Title: The Reason

Author: Not An Infant

Rating: K

Summary: Brennan wants the reason.

Disclaimer: I captured Parker one day, so yeah, he's in the basement with everyone else. YAY!.......

A/N: Just a lil drabble, my friends. Enjoy!

The boat begins its slow journey on the waves of blue. My hand grips at my pant-leg as I stand on the deck, a lone figure in black, surrounded by the sea. The boat starts diminishing into the sky ahead as I continue to watch it I raise my hand in front of my face so i can keep sight of the boat, right until it fades into naught but a dot in the horizon.

I need the reason; why I chose to decline what could have been the best year of my life...why I could not see him with me for the rest of my life...why when he tried to pull me out of work, it felt wrong...why when he waves goodbye, sailing away on the Teperance, I feel no desperate change of mind. Running backwards through out memories, finding glitches in every one, spotting moments that foreshadowed the end, I can see that maybe I was never meant to board that boat with him. I could never have enjoyed the freedoms that he craves; I want to work. He does not know what he wants. but that is what has always attracted me to him; unlike most men I've known, he soared over the world of possibilities. I love his free spirit. I meant what I said to him: "You are worth the risk."

I sigh, staring out into the open sea. Despite these small revelations how, I didn't feel them when I said no to him, and at this moment, I still can't find why I can't tear myself away from where I have cried, bruised, screamed, bled, and sweated for so long.

I turn around, turning my back on what could have been, wracking my brains for the reason--

"What are you doing here?"

"Waving goodbye..."

And there it is.

A/N: I know she felt SOMETHING when she saw a friend who was still there with her right after saying goodbye to her lover. Don't you agree with me? :) Reviews are quite appreciated.