AN. I am so so sorry! This is probably going to be just as, if not more, painful for me. This story is not going to end happily, I swear to you. So if you don't want to cry, or at least hate me, then I wouldn't read this story. I decided to write this story after reading Murmmer's story War. Go and read it, it is really amazing, and it actually made me cry. I am also going to start writing a new story, on my laptop tonight, and I might rewrite it on here, but I don't know for sure. I hope you enjoy this tragic tale twisted with Edward's angst.

Full Summary- Bella needs to leave Edward. No more than two months after Edward comes back home, Bella is told by someone she knows, a girl named Alexa, that if she doesn't leave Edward, her and the rest of them, will be forced to kill Edward, and his family. Who is Alexa? What is she? What is Bella? How will Bella and Edward survive without each other? Why is this tale so tragic?

Alternate Excerpt- 'I...I'm sorry. I'm not... You're not right for me Edward. I need someone that I can connect with, on a more even level. You aren't him.' I stood leaning against the tree, tears pouring down my face, going unnoticed by the pounding rain. I took one look into the pain in Edward's eyes, and broke. I turned and walked down the path, Edward frozen in place. I turned. 'Edward, I really am sorry, but it will make us both happier. You can't hurt yourself though, or I will kill myself, because though I no longer want you, I don't want you dead, especially not because of me.' I turned and ran deep into the woods.

Note For The Entire Story- Edward's POV is normal print, and Bella's is Italic. This is for quick POV changes.

WARNING!! PLEASE READ AT LEAST THIS!! NOTE- THE TITLE HAS A DOUBLE MEANING! IF YOU CAN GUESS BOTH OF THEM, YOU WILL GET A HUG FROM EDWARD CULLEN, NOT THE ONE FROM MY STORY, I PROMISE YOU!

The bitterest tears shed over graves are for words left unsaid and deeds left undone.

I cry for the time that you were almost mine, I cry for the memories I've left behind, I cry for the pain, the lost, the old the new, I cry for the times I thought I had you

Not all scars show, not all wounds heal Sometimes you can't always see The pain someone feels

Whats the sense of wishing for something when I always just wish it away?

Every night i talk to the stars pretending its you.. it acts just like you tho.. far away and never replies to my questions

Why do people tell you to believe in what you want to but then tell you not to believe in the one true thing you do believe in?

Times a precious thing to waste, but friends are more precious

Kiss me, I'm Emo!

The sad truth is that most evil is done by people who never make up their minds to be good or evil.

The saddest aspect of life right now is that science gathers knowledge faster than society gathers wisdom.

Do not assume that he who seeks to comfort you now, lives untroubled among the simple and quiet words that sometimes do you good. His life may also have much sadness and difficulty, that remains far beyond yours. Were it otherwise, he would never have been able to find these words.

I apologize if this story is depressing, even though it is meant to be.

Not all scars show, not all wounds heal Sometimes you can't always see The pain someone feels

Bella's POV

I couldn't believe this. I was going to do it. It had only been about two months after Edward had gotten back, and now I was going to break his heart. I was going to rip my own out. I couldn't allow Edwrd to die. He was going to live, and carry on, and be so much happier without me, risking his very life.

My cell phone rang "Hello?" I asked "IsaBeeelllla! Have you done it yeeeet?" A sharp piercing voice called into the phone. I winced. "No Alexis, I haven't." Tears began to silently pour down my face. Edward was hunting, and I was glad he wasn't here to see this. "I'm going to though. I'll do it, when he comes home." "Yeeeeees veeery good IsaBeeelllla deeeear!" I heard her clap her hands, and I let out a low growl. Her voice turned angry, making her sound like a snake, now drawing out S's. "Isssabella! Don't you dare growl at me! Are you not aware of who you are talking to? Bitching and moaning won't sssssave your lovebird, sssssweetheart. It will jussssst make hisss death much more painful." "You said you wouldn't kill him, if I broke up with him Alexa!" I screamed into the phone. "I von't deeeery, I promise." (AN. She rolled the R in Promise.)

I hit end on the phone, and threw it out my car window, into the pouring rain. I sighed, opening the door, and walking inside my home. "So how was your talk with Alexa?" Charlie asked. "The usual. The bitch hissed at me." I stomped up the staris to my room, and heard Charlie laugh. "Well that's Alexa for you."I growled, and slammed my bedroom door. Edward would be back in one hour. It was Friday, school had been canceled, and I had just until Sunday to break up with Edward, or him, and his entire family would be killed. It was a hard line to cross. I had to rip out our hearts, or he would die.

I took a shower, and walked back into my room, wrapped in a towel. "Hello love." I jumped and whirled around, barely remembering to hold the towel in place with one hand. Edward laughed lightly. I grabbed my clothes, and ran back into the bathroom, glad that Edward was home, and not wanting to miss a moment of time I had left with him. I ran back into my bedroom, and Edward's arms wrapped around my waist. "I love you so much Bella." He whispered low in my ear. I smiled slightly, and turned around in his embrace. "I love you too Edward. You are the love of my life, and nothing could ever change that." I really hoped he wouldn't believe me, but would let me go when the time came. If he didn't, I'd have to strike his fears.

We ended up going to the meadow. Edward lay on his back, while I lay across his chest. Without thinking, we both began to hum the same song. It wasn't a very happy song, but it was the song we had heard in the car while driving here: Snuff by Slipknot. (AN. It's a really good song. These are the lyrics, and the music. /lyrics/s/slipknot/snuff.html Listen to it, it really is awesome.) The song was pretty sad. It had lyrics, like 'But that was all ripped apart when you refused to fight' and 'So if you love me let me go, run away before I know.'

When we had finished the song, we both looked at each other and smiled. "You actually know that song?" he asked me. I nodded. "It's Snuff by Slipknot. It's a pretty good song. I didn't actually think it was something you would listen to." He smiled. "It's not. I never thought you would know it. I didn't think it was something you would listen to." I smiled, imitating him. "It's not." I laughed lightly, but it was superficial. I would never get to have this moment again. That brought on the floodgate.

I would never again see his smile. I would never see him laugh again. I would never again lay in this meadow with him. I would never again hear my lullaby uttered by an angel. I would never hear him play the piano again. I would never again wake up to his voice. I would never again kiss him, pushing him to the edge. I would never feel his arms around me again. I stopped myself there, fighting tears. How could Alexa do this to me? How could she hurt me like this? I knew she hated me, but I never thought someone who was such an angel could ever rip someone's heart out, as badly as she did mine. Tears brimmed my eyes, and I lay my head against Edward's chest. He would never again see me cry.

We lay in the meadow for the rest of that day, and then went to his house. His beautiful house. I would never see it, or it's inhabitants again.We went up to his room, and I could see a CD Alice had bought, laying on the bed that Edward had bought. I sighed, and grabbed it before Edward could. Wait did Alice know what I was doing? Was she going to try and stop me? Did she know about Alexa, and the others? I shook those thoughts from my mind, and went over to put the CD in the stereo. Music began, and I recognized the CD. It was Faith Hill's CD, Faith (AN. This is a really good Cd. You should listen to some of the songs, especially This Kiss, and You Give Me Love. /lyrics/f/faithhill/faith/). I then noticed that another Cd was on the couch, and picked it up. It was a Cranberries CD. (AN. I am really sorry, but you should listen to this song it is amazing! /lyrics/c/cranberries/zombie.html Just listen to it!)

We layed across the bed, just listening to the beautiful gentle country music of Faith Hill, and the harder music of the Cranberries. The night passed quickly. I didn't want to sleep. It was just less time that I got to spend with Edward. Tomorrow I would focus on getting each of us something to remember the other by, without being too suspicious. At about one-thirty that night, I heard the front door open, and then Edward's door opened. Alice stood there, gasping for unneeded breath. I could tell she was blocking her mind from Edward. That was good. She grabbed my hand, and pulled me into her bedroom, where Jasper sat on the bed. He looked at me confused.

Alice grabbed a piece of paper and started writing. Bella. Tell me why. Why are you leaving Edward? Jasper saw the note, and his eyes widened. He snatched the note before I could reply and wrote Bella, you can't do that! Do you know what happened when he left you?! I sighed, and grabbed the note from him. I wrote I'm really sorry, I can't explain. You wouldn't believe me, but me being with Edward is putting him in danger. You guys too. If I don't break up with Edward, and leave by Sunday at midnight, then Edward, and the rest of you will be killed. Just trust me, that you can not defeat them. If you fight, I will fight, and we will lose. They will not kill me, but they will kill all of you. They can't afford to kill me. But it will kill me, if you die. Please just believe me. I saw their jaws drop. That was the last thing they expected. They never expected that my existance could ever be a danger to them. They never realized I was hurting them by being here. Neither had I.

When I got back in Edward's room, I lay down. Edward wrapped his arms around me, curious, yet silent. Zombie began to play. (AN. Zombie is the song linked above!) I curled into his chest, and soon fell asleep.

The next morning I woke up early, at about 8:00 am. I only had exactly 40 hours left to commit the horrible deed of breaking my angel's heart. Zombie had started playing again and I smiled, seeing that Edward had put the song on repeat. I went downstairs, where Esme was cooking breakfast. Alice and Jasper sat on the living room couch together, holding hands, somber. I briefly wonder what they had said to the others. At that moment, Emmett and Rosalie walked in the room. Rose and Emmett both came over and hugged me. Esme looked a little down, and she set my plate on the table. There was a little note next to it. Is it true Bella? Are you really leaving to save Edward? I nodded, and she grabbed the note, ripping it up. Edward came downstairs, and everyone brightened. It was for him. I could almost feel the sadness in the air, and knew that the joy was an act for him. to protect my secret.

Edward sat next to me as I ate, when I was finished, my plate was gone in a second. Alice dragged me upstairs, and began getting me ready. She dressed me in a black dress, and black wedge heels. When she was done with that, she pulled my hair up, and curled it, pulling it over my shoulder, and curling the strands around my face. When she was done, she led me to the stairs. As soon as I got to th etop of the stairs, Alice had disappeared into the living room. Edward looked up and gasped, running up the stairs, and grabbing the top of my arms, holding me out so he could see all of me. I smiled, and he kissed me gently.

Edward lifted me, and ran me out to the Volvo. We got in, and I noticed that Edward had a leather bracelet around his wrist. There was a box on my seat, and it contained a similiar one, just slightly thinner. Edward helped me hook it around my wrist. I didn't even ask. He wouldn't tell me. We drove to Port Angeles, and we we soon sitting down for dinner. "Do you like the bracelet?" He asked me. I nodded. "Yes, it's beautiful. What's the occasion?" "Do I really need an occasion to give the love of my life a gift? Alright, I have something planned, and Alice told me that you would only except the bracelet if I got a similiar one." I nodded. That sounded better, but it wasn't true. Alice knew that I probably would have excepted it eventually. But I would be agonizing over what to remember each other by. I now had something.

When we got out of the restraunt, Edward drove to a little area, similiar to where you began the hike to his meadow, and got out of the car. He tied a blindfold over my eyes, and lifted me, running to an unknown area. He untied the blindfold and I saw the sky, uninterrupted, and then looked around. We were in a small clearing with a large circle of lanterns. In the middle was a large white porch swing. Edward carried me over, and sat down, pulling me onto his lap. I wrapped my arms around his neck and he whispered. "have I told you how beautiful you look tonight?" I smiled, and blushed looking down. He would never believe me tomorrow. This was going to be hard. I tried to banish it from my thoughts. I kissed him, and he pulled me closer to him. The kiss was fierce and passionate. The rest of the night, we sat together, and talked, and kissed, and just lay there together. I fell asleep late that night. The last thing I thought was I have to do it. This is the last wonderful night that I will ever spend with my Edward.I felt tears begin to well up in my eyes. I would never see him again after tomorrow.

I sat up, and looked at the clock. It was about 9:00 am. I grieved silently for the time I lost with Edward, and sat up. I only had 15 hours left to break Edward, and my own heart. Emmett and Alice came in the room, and dragged me out. They had soon pulled me into Alice's bedroom. Rosalie and Jasper sat on the bed. Jasper looked depressed, and Rosalie looked hurt.

"Don't worry Bella, Edward can't hear us. He went out to get you some breakfast." I nodded. Rosalie spoke up, "Bella. You can't do this. It will break Edward's heart. He is so happy that you forgave him. You can't just let him think you don't love him anymore!" I nodded again. "I know, but if I tell him as much of the truth as I can, he won't let me go, and will get himself and you guys killed. I can't let that happen!" Emmett smiled slightly. "We know Bella. We don't know what we are facing, and even though we think you are underestimating us..." "Don't say that! I am not underestimating you! I think if anything I am overestimating you." I interrupted, not caring that I was being rude.

They all sent me a look, Alice mostly, that obviously said 'Com'n are you serious?' I sighed. I would have to show them. "Fine." I went behind Alice and grabbed her wrist. I twisted it up so that it was to her upper back, in between her shoulder blades. She tried to pull away, thinking it would be easy. She tried harder, but I didnt' break my grasp. "It's not as easy as you think, is it Alice?" I pulled her wrist up a tiny bit higher. "Ow Bella!" She gasped.

I let go. "What the effing hell was that!" She screamed. "I needed to prove my point Alice. Though I am one of them, I am on your side, but even with me fighting with you, you would lose." Emmett stared at me, his eyes wide. "How the hell did you do that Bella?" I shook my head. I couldn't tell them, not now. "Um... well anyway, we had a plan. what if you left a letter or something for Edward to find after you left? You could tell him everything, but he wouldn't be able to stop you from leaving, because you would already be gone." I nodded. That made it feel a little better and a little worse. Which was worse? Knowing the love of you life loved you, and not being able to be with them, or thinking the love of you life didn't love you anymore? Definately the last.

An hour later, I stepped out of Alice's bedroom, a Cd in my hand. I went downstaris and Alice handed me a marker. On the top I wrote To Edward, Love Bella. I handed it to Alice. "Okay, so when you leave with him, I'm going to put it on his bed. He'll come up and find it, I swear. This will all work out, though I can't assure that you will both be happy." I nodded. I had known that since the day Alexa had told me I needed to leave Edward. Happiness wasn't an option. But I could do things that would make him happier than he would normally be in this situation.

Edward walked through the door, with a tray in his hand. Later, after I had finished breakfast, I knew I needed to hurry now. I pulled Edward upstairs, lightly for me, and pushed play on the stereo. For the next hour, we just sat there together listening to music. When it was noon, I knew that I had to go say goodbye to everyone. Unlike last time, I knew I had to. I stood up. "Edward wait here for a minute." He nodded, and I ran down the stairs, once out of his view, not tripping once. Everyone else was in the living room, and when I got downstairs, Emmett lifted me, and ran me outside. Too bad they didnt't know I could be just as fast as them. When we got out of hearing distance of the house, Emmett set me down. They all looked like they would cry, and I could feel the tears running down my cheeks. I stood up and went over to Rosalie, then Jasper, then Carlisle, then Emmett, then Esme, and last Alice.

"I'll really miss you Rose." "I'll miss you too, Bella. Things were really starting to work out."
"Thank you for everything Jasper. I could never blame you for what happened before. I'll miss you." "Thank you Bella. I'll miss you too, your my sister."
"Thank you so much Carlisle. You are truely like a father to me. I'll miss you so much." "Bella, your a daughter to me. I'll miss you so much."
"Emmett, your the perfect big brother. I'm going to miss you so much." "I'll miss you too, little sis, I'll really miss you."
"Esme, you are truely a perfect mother. I'm really going to miss you." "Bella, sweetheart, your a daughter me. You made my son whole, and it's going to be so different without you. I don't think any of us will adapt again." Everyone nodded.
"Alice. Your my sister, and my best friend. I don't know what I'll do without you." " Oh Bella! Your my sister, my best friend! Everything is going to be so different. I'll miss you!"

By the end I was sobbing. I have no clue what I am going to do without them. I need them all. It was going to be so hard. I hugged them all, and dried my tears. Now is when I would have to act. Now is when I would have to break my love's heart. It was time.

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"Edward, let's go take a walk." He nodded, "Alright, love." I sighed, this was just getting harder and harder. We traveled down the same path that I had ran desperately through, less than a year ago. I traveled deeper, and we ended up at the same place where I had once sat, wondering if Edward could possibly be a vampire. I stopped, and then I heard a deeper sound. Thunder. Rain started pouring down, streaking down my cheeks.

Edward, my love, my life. "Edward, I...I'm sorry, but I don't think I can really forgive you what you did to me. You broke my heart Edward." "Bella, love, what do you mean? I know I did but you forgave me for the biggest mistake of my life." "I can't Edward. I... I don't love you anymore. I don't trust you, and we aren't truely right for each other." "But Bella! Is this what you really want?!" He asked desperately. I nodded, and I saw his eyes sadden, his heart sinking. "Yes it is Edward. But you have to stay here. It isn't right for you to leave. And you can't hurt yourself. If you do, then I will kill myself, because though I no longer want you, I don't want you to die. Especially not because of me." I was acting too good. He truely did believe me. Let's hope everything was going to end up alright. He had to find the Cd.

The rain masked the tears pouring down my cheeks. I leaned against a tree. I reached up, running my hands through my wet hair. One line broke through my defenses Not all scars show, not all wounds heal sometimes you can't see the pain someone feels. Who knew how much pain Edward was really in? I held back a sob, and then I broke. "Edward I don't love you. It was all a lie." I stood up straight, and ran deeper into the forest.

I ran for miles, then about 10 miles away, I unfurled my wings, deep black and large, and pushed off from the ground. The ground vanished beneath me.

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Bella didn't really love me. Jasper had always showed me that she had, but she didn't. Not anymore. I ran at full speed back toward my house, fighting the sobs that threatened to overtake me. I burst through the front door, and shoved my way past Alice. I crashed into my room, and threw a brief glimpse at the bed. I dropped to the ground sobbing. Bella didn't love me.

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(Alice's POV)

Shouldn't he have found the Cd yet? I left it on the bed. I went into Edward's room. He was on his knees, head in his hands sobbing. The Cd was nowhere in sight. I looked around quickly. It was gone. "What Cd?" Edward gasped. I showed him with my mind that Bella had made a Cd for him, and asked him if he had seen it. He hadn't. I was soon pulled into a vision.

Bella dropped through the trees, larrge black wings spread out from her body. She curled them in, and I could see that she was crying. Five girls stepped out of the surrounding trees, one with golden blonde hair, and white wings, one with black hair, and red-brown wings, one with brown hair, and blue wings, another with light blonde hair, and silver wings, and the last with black hair, and dark brown wings. "I've done it!" Bella screamed, dropping to her knees. The girl with white wings lifted her, and shoved her against a tree. "Oh yes?! Then What the Hell Is This?!" She screamed, waving a Cd in Bella's face. I saw a brief glimpse of the words 'To Edward, Love Bella' written on the Cd. Everything went black.

I pulled out of the vision, and I screamed, dropping to my knees. What the hell was going on? What was Bella? Who were these people? Most of all, what was going to happen?

AN. Curious? Was that a cliff hanger? I really hope that nobody knows what Bella is yet! Well I doubt it, considering throughout the entire first chapter I gave fake hints! This didn't make you cry? Me neither. The last chapter will be the saddest though! By the way, if you like this story, then you are in luck. If something is going on, I will probably delay my other stories, or stop them, but with this one, I love it so much that I am going to continue, and finish it, no matter what happens! By the way, as you can tell by the way I wrote the words, the golden blonde with the white wings is NOT Alexis! That is really important! Read and Review! Reviews equals LOVE!