I've been waiting a long time for you." Her bell like voice carried towards me cutting through the dull human conversations about their pathetic ideas of loneliness.

Like a good, southern gentleman a bowed my head and replied, "I'm sorry for that ma'am." And she held her small, childlike hand out for me to take and I followed her out of the diner and into the rain I had been avoiding all morning.

I don't know what possessed me to trust her so much, I never trusted anyone so quickly. She could have lead me anywhere or to anyone and I would have probably happily followed her. I didn't think she was my mate, I could feel we had a connection, but not like the one I could feel between mated couples. Maybe that came later?

"We aren't mates, merely companions on a journey towards our family and eventually our mates." She told me as if answering my internal questions. Did I speak out loud? "No, you didn't ask me, but you unconsciously decided to which is why I saw it. I can see the future you know. Not all of it, and it changes frequently. But I see the current outcome of our current path."

If anyone else had told me that I would have called them crazy and left immediately before they could do anything crazy to me. But not this little pixie of a woman. I didn't even know her name yet and I already felt an immense amount of trust towards her.

"I'm Alice, by the way. Or at least that's who I think I am, I don't have any memories of my human life, but when I woke up I found a tiny little piece of ripped paper next to me that said 'Alice' so I assume it was some sort of ID." She spoke faster than anyone I'd ever met, human or vampire.

"It's lovely to meet you Alice, I'm Jasper Whitlock. I was-" she interrupted me.

"A major in the Confederate Army, and then an important player in the recent southern wars. I know, I saw this conversation." That was strange and I don't know if I entirely like having her know everything about me.

"So you have seen my past?"

"Of course not, I only see the future," She sounded a little exasperated as she explained this, as if I should already know. Although she did already tell me she saw the future, "I did see you telling me about your past though. You don't have to go through the pain of reliving it for me. Today is the beginning of your new forever, you never have to go back to that again."

I was so relieved I didn't need to tell her. She just knew and not only that but she knew of the toll it took on me and the pain I felt in reliving it. I was so happy and caught up in her positive attitude that I pulled her into a tight hug.

I hadn't felt a hug so full of love and positivity in my memory that the feelings nearly floored me.

"Come on soldier, I have an apartment nearby where we can get out of the rain and talk." So I followed her. First to her apartment, and later across the country over the next two years to find this illusive family she said we were a part of.

…..

By the time we caught up with them in Tennessee Alice and I knew everything there was to know about each other and she brought me out of my depressive shell to show me a new life. I admit the new diet was difficult, and I slipped more than a few times but every time I did she was there for me, comforting me, and helping me see what I needed to do in the future to avoid more mistakes. Each day we grew a little closer and a month after she found me in that diner I knew I had feelings for her, and she did for me as well.

Six months after Alice found me we were a couple, even if we both knew it was only temporary, we couldn't face the idea of not being together for now. Alice explained to me that she couldn't see our mates yet because when we met them they would be very young compared to us, and even their parents had yet to be born which left a lot of things up to chance, and people's decisions, at this point. And because our mates didn't yet exist there was no pull towards them leaving us free to be with whoever we wanted. And I wanted Alice. And Alice wanted me. It was another six months before I proposed to her on a whim to avoid her seeing it exactly. I didn't have a ring or anything, just words which I thought of as I said them, but I was thrilled when she accepted. I took her shopping for a ring later that day.

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The Cullen family welcomed us with open arms once we proved why we were there which was easy after Edward and Emmett came home from hunting and Edward could read our minds. But we pissed Edward off a bit as Alice moved all of his things out of his room and put our stuff in there. Her reasoning was that he was the only single person in the family and therefore only needed the smallest room. Her real reason was his room had the best view and the largest closet. I had very quickly come to see Alice loved shopping and fashion. It was difficult at first to afford and we had to steal more than a few things, but a few smart investments later and we had more cash than we knew what to do with.

I was able to stick to the new 'vegetarian' diet, as everyone called it, once we settled in with the Cullen's. Part of it I suspect was my fear they would kick me out if I strayed, but after speaking to both Edward and Emmett about their pasts I knew they would only be disappointed but not angry. I suspect the real reason I was able to do so well with the diet was because they were all so supportive. No one hunted alone, generally, and this helped because if I wondered on to the path of some poor lost human I had other people helping me to resist the temptation. I still slipped a little, but I am happy to say that on a horribly overcast day, November the eighteenth 1950, I married Alice with light, golden eyes. That achievement really cemented in my brain that there was a reason I trying so hard to stick with this. I was doing it for Alice, and our future together and my future mate.

Our wedding was small, just us and the rest of the family, Peter and Charlotte, in a small church with the pastor. Alice wore the most elegant white gown I have ever seen, floor length and slim fitting with her shoulders bare and long lace sleeves covered in tiny clear beads and white pearls. She made the dress herself with the help of both Rosalie and Esmé as she couldn't find anything that matched her idea of perfection. Rosalie stood with her as her matron of honour, and Peter stood with me as my best man. I had bonded with both Edward and Emmett, but I was closer to Emmett as he was much more emotionally mature and not such a chore to be around as Edward. He was like an annoying little brother. But Peter was my first brother. Peter and I wore simple black suits and white shirts, matching except for his tie that was blue to match Rosalie's simple dress, while my tie was black. After the ceremony we returned home and danced, and took countless photos before everyone changed and we went on a celebratory hunt before I whisked Alice away for our honeymoon in a nearby cabin I had found. It wasn't the most luxurious place I could have taken her and I was worried it wouldn't be good enough for her, but it gave us privacy to be us and do whatever we wanted without worrying about people, whether vampire or human, finding us.

Marriage to Alice was bliss. I knew I was addicted to her emotions and the state of pure happiness that existed around her but I couldn't face the thought of leaving this addiction because I loved her with all of my heart. Just seeing her was nearly enough to make me blush and my palms sweat and my knees tremble. Of course I knew none of this was actually possible for me being a vampire and all, but I felt jittery around her. And content. For the first time in almost a century I felt content with how everything was and where I was in the world. Even though Alice had told me this wasn't permanent I couldn't help but think she must be mistaken and we truly were destined to be together.

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