A\N: I edited this and got most of the mistakes I could find.

Disclaimer: i don't own any of the twilight characters, if i did I'd be rich.

Leah took one last look at her bedroom and a wave of nostalgia hit her. This room held many good memories for her but just as those memories flashed in her mind, a sharp pain in her chest hit like a bulldozer.

Most of her memories were of her and Sam, and her and Emily, and they all felt like lies. The two people she had not only loved the most but also trusted the most had betrayed her in the worst way possible. So, with one last glance and a deep breath to push the tears forming away, Leah grabbed her luggage and left the only place she had ever known.

As much of a bitch she had been lately she was considerate enough to atleast leave a note. It wasn't a very detailed one but it sated her family's fears while keeping them from looking for her.

Being weak and wounded was never one of Leah's strong points and normally she would just hold her head up high and make a nasty remark to keep them focused on something other than pity; but now they lived together and she has to see them everywhere around town and happy at that. If everybody looked at her with pity before the love birds were everywhere they defiantly would now especially since she's pregnant.

She could just imagine the looks on everyone's face when they see the remnants of her and Sam's broken relationship sitting just under her shirt and the condolences that follow it. That she could not take. People not only judging her but her unborn child too, who did nothing but exist.

She knew a baby was set back whether she and Sam were together or not, but now it's especially hindering of her future because she would have to deal with the happy couple directly for the rest of her life. That wouldn't do for Leah, so with all of her strength and all her selfishness she fled La Push to the farthest place she could go with her limited funds .

She ended up in a small town in Oregon called Wilsonville. It wasn't much to look at but coming from a small reservation in Washington this place seemed like "the big city". This city held her future and her freedom from all that she left. Maybe one day when she was good and healed she'd come back and face all that she's avoiding head on with all the guilt, anger, and hurt that comes with it.

Back in La Push…..

Sue Clearwater woke up that morning and already felt something wasn't right, call it mother's intuition. So when a mother feels something wrong and her heart fills with worry she does the one thing to sedate her fears and checks on her children. As Seth's room was closest, she peered her head in through the door to his room first and saw him sprawled on his stomach in his bed perfectly fine. Next was Leah, who her worry directed to the strongest, but she thought that might just be because of Leah's recent heartbreak that left a shell of the woman she raised.

Bracing herself worst Sue peered into her daughter's room and found it empty. Searching for a logical explanation for this Sue then checked the bathroom, empty, kitchen, empty, living room, empty, front porch, empty, back porch, empty, she even searched the laundry room for good measure and still came up empty.

Her panic rising to levels she hasn't had to in a couple months Sue went back to Leah's room to see if she came back there while she was searching. As expected the room was empty. With tears brimming in her eyes Sue walked in to her daughter's room and sat on her bed as though that were going to give her answer.

To her surprise, it did in a sense give her answers because she spotted a note on Leah's night and she hope to god it wasn't informing her of her daughter's suicide. Taking a deep breath to calm herself, Sue then gingerly picked up the note and read it.

By the time you read this I will have already left. In short, the looks of pity, the haunting memories of what was once my life have become too much to deal with. So I did the most cowardly thing, but also the only thing I could do short of killing myself, and left. I'll miss all you especially Seth, you were always a good little brother.

Tell Sam and Emily to have a nice life and it should be easier for all of us now that I won't be around.

Maybe one day I'll come back but for now this is goodbye for good.

Love, Leah

Sue held the note to her heart as a strangled sob escaped her. Her only daughter has not only left the nest, but also didn't tell her where she was going. Her first instinct was to call Chief Swan and file a missing persons but when she got on the phone with him, he informed that he couldn't do anything because Leah is (A) an adult and (B) not in danger. He then offered his condolences and asked if there was anything else he could do for her, to which she replied there was nothing, unless he could bring her daughter home.

After that phone call the starling reality that her baby girl gone and not coming back settled in with her and caused her to still in her seat at the dining room table.

When her husband came down and saw his wife, he immediately knew something was wrong and was at her side immediately.

"Honey, what's wrong? You're never this still or quiet."

Sue took a deep breath in and willed her tears away just enough to get out the words necessary. She looked over at Harry with sad eyes and spoke in a very soft low tone and said "Leah's gone." Harry looked over his wife's face as he tried to wondering what exactly she meant. Sue handed him Leah's note as a way of giving him further information without actually having to talk.

Harry looked at his wife solemnly as he too processed this new reality of not having their daughter in their life. "Did you call Charlie?"

"Yes, he said there was nothing he could do because she's an adult and not in any immediate danger." She got out mechanically.

"We could have Sam and the pack out looking for her; I bet they'd be better at tracking her down than the police."

"True, but what will make her come back and if she comes back how will we get her to stay."

"I don't care, we'll lock her in her bedroom if that's what it takes."

"Harry, be rational. As much as I like that idea it's not a solution. We have to let her go, she left us by choice and the only thing we can really do is honor her wishes and hope that she comes back to us."

"I don't want to just hope, I want a guarantee that I'll see my daughter again."

"No one wants only hope, but unfortunately it's all we get." Sue took one last deep breath before she got up and busied herself with making breakfast. Harry just stayed still in his kneeling position before he had the sense to get up and sit into a chair.

A month passed by and the Clearwater house felt as though a ghost was living there. They never quite realized how much Leah was in their everyday lives until she wasn't. The news of Leah's departure circulated fast in the little community of La Push and all speculation as to why she left pointed to Sam and Emily. Granted, they were right, but that still didn't justify the inimical behavior towards them because the only people who truly had that right were Sue, Harry and Seth, who despite their own personal feelings, treated them as they did before because they knew it wasn't directly their fault.

On the day of Leah's birthday in which the Clearwater's would have had their annual family gathering for her 19th year of life, Emily made a cake to give to Sue and went to see how her aunt was doing with her cousin's departure. The guilt was festering at Emily more than when she accepted Sam's imprint and wouldn't go away like in usually did in Sam's arms, so she thought this could ease her conscience by making sure her aunt was doing okay without her daughter.

Walking up those wooden porch steps and making it to the screen door, Emily timidly knocked on the door of the Clearwater residence. When the door finally opened she was greeted with the solemn face of Sue Clearwater. Offering a small sad half smile Emily held up her cake. "Can I come in?"

Sue opened her door wider and gestured for her to come through. Emily went straight for the kitchen and set her cake down and the turned to Sue and asked her the one question that has been overly used in her months since Leah left. "How are you doing?"

Sue took a deep annoyed breath and said same words to answer as though she were an automated recording. "I'm holding up just fine."

Emily looked into the deep brown eyes of her aunt and could see that that was a lie and her heart reached out to her. She crossed the distance from her to her aunt and hugged her because it was the only thing she could think to do.

The moment Emily made contact with Sue she stiffened under her warm affections because as much as it wasn't Emily's fault for Sam she couldn't forgive her for Leah.

Sue cleared her throat and removed Emily and put her at arm's length and looked at her with a small sorrowful smile. "As nice as this gesture is I can't accept it. It's too soon." Sue paused in thought and then spoke again. "If we're being perfectly honest, I may never be ready."

Feeling rejected Emily looked at her aunt and said the only thing she could say. "Sorry, you know if I could change it, I would."

"No you wouldn't and I think that's part of the reason I can never forgive you taking my daughter away."

"I didn't do this on purpose." Emily said in a defensive tone she hadn't had to use in months.

"I know, and I forgive you for the imprint. I forgive you for Sam. But I will never forgive you for taking the joyous, beautiful, strong daughter I raised and turning her into a bitter harpy who can never trust now." Sue paused in thought again as she thought about the last time she saw her daughter.

"If I'm being completely honest with myself, I lost my daughter long before she left and though I know that's not completely you're fault. A part of me can't let go of the anger." Her face hardened as said her next statement.

"To see you deliriously happy causes even more anger to rise in me because I know how miserable my daughter is, was and probably will be for the rest of her life. You have ruined my daughter." Sue took a long hard calming breath and looked back at Emily's scared face. "Sorry Emilly to lay all of this on you. I think it'd be best if you left."

Emily just nodded to her aunt with tears running down her face and turned to walk to the door. Sue turned to Emily and said "Oh, one last thing Leah said tell you and Sam in her note. Have a nice life." She said it in a tone full of resentment. That Leah thought about her and Sam's feelings when they obviously didn't think about hers.

Not wanting to continue this conversation Emily just left right out the door even though she was confused as hell as to why Leah would wish a nice life on her or Sam.

It was a teary ride home for Emily as she really took in the damage that this imprint caused. Not only the damage to Sam's reputation, her face and Leah's soul but to her entire family.

In great love stories when it's them against the world, the world had always been in the wrong with their strict beliefs and predjudices; but now the world was actually in the right. Instead of her and Sam being like Romeo and Juliet; they were more like Bonnie and Clyde, murderers who justified their actions with love as a template.

She knew she was lying the other times when she said if she could take the imprint back she would but now for the first time she wished it never existed. She realized how much it did ruin and how much it took not only from her but others and none of it could be fixed. Her guilt sky rocketed so far she wasn't so sure Sam's loving arms would make it better. In fact, it'd make it worse.

When Emily got herself composed enough to get out of the car and back in her home she had a remaining thought. Why would their ancestors cause such havoc with something as pure a love?