And I’ve begun my misery

I celebrate my death annually

And with no control

I watch my grave grow deeper

(What is wrong with me...)

And while walking towards it

I trip and fall

I sit awake to prevent from falling

And while lying awake I see a door being shut

I begin to suffocate as I gasp for breath

And as I look over my lifeless body

I think to myself

Is this how it ends?

A life composed of misery, a life that trapped me

(The life that killed me)

Song: The Birth of Catastrophe By: With Broken Wings

I'm your average teenage girl with an attitude problem. I like to flip people off when we're driving down the highway, make scary faces at small children, and pants people in public. I tend to be sarcastic and bitter, and I sometimes wish that the whole world would suddenly explode in one great burning mass of rubble, just to get rid of the idiots and closed-minded people of the world.

Okay, since I know all of you are begging to know how I look, here it is:

Age: 15

Height: 5'1 1/2 (so sue me, my mom was 4'11, I'm TALL)

Weight: Psssh, like I'd tell you that

Hair: Shoulder length, semi-frizzy if I don't dry it, blonde

Eyes: big and brown

Skin: TAN! Wahoo, I'm the only person in my family who gets tan!

My Dirty Little Secrets: My toenails grow way too fast to be normal, I usually fart in hottubs because there are allready bubbles, I never kissed a guy, I love my new deodorant, I hate to shave my legs above my knee, I can't have any spots on my shirts.

The Truth Of The Matter Is: I probably hate you, your friends, and your dog, I'm a Harry Potter freak, andI dress in boy's baggy basketball shorts and wifebeater undershirt tops. I think the guy who plays Cyclops in the movies is hot, I wear a size 9 shoe, and I don't do make-up.

Things that Annoy Me: You, you're dry personality, my ex-boyfriend, stupid mistakes, clowns, pink, and Dairy Queen, Happy Harry, Stupid Naive Harry, Snape/Harry relationships, my feet, my sister, rap, crunches, flavored water, and sunrise.

Things That I like: My friends, my dog, Harry Potter, sexy British accents, heavy-metal screamo music, black nail polish, the smell of stuff burning when I light it on fire, flipping people off, blowing stuff up, punching people, cracking my knuckles, freaking people out, playing pranks, sad endings to movies, tide-to-go pens, and poking my bruises.

Quotes:

Love is a snowmobile racing across the tundra and then suddenly it flips over, pinning you underneath. At night, the ice weasels come.

Sanity is the trademark of a weak mind

You could fit my capacity for happiness in a matchbox without taking out the matches first

An optimist is someone who thinks all is good
A pessimist is someone who laughs at an optimist.
So I'm a pessimist ... Sue me, like I care

Happiness is merely the repression of reality, an escape into a fantasy hiding that what we try to avoid, pain, misery, and insecurity

Life is like an onion: you peel off layer after layer, then you find there is nothing in it

Anything worth fighting for is worth fighting dirty for

I hate people. People make me pro-nuclear

"Home isn't where the heart is, home is a place you go where they have to let you in"

Good friends will help you move. REALLY good friends will help you move bodies

Some people are alive only because it's illegal to kill them

Every piece of paper has two good sides... Unless you use magic marker then you're fucked

It takes 42 muscles to frown and only four to extend my middle finger and tell you to bite me :) Me all the way bitch! :)

Guys are like slinkies it’s always fun to watch them fall down the stairs

He broke my heart, so I broke his jaw

I ran into my ex the other day... Put in reverse, AND HIT HIM AGAIN

Even if the voices are not real, they have some good ideas

Don't think of it as losing, think of it as getting beat by a girl

Fact: If you ever hurt me...you get it back 10 times worse...

I like to tell people I have the heart of a small boy. Then I say it's in a jar on my desk

A man talks dirty to a women and its sexual harassment. A women talks dirty to a man and its $3.95 a min.

Never reflect on your life, it will just depress you

A good friend will bail you out of jail, but a best friend will be in the next cell saying "that was fucking awesome"

Stories Now in the Works

The Blind Seer: Bonds Stronger than Blood

Disc: It is not favorable in the Wizarding community to have a disabled child, mentally or physically, young Harry Potter finds that very true in his case. He was blinded when Voldemort attacked, his brother Eric defeated Voldemort, and became The-Boy-Who-Lived. Harry was abandoned at the age of five at Cambridge Hall, a facility for mentally or physically handicapped children. Now he finds that the bonds he is making in his new life at CH are unbreakable. Stronger than blood. Luna Lovegood, Hermione Granger, Neville Longbottom, all his real family, all closer than his blood relatives. Watch as theythey learn, live, and love, breaking all the rules along the way. When the time comes, the Wizarding World will see the truth.

Updates

July 27, 2006 Well, I've made it this far into the summer without getting arrested, hit by a bus, or getting attacked by an old lady with a cane. A new record for me. I'm still alive. I just posted my first chapter of the first story in my saga. It amuses me greatly. Hopefully the reviews will reflect my rare optimism.

July 28, 2006 I'm supprised at the response I got about my story, personally, I though people would tell me it sucked, I got a huge suprise at how openly it was accepted. I even got compliments! Wahoo, I'm not a total loser. I'm updating very frequently. The second chapter of The Blind Seer: Bonds Stronger than Blood is up!

July 29, 2006 I updated again! I told myself that I would wait at least two days! I'm just a sucker for all those sweet reviews. I got even more compliments! Now, there is chapter three posted in Blind Seer: Bonds Stronger than Blood. I'll just sit here and bask in my unatural happiness,I actually think I smiled, look out world!

July 30, 2006 I updated once more, I'm going to have to slow down my pace, I'm not getting enough sleep, I'm just spending all my time writing, and even though I love it, my eyes are getting dry from stairing at the computer screen for so long and I'm having trouble getting my stupid contacts out! Well I got a huge ammount of reviews for chapter three, and I think chapter four will have a good ammount as well. Thanks to Falcon-Rider, I now know that 1,221 people have read my story, 16 have reviewed, my story is in8 C2's, and I have 30 people who put me on their author alerts. My story is 14773 words long! Holy poop on a stick! When did that happen? Anyway, I'm off to go to sleep, goodnight even though it's only three in the afternoon!

August 1, 2006 I updated once again with chapter 5 of The Blind Seer: Bonds Stronger than Blood. I've gotten a huge response about this story, and I can't wait to hear what everyone has to say about my newly posted chapter. I should have chapter seven written soon, everyone is being so supportive, how couldn't I?

August 24, 2006 Holy crap,it took me long enough to update, didn't it? I just posted the 6th chapter of The Blind Seer: Bonds Stronger than Blood. My foot operation went well, though the metal pin in my foot is rather irritating. Hmmm, nothing else new. I got a whole bunch of great reviews for my 5th chapter, I hope I get some more for the 6th.