The Very Secret Diary of Lucius Malfoy

Chapter 1

September 2, 1973

Dear Journal,

Today was the day that we headed back to Hogwarts. My final year, I'm so glad. Finally away from those unworthy half bloods and Mudbloods. I sat with Severus on the train. At least he's sane.

About an hour into the journey, I went to the back of the train to change into my robes. While I was changing, someone wrapped his or her arms around my waist. It was Narcissa.

I respect Narcissa's family because they are one of the oldest purebloods, but Narcissa has been stalking me ever since first year. To say the least, I really disliked her.

" You look handsome without your shirt, Mr. Malfoy." Narcissa said.

" I wish I could say the same for you." I replied coldly.

" That's rude. That's no way to talk to your future wife." Narcissa said with a sly smile.

I grew angry with this. I yanked her arms off; making her hit the nearby wall.

" It would be shame to my family name if married to the likes of you!" I snarled. Even if Narcissa's family is one the oldest, they have a lot of skeletons in the closet.

Narcissa glared at me and stormed off. I was about to put my shirt on when I heard, " Must be hard, handling a bitch like that."

I quickly turned to the door. It was Sirius Black.

" Why does this concern you?" I asked. Truth as it is, he was the only one in Potter's group I could tolerate.

" Just does." Sirius said with a shrug.

" What does that mean?" I asked in a low tone. I was in the middle of putting on my shirt when I felt strong arms wrap around my waist. I tried to move, but my arms were pinned by my shirt. I turned my head and realized how much taller he was to me. My face reached his neck.

" Means this," Sirius whispered in my ear, making me shiver. Suddenly his mouth was on the crook of my neck, biting it. I yelped, startled. I tried getting away, but it only made him bite harder.

When he did let go, I managed to completely put on my shirt and back into the wall. I covered my neck with my hand.

" Just a reminder." Sirius said and left.

I made sure that he left before I looked in the mirror. Where he bit me was a small but noticeable mark.

He left me a hickey! I thought angrily. I quickly changed into my robes and headed back to the compartment. Thank goodness my hair covered the mark. When I arrived at the compartment, Severus was heading out. I sat down and stared out the window. A while later, the food trolley came by and I got food for Severus and me.

When Severus came back, he looked…disturbed and confused.

" What's wrong?" I asked.

" What?" Severus replied in surprise.

" What's wrong?" I repeated.

" Nothing." He grunted as he sat down. I decided not to press him.

Lucius

September 9, 1973

Dear Journal,

A week has passed at Hogwarts. We haven't gotten our schedules yet. I've been trying to avoid Sirius as much as possible. I haven't been able to figure out why he did that. It's been nagging me nonstop.

Severus has been distracted as well. Probably because of Potter.

After lunch, since we didn't have anything to do, I walked outside. Everything was quiet until Sirius ran up to me. I tried to ignore him.

" I know you can hear me." Sirius said. I continued to walk. He then stood in front of me, forcing me to stop.

" What do you want?" I asked. He stared at me for several moments. I waited patiently.

" I was wondering if Narcissa was still bothering you," Sirius said coolly.

" Since when did my personal life matter to you, Sirius?" I asked. He suddenly backed me up against a nearby wall. His body was right up against mine, almost tightly. My temperature rose at our close contact. I tried to regulate my breathing.

" Well?" I asked. I was almost gasping. Too close!

He leaned close to my face, mere inches away. " I'm only curious." He replied in a husky voice.

" When did this happen?" I asked. I was surprised at my own husky voice.

Sirius leaned closer, his lips almost touching mine. My heart was pounding hard in my chest. I was sure he could feel it.

" Recently." Sirius muttered, his lips brushing against mine. He then backed away and walked off like nothing happened.

I remained in my spot, stunned. What's going on?

Lucius

September 12, 1973

Dear Journal,

Classes started today. Lockhart followed Severus around today. It was sad but funny. Lockhart has had a crush on Severus since day one. The sad thing is that he's disgracing Slytherin. How a squib got into Slytherin is beyond us. The Sorting Hat must have had a bad headache or something.

His parents must've been involved for him to be in NEWT level classes. Severus and I have classes together. Sadly, Potter and his group are also in our classes. Sirius doesn't sit with me, but I can feel his eyes on me. I'm sort of nervous about this year.

Lucius

September 13, 1973

Dear Journal,

Today was the Quidditch tryouts. Severus and I didn't really need to tryout. I was appointed Seeker and Severus Beater. Severus watched the rest of the tryouts while I went inside.

After dinner, Gryffindor had their first practice. Severus and I snuck out to watch. For some reason, Severus wanted to watch it badly.

They were taking a break when Sirius came up. I was trying to tell Severus something when Sirius interrupted.

" I'm surprised to see you here, Lucius." Sirius said.

" I'm surprised that you even made the team." I sneered.

" No need to be hostile with me, Lucius." Sirius said.

" Why should I trust you?" I asked, narrowing my eyes.

" Because I ca do this." Sirius said. As soon as he said that, he came up close to me and kissed me! I was in shock for a moment, but as soon as I came to my senses, I pushed him away.

He actually looked amused! I glared at him and quickly left. I don't know what to do now.

Lucius

September 15, 1973

Dear Journal,

There are rumors about Sirius and me and what happened at the Gryffindor practice. It spread like wildfire. I tried to avoid Sirius almost to the point of being paranoid. After my last class, I looked around the grounds to do my homework.

On the far side of the grounds, near the Forbidden Forest, was a rather large tree. I searched around it to make sure nobody was around. I came upon a large hole that led into the tree. It faced towards the Forest.

I placed my stuff down and examined the inside of the tree. It was hollow and very wide, almost like a cave. Satisfied, I crawled into the hole and began my homework.

An hour or so passed when I felt being watched. I glanced at the entrance and paled. Sirius sat there calmly. I tried to remain calm, but I knew I was trapped.

" Mind if I joined you?" Sirius asked with his usual smirk. I glared at him and started to pack my stuff. He grabbed my wrists, forcing me to stop.

" Let go." I growled. I tried yanking my wrists free, but I couldn't.

" Listen-" Sirius began.

" Let me go." I growled again. I didn't want to be here with him.

" Lucius-" Sirius began again.

" I said let me go." I snarled. I started to struggle. Sirius held on firmly and I was eventually pinned against the tree. " Let go of me now." I demanded with a glare.

Sirius looked at me with an odd look. I looked away. The look was unnerving. I felt him move closer, our bodies pressed against each other. My body temperature spiked, making me almost pant. I felt his breath on my neck. I jumped slightly.

" You're beautiful, Lucius." Sirius whispered in my ear.

Surprised and slightly shocked, I looked at him. I examined his face. He looked serious.

" Is this some type of joke?" I asked.

" No. I'm serious." Sirius said, his voice deep.

" How do I know that?" I asked.

He slowly leaned towards me. I didn't know what he was doing. He was barely an inch away from my lips.

" This..is how serious I am." Sirius said huskily. Then his lips were on mine. I almost didn't realize it until he applied more pressure. I froze. Gently, Sirius pulled back.

I instinctively ran my tongue over my lips. The taste was sweet and tangy. Sirius lowered my wrists. I let them go limp. I was entranced with his eyes. I never realized until now how deep and understanding they were. Sirius leaned to kiss me again. I surprised myself by meeting him halfway.

Our lips moved sensually and I stopped myself from moaning out loud. Something rough and slick touched my bottom lip and I pulled away, confused. Sirius let go of my wrists and placed his hands near my hips.

" I won't hurt you.." Sirius murmured. Swallowing my sudden nervousness, I held onto his shoulders. He kissed me again, this time his tongue made it into my mouth. My face instantly flushed from the intense kiss. It heated up more when Sirius moved up against me.

I moaned when he rubbed against me. I couldn't help it. Somehow, I ended up on my back with Sirius on top of me. I ran my fingers through his silky, dark hair. He moaned as I did this. We broke the kiss for air, panting heavily.

I didn't realize how intense that kiss was.

" So..What does this mean?" I asked, still panting.

" I really like you?" Sirius said, his face near his mark on my neck.

" Besides that." I said.

" We're going out?" Sirius asked.

" Well…is it truly going out or am I just a toy?" I asked.

" Do you want to try it?" Sirius asked. He sat up and looked at me.

I thought on it. Do I really want to go out with my enemy? I knew that he was attractive; half of the Slytherin girls and a fourth of the guys had a crush on him. Maybe this could be an advantage..

" Okay." I said.

" You're okay with that? Being my boyfriend?" Sirius questioned. I noticed a slight rise of excitement in his voice on 'my'.

" I guess." I said truthfully. Sirius then gave me a true smile. He gently kissed me and helped me up. I reached for my books, but Sirius wouldn't have it. I sighed and then smile a little.

Maybe this won't be so bad.

Lucius