I know my profile's a mess; I work on it constantly to fix it up.

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Anime: Full Metal Alchemist, Kyou Kara Maoh!, Ouran High School Host Club, Yu-Gi-Oh, Petshop Of Horrors, Air TV, Paranoia Agent, Wolf's Rain, DearS, Rozen Maiden (Traumend), Jigoku Shoujo (Futakomori), Ergo Proxy, Higurashi No Naku Koro Ni (Kai), Tokyo Mew Mew, Trigun, Fruits Basket, Yami No Matsuei, Hellsing, Elfen Lied, Serial Experiments Lain, Perfect Blue, Spirited Away, Howl's Moving Castle, sola, Ayatsuri Sakon, Aisheteruze Baby, Monster, Spiral, Pumpkin Scissors, Akagi, Parasite Dolls, Kuroshitsuji, Jigoku Shoujo Mitsuganae, The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya, Plus more that I probably forgot. (Bad memory.)

Manga: Petshop Of Horrors, Chobits, DearS, The Hating Girl, Lovesick, Full Metal Alchemist, Yami No Matsuei, Our Kingdom, Othello, Loveless, Godchild, Crescent Moon, Million Tears, The Dreaming, Nightmare Inspector, Vampire Knight, Meruperi, Count Cain, Mushishi, Goth, Fraken Fran, etc.

TV shows: Hardware, Tru calling, Drake & Josh, Courage The Cowardly Dog, The Simpsons, Family Guy, Law and Order(SVU, CI, and Original.)

Movies: Silent Hill, Let's Go To Prison, Mortuary, Isolation, Transformers, Johnson Family Vacation, Are We Done Yet, Princess Bride, Minotaur, Red Dragon, Creep, The Last Mimzy, Gothika, Jeepers Creepers, Jeepers Creepers 2, The Marsh, Enchanted, Father of the Bride, Father Of The Bride 2, Horton Hears a Who, Wall-E, Be Kind Rewind, Mr. Mom, Twilight

Music: Angelspit, A Perfect Circle, Within Temptation, Lacuna Coil, Nightwish, TATU, Akira Yamaoka, Disturbed, Korn, Drowning Pool, Rammstein, Incubus, Evanescence, Muse, Panic! At The Disco, Playradioplay!, Aural Vampire, Breaking Benjamin, Celldweller, Emilie Autumn, Godsmack, Papa Roach, Limp Bizkit, Limpin Park, The Birthday Massacre, Green Day, Three Days Grace, AFI, Smile DK, Frou Frou, Jack Off Jill, Kotoko, Rob Zombie, Zeromancer, Slipknot, Nickelback, Marilyn Manson, Nine Inch Nails, System Of A Down, Jack Johnson.

Personal Bio:

Name: I like to be called Melanie. Just Melanie.

Age: Turned fourteen a while ago.

Appearance: Strange. Pale face, not overly so. Full pink/purple lips providing odd contrast. Nicely shaped eyebrows and a nose that could be viewed as slightly large. People say I'm pretty but I don't know if I believe it.

Hobbies: Watching anime, reading manga, causing trouble, reading, writing, causing more trouble, caring for my mouse (RIP Chibi!), building worlds in my head, listening to music for hours on end, avoiding my family, playing on my DS light, watching SciFi and USA thrillers, Skiing, Skating, Bikeriding, Going to School, Studying foreign languages and the paranormal.

Likes: Sugar, candy, reviews, sweets, anime, manga, television, music, my pet Hamster named Odie, skating, and computers and technology.

Dislikes: Family, people thinking they know me, people who lie to me, not having enough money to buy every last piece of Petshop of Horrors merchandise ever made, and not having internet connection.

Currently obsessing over: Dir En Grey, Souma X Agni (Kuroshitsuji), Lin X Mai (Ghost Hunt.)

RIP Butters. I loved you.

Bio: I'm a theistic satanist. My sympathy lies with the devil, who to my belief is the root of all knowledge. Without knowlege, humans are but dolls to serve. When I realized this at the age of thirteen I converted from liberal Christianity. My religious choice is wholly personal and no one can change it. People may say that it's wrong, or that I'm just 'being rebellious', but I take my religion seriously and actually put faith in it.

I constantly have revelations about myself. About a month ago I shocked myself to the core when I realized that I like to be alone. I was so focused on making friends at school (which is going great, thanks for not asking) that the thought never occurred to me that maybe I don't actually need many at all. It's interesting how it was always projected on me to make as many friends as possible, and I got so caught up in doing this that I didn't realize that I wanted something different for myself.

Also until this year I don't think I fully understood the depth of my own cynicism. I've always been the person to dissect things with morbid logic, however, it was only when I really thought about it that I noticed that I don't believe in love and have a tendency to be cruel and very cold, although I usually mask it by smiling and saying nothing.

I fear being a hypocrite, so I'm trying to be more open and not hide things. Sometimes that makes me a bitch though. It's unfortunate but I don't want to live a false life. I embrace my true nature and whether you do or not is wholly up to you.

I strive to better myself in everything. I have allowed myself to be manipulated and abused for too long. My friends are good people, but a lot of them have hurt me badly and never apologized or even acknowledged what they've done. I give things away too easily and I listen to other people too much. I think the only way I know what I'm doing right is if at the end of a day, I don't have the sensation of a large hole right in the center of my chest. I always feel that when I'm in emotional pain. I know occasionally I lash out, and if I do I apologize to you. It's not that I want to screw everything over; I just have to get things out sometimes.

Quotes:

I wish I cared - Me, in total apathy to my current horrible situation.

I'd sell my soul, my self esteem one dollar at a time, for one kiss one taste of you my Black Madonna - 'Magdelena' By A Perfect Circle.

"Nobody can kill me, NOBODY!!" Mariko, From Elfen Lied.

"No, I am sane. No, I did go insane." 'Jerry' from Ghost in Shell.

I'd give my heart, I'd give my soul, I turn it back; It's my fault. Your destiny is forlorn, have to live till it's undone - 'Jillian' by Within Temptation.

"I cannot understand it. The love between two people..." Count D from Petshop of Horrors.

"For God's sake woman, can't you control your hormones for five minutes!?" 'Grandpa' from YuGiOh Abridged: The movie.

I think, therefore you are - Ergo Proxy from Ergo Proxy

"Are you trying to tell me that there actually IS a God!?" Masami Eiri (Better known as God) from Serial Experiment Lain.

"I thought about it and decided to take back my promise." Shion from Higurashi No Naku Koro Ni.

"Excuse me, Who are you?" MimaRin from Pefect Blue.

You can never be strong enough, You can never be good enough, you were never conceived in love, you will not rise above - 'Lies' Evanescence.

"Just three more days, give or take." Jeepers Creepers 2.

"Look at me, I'm burning." Alessa - Silent Hill.

"Teeth, nailing, their own tongues anger rising up in torn lungs." 'Infect' by Angelspit.

"I am afraid." Raven, From Teen Titans.

"Money can't fix a broken heart." - Let's Go To Prison

"If a horse can be named by His Majesty, then I wish to become a horse." Gunter - Kyou Kara Maoh.

The thing I treasure Most in life, cannot be taken away. There will never be a reason why I will surrender to your advice to change myself I'd rather die, though they will not understand. I won't make the greatest sacrifice; You can't predict where the outcome lies, you'll never take me alive. (I'm alive.) - 'I'm Alive' by Disturbed.

There's a fine line between Love and Hate - 'Diary Of Jane' by Breaking Benjamin.

"For the last time: Doug, get off the juice." - Doctor from 50 first dates.

"Gwendal! Your forehead has... one, two, three more wrinkles than usual! That's a bad omen!"
"I can't deal with this." - Gunter and Gwendal, from Kyou Kara Maoh.

"Well, he would have recovered if the food here weren't a step up from Rikers Island." - Dr. Gregory House, House

"I love these little cliques. They're like the mafia... Nobody knows nothin'." Det. Benson, Law And Order, SVU

IRL quotes of me and mai peeps:

"The power of Christ compels you, Bitch" - Collins.

"Hey, Mom. Guess what? I slept with three girls on the ride home. AT THE SAME TIME." - Reese (He didn't actually sleep with three girls. He fell asleep on one of them who feel asleep on another one of them who fell asleep on the last girl in line. Like human dominoes.)

"You know, I think the reason he left her might be because he was sleeping with a few of her cousins. Yeah, that might be it." - McAllison

"Can I sharpen your pencil? I need an excuse to get closer to the window. My cell's not getting any reception in this area." - Shaverer (In the middle of class, of course.)

"I either have bad listening skills or I can't tell time. Then again, it could be both." - Dwarve.

"And your children will be my children, and my children will be Fred." - Katchan.

"We'll call this character BJ." - Miss Coal.

"Janet." (Girl stirs in her sleep.) "Janet, wake up! It's the middle of social studies!" - McAllison

"This whole class is devoted to the lame hick state of West Virginia." (Utter despair fills his voice; his face becomes the mask of sadness). "Which we live in." - Shorty

"Mrs. Conch, can I go call my Mom? She owes me a new iPod because she sent mine through the wash, and I wanna tell her which color I want." - Blondie

"It must be a cold day in... Somewhere, Cause Gouge is kicking all of your butts." - McAllison

(In response to me calling her a pedophile.) "Yeah, well, my character in this story does her older Brother! Oh, wait, crap, that doesn't sound better, does it?" KatChan.

"I don't think the carbon monoxide is doing wonders for my brain right now." Katchan.

"If I went to prison, I'd be the top bitch!" M&M

Boss: What are you doing, throwing away perfectly good Dip N' Dots like that?
Employee: Someone ate out of it.
Boss: You pick that back out of the trashcan! It's still good! We can still sell it!
(They did resell it.)

"I could teach this class all day. It's like watching blind people trip in the dark." - Assistant teacher 1.

(Note: The girl referred to here was wearing a really soft white sweater.)
"I look like a ghost." Sandri
"You can't be a ghost, Sandri! You're too soft!" Me (While stroking her sleeve.)

"You shouldn't be smelling that stuff!" - Sassy, talking about me inhaling nail polish remover.
"But it clears my nostrils!" - Me (I had a bad cold at the time and I was a little high of off Mucinex and aforementioned polish remover.)
"Yeah, and alcohol makes you feel good, but that doesn't mean you should drink it," Sassy replied.

"Gum goes like crack in this school." - Randy, after he'd been asked for gum roughly eight times.

(Note: The following quote takes place while me and the girl speaking are finishing a casual assignment in the computer lab. She was whispering VERY LOUDLY to me.)
"Not to be offensive to homosexuals, but this computer is REALLY, REALLY GAY." - Kalia.

"Well, god knows if you're gay you're going to try to rape the guy you're shooting." - Nana (sarcastically), while we were discussing the stupidity of refusing to allow homosexuals to join the army.

"If Jesus were a pizza, would be be this pizza?" Me, to M&M.

"I'm sorry, I accidentally spilled my heroin in your drink." - M&M, to me.

"This cookie is better then sex!" - Stella.

"Yeah, the teacher's aide in my class started to talking to his close friend about how sexy the guy's little sister was. So one of the girls asked him how old she was, probably wondering if she knew this girl, and the guy goes, 'she's in the sixth grade. She's starting to get breasts now, too. They're very attractive. Is there something wrong with that, or am I just blowing the whole thing out of proportion?" - Me.
"There's... something wrong with that." - Kat, looking shocked.

Pairings:

Trigun:

KnivesXLegato

VashXMeryl

VashXWolfwood

Petshop Of Horrors

DXLeon

ChrisXTet-chan

Wolf's Rain

ToboeXTsume

KibaXHige

KibaXCheza

HigeXBlue

Fruits Basket

AyameXHatori

AyameXRitsu

YukiXAkito

KyoXShigure

YukiXKyo

TohruXKagura

MomijiXHaru

Hellsing

AlucardXIntegra

IntergraXSeras

Fics:

Drowning in you (Full!)

Ch.1: Aquarius: http:///fanfic/view_ch.php/141106/487439/

Ch.2: By The Way: http:///fanfic/view_ch.php/141106/487776/

Ch.3: Iris: http:///fanfic/view_ch.php/141106/502039/

Note:

It's almost time for the holidays! To me, there is nothing more depressing. I'm a little out of it right now with a head cold and deep, deep embitterment towards humankind, so try and keep that in mind before rubbing me the wrong way.