This is the first fanfiction I ever wrote. I always loved Star Wars and its universe, but more than that, the characters relationships. In this fiction I write about how I imagine how it would be the romantic relationship between Ahsoka and Anakin; probably one of my favorites pairings.

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This chapter was revised on 08/2018.

Chapter 1

Love has been present in almost everyone's life, and each has given a different meaning to it. But what most people usually tend to agree is that it is one of the most beautiful sentiments involving two different individuals.

In the Jedi order, love has always been considerate the path to the dark side, the way where strong attachments are formed and with it, the mind of a Jedi becomes clouded and propense to fail when making decisions. Because of that, their code forbade attachments, marriage and any form of a bond as family and romantic. Though, for them, this did not mean the absence of compassion as all life is precious.

Anakin Skywalker, from childhood to his glory days serving the republic, have been more than the chosen one, but a light of hope for those who lived in the darkest days of a cold and bloodied war. But, he has secrets. He loved Padmé, to the point where they decided to marry in secret and believed that this sentiment was to last for the end of their times.

A relationship that prevailed for a long time, until the clone wars erupted. Forced to expend his time leading troops of soldiers and making strategies, in time, both had distanced themselves from each other offering their time to their obligations. Anakin had now even more worries, as he had received the responsibility of teaching, training, a Jedi Padawan, Ahsoka Tano.

Eventually, their relationship comes to an end, and a door for a new one opens.

"Master, you have been distant these past days… Is something wrong?" asked a worried Ahsoka Tano to Anakin, her Jedi Master.

"Everything is fine, Snips, there's nothing wrong, and I'm just a little tired."

"I find this hard to believe, Master!" Ahsoka protested. "I can feel through the Force, you seem sad and… lost."

A statement that pierced Anakin as thorns. He knew loss very well, first by his mother's death, then the love he and Senator Amidala once shared, was over. Pain started to consume his being, perhaps even darkness.

"Ahsoka, I'm ok!" Anakin said, then turns to face his Padawan. "There is nothing to worry about, please, just trust me."

"You that don't trust me, isn't it?" Ahsoka turns to face the door in their quarters. "When you decide I am to be trusted, call me."

"Snips it's not that I don't…" Before he could finish the sentence, Ahsoka had left the room, and Anakin sighed, and his eyelids fell, disappointed with himself. He then sat in his bed.

Their relationship started long ago, on the battlefield, where a teenager with that seems to have a snippy attitude, was assigned to be his Padawan. At first, it was merely a master and apprentice relationship that later developed into something as brother and sister. What Anakin couldn't control, is that those feelings were much more significant, as she got closer to adulthood with a more mature behavior and their knowledge for each other grow, so his love for her did.

"I am so sorry, Ahsoka…" Anakin whispered to himself. "I wish it were easy, to just love you without consequences, and without the feeling of losing someone once again." he said, then looking to her empty bed, "Such strong mind and defiance, such sense of compassion for others... how many times I almost lost you. Maybe it was best if there was a wall between us."

Ahsoka was disappointed, she could not be fooled by mere words, she knew something was wrong, and all she wanted was to help her master, to be a pillar so he could not fall to a place where would be impossible to anyone be able to reach.

"Stupid Skyguy, always saw me as a child, always saw me as someone incapable of helping others, after everything," Ahsoka mumbled, as she walked fast and stomping hard until reaching the courtyard.

Padawans were training there in the open with the presence of Jedi masters. She decided to sit there, in the distance, a peaceful sight so she could relax and think about everything regarding her master.

"I just want to see you happy…" She whispered to herself. "I want you to see me as something more than your mere Padawan, can't you trust me? Please, I love…" Ahsoka stopped her mumbling abruptly, realizing what she was about to say.

"Can't be… Do I really feel that way?!" Ahsoka asked herself. Realizing that she was in love with Anakin, that her frustration was the result of this feeling present in her heart longer than she could ever notice.

"So that's what I am feeling, love… I'm frustrated about not being able to sustain the one I've been loving, and now, all I see is his painful state." Ahsoka said while lowering her head and closing her eyes, hoping that eventually, she would finally be there for Anakin.

A hand touched Ahsoka's shoulder, which startled her a little, and then she turned to see who it was next to her.

"Had another argument with Anakin, young Padawan?" Obi-Wan asked, with a slight and gentle smile.

"Master Kenobi!" Ahsoka said surprised. "It's more than that, I feel that something is troubling him a lot and… It seems that I'm unable to reach him every time I try."

"Anakin has always been someone who locks his thoughts to himself, maybe to not worry others he cares about," Obi-Wan said in a reassuring tone, trying to calm the troubled mind of his dear friend.

"I'm sure he is ok. But even so, if you feel that something is truly wrong with him, don't give up our friend then!" Obi-wan stated, as he turns and starts to walk away. "Give a little push, it can't hurt I'm sure."

Ahsoka then stands up abruptly and with a little more confidence, says "Thank you, Master Kenobi! You're right, I can't stay here feeling sorry and just give up on trying…"

After saying that, realizing that she couldn't just give up, rushed back to their quarters, to confront her master and to also make them enter each other's hearts.

Anakin was still in bed with glooming eyes and reflecting on his past events, his losses, when the door opens, and a severe-looking Ahsoka enters the room, her brows knitted together and piercing eyes.

"I don't care if it's hard for you to talk, what I do care is what you are feeling right now, and it is making me worry, so… so much!" Ahsoka said in an angry but also worried tone. "So, speak, Anakin Skywalker, tell me why you feel so distant and what saddens you?"

Anakin was surprised at the sight of this Ahsoka, she was distraught and determinate to reach the truth, at first putting a soft grin.

He sighed and extended his hand to the bed in front of him, instructing Ahsoka to sit. He had decided to open himself to her. Then she sat.

"As a child, all I had was my mother. Among the horrors committed by those that surrounded us, things so low and hard to imagine any being committing, I had a guardian angel who loved me with her whole heart." Anakin had started his outburst. "One day, master Qui-Gon had appeared, a Jedi, I was happy than ever. He tested me, and find out I was powerful, the Force was strong inside me, and from that moment on I became the Chosen One for the Order."

Ahsoka began to feel some relief that her master was finally opening himself to her, and that filled her heart with joy and that her love for him was growing, even if something so simple as that was the reason, she didn't care anymore.

"Becoming the chosen one and been able to train as a Jedi made my mother's heart happier than ever, I could sense it, this was my chance to walk away from a life of slavery and servitude. But that also meant that I had to walk away from her as well."

Anakin stands from the bed and walks towards the window, the worst had to be said.

"A few years ago, I find out my mother was still alive, and that made me so, so much happy, even if it goes against the Jedi code to form attachments with family, I had to go and see her for myself, show her the man I've become. But… All I found was a broken woman, who had been captured by the sand people, taken away from her new family, formed by good and honest people."

Anakin then turns to Ahsoka, who was looking at her master directly in the eyes, he had changed to an angry looking as he glowered.

"What they did to her… I was devastated, all that training and power couldn't save my mother, the sand people just destroyed her. And I hated them for it! So, in the act of revenge, I slaughtered all of them like animals, including the women and the children."

Ahsoka had widened her eyes, and her jaw fell by the words she just heard, she didn't know how to react to that. However, she knew that part of him was broken, she started to understand his reasons to lock those feelings, a way to prevent more people from getting into his life and then not being able to save them.

"Since this damn war started, all I have seen was pain and suffering. The others lie to themselves that everything will be ok, but I know otherwise, I'm losing friends after another and growing feelings inside me that scares my very being, afraid of more losses." Anakin explained, sitting once more on his bed, somehow feeling a little better for opening up and revealing what was hiding inside his heart.

"Anakin… I… didn't know." Ahsoka said, struggling not to start crying. She then stands and walks towards her dear love and with both hands gently holds his cheeks, making him look directly in her eyes.

In his gentle and blue eyes Ahsoka felt the pain and wanted to comfort him, to kiss him and make him hers, but she was also afraid that her master didn't saw her the same way.

Ahsoka closes her eyes and brings her face close to him. Their foreheads touch, and she says, "Everything will be okay, I will never leave you…"

Somehow, some of the weigh on Anakin's back has been lifted just with those words.

Disclaimer,

This is a work of fan fiction that uses characters, information, names and most elements from the universe of 'Star Wars' that is an exclusive property of 'Lucasfilm Ltd.' and 'Walt Disney Company.' They don't belong to official canon, and the stories and situations I create are either the project of my imagination or a reinterpretation of an existing scene. They don't belong to me, nor I have any kind of revenue over it with the sole purpose of entertainment.

I'm grateful for the 'Lucasfilms' and George Lucas for the Star Wars Universe and to make this and other fanfictions possible.