Wow! Really powerful stuff! It's so incredibly written, and I'm definitely reccomending your work and I'm certainly going to read your other stuff! Incredible! You had me on the verge of tears the whole time! Don't stop writing, love, you're soo talented!

Ugh so apparently I wasn't logged in for the other review, either. STUPID TIME OUT THING. I WAS LOGGED IN WHEN I STARTED. Anyway, I'm sure you guessed, but that last review was supposed to be from WyszLo. So is this one. Ugh whatever. It's me.

Right, so I got caught off. From here, then:

I can't totally see why Logan thought it was Kendall, too. I mean, how many times have you had Kendall wake up Logan from a nightmare with that exact line, "Buddy, wake up"? James WAS doing exactly what Kendall would... and that's why it's so horrible, because everything James could possible do will never be enough for Logan. James can't be Kendall, and that breaks my heart because I know it breaks James'.

15. "Logan stopped crying and looked up at James, hardly seeing his face in the darkness. "James," he said softly. "You're not Kendall, but you're doing a really good job of holding us together. Kendall would be so proud of you. He will be proud of you when he wakes up." Leave it Logan to pin point EXACTLY what's wrong with James even in his current state. Only Logan. Remember I said in my other review that Logan's always been hyper-sensitive to James? See!

16. "Jay," Logan began. "Do you really think that Kendall feels strong when he's helping us through something? Do you really think that he doesn't fall apart on the inside when something goes really wrong?" Very true, as evidenced by his LH breakdown.

17. "Katie refused to talk to anyone except Kendall when they were at the hospital. She let James hold her until she cried herself to sleep every night, but he could tell that all she wanted was for her big brother to be holding her." Oh my gosh. I loved that.

18. "Mom finally stopped crying every time she sees him and Carlos and Katie finally stopped gluing themselves to me." "Logan's still sleeping on your floor," James said, trying to get the focus off himself." Oh Logie-bear. Loved loved loved loved this. He would.

19. "Logan told me that you were the only one who kept him from going insane," Kendall informed James. "I know how you feel, James. Being the leader isn't about being in charge and all together even when everyone else is falling apart. Being the leader is letting go of what you're scared of, all of your problems, so you can be there for others. From what Logan told me, that's what you did. You were still really scared and upset, but you put your feelings after everyone else." Leave it to Logan to loyally report just how fantastic James had been. James really was fantastic, too.

I LOVED LOVED LOVED LOVED THIS! FANTASTIC JOB!

~Lauren

Ahhh look who is FINALLY finishing her catching up!

Here we go:

1. "Also, thanks so much to Lauren for helping me brainstorm the idea." Haha I actually forgot that I came up with it.

2. "James was actually pretty sure that it was the worst fight any of his friends had been in with each other. He had always figured that it would be between Kendall and himself." I'm just taking a little tangent here, but have you realized that every big blow-up fight you've written actually has been between Kendall and James? LH, HOC... it's always those two. I guess it makes sense, though. Carlos isn't capable of holding in enough anger for it to build that high, Kendall would NEVER allow himself to get that mad at his precious Logan, Logan is too calm and level-headed to completely lose it, plus Logan has always been way too sensitive to James' feelings to let anything like this happen. It just makes sense that it's always Kendall and James.

Now, Laura. I had finished with point number two and had continued with my review before I went to tumblr and saw... that. So first of all, my little Kogan spam severely delayed this review. So that's why you're getting it even later. Anyway. Kogan/Kames. See, I completely understand the argument for Kendall and James challenging each other. I get it, I really do. Actually, when it comes down to it, I support your little foray into Kames land more than I support your Jagan thing. But here's the deal, Kendall and James challenge each other too much. The dynamic is perfect for their friendship, and for the dynamics of the group as a whole, but not for a ship. See, Kendall needs to be NEEDED. That's why Logan is perfect for him. As dependent as James is on Kendall, in reality he's much too strong. Kendall tends to suffocate, and James is way too passionate to submit to that. He pushes against Kendall's protective nature too much, and then there's Kendall's backlash about not being needed, and hence we have their big fights. I get that the strong characters challenge each other, but that's not what they need. James needs someone to encourage his passion and reign in his ego, which Kendall does, but the intensity with which Kendall completely overtakes people overwhelms James, hence their arguments. I think the challenging relationship is wonderful for the Kames friendship, but they would drive each other crazy as a pairing because James doesn't need Kendall as much as Kendall wants him to.

3. "It had been one of those times that he lost control of his famous temper, but this time, he never tried to make up for it." I think that right there says so much about how serious their fight really was. For Kendall not to go above and beyond to hold the group together... things got bad.

4. "He had been jealous of how he was always put in the leadership position but he was also jealous of the bond he had with Logan. James always liked to think that the four of them shared the same bond, and to some extent they did. But Kendall and Logan, because of their broken families, had another, deeper bond. James knew that Kendall didn't love Logan more than he loved James and Carlos, but his parents' divorce and the death of both of Logan's parents and the resulting adoption of Logan into the Knight family, made the two close in a way that James couldn't understand if he tried." FAVORITE FAVORITE FAVORITE FAVORITE. FAVORITE. . Let's observe all of the BEAUTIFUL things that happened here. First of all, one of my favorite things ever- someone else acknowledging the Kogan brother bond. Second of all, remember the time we realized why Kendall and Logan have the deeper bond, because of their broken families? It was... oh gosh, ugh I can't remember... whatever it was it was slightly Kendall-centric. Shoot. But do you remember? We freaked out because we realized why they understood each other so well. OH REMEMBER BECAUSE KENDALL NEEDS SOMEONE TO BE DEPENDENT ON HIM? I think. Because he's afraid of being abandoned. LIKE LOGAN IS. THAT'S IT. LAURA WHAT WAS THAT STORY? But anyway, James being jealous of Kendall and Logan's deeper bond. I LOVE EVERYTHING. EVERYTHING. FOUR FOR YOU TIMES ONE BILLION.

Now after the tumblr incident, we return to my usual review.

5. "If Kendall was here, he would know just what to say to Logan to ease his fears." I'm still particularly proud of this little addition of mine haha.

6. "Logan looked like he was about six years old, with his wide brown eyes full of fear, pleading for James to reassure him. "Will Kendall be okay?" he asked so quietly that only James could hear him." Oh my gosh. So many things. First of all, your description of Logan broke my heart into little tiny pieces. But the main reason why I loved this is because Logan went to James for reassurance, when his mom is sitting right there. It just shows how powerful the bond is between the four boys. Yes, Kendall is Logan's usual source of comfort, but when Kendall isn't there Logan automatically goes to their second-in-command, James. It's one thing for James to step up when Kendall isn't there, something completely different for Logan and Carlos to assume he will. They all know their roles, but also each other's roles, to the extent that they're practically self-sufficient. I know Logan ends up going to Mama Knight (I'm getting there) but the fact that he looked for comfort within the group first, and from James first, speaks volumes.

7. "Oh, sweetie." Instantly Mrs. Knight was taking Logan away from James and holding both him and Katie, trying to keep her own tears hidden for the sake of her distraught children. "Kendall. . . can't. . . d-die!" Logan said in between gasps for air. "He can't, he can't he can't-" FAVORITE FAVORITE FAVORITE FAVORITE. Laura... oh my gosh. I'm obsessed with this part and I know you know why. The way Mama Knight took Logan to hold him when she heard him break... the way you included Logan and Katie in "her distraught children"... everything. It was honderful and terrtastic and I loved it. And then of course there's the fact that Logan is completely breaking down at the thought of losing Kendall... it's just all perfect in the most horribly heartbreaking way.

8. "Out of the corner of his eye, he saw Carlos start to break and he moved quickly to his friend's side, holding onto him as tightly as possible because it felt like he already lost Kendall and maybe Logan now, and he just couldn't stand to lose Carlos too." Poor Bunny... poor James... poor babies.

9. "James, he's going to be okay. He has to be. You'll see. He's Kendall. He can't-" "Shhh," James let go of Logan's wrist so he could drop his arm over his shoulders in a protective gesture. "I know. I know it's going to be okay. Kendall will be fine. The doctor said that- that all we need is a miracle. And miracles happen every single day." Logan nodded his head so hard that his already compromised balance was thrown off even more and he would have fallen if James wasn't holding him up. "Right," he said breathlessly. "And Kendall is really strong." The absolute, unwavering faith Logan has in Kendall is just incredible. He really is a superhero to Logan. Also, James did a wonderful job with Logan here. I loved the part about miracles happening every day.

10. Oh my gosh... Logan's break down... Laura that was beyond terrtastic. Poor Logie-bear, he's breaking my heart. And then this: "He wanted to yell and scream until Kendall woke up and fixed Logan." James knows that only Kendall can fix Logan, and I know that hurts him.

11. "He had to stay awake in case he was needed." James is definitely channeling Kendall.

12. "Logan had been beside himself, completely unaware of everyone around him and their failed attempts to calm him down. He had hyperventilated so badly that he nearly passed out and finally Doctor Winters had him taken from Kendall's room to be cared for in his awful, hysterical state. But that only worsened Logan's panic and he struggled violently until the doctors had been forced to use the restraints around his wrist until they had him still enough for a sedative." FAVORITE FAVORITE FAVORITE FAVORITE -shot shot shot shot-

13. "God wouldn't want him to trade places with Kendall. Kendall belonged in Heaven. James didn't." Laura.. this was... I don't have words. Poor James :( he's breaking my heart, Laura. He was doing such a fantastic job comforting Logan and then this happened... and Laura I actually cried for James and we know that's a big deal. Of course he belongs in Heaven, just not yet.

14. "Logan," he sat on the edge of Logan's bed and touched Logan's back lightly. "Buddy, wake up." Unlike Carlos and Katie who didn't fall asleep until they had cried themselves into exhaustion, Logan often fell asleep right away only to become locked inside some awful nightmare and cry in his sleep. "Kendall?" The ache in his heart almost made James cry out. He bit his lip so hard that it started to bleed, but ignoring his own pain, he reached out to Logan. "Logie, it's me. James." Logan's eyes fluttered open, confused and scared. "James?" he repeated, sounding disappointed. James swallowed hard and nodded. "Yeah, it's me." he said with a tiny smile. Immediately, Logan realized his mistake and sat up, letting James hug him. "I'm sorry," he murmured sadly. "I was dreaming again. You sounded so much like Kendall for a minute there." ALDKFJASDKFJASDLKFASDF. FAVORITE FAVORITE FAVORITE FAVORITE. FAVORITE. SO MUCH FAVORITE. This was so tragic Laura, my heart hurts. It hurts because Logan misses and needs Kendall so much, but it hurts even more for James because I KNOW that it's killing him that HE isn't what Logan needs. I just... everything about this, Laura. I can't totally see why Logan thought it was Kendall, too. I mean, how many times have you had Kendall wake up Logan from a nightmare with that exact line, "Buddy, wake up"? James WAS doing exactly w

Um wow. WOW. I read this yesterday, started crying and just couldn't type out the review so sorry about the lateness of it.

I'm so proud of James right now. I love how he stepped up to take up the leader's role even when he himself was breaking on the inside. I was literally in tears throughout this whole thing. It's amazing how much your stories have an impact and I love that. I felt like I was literally there while everything was happening. Like when Logan had a breakdown and couldn't breathe, how everyone rushed to help him. Oh my gosh, it was amazing. And then it was so incredibly sweet of James to comfort all of them even if it was in the middle of the night. And then my heart just about broke when he said he didn't belong in heaven and how he was blaming himself for everything. *heart breaking*

And then when Logan was talking to James and how they all started crying and how they all thought that Kendall was going to die.

And the ending. Oh gosh. I loved all the brotherly moments and how Kendall was trying to convince James that it wasn't his fault. I loved that part. I loved it so much.

Ugh, sorry. I'm such a mess right now and this review is all over the place so sorry. But I loved it, it simply blew me away.

At first, I was kind of laughing a bit because even though it was just so intense with Logan throwing up, I was just like "Fish Stick Friday is going to have a fiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit!" He just HATES vomit, poor baby. Meanwhile, I totally get the skeevies when people say "You're getting better every day!" Oh my gosh, it's too hopeful, I can't take it...

But then I put on Adele and just pretty much had a sobfest because it was just so sad.

I've never seen anyone capture that whole putting your fears aside as the leader bit so well. Like, holy crap. The entire time I was just like "I want to crawl up into a hole and die, this is oober depressing!" Seriously, couldn't even take it.

Um, I don't know how to review to this...

I mean, I feel like normally, people shouldn't just be like "I love when Logan got ran over" or whatever the story is about, but this was just so intense and like... painful to read (actually painful, my heart was all clenched and it felt terrible. I thought it might explode...) I don't know how to put it or anything.

It was fantastically done, and I loved every second. You did a fabulous job, but I'm not sure what else to say other than it evoked some serious emotion from the Cheeky department.

Like... Logan and his nightmares and Carlos unable to be alone? I don't know what to do with myself, my brain is all flustered.

Great job!

Aww! I loved this :)

AAAAH! Yay, this had a happy ending! Thank GOD! Because, not gonna lie...I was nervous. Because the first like 85% of the story was just sooo sad.

"He's in a coma right now and to be perfectly honest, Mrs. Knight, it's very unlikely that he'll ever wake up. We need a miracle right now."

"A miracle, James thought just as Mrs. Knight finally began to cry. He believed in miracles. His favorite movie was called Miracle. He believed that a miracle would bring Kendall back to them. There just wasn't any other option." ~If Kendall hadn't woken up, I sooo would've internet slapped you! Because this part GUTTED ME!

But bravo, this was wonderful! You captured their emotions so well, especially when they were waiting for visiting hours to start again. So accurate. Beautifully written, Laura Henderson! It has a nice ring to it lol

LAURAAAA WATER YOU DOING TO ME?

This was absolutely fantastic. I...have no words. James was just... and Logan! But the fight- ahdadkfhskdlfjghsdf why does James always have to blame himself?

But I knew Kendall would come through in the end (stubborn as a mule), but when he welcomed James back with open arms, I almost lost it. Tears everywhere. Here, let me show you when I really started weeping:

"Kendall had been talking to Carlos and Katie, and watching Logan, but as soon as James moved into view, all of his focus was on his other best friend. "Hey, Jay." he said quietly. "You okay, buddy?"

It took all of James' strength to keep from falling apart all over again. He smiled and then laughed through his tears. "I'm okay, Kendall."

It was obvious that Kendall didn't believe him. But he was still way too tired and weak to push the argument. So he gently freed his hand from Logan's and held out his arm for James. When James carefully leaned down to hug him, Kendall held him as tightly as he could. "It's okay, James." he said softly."

Beautiful. Absolutely beautiful. Their friendship can survive pretty much anything! Please don't be the one to push that friendship over the edge. Xd

But anyways, I loved it soooooooo much! -heart-

Amazing. The way you wrote this. Your description. The tone your words set was just so good. Its like you were trying to show how depressed everyone was but the way you phrased it wasnt too depressing. I love it. I love your writing style. This is beyond perfect. Plus, i love Kames bromance!

awww

I loved it!

thanks so much

xoxo

I missed your stories! This one was so cute! So much James Angst!

OH MY GOSH!

ok so i started tearing up durring the author's note because oh my goshyou're just so incredible and I just love you so so so much33333

ok so first of all, i love how you mentioned all of their strengths and weaknesses individually, but also as a whole of a friendship. brilliant. ten points to gryffindor.

jealous James is making me nervous... :p

"He couldn't remember what exactly it was that had finally become the last straw for him, but the end result had been the worst fight he had ever had with any of his friends in his entire life" oh no. no. no. no. no. no.

Kames fight :(((((

wait now... CAR ACCIDENT? AKHGDAKGAJKSHJKSAHAKHAHa

not gonna lie, i screamed a little when they were in the hospital waiting for Kendall.

ok, maybe i screamed a lot.

C O M Asfj ksfhskj hjskfhvskf hsjg hafjhafj s sj hshsjhsjhjs hsj

dont mind me. just crying. no big deal.

LOOOOOGAAAAAAANNNNNN BREATHE BABY BREATHEEEEEE :(((((( GUHGHSKdJS hsJFKHISI AK

"And then James cried because no matter what he said, it wouldn't change anything. God wouldn't want him to trade places with Kendall. Kendall belonged in Heaven. James didn't." THAT LINE WILL FOREVER BE BURNED INTO MY MEMORY AND MAKE ME CRY NO MATTER WHAT SJGFJSKHGSJFGH SJGHFJSKSHJSHKJHSJGFSJK HSJGHSJGHSKJGSHJKGHSKJH JSKHSJ

"Buddy, wake up." Unlike Carlos and Katie who didn't fall asleep until they had cried themselves into exhaustion, Logan often fell asleep right away only to become locked inside some awful nightmare and cry in his sleep. "Kendall?" The ache in his heart almost made James cry out. He bit his lip so hard that it started to bleed, but ignoring his own pain, he reached out to Logan. "Logie, it's me. James."

so i need to stop reading, mop up my tears and get my teddy bear and yoohoo. oh my gosh this story is too much for my little heart right now jfashfhs but im not going to stop because my eyes are like glued to the screen. forever reading through my tears

OH MY GSOH WHEN SHE GOT THAT PHONE CALL I THOUGHT HE WAS DEAD AND IJSUT HAD TO STOP AND SOB SJHGS OH MY GSOH THANK GOD HES WAKING UP OH MY GSOH

ME AND JAMES ARE JUST CRYING TOGETHER NOW. I SHOULD REALLY BE IN THIS STORY. I COULD HOLD HIM DJHFSJHSKHSDJDG SHS JDJ

I FINISHED IT AND IM ALIVE! BUT IM DEAD AT THE SAME TIME AND ROLLING AROUND ON MY MATTRESS FHSJKHSJHSHSJKHKJSHSJ I CANT EVEN EXPRESS HOW MUCH I LOVED THIS STORY BECAUSE THERE ARENT ENOUGH WORDS IN THE ENGLISH LANGUAGE THAT WOULD SUFFICE IT JSGHDJHJSKGHJK LAURA I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS AMAZING BRILIANT JAMES ANGSTY STORY!

So my parents are taking me to the doctor today. I've already called in sick. That's two days in a row now. :(

"Twelve years of a bond between four boys..." But I thought they had only been friends for eleven years?

A Kames story, huh? Honestly, I don't think I've ever read a Kames story before, but because you're the author, I'm sure it won't disappoint.

I liked how you established somewhat of a pecking order. I don't know if I agree with it though. That's a tricky one. I would say Logan would be second-in-command if not for his indecisiveness and the ease with which he gets scared. Carlos is fearless, but also reckless, so he might not make the best leader. James is passionate but at times selfish, so he might not make the best leader either. See? I don't even know what pecking order would be better. Maybe I should just go with yours...

You know, I actually don't blame James for being jealous of Kendall.

I wasn't surprised that Logan went after Kendall and Carlos went after James. I know the show keeps trying, but I'm sorry, I just don't see Kenlos like I do other bromances.

Maybe the boys just shouldn't drive at all. That way they won't get in car accidents.

I liked how even though this is a Kames story, you still had James be jealous of the bond between Kendall and Logan.

"Kendall...can't...d-die! He can't, he can't he can't-" Are you TRYING to kill me, Laura?

I hated hearing James wish that God took him instead of Kendall.

"He tightened his grip on Carlos and hurried after his other friend who was staggering down the hall as if he was intoxicated." LOL! I probably shouldn't laugh at that part, but I did anyways.

Carlos WOULD talk to someone in a coma. :)

What is it with you an Cheeky making the boys vomit so much? It never fails. I cringe every time...

Carlos slapped Logan? That's kind of funny actually. Lol.

I liked the bond you portrayed between James and Katie.

Aww! They had to restrain Logan? Poor thing!

It really broke my heart to hear James say that he didn't belong in Heaven.

I liked how you said the guys made fun of Kendall's pep talks.

Aww! Katie and Carlos cried themselves into exhaustion? Poor things! :(

OMG! When Logan called James "Kendall" my breath hitched in my throat.

I agree with Logan. James is doing a good job of holding everyone together. :)

I was so happy when Mama Knight called James with the news that Kendall was waking up!

I laughed when Carlos knocked James over with a "violent" hug. :)

I'm glad Kendall didn't go to the rink because he was mad at James.

I smiled when you said that Logan told Kendall everything.

"But you were amazing. You're still amazing. You've always been amazin, James, and you always will be." Aww! That's so sweet!

This was a really sweet story, you know, for being Kames, lol. No but seriously, amazing job, Laura! XOXO I gotta get ready to go to the doctor now...

Love it! I love Kames too, so it's a bonus! And I haven't read many friendship/bromance fics of Kames this good. So basically: I loved this story!

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